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Alhamdullilah...

alhamdullilah....this is what i stumbled upon while mugging for my psychology paper......what i discovered can actually kill 3 birds with one stone....i can understand motivational theories, use the infor for my lesson plan for obesity, and loose weight and also those who reads and wants to loose weight too can benefit from this entry, insyah'Allah, after all God encourages us to share knowledge...

the hunger explained:
why do we eat? wat makes us feel hungry? the physiology explanation would be, when there is no food in the stomach, it contracts and thus gives us hunger pangs, tts where the sounds from ur tummy start to appear, u see ur stomach contracts forcing the air.

BUT tt is not the only way we can feel hungry.....insulin(a hormone which helps to break down glucose(sugar) to make energy released actually cause hunger......when glucose is broken down, theres low sugar level and thus hunger. and some food cause more insulin to be released.

so that explains why we eat again even though we our stomach is full....its bcos theres low sugar level. bcos too much insulin is produced thus more glucose is converted leading to low glucose in blood.

okok....the cause of high insulin level is carbohydrates.....carbo rich foods like sugar, white potatoes, etc...(just think sugar n starch) actually cause the body to release more insulin hormones......bcos these food are energy forming....so the food consumed are all broken down to energy.....its all converted, thus we feel hungry....but we have yet to even use the energy converted before we feel hungry again...because more carbo causes more insulin therefor excessive conversion therefore low glucose level thus overeating.....

sheesh my explaination kinda complicated but try to understand especially those who are overweight like me.... or if u refuse to comprehend, simple....go on a low carbo diet.....eat more fibre, wholegrain, etc....or even simpler, less sugar n starch.... tt will make u hungrier.....dont worry about low carbo if ure already fat....cos the fats in u are actually stored energy, u want to store it to ur death or use it? use it la....hehehehe.....cheers....

aku explain cam real, tapi aku sendiri kadang2 takleh resist sweet stuffs.....tts why im fat....tts why "sweet-toothed" ppl are mostly fat.

before i go, id like to share with u a worrying complication to being overweight/obese or overeating......bcos insulin is produced by a part of our body called pancreas it also means, it takes time to produce and like any producing bodies....ok lets switch this to a more comprehendable form.....say a factory produces product insulin.....if the factory is made to produce more and more insulin and the need to produce is ever increasing, soon the workers will be tired to work to produce more insulins......and soon enough the factory closes down because many of the workers give up or quit.....thus no insulin....

AND no insulin means diabetes, the disability to produce insulin means the inability to convert food/glucose/sugar to energy, tts why diabetics are always weak......and no insulin means less hunger, tts why diabetics loose weight cos they feel less hungry even though they need the energy and tt explains whenever a diabetic faints, the first thing u give him is raw sugar or candy which also equals to instant glucose/sugar/energy..... ok so no or less insulin, glucose/sugar not converted to energy thus it remains in blood, tt explains high sugar in blood level and also explains "sweet urine" bocs the glucose/sugar is unconverted and thus end up passing out with urine. when glucose is not converted body works extra hard to convert the fats to energy probably(my assumption) also tts why diabetics are ever tired.....and diabetes leads to complications like damaging of nerves(explains the gangrenous foot because they dont feel pain and they injure their foot, get infected and still dont feel it) tt can affect feelings, they damage little blood vessels (retinopathy, damaged blood vessels of the eyes which leads to blurred vision ending to blindness), heart-dieseases (probably bcos of overworking) and when heart fails, blood fails to reach the brain.....so stroke comes in....and if real bad comatose.....scary right? yes im scared too.....

and figures in sg, revealed that indians have the most diabetes cases followed by malays......being 2nd in rank, i hope u all watch ur diet.....cheers.....its not only about being not fat........ouh and although diabetes is mostly inherited in other words due to genes, it could happen to anyone......

high risk factors (though like i said could happen to anyone) for ur info, smokers, above 40, family history of diabetes, overweight, sedentary lifestyle.

hope my entry was useful for all my frens....:)

think about it.

"Having power and having control are two very different things -- let go of control.

Having power and having control are very different possessions.. You do not have to be the one in charge to shape the future. Do not think too small today - focusing on the person behind the steering wheel is waste of time. Today, the driver is a chauffeur. The person riding in the back seat, obscured by the tinted glass that has all the power. So let go of the wheel and go for a ride."

In conclusion, what is the use of having control but not power........and I feel too, you need control after obtaining power but power is the first to achieve. I feel the power from the above simply means, knowledge, skills, etc......well at least to my interpertation. Ouh and probably wealth and status too.......hmm i was thinking of application of the above to life, say a football team, the captain is like the driver but the real power comes from the men behind him.......in school, the driver might be the leader of a certain group but the power really comes from its members.......am i right to say that?....hehehe jus doing this for the sake of psychology.

back to life, i try not to think of what has happened, i gotta keep focus......like yah-nee said, "do ur best.." and like mdm chin ensured me "you can siddiq,..." im glad i have wonderful ppl around me.

school+stress+pressure

pls give up on me.

i dunno why i keep checking on her blog, is it bcos i care? i care why i initiate the break up? i i dont why i kept worrying if she is doing fine? love? i dunno how to define love oredi....

i need my future and im working hard at it....i wanna stay focus......kalau ada jodoh tak ke mana.

i wanna be on my own for 2years at least, i dont want if possible to have any relationship, whats more something tt isnt working. i know it sucked tt i quit.....but i dont see a point in saving something tts going nowhere. why salvage something tt is not making u happy?

im not being mean here......but pls have a wonderful life....theres many things ahead of u, ure only 21. im 27 i need to wake up from my dreaming......i need to establish something, i need to be recognised as someone as something as a living being who could take further responsibilities not a nobody who rides around on his beat up scooters having fun and not thinking about the years to come where i might need a walking stick, where my children possibly is disgusted of me already.....im thinking for the future....

my head is filled with all kinds of stuff....every kind of stuff......from the home to the outside world....theres more problems to me than u could see....ppl see, the sid in berms, relaxed on his mp3 and on his gilera zoomin ard.....bt ppl dun see beneath it. i dont want to whine, cos im dont anymore......im trying to be strong here but at the same time unselfish. im setting u free cos the relationship isnt happening anyway......like i said many many times, why have a relationship for the sake of having one.....

im already feeling down for not doing so well, and i need to ace my presentations and individual assignments to do well or pull through.....theres already alot of pressure on me....im 27 and i still not really supporting the family....although i do contribute but i feel it is insufficient....probably it only pays for the electricity and the water i use....wat bout the rest? im not being very responsible already as a son there........i still have many things to achieve.....

what i said before was genuine.....but i never think of the consequences if it never work.....like now....i only thought for then, not the future....i learned, i decide to think ahead not only the present.......see this, if we cant be happy even now, what makes u think we could in the future? i know 6 months is too soon to tell but do u want to go on with further heartaches? u even felt i was mean, with what i tot, felt was normal, was a joke.....i know we love each other back then, cos i knew it was genuine but going in further made us discover we were some sort of mismatched.......

i know u want to try again....but i can foresee its not happening.....its not tt i dont think of u.......i just dont want to hurt u further......leave me nani.....you're still young, theres plenty of others around.....you still got a long way to go....call me what u will, selfish, mean, watever but bear this in mind, my decision was not only for myself.....its for the better of both.

those who reading this, if u wanna label me watever u want too, up to u.....but ive stated my reasons and i feel im doing the right thing and i will not go back....

like ive decided for nursing, ive decided for it, i will not go back.....cos i know its the best for me.....

gd & bad

gd news, the polyclinic i appointed to for 5 day attachment is the one at bt batok.

bad news, i flunked the theory test marginally, good news is my lecturer says i can pull thru with my projects and presentation. theres one more presentation & individual project, so i guess im pretty safe provided i put maximum effort in it. at first when she told i didnt make it i was devastated but when i saw more devastated faces, im glad im not the only one and the top student actually only got a B......so proven the paper wasnt easy......all im hoping is for a measly D....i dun care for a C anymore even though i could get it, bt of course i aim for a C or B which is still possible, if i get at least a pass for my project works....

so, ill be missing for at least 3wks to come......then ill be having fun after tt...yeay....hehehe im staying optimistic.....

malu malu

malu sia, yest i tot my test was at 4pm but it was actually at 3pm......lucky nuff a fren called me....and yet i tot she was joking i said bedek ar...until she passed the fone to my lecturer......"siddiq! where are u? u better come down now!" hahaha i was at the library doing last minute revisions.......so ended up i was 10minutes late for the paper.....but anyways i completed it before the time ends.....its a fairly average paper....the mcqs were easy the saq hmm....not sure if i got it right.........but i estimate i can get at least B overall, unless i overestimate or underestimate myself i could easily get a C or an A.....so wish me luck yeah? but im happy nuff if i get a B overall for my clinical skills.......

i wasnt happy with my presentation......i fumbled....damn....its facts....the presentation was about asthma....and i had to do the pharmacology part, meaning the drugs part......i just hope i get a fair great....cos i can expect the exam papers to be tough as this module is totally about diseases......

wah lau.....next and last presentation we're working on....to teach taxi drivers about diabetes. we're doing it via a skit.... and i will act out the taxi driver role.....hahaha......

still got one more individual assignment to finish.......the lesson plan for obesities among children....deadline next week... urrghh.....

and next week 2 behavioural science papers.....hmmm im still thinking to go out this saturday or to resist the temptation.... depends on todays results....if i at least get a C, i think ill go.........

schools coming to an end in about 3 weeks.....and ill be attached to a polyclinic for a week and then ttsh for 5 weeks.... hmm nervous sia......never done this before in my whole life....well i did actually but all the patients were NSmen.....anyways i think itll be fine....but i want to do well......

i think all of u are sick about me and my school.....so id better stop now......

health havent been so good recently......i just hope i get better soon.....i hate having runny nose every now and then.......

wadafuck

wadafuck wadafuck, focus man, u want to ace the module, not pass....damn u.....

still deciding, to go or not to go with the guys to the movies come saturday......another module on monday id like to ace, psychology, cant let the lecturer who praised me down......

im gonna have myself a shower after 5 sets of 20, i hope tt helps....

good news and bad news

i check the board to confirm my bio prac results, as the A was only according to me refering to what i rememberd i got wrong, i mightve got more wrong answers which i forgotten......phew on the board next to my reg number is still the letter A.

Mdm chin came in for lecture....i was expecting her to release the results of last weeks theory......sadly....she said, a couple of failures and the rest who passed also didnt have good grades, it was rather disappointing for her she said....and of course to us. and wats worse she cant release the results as yet cos susan would like to review the markings......sheesh my class mustve done badly......oh god i pray im not one of those failures please.........pretty please.....a D will do, tak cerewet ar......

im praying for the best for tumoro's theory test n presentation, as well as wednesday's release of result.....

ya Allah sesungguhnya hamba mu ini berjuang dengan usaha bukan kosong2 saja.........amin......

pray for me too guys.....manala tau doa2 korang dikabulkan.....lega skit aku....

i beg of u

theres beautiful life ahead of u, only time will tell, pls dun put so much hope on me. im hopeless, im a quitter.

hate me

yes hate me, i think its better that way......
i never went in silence i told u why......but i guess hating me is better for the both of us.
i know, im a quitter, i know i broke your heart into pieces but id rather do it in a most ethical way than keep u hanging around to what i see as beyond or little hope. i dont want u to live in a world of the unreal....we know ourselves its not working, even u said that, u mentioned it, at first i tot it was only me but then u felt the same too, tt was why i wanted it to end. cos i dont see a point if we are having a relationship for the sake of having one. its just unreal. i dunno how else to explain to u but i shant say anymore cos i dont want to hurt u further. i care for u tts why the decision, id rather not let u suffer anymore, tts why i let u go.

i know i did wrong, i know. bt what i said, i meant it at tt point of time. else i wouldnt be doing what u told me, meet ur auntie, meet ur parents, etc. i havent forgotten u, i just dont want things to get any worse, bad enough tt uve already hated me. my decision was for the best of both of us i feel.

i hope one day ull find happiness.....i really do, every time i remember, i do pray for u, hoping tt ur life will be much easier on u, ur parents, ur colleagues and all...its up to u to believe me or not.

to sum it all, if u do hate me, u got all the right but i hope one day u would look back and think why. im not a heartless person.
and if i forgotten about u totally, i wont be checking on ur blog to see how ure doing.

suck

my long weekend suck....i spent it sleeping and doing my 1000words essay at a super snail pace....damn u sid....
the haze is no real excuse.....but my nose exhudates mucous non stop.......i hate having a super sensitive nose...... and my throat so dry, is it cos of fasting or haze? watever it is, haze suck, it makes me wanna stay home.....and some how it has sleepy bugs tt came along.......tumoro school starts again, tuesday a theory test and a presentation....wah lau.......gotta whip my ass to work.....c ya.......

caveman

woooo caveman on teevee.....ringo starr...ol skool sak...i remembered i first watched it when i was in primary school...... at least theres something tts cheering me up......from the cranky mode.....

the haze suck

god i hate the haze......why must every year, some dumb ass decide to burn down the forest and causing the neighbours such discomfort, and man, its like a sequel to the 7th mth, im irritated oredi back then, and now the haze......wah lan.....