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before i sleep i hope u guys pray for me tt i land myself some freelance job, not for the sake of money but for the sake of building up a portfolio and as a stepping stone to something else hopefully.....

blood ties

its been years since i met my father whose now residing in Solo Indonesia. Just now we met in Larkin my uncle's place. i havent met my relatives n cousins over there too. they all grown up, jufri n mas. i met my step-mom too n my step sister ulan. tt was the first time i met my sister, the other one had to work she didnt come down to malaysia. the reason my father was in malaysia cos he had a project in KL.

i also went to my other uncle's place in danga bay. cool.....i like his place, i like his vbb n his storm(a huge jeep, imagine hummer) coolness......he's retired and now he's working as an officer at the boy's home. i wanna be like him when i retire, he have a house in sg, danga bay and kl, he have a toyota, a storm, a vespa vbb and a px200. he told me, in life you must have an aim, a direction and you must plan your retirement, like him....hehehe sure id heed his advice.

my stepmom, i didnt talk much to ibu yanti cos i wasnt reely comfortable but at least i do talk to her a little, im beginning to accept her. my step sister is studying telecommunication in indonesia at some college, she's tall, quiet and shy.... my uncles n aunties are visiting them in solo come december, i dunno if i want to tag cos first of all, i only have 2 days leave and secondly, i got debts to clear.

suddenly, the trip just now made me wanna be close to my family again....

definitely, i will visit my uncle again both uncles one in larkin n the other in danga bay and definitely one day id love to visit my family in solo. insyahAllah. and i am glad my father is doing well now, being sent by his indonesian company to all over indonesia and malaysia to service and repair printing machines. Alhamdullilah but i just hope he follow the path n not stray away and only think of duniawi. i'll pray for him, insyahAllah......gnite peepz

monotonous fool stops.

torn.suck.job.suck.tumoro.work.job.suck.trying.make.best.of.job.but.still.suck.money.
revolves.world.job.suck.need.money.but.job.suck.choice.none.choice.tough.luck.tough.mtv
silent.waiting.calls.calls.calls.offer.wen.wen.wen.nites.....

nursing

i just tot of taking up wda's career switch thingy in nursing.....for 2 years, id leave a qualified nurse. but i have to survive on 900 for 2 years. but, jan 06 registration is closed, next is july intake in february. its both good and bad. good, while waiting i might get a good job and need not take up nursing after all, bad, if i dun get a job, means ill be stuck in ntuc till june at least.

benefits

2XFCL.....family c?? leave. means i can take off on my birthday or one of my family members' birthday. 2days per year, paid off! yeayness......Examination leave, i am granted 1/2 a day leave on the days i have a paper....cool right? and i get paid full day.... the benefits of my sucky job....im planning my trip to the dentist, does anyone knows how much itll cost to polish? anyway i get $140 reimbursement on my dental visits.yeayness..

being realistic and.....

understanding....im bored but its the weekends, probably everyone has plans....so i kept quiet, anyways, im not feeling that well, the flu bug struck me AND i have to work later on a SUNDAY. anyway, yani smsed me late last night...sori girl, was asleep liao.

today weak as fatigue took my strength away and the flu bug irritates me with constant sneezing and my nose is behaving as though its a leaking pipe. i have to work in a few hours and with all these, i suddenly start thinking realisticly.....dreaming about mtv is almost not realistic bcos i dun have any experience or design qualifications even though Garcia Tirso offered me freelance if theres a project. My mind was going for the apprentice aircraft technician thingy at SIA Engineering. i hope i land myself an interview and i hope i score....i just realised too, that ryzan, from the gilera gang, is infact an aircraft tech and if he could afford a G5, obviously his pay is pretty huge right now, probably with OTs and watever allowances. I think that goal is more realistic.

why am i still not satisfied with my current pay or job? bcos, wen i settle down if i were to settle down, i do not want my wife to work, i want her to give the kids love, which i lacked off during my childhood cos mom was seperated and she had to work to bring me up. yes, i was a latch-key kid back then. i want my kids to have the full attention like my younger bro n sis is having. i want them to have someone to cultivate their dreams, educate their minds......i gotta have a larger paycheck in order to do so in SG, to be able to afford to let my wife stay home and foot all the expenses and still be able to live a comfortable life.

i gotta go guys iron me uniform...adios