fotopages updated!

new fotos from last night, enjoy, see my fotopages!

phew.....wat a day....

work in the morning, work at night....meet the guys at alif n laugh all night...
ceh rhyme seh....hehehe

after work adil was kind enough to fetch me from esplanade, cos i never rode to work in the evening as it was raining. he was bored, so he fetched me....yati n shareil were there too...snapped a couple of fotos before heading to alif, had a meal n snap fotos again....anyway shareil met with a minor accident, broke his kick starte but he's fine.

was fun at alif, laughed alot....and i reali hope i can go bangkok cos i can foresee the fun ill be missing out......sigh....money pls come in leh...hehehehe...will work very hard for the next few weeks...

nuthin much other than that...tumoro training starts early at 930am, i hope it doesnt rain cos i intend to ride......:)...hope so.....gnite peeps....

the era of ridiculous behaviours

i woke up after my short rest....only to be pissed off by a so not understanding human being. a demand for help, blurred from my sleep, i dont even know wats happening.. in the morning, i was the invigilator for 3 papers, my hp was off, followed by prayers which i never realise to switch on, n i havent check if theres any smses....i woke up, switch on the computer, to check my schedule for tumoro, only to recieve a rude shock, me not wanting to offer help? wtf sia.....i mean like i rode all over to joo chiat, to town, send u back before u left kl n stuff n dont tell me i cant take anything so nearby my place...isnt that abit ridiculous to believe???????? use ur common sense la.. puhleese ok....all of the sudden wanna get worked up...i merely said im working, so wat time?...if the time is convienient for me then fine la ill do it...if not it has to wait....so ridiculous sak....i mean wat did i do to deserve this?....

ha...its gone

ha.....my splash page would not appear, wat do u expect from a free web host. id find another host....

todays training was a breeze, completed within an hour or so....then there were chicken wings....n pies...hmmm.....ges wat n we are still paid 3hours pay....yeahooo.....was a little too early to go home, so i wandered around, citylink, raffles place(saw ina working there..) then a stroll from there, to chimes, art museum, then finally stopped at ymca to take 106 back home...walking at night is wonderful, u dont sweat much n u get to enjoy all the beautiful things....too bad i didnt bring my camera along.....if tumoro rains again, ill bring along my camera n have a short walk before heading home to take photographs.....

when i saw my friend working as a waitress....i said to myself im more fortunate, i have a better job though on freelance basis, both the relief n technician job has good pay and the jobs not that tough....(well i dunno bout the technician yet cos im still under training)....i shall not brood from today, for there is frens who are worse off than me, without a job n stuffs, or jobs that the pay doesnt equate to the amount of work....

i hope to be able to turn full time at esplanade or get a job under the engineering dept, thats my goal for now, if my job applications elsewhere still doesnt land me any job. insyaallah if my rezki lies there, then hopefully i will get.....wish me luck.

going alif now, my buddy has already sms me....on the way...adios peeps.... cya ard.

this is what im gonna do for the next few months.

this is a couple of things i would wanna do in the next few months...
1.grow my hair to that bob hairstyle like last time.
2.loose at least 5-6kg so that id be at least at my bmt standard once more.
3.earn enough to fix crashbars on caramella
4.try to make enough so that i can go to bangkok with the boys
5.try to save more so that my dream of going somewhere further than asia can become a reality
6.get that class 2.
7.start studying
8.go to the gym on a regular basis again

the next couple of stuffs are more of my wishlist
1.a career not just a job to survive.
2.convert to the engineering dept at esplanade(ive learnt they have tt dept)
3.a well deserved ogk pilot helmet
4.a new pc with demonic speed n softwares
5.an slr dg.
6.ipod plus speakers
7.a pair of new vans
8.mod mirrors for caramella
9.a px race tuned for my daily travelling to n fro work.
10.a pair of volcom pants, long sleeves & cap
11.the bag by projectshop that aisha uses.
12.a bunk bed....
13.a new 21" teevee
14.vcd player n someone to modify my ps2
15.a guitar & harmonica
16.the pink&black shoes from 88.
17.racks n more crash bars for caramella
18.last but not least a human caramella....:P

im greedy arent i?...hehehehe so much things so little time & money

foto, foto

fotos of bunchit's wedding is up....check it out at my fotopages

the training, was half boring, half interesting

well, the first day of training....okok ar....except at times i do get bored.... but i kept focus, reminding me on the 14bucks per hour pay....hehehehe....

tumoro invigalation....phew....packol sak my schedule....0700-1340hra(relief), 1400-1600hrs(rest), 1700-1800hrs(bike shop), 1900-2200hrs(esplanade) 2300-??hrs(alif)0200-0615hrs(sleep). tumoro will have the exact repetition.... whaoh exhausting...but hey it keeps me occupied.....

hahaha the training at esplanade, is where i see ppl from all walks of life...the ultimate old skool mat rock, the death metal rocker, reggae dudes, trendy wankers, mats, the nerdys, the lembiks, the cute ones, the goro(from mortal combat) look alike, the exhausted, the model wannabe....so many to state.....so much variety!

collected the firewire from aisha after work at kaki lima, sodasneh...its at haji lane, ignite records, which i believe din is invovled...

going alif, meet my boys.....have a doze of laughter before sleep...thats my remedy for my state right now....c ya ard peeps.nitey nites!

half eyed groggy

as per norm, i slep late last night 3am to be exact.....woke up late in the morning at 7am, the school called, fearing i might not turn up....theres a mistake, i tot ill be a lab tech today...but they require me to relief d&t lessons...yeay....but the bad thing ive havent had enough sleep.......theres nothing much to teach cos basically the kids have to finish machining their artifact......

i left school early, hoping to catch up with some sleep so that ill have energy for tonight at esplanade. my first day there.....sigh...i woke up just now groggy and all, like a drunkard...stumbling upon my pillows....harharhar...have to work no matter how lazy i am to leave again.....but i have to...cos it means 14x3=42bucks more for the day, making my earnings for the day 65+42=107bucks....which is a rare thingy i should grab.....if only i can earn that amount for 5 days a week, ill be smiling wide cum pay day....but i dun think so...hehehehe....cos school hols coming meaning 65buck a day job is gone for the month....sigh......need to save up this months earnings....

im still hoping the potential buyer for my parts would call me back....n i hope syami finds me a buyer for my parka....

until then dudes n dudettes...wanna grab a cuppa coffee n some food before getting ready for work.....c ya ard peeps....love ya...

wednesday means 2 more days to the weekends

wednesdays.....phew....2 more days to the weekends....for 1 week, ill be bz, day n night, day time at hillgrove, night time at the esplanade. got no choice man, this is wat ive been preaching all along...survival, the working class.....

glad ill be preoccupied with stuffs.....at least it takes my mind off to something more important....

ive been feeling weird lately, something is just not right, ive been feeling restless, wat is it? i was fine alone but when i sat at alif, i felt restless...is it cos my subconcious mind tells me to go back n catch up on sleep? or is it something else? i do not know myself...but certainly im losing control over it....i felt agitated and wanting to fidget or move about every second.

another fren is getting married in 2 weeks time, mimi...the girl whom i first knew thru the scootering scene, she was then with a scooter boy named jep...but fate has it that her match is after all pey her guitarist n lead vocals in serenaide. congrats guys...and thanks for inviting, im such an old fren that i tot u had forgotten, im so honoured to hear that my name was on the card. im sorry guys but i do not know if i can make it but ill try my best kay?....

watched bunchit's video just now, the one shareil shot.....cool....but i hate my messy hair....n my teeth....its already crooked and stained as though im a heavy coffee drinker(quite ar) or a smoker....im so self concious nowadays, why huh?.... i dun actually care but when i look at fotographs or videos i go, oh my gosh how fat i am...oh my gosh, how messy my hair was...oh my gosh my shirt doesnt match my light coloured jeans.....its something i cared less last time....oh no am i going to become metropolitan?? hahaha dont think so, my rooms still in a mess....LoL

kay guys gotta catch some sleep....nitey nites, until tumoro....to peepz out ther love ya all....vicious is kind on the inside....:)

demonically evil lyrics

being frens with 'new' mods made me realise im getting old, at 25, i have a fren as young as 15 who bought over my prized n much sought after fish tail parka. looking at them made me smile.....their desire to ride a scoot one day....and stuffs they'd wish to do when theyre older. sometimes i wonder if its a passing fad...probably....but 5 years down the road of riding the super slow machine on the road, ive seen trendy wankers come and go....the few whose still proud to ride this 8 or 10 inched wheels machines either belong to the working class now, a loner, a family man, or jus laid back, treating their machines as a lifetime reliable companion, still riding them with not even a lil bit of shame, as most of their buddies or frens zoomed past them in demonic sport bikes or cars.

life is about being true to yourself and not following the flow of many totally, its wat u wanna do and no ones stopping u. life is about having principles, your own beliefs, as frank sinatra sang..."i did my way..." its bcos each individual have their own unique way of doing things...though the similarities might still be prominent...watever am i blabbering i hope u got wat im trying to say...

2moro is the start of a new job, a profession, i hope....at esplanade i will be, my 1st day of training...earning like 33bucks thru 3 hours of training.theres 5 days of training...so means its a confirmed 33x5=165bucks....god bless....

im not sure if they need me in school tumoro but i will turn up anyways....and i hope they dont send me off...

my brain still revolves about ways of earning money.....cos i wanna settle things once and for all, no more outstanding balances.....being a private swimming instructor can earn one big bucks...30-40bucks per hour to be exact...i hope id be able to land myself there...if i do, definitely there'll be a wide smile stretching across my fleshy face.

im sorry aisha, i vent my anger on u....its the similarities that made me do so, after all i am vicious....my inner beast unleashed...making harsh realities slap back on ur face. i didnt mean to...but im under pressure...have u heard the phrase crack under pressure?...well i almost did.....

if the mats era were still around...they would say...."ar tak main ar emo2..." hehehe thats me now.....good bye the 'lembik' vicious whos so naive towards things, trusting almost complete strangers with their beautiful sweet words that places u on the most fluffiest pinkish clouds, only later using it as a weapon to turn u into a psychopath(unintentionally of course).reality is harsh but its definitely better than lies, am i right on this one?

to think that emotional songs like peterpan has such a vengence filled lyrics..." ...aku menunggu mu, menunggu mu, mati didepan ku.....kau peluk aku sebelum membunuh ku...." so ironic of the melodic sadness of the guitar solos to accompany such a demonicaly evil written lyrics...its all bcos of '...apa yng kau lakukan dibelakang ku....dibelangkangku..."jus so happen it was playing on my itunes as im typing away, it caught my mind...hehehehe musicians are genius i must say, hiding the true meanings of what they are trying to say behind melodic sounds of the instruments that makes your body/head sway to the rhythm or at least ur finger tapping the table.

until then guys, my eyes are tired....need a break from the glaring monitor...see ya ard...

3 fotos courtesy of shareil

by the way guys, u can view 3 fotos of buncit's akad nikah from last saturdae, courtesy of mr shareil....they are on my fotopages, enjoy.....im too lazy to upload it onto my host, anyway its filled up oredi...more fotos to come.....

life is pathetic...

im the borrower so what can i do when the lender asked me back for what i borrowed him. ive got no choice no matter how tight i was.....i know the camera is of no importance at this moment but it is something i enjoyed doing, its becoming like a hobby already. i mean like when im home alone and all, this is what i do, doodles n manipulate fotos..
i have to make sacrifices, or work very hard just to make sure the camera remains mine. insyaAllah i will be able to.

ive been greeted by another no show today, the potential buyer for my bulk of rare vespa spare parts never turn up. its not my rezki so no point brooding over it. wen its urs, itll be urs....thats what i believe. bunchit offered me to work with his cousin, as a property agent. i wanna give it a try, ive tried marketing before but i don't quite like it cos its like cheating ppl, this, is something different, u help ppl n u earn thru commissions, ure providing a service. who knows my rezki lies down there, insyaAllah my mom will go to mecca one day to perform the pilgrimage, thats my ultimate goal now.....others have to be put aside.

ive lost trust in certain stuffs which i shall not mention my priority now is myself, attaining my goals as ive said umpteen times before. im so very ambitious, sometimes i don't sound realistic but that is not a setback, infact its a kinda drive for me.

friends, i need u guys by my side....to entertain me, provide company and sometimes give me inspirations....seriously, some of their characteristics have provide me with inspirations and sometimes the drive to try even harder.

im thankful enough, im not in such a bad state, i have a job(though freelance), i have an income(though im rather tight) and i have ppl who loves me(mom & frens). im glad, alhamdullilah...

i hope my perserverance, my dedication, will never cease or even lag....so help me god.

to those who fooled me, you are just making a fool of yourself, not me, cos somehow god revealed the truth to me incindentally. i know u meant well but no thanks to lies, i hate liars, ive had enough.

soccer in awhile, i wanna change my nick...

i kinda like the word epidemic....seems like words that has negativity is so contagious...hahaha....i am the epedemic....nah kinda too long....

epedemic someting contagious...love is one of them right?....yeah....

so far, god has been kind to me....he revealed everything even without me asking.... sodasneh....ive been fooled once again and i learnt it from someone else....how dumb n naive can i be? well wat to do, like said many times before, the world is indeed vicious. iamvicious? i dont think so, theres so many out there whose far more vicious than i am....but hey the nick has been with me for so long that its hard to part with.

sodasneh....oh now i know....i know alot...not that i want to know, just happen to know...hehehehe...

soccer in a couple of minutes time....the boys will provide me with some laughter and exercise, thank you boys......

im stucked on the song krafty by new order....go check it out if you know where to or get the cd if u dun support piracy...hehehe but probably u can hear it free at launch by yahoo.com......

anyway to peeps out there, no need to hide any truth from me, itll soon surface... cheers!

urrrgh....

i was typing halfway jus now when the screen blinked n there my computer reseted itself....urggh...im so in need of a new comp.

anyways, i had the best sleep last night, but it was accompanied by a weird dream, i dreamt i was with a girl, but i do not know who she was. mother once told me, that dreams could be a sign that something will happen, or an exact image of wat will happen or just the devil playing around with ur mind when ure sleeping. i guess mine is the last one...hehehe cos it was rather vague n unrealistic.

today im going to meet my 'client' he will be buying some vespa parts from me, yeay! and i did say some, not 1.....

abt bangkok, part of me still want to go but part of me tells me not to, cos ive yet to settle some more stuffs.....i think ill follow the latter, ill enjoy later rather than suffer later...

today while waiting for 3pm(meet tt guy) i guess ill browse thru saturday's recruit for jobs, then followed by the library, where i have to return the books i borrowed. last night i was just telling lysda that ive got nothing to do but now i think ive got myself more or less occupied for this day...good!...if not ill be sleeping n eating at home n just b a couch potato, which is not good for the 'growing' me...LoL!

ok c ya guys ard, later aight?.....enjoy the hols....

the weddings that made u go aww........

bunchit n nisha...they look gorgeous together...they were not the only gorgeous ppl ard, the girls(ai, ina, lin, lysda, siti, yati)....they too were gorgeous, cos ive never seen them in baju in real person before, in fact they look better donning the traditional costumes rather than in mordern clothings.......i got to take fotos with them but too bad i cant post it now, cos someone left the firewire at work....meaning
i cant transfer the fotos yet.....

khairul's place~his younger brother's n elder sister's wedding....it was very grand... u can see the void deck beautifully done up and all, and the kendarat don this black n white kebaya that make them so sweet looking...the theme seemed to be sort of the javanese side. the groom(his sister's husband) came in style, with the kuda kepang in front and 2 barongan like characters whom later performed the silat....id like to have that for my wedding except i know nuts about silat...his place was overcrowded with relatives n frens n the berkat was unique a vintage foldable cloth fan....the farnie thing is, all of them got the smaller version while i got the large one...but later on i gave it away to lin, knowing i wont be using it....:)

nisha's place were crowded with guests too, n some didnt even have a seat, they have to wait to get a place jus like a hawker center. in a wedding, the more guests there are, the more lively the wedding is and the more happier the host would be...wink*..hehehe...bunchit's place were crowded too n we had to wait to get to take a foto with the couple...probably thats why i took so little fotos, we never stood a chance.

the cameraman, was es, my company mate at 5sir, finally i acknowledge him, then he said, he's been thinking since yesterday as who i were until i came to him then he remembered, he had this nice camera, more to the professional side and i think i want one too...he said he's doing it part time..i wanna do that too, only thing i need sponsors for the equipments, any kind soul out there?

i must say this, the food at the 3 places were good, cos ive been to a wedding before where the food was satisfactory...but this time round, they were good.

i hope ill get the firewire soon, so i can show ur peeps, the fotos....until then, im exhausted, i wanna bam!....:P

today is my kind of holidaeee....

its may day....or for us, hardcore scooterists, its more known as mods may day....we are the working class....we are really after all, we are not kids....we work to live, to survive and to enjoy the finer(for us) things in life......like our mirror finish waxed vespas or lambrettas, our shiny leather shoes or desert boots, our crisp shirt and of course last but not least the parka....all these of course started from UK, where the kids who call themselves modernist dress in such a way.....but in singapore, i dun think it is practical for some of the stuffs that they are wearing...especially the sought after fish tail parka....its so humid down here, u'll only end up dehydrated or heat-exhausted donning it. watever it is, its like a culture, a lifestyle...its the attitude, the kind of person u are...and not certainly fashion which many kids tot it is.

me, i dun consider myself a mod but there are some similarities, for example, im a hardcore scooterist, i am sorta rebellious at times, i retaliate, i work to survive, i protest at times and i do fight back for my rights. watever it is though the glory boys have left scootering, some just uplay(meaning jus park the scoot at their home for memories)their scooters, some rides a bigger super bike or huge harleys, some drives those big canistered fully modded cars but me, i think scootering for me will last a lifetime. its where i get around with and at my present state, i dun think financially i can afford any other. even when im able, i will get either a morris, mynah or a vw and i will still keep my vespa and ride it once in awhile. its the memories, its how it served me, though slow but reliable at most times and the pride that it has given me. thru hardship, i rode it rusted, cash comes in, i ride it shiny. a scooter is part of my life, it follows the developements of my life.

i believe mayday holiday is for well deserved ppl like me only, whom slog for hours just to see the money disappear before ur eyes...in sg, everything needs money, so if u dun land urself a good job, this is wat happens....u only earn to make ends meet. for me, im only a freelancer, thats why. but one day, im sure gonna land myself a career, followed by a business which ive always dreamt of, my company, named after me... ive always dreamt of cutting the ribbon at the opening ceremony of my company.i dun deny that one day i wanna be up there, earning big bucks, while my work is only to direct, meet ppl, make decisions and sign contracts and agreements.thats my dream, the big boss of a company.

enough of my enormous dreams already, im gonna get my camera, dress my best today and off to bunchit's wedding....he has done one of islam's 'sunnah'...getting married, start a family...alhamdullilah.....and it calls for a celebration...thats when the wedding ceremony comes in, based on 'adat', thats where the couple is being 'displayed' to everybody, to tell them that they are married, to let people know, thats the purpose i believe.congrats bunchit.....2 of my close frens has already tied the knot, i can forsee more coming, probably shareil is next once insyahallah he gets a good job and then followed by mankey(i know deep inside wen he loves, he loves cos once he got engaged and almost married) and then probably adil(as i see his love blossomed with kakak). it worries me when it approaches closer to me, cos im not ready financially.....:P well, watever it is let fate & nature takes its course...until then....c ya ppl...gotta iron my shirt....

i witness a fren getting solemnized

it was a cool experience....cos rarely i get to witness the 'akad nikah' ceremony cos usually the closer relatives would pack the whole flat....but just now we managed to squeeze n witness ashri aka bunchit going thru it.....he did once in a single breath..
bunchit is now a husband...n nisha, his wife....it also made me wonder, when will it be my turn...hehehe...

tumoro will be going down again...this time im going to snap fotos.....cos jus now i didnt have my camera......yeay....ill be trigger happy tumoro....im so happy for bunchit....this year he's my 2nd fren who got married...the first was shukor....

gnite frens, bloated n so tired n sleepy...nitey nites....