under the bridge

sid....are u dreamin? if u are, wake the fuck up before u bruise ur ego....

anyways, tumoro have to work, early....im starting to dislike my job, i wouldnt say hate cos hate is a strong word.....im trying to make things better daily, trying to adapt do my work quietly only thing the manager is freakin irritating and so is the so unhelpful staffs that is under me. this job is crap.....cos its been monopolised by a certain group of ppl and me being young doesnt really fit in cos my way of thinking is different......my ideas, my method of obtaining sales is different, old ppl are not that adventurous....

anyways ive sent that resume of mine to SIA engineering.....im still waiting for Garcia Tirso and Annie to give me a call....so now im waiting for 3 answers...one of them could be it....of course i would rather hear the good news from Garcia followed by SIA and then Annie......I hope to leave NTUC after I get my bonus but if its Garcia with the good news, Id leave immediately.

U know wat u made me smile wen u said the frog vibrated........

gnite peepz....hope theres some brilliant plans tumoro, if not id doodle on photoshop n macromedia the whole day tumoro....adios....oh i want that lucha wrestling mask.... saw some cool ones in the travelling show abt mexico just now.

the drive

its good meeting ppl with larger income and a career more stable than yours....it gives u the drive to strive further....and wats more if that someone is a female....the pressure is even much greater....is it the male ego? or is it just the will to excel, to do better? well, im not sure.....but all i know is i want a new job, one with a brighter future....i want garcia to email me or call me with a good news, i wanna hear annie tell me i got that interview at micron.......

tts my goal.....i hope to achieve it.....and i hope .....well its late...gd nite peepz

im still human

i still feel, i still get attracted, i still look.....i tot all those was dead but i realised im just human.....im still attracted to cuteness, smiles, etc...

i cant sleep, im overly excited thinking of something to do with the song solitary, so ironic...i have so many frens now.....but still i feel so alone, im creating an animation for 20dischanger's(boy's band) song solitary.......was thinking black n white, simple expressionless characters.....solitary....confinement...

i gotta force myself to sleep, so that i get more things done in the day......gnite my blog....thnks for listening to me all this while...

i did look at the stars...

and they shined for me....today, im the happiest wen i opened up my hotmail inbox. 'they' emailed me asking for permission to use my work for downloads on their website. its the coolest thing that have ever happened to me, to see my work on an MTV website pretty soon and to know that there are possibily hundreds or even thousands visitors downloading the logo.....coolness maximus. another good sign, they want to see my portfolio and currently im scrambling to come up with one. its not confirmed if they'd like my works...but if they do, my turning point will just be at my doorstep.

im so freaking excited, this year nothing wonderful has happened to me, the 2 week relationship which i tot wud be wonderful didnt work out, the teaching position which i tot i could secure a place in NIE was a disappointment and working at NTUC Fairprice though Alhamdullilah given me a steady income isnt fun and enjoyable at all, its tiring and stressful cos im not doing wat i like.

i will pursue my dreams, still, this could just be a stepping stone to my own business, im ambitious but hey, isnt it good that way?now the dreams are becoming more visible, i hope nothing goes wrong, Garcia Tirso please email me another good news.

ive gotta go, work on my portfolio.....i gotta be ready, prepared. i gotta work hard if i want something, im like others who are blessed with a wonderful easy life and need not sweat, bleed n work hard to make ends meet and to enjoy a little fine things like caramella, my expensive hobby.

look at the stars....look how they shine

taken from coldplay.....the music, enchanting...the lyrics wonderful....and me im enchanted...u, u shud know the attention i gave u, how much i love u....hehehe im talking bout caramella.....:)....

n U, u know how i begin to like u, the annoying smses daily i sent u, the weekly invitation for u to go out with me.....well, this week u turn me down but its ok cos its ramadan, understandable and yest was a little too last minute so its ok....:) loneliness has grab me by the neck and u took that off from my neck and gave me a breath of air.......i wish ud notice, that i begin to dote on u and i sincerely need u to save me from the ppl ard me whose pulling me into the ground so that im deprived of air and ultimately life.

hehehe....so full of emotion my entry but it takes someone courage to write what they really think and let ppl read about it.

life has been great, i keep myself occupied daily, self learning, reading, watching dvds, work,....i barely notice as time flies past me.....

im still hunting, for a new job....call me greedy if u will but, i want my future to be comfortable and i want to retire with an own business......for those who have been reading my blog, this is not the first time i said that..hehehe....

i know nobody said itll be easy....but i didnt know itd be this hard to reach a goal. u can dream of it, u can imagine it happening but its not there yet, daily im living my dream.....im my dreams, my mom would look at me with a wide smile upon her face.. glad she is that her son is finally there.....

im waiting for the turning point....where everything would change and ppl's perception of me change too.......for those whose always been behind me, frens who have always supported me, given me advice, given me strength, thanks a million, my doa will be for u and of course mom.....im thankful to god i have these people...

and to those who contributed to my suffering, provided me pain, and let me learn harsh reality, id like to thank you too....all those made me stronger, careful and smarter....