No matter...

No matter how many times I profess how much I love you,
No matter how I confessed how I kept thinking about you when we're apart...

All doesn't matter cos frankly I don't know how to describe this feeling that is so strong, that I never felt before.

A commitment I took, without the littlest fear, I went straight to ask for your hand. So sure I was, that what others said, others think doesn't even matter cos yes, like what you said before what matters most is what we know what's in our heart, mind and soul.

To the interferences, funny but I would like to say thanks cos at the end of the day, I long for her more each day. I can't wait for the day whereby we'd have no barriers of being together everyday, whereby external parties have no say about our relationship, whereby the ties are tied with a dead knot.

And because of you too, I realized that some things are not worth fighting and now my task is to fight for you for I will take the vow to protect thee, to make sure of your well being, to make sure you are away from harm, loved, have food to eat, have a roof over our heads while we sleep, have clothes to change and many more.

For I was prepared to take all these responsibilities, I should just ditch all the toils of fighting for the truth, pride and rights for it doesn't matter if it doesn't kill me for God knows best and you my love, you understand me most and nobody else can and I hope you will continue understanding me.

I hope we will guide each other in the journey we will embark together, I hope you will steer this vessel we will be on if I am reckless enough to go the wrong way. We have equal rights in this, we will share this path and it is only right we will have equal control like we always have.

I still remember the times when you defended me, you fight for me in a subtle way.
I still remember when you pick me up, when you console me like you are comforting a child.
I still remember when you tried to calm me down, your touch calms the savage beast within me waiting to be released to defend and fight.
I still remember that look of yours.
Continue what we had love, what we always had.

I love you, like I said, words are only words, only God knows how I feel about you, what goes through my mind, how my heart delays a beat whenever I look into your eyes, whenever I held your hand.

Thank you love for being with me and soon we'll be tied to be together forever, InsyahAllah.

Are we human?

Are we human or are we dancers?
Merely dancing along to the sounds that came from the 'speakers'.

ol skool!

no more for i speak my mind.

wrong bus home #2

this is the 2nd time i took the wrong bus home....maklumla slalu brar brur naik moto(mom likes to say that).

anyways, on top of the extra exercise i get(which i always needed) it also give me some 'me-time' and sometimes that means self reflection or time to think about what people had said to me. well, for today....i think what ain said was right, why bother what others think about? whats most important is we know ourselves whats happening and we saw, not a pair of eyes in fact 2 pairs plus a pair of specs...LoL...anyways yeah she's right, i got more things to worry about, more important things...heh :) that will probably bring us to the next entry which i will only start tomorrow! cos today i need some sleep cos tumoro morning shift and i wanna see cute yaqyn for the first time, kesian besok kene cukur rambut...hehehehe....tataaa people....

the truth is....

I'm Yours

I love you with all my life. I want to say it out to the world thru this entry. I never knew I'd be this 'mushy' before with the toughie me I try to uphold always. Life has always been a fight for me but with you around, I am much more mellow.

When I found you, I just knew it and I did not hesitate. As time passes on, through many hurdles we skipped, tears shed, laughter filled the air, almost all emotions we had with each other and still we are strong like superglue. We are just simply stitched together and I bet nobody can remove this stitch which had already grown into the flesh.

Sometimes situations shook us, test us and drive us to the ground but we pull each other up. It's either you or me, we share equal tasks of saving ourselves, nobody and really nobody can come between us. How close or how hard they tried, we both came to our senses and realized, we were made for each other.

God made me wait almost decade since I discovered love to finally find you my real love. It's well worth it and the effort I never complained.

I gotta thank God(Alla s.w.t) on top of all and the people around us who helped make it happen and the people who tried to break and create havoc as well cos in fact you guys made us stronger. All is forgiven, all is forgotten.

I wanna start 2010 afresh, no sadness, no negativity, working to a better life. Help me through this God, Help me through this love, Help me through this friends(& family).

Love to all.Peace!