cheerios

cheering oneself up is easy when u have frens and all....u know why most ppl end up with depression? its because they dont have a strong family support or frens...

speaking of which an old fren just called up if i did printing....end up chatting bout frens and all...heh....

yeayness, i now am going wireless, means i dont have to sit next to the modem, i can surf, blog almost anywhere in the house, except the toilet of course...heh....

went to help shahreil move his bed and wadrobe and all to make way for his new ones. sigh....finally they are getting married....sweet couple....

pen is back...yeayness....shes the bithchin fren since ages ago....im glad that now shes back....

hmm getting prepared for the initiation...heh....i think i will get enrolled latest next week....gotta kick start.....ill wait for results or something....then ill enrol.

hmm....im blocking myself off retail therapy...heh...so tempting when i went shopping just now....heh but i resisted good....heng....

my only wish

no more pls, no more(lies)...

and ouh i broke another promise but this time round its not my fault...ive made a promise to myself now, no more promises even if requested to do so...

wat bout urs? so i guess we're kinda even...

blog in malay

aku nak 'blog' dalam bahasa melayu yng tak pass....hehehe...

anyway, alamak terojak....haizz...rojak pon rojak la...

biasala, ngah bosan, ku menglunsur lelaman adik kawan aku, zaki...haizzz...teringing pulak ingin bermotosikal harley davidson. macam seronok gitu meronda2 keliling asia..
tapi aku mesti ingat akan matlamat aku....aku ingin dapatkan lesen kereta dan insyahAllah, impian ku untuk berkereta akan tercapai.....sementara itu cam tak dapat elak diri aku dari berangan-angan....hmm kereta mana kah akan ku beli bila ku lulus nanti? terpikir juga kereta2 yng boleh bawak hampir 7penumpang....seronokan kalau dapat bersiar ramai2....tapi minatku kereta yng kiut miut macam jazz dan swift...tapi memadangkan kesempitan kereta2 demikian, mungkin, aku kata mungkin...aku akan beli kereta yng lebih besar skit tapi yng tak mahal....aku nie bukan suka sangat kereta mewah....okok aku bohong aku suka kereta mewah tapi padaku tak praktikal langsung... aku seorang yng agak praktikal, yelah kadangkala suka juga benda2 yng berjenama, tapi hanya bila aku ada lebih....

insyahAllah.....cukup bulan nie, aku akan daftarkan nama aku ker bbdc...insyahAllah.. seblom aku mula kerja aku sudah lulus dan selepas gaji pertamaku, ingin aku beli kereta, insyaAllah kalau di izinikan...

sebagai jururawat pesakit jiwa, aku cuba mengawal perasaan aku, memanglah ada rasa kecewa, sedih dan marah semua sekali gus, tapi aku cuba berfikiran positif dan dengan rational....manalah tau ada hikmah disebalik semua ini....

kekosongan diriku aku akan isi dengan perkara2 lain dan aku rasa, aku dah cuci tangan, omputeh cakap 'give up' la....untuk aku, skarang nie aku hidup untuk masa depan aku.

engkau tidak menguasai diriku, aku berhak corak hidupku dan akulah yng berkuasa membentuk hidupku dengan izin Allah swt. Aku harap satu hari kau sedar beberapa kejam sikap kau. walaubagaimana pon, aku tak simpan dendam, tak simpan apa2, walaupon hati yng sakit ini perlu waktu untuk pulih. siddiq yng sekarang bukan yng seperti dulu, slalu marah, slalu meradang...alhamdullilah

thnks, terima kaseh

thnks frens for the outing just now...... though was tired, drained and all dunno from what but i enjoyed it....shahreil finally got his gold shirt for his wedding and i almost got that purplish pink striped shirt...ouh i bought this facial wipes, realli refreshing....but then i realised, only got 10wipes..heh....but i think ill buy again..
ended the journey with makan at cavana...omg...this is the third time im eating chick rice this week....but hey, all different....on tuesday roasted, wednesday lemon and today sambal....heh

ouh sundari's cooking was superb, except the girls oops should say boys as well cos evelyn's bf and kay's husband was there....thinks the food is a little spicy....but hey to me its nice...just right...biryani was the main one, followed by traditional indian dishes that she whipped up.....we all talked for quite sometime over school and IMH... hehe...nver really talked to the peepz before bcos most of the time all of us would be bz and once the day ends, everyone heads home...nobody hangs out...unlike wen we were younger...but hey, at least today we kinda bonded and i think kay's hubbie and evelyn's bf were ubber cool...they really can socialize....frenly ppl....

im down with headache and im drained...i think i need to rest while i dl more podcasts.
i love my frens....and i miss mom.....i think im going back bb on sat to give mom a hug and i think wen i earn enough im gonna ask mom to retire... that car license, gotta get it...gotta....xa already passed....target by next ramadhan.... so that when syawal comes, i can bring my family around....

im not going to put myself down, im strong, been thru this before, i will survive, definitely...

apa? suka2?

learn malay day....weeehoo

kau ingat aku nie apa?
u take me for what?

singapura nie kecik la...
singapore's not very big...

kalau pon aku buta, ramai yng lain tak buta...
even if im blind, many ppl around me is not...

gasak kau la...
watever la...

hush hush

it appears that everything is a hush2 thingy.....oooo secrets...i like....hehe

plans

im going to lay down my plans....gonna make a quick supper, take my pen and paper, jot down plans....for tumoro....and then in the near future, not so far la, this year only

make sure all the empty slots(off days and off duty hours) are filled with something to do, macam time-table la.....u know why, now most of my frens work shifts already not like last time, wen i can occupy my time with them....but i guess more or less i got myself occupied oredi....weeehoo...tts why my nick on msn is happy hippy.....positive thinking dude....loneliness and spare time can be used to do so many things........

and guess wat, one of my plans is to design probably graphics for my bike...and i will borrow jabrul his airbrush and if the 2 weeks of vacation permits, ill paint my bike or send in my design to the 'sticker-god' and got it pasted all over...woots....

but my worry is results coming out....errrr.....hehe....

pls dont rain tumoro, pls dun rain.....going to somerset.....concrete surfing... woots. channel all those unused energy and burn some carbs n fats...wooots.....

hehe, my fren ask me to come go sentosa play luge....but i guess ill pass cos tumoro sure got lots of bangla....hehehe...woots...enjoy the banglas those going sentosa... oops sorry dudes...that doesnt include those working...

sayonara......once someone said i could be the next jamie oliver but ive nvr cooked for a long time....but eggs, sausages or sardines still can la....gonna whip up a nice supper for myself....oishi!...

boredom

boredom sets in...

i think ill join the guys tonight if work doesnt tire me out...nothing to do anyways...could start printing but hey no tees yet....

i dunno, i dunno, i dunno.....i guess, little things interest me at the moment. and i guess im no longer interesting...

my life might be pathetic but im not...im still striving and trying...

have many dreams....sweet dreams....ive been a daydreamer since young, even was written in my report book....only thing is how i wished i dreamt of reality rather than being in stunts, a race car driver and all that when i was young...if i were to dream of being a business man or something...probably now id be somewhere....my dreams when i was in primary school was too colourful, so colourful that u cant find the right colours to paint it real...hahahah

shahreil's getting married soon and poor me cant attend his 'nikah' or solemnization. sigh, why must i be on pm shift that day....

i think, i need to buy some tees to occupy me or buy books to read, the dvds at home, i just dont feel like watching yet....and hellboy was kinda turn off...or maybe its just me, not in the right of mind.

gotta go, get ready for work....after reading these jokes my fren sent me....heh!

1st day, 1st month

the 1st day of clinical placement at my future workplace....haiya late by 5mins, the gate refused to open and i exit at the wrong exit....and the traffic lights weren't forgiving....red after red after red.......the reason i woke too early, i slept again and i got a little late and plus it was raining but nice rain, just drizzles...

the nyp ci was cool...mr buddy tan...yes thats his name....hes a nice guy, his conversation would go between mix of malay and english....my guess he is baba.... buddy used to work at imh too....and he inspires me....well...sort off....im looking forward to actually be working there....soon....next july.....

speaking of which i already had plans...but i shall not note down here...cos im afraid the plan never came to 'life' but cut things short la...i wanna drive my family around, i wanna travel during my birthday next year....ooops ive let the cat out of the bag...

anyways....things change and yes ppl definitely change...over the couple of years, i changed too.....i was jus wondering if given my current state put back in time few years back when i was in skool or something how would it turn out? hehe...anyways speaking of which i just wished things didnt change from how it were abt a month ago... i was floating back then on cloud nine....everything were so sweet, even me being happy made mommy smile...

aiyah, mebbe she's right, im too sensitive...heh....but my heartaches are they real?

anyways good news, i got my digital line activated...yippeeee....hmm gotta find a chatter box fren...hurhurhur.....

to end this entry....words will be words but how do u show ur feelings? via words or actions, so here are the words that made up the usual phrase that probably u have seen repeatedly but hey what the heck...."annie, miss u, love u......"

long sunday

okla intend to skate in the morning but it was super hot...so didnt go la and shaun didnt reply anyways....

went to bukit batok....haiz pc problem, i guess got virus...and guys becareful lor recently like got virus infestation on my bt batok pc and somehow cannot access annie's blog that day, she also cannot, shahreil also cannot...., myself also cannot...but somehow her best fren can...heheh weird but true...*wink

anyways...didnt expect to go out la...but adil said already wanted to look for berms.. so end up going out with him at 3pm to town....makan at beach road, jalan2 town... end of the day he bought a bag and helmet for work....ouh met mimi in town also...he was doing something to skateboard......so he joined us before meeting bad...haizz i miss skating...ended the day makaning at hbb before heading home....gnite peepz...

ouhk

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thats all for this entry, short, simple and sweet.