may the force be with u

apparently the much awaited star wars episode III has been released last thursday but its suprising that some of my frens are not even keen about it....i feel like im out of this world around them, ive only managed to get shareil, rashid & aisha.....i know they are working but they dont sound keen at all....gee has, the force died in them. although i admit, im no huge fan like probably rashid or adi(who has hundreds of star wars figurines) but its like a part of our lives, we grew up with it, watching it, just like superman & batman & spiderman, except star wars has greater effects and more story line to it, rather than just eliminating bad villains....its a life story of how evil actually evolved from a pure creature, a child.......well, i dunno but thats my view, i mean its like a must to see the continuation or should i say the end of the star wars thingy....watever it is, im watching tommorow and making my life complete by watching episode III.

star wars aside, 'empty' talks again at alifs....but somehow the laughters, the jokes, the smiles of their faces never fail to lighten me up....they are wonderful for being there most times...cos i wouldnt know what i would be doing if they weren't around....especially on days like this when i had nothing to do.....

sometimes i think back about my actions at canadian pizza, i know some of them are asswipes over there...but i wasnt being smart by letting them win...if i had stayed at least now i have a part-time job and my pay wouldve probably escalated to at least 6-7bucks per hour, i was the 2nd strongest man there when nazrul left. i gave in too much to my emotions...probably im no hypocrite...thats why...some ppl, my fren, can even turn his back on me just to keep himself out of the water.....sigh....

no use thinking bout old times...but sometimes u cant help it....the mistakes that uve done sometimes shouldnt have been there cos u very well knew the consequences but u did it anyway jus to satisfy yourself and you ignore the consequences....i was being dumb at times, it cost my future...but im glad, at least i have something...

the call from the HR at HMV actually gave me the boosts to try further...just keep on applying, while im still with esplanade....at the esplanade i can reap in big bucks from what i heard but once the season of shows died down, the casuals would die along....thats the bad part.....

im getting more comfortable with my room, thanks shareil for the advice, cleaning up does help, so now u know why...id rather be at home....hehehe...c ya at the show tommorow...may the force be with u.....:) oh by the way anyone wanna tag to kingdom of heaven next week?....

u dun have to make fun of me

its not funny, u dun have to make fun of the situation...thnks anyway, its u who suggested in the first place...now excuses all suddenly surface....

gee....am i dumb or smart?

i turned down an offer from HMV, cos i wanted part time....but they say the want me to work full time....i ask if there is prospect and how much is the pay, the answer doesnt make me wanna say yes...gee....did i make the wrong decision? but watever it is, the conversation has ended...so fullstop....hehehe......

in celebration of star wars episode III

hehehe my favourite theme...the imperial march...the dark side...ive always been a fan of darth vader....and my fav good guy has always been yoda.....but what i want most is that tie fighter helmet.....

i will be watching star wars this saturdae...yeay!......anyone wanna tag?...may the force be with u.....nites

deception, the games ppl play

a fren of mine got to learn, that the other half have been exchanging love notes(poems) via sms, of course its harmless enough to exchange poems if it doesnt cross over the line. suspicious over 1 sms, she checked his hp unkown to the owner...theres upmteen smses bearing the same name with poems of all sorts, in reply to what he sent she assumed...devasted, it was only normal to turn to a fren but there is nothing i could do, nothing and my words are futile, useless....ultimately its you who have to decide what to do, wat to say...i can only give views, options and advice.....sigh, its such a waste....u have someone who loves you so much and yet you betray her, took advantage of her trust, the freedom she gave you....i was just defending the male gender the other day as the increasing number of cases of female cheating on the males.....but now, sheesh gotta take back my word....u bastards out there really spoils our reputation... hahaha...hey this is no joke......i pity my fren, she was over the moon, on pink fluffy clouds, she would trade her soul for his....but in the end its all unreal to her disbelief.

cheer up to others who are in the same fate, it is not the end of the road, uve just stepped into a pothole, lift up your foot, shake off the muddy waters and continue walking, follow your path...follow ur heart...im sure god has something in store for you....good luck...:)

adidas loves vespa, me love adidas & vespa

i kept playing the video over n over again, its so fun to watch others having fun...
i wish there were such fun in sg....where all scooterists are so united, that they tag along even they do not know each other.....but right here, the 'kaum' thingy is still going on....scooterists belong to different clans.....and not all can be frens with one another....when can we demolish this barrier of ours?...isnt it fun if all scooterist unite, young or old, vintage or new....but sometimes i don't wanna mix with some of them either, probably cos of the 'frequency' difference.....

scooters aside.....i hate doing nothing, thats a fact....its making me lazy....so hurry up u hr ppl.....call me up to set up stuffs over there...so i can earn that 14buck per hour....n HRs elsewhere...get ur asses moving, read my cv n either reject or give me a call soon.....and enchik yusof...when is ur boss coming back? is the dubai job real or not in the first place?....

another hopeful day for me......i hope it won't turn out till i feel hopeless..... oh, must follow by the caption, 'impossible is nothing'...ceh bah...mcm betul je.
cheers peeps, c y ard~

lazy

im getting lazy.....and its such a shame to admit on an blog.....am i feeling what shareil was feeling?....im sick and tired but i know i have to keep going but part of the brain just keeps telling me to chill out and take a break....theres a conflict going on between the two hemispheres.....and sometimes its giving out sharp pains, what doctors would call migrane.....my body won't budge, i guess the bad brain has taken control over it.....the other half kept telling me, as though ive sinned cos im starting to slack already.....its making me feel guilty, the guilt is as if ive commited a major sin....and yet the other half just wanna sit back and chill out and listen to those mp3s while surfing aimlessly indulging in my obsession with online shopping and vespas......arrgggghhh....my systems failing....my systems failing.... may day may day........*toooooooooooooooot...................(disappears into the background)

memories....

ive just added adi, aka adi sam.....adil's n shareil's cuzzen.....
i recalled the time when i first got to know him, and i was doughboy, that was my nick in mirc....back then mirc was the only form of cheap communication via the interenet, it was cooler than the telephone cos all of us can talk at the same time in our own chat room.....

when i viewed sam's profile and pictures it just brought me back to the times....when they all got pissdrunk n nude at the chalet.....adi, jakpa and frens were the ppl who brought a new meaning to the word fun.....to still see him having the same fun till now, whoah, i am envious i must say....if only more of the boys weren't trying to grow up so fast, i think we'll still be having fun.....

jus thoughts, frens...thoughts....it seems my generation would rather grow up quick than enjoy all the fun in the world...life is short, u gotta enjoy a little dun stress the fuck up too much ok?.....cheers~

jng putus asa sid....

as future is uncertain, situations start to plunge down again, it is normal of a person to start whining and think about 'what ifs'....it is perfectly normal but what i feel is, rather than u brood over it and whine....might as well u use up that energy to do something useful or more benificial...to u of course....

me, im clearing up my room....shareil once said, a cleaner room can make u work better. i do believe in that, cos when my room is spanking clean....it makes my mind think better.....revamping my cv needs alot of effort n tots to it....and a clean room is what i need....i totally agree to rashid's comments, we are selling ourselves we are not telling truth in its purest form cos that will look bland....i hope mine works... but im still not satisfied, its still not a 'bestseller' as yet....

im tired of asking ppl to wish me luck...i guess in being succesful, luck is only a fraction of the whole thing compared to effort n determination....no use asking ppl for luck if u sit of ur fat arse waiting for jobs to land on ur pretty face....right?. everybody's the same....of course theres some luck involved... sometimes some ppl land themselves better jobs....but all in all, u cant just bum around and expect money to come in....u have to work, even if its a temporary job.

k guys gotta resume my 'spring cleaning' harharhar....

bad day

as i said....i was feverish....n a fren got screamed at cos of that...apparently, the other party wasn't aware of that...the phone rung, happy tree frens' irritating laughter kept repeating...i was irritated i just put the pillow over my head...but it kept irritating me, to the point i couldnt take it anymore...i picked up the phone n vent my anger on the caller....after the conversation ended, regret sets in as silence came in immediately after that...apologies wasnt accepted....but im sorry my fren, im sure u know who u are....

my scooter obsession definitely hasnt ended.....me browsing through sip(a famous scooter parts distributor) made me drool as how i wanted another vespa but race tuned. it seems that the obsession will never end...its both good and bad....the good thing is, its a form of drive to get me a good job so i can earn bucks and indulge in my obsession with scooters....the bad thing is, ill probably spend most of my hard earned money on my bike......this is wat happens when a scooter freak left alone in his own world....with the help of internet, it just makes him more crazy....and makes him want to buy, buy, buy and build, build, build.....probably most ppl wouldnt understand...after witnessing how my caramella failed me so many times and yet i put in effort, sweat, blood n money to keep it going strong again....its the passion, the passion that probably will fade off a little only when i get a mini or a vw mini bus.. hahaha...but thats rather ambitious of me at my present state.

im revamping my cv, with the help of rashido...thnks dude....thnks for the templates and tips...i hope ill land myself a good job soon...and you, are one of them that i will give a treat....oh im really hoping that yusof gives a call to shida....and gives us a job in the middle east......im praying hard every minute...

tumoro is the start of my 'free' days....until esplanade starts getting busy in june.
the school doesnt want my service probably cos the exams are over and they dont need me to be sleeping and earning 65bucks a day....hmm how i wish they employ me as a perm relief...n get paid monthly basis instead of daily rated.....fat hope!

my mind as usual....is like a pressure cooker waiting to explode...when i think too much, this is wat happen...im gonna try to relax...ring the guys and have my dose of ginger tea at alif's...c ya ard peepz....oh connie/ernie/deva pls call me and ask me to work...hehehe.....i need that 14buck per hour......

ive changed

i guess ive change a little....again...my greatest fear when im riding is riding in heavy rain or the wet & slippery road....but somehow last night i just left everything to god...i merely stopped to stuff my hp inside my bag....i was wet already and in my mind was, ar wtf might as well enjoy the shower.....so there i am soaking going at probably 60km/h.....blurred vision & cold.....i reached home only to realise that i once feared riding in the rain as that was the cause of my worst accident. i was amazed at myself, my present attitude.....

yest was definitely a fun night out, though caramella decides to go no more than 60km/h.... shareil, asked us along to see the 'kuda kepang' performance....it was great, i was so glued that even ina noticed.'kusyuk sak sidek...' hehe, i was like a kid, engrossed with the performer of a birthday party something like that.... i kept still whipping out my dg now and then to capture the dance...but a shame i dunno how to shoot movements and make it appear still.....anyway, it was the real stuff that we are watching, where the 'dancers' gets into a trance and do things that normal men wouldn't be able to do...like eating glass, walking on glass and getting whipped every now and then....it was real....and at times frightening....ina said probably she wants to see again nxt wk....NAK IKUT!!!

i made another vespa fren, in the morning...and oh shit i can remember his name, he was latif's fren....cool, now i got 3 vespa buddies in bb. they came to my rescue with a spark plug...thnks guys....i gave latif the fork cover that i was suppose to sell...cos i think he deserved it more than some rich brat out there...hehehe....

went to esplanade to collect my uniform n pass...the foto on my pass was horrible...i look like i just woke up from sleep...

aju changed my contact point and apparently the setting is not right as caramella refuse to go any faster than 60km/h.....sigh....

as i read my previous entry, shareil left a comment.....dude, its just a tot....sometimes ppl need time alone away from everybody for a moment..... for me i dont think so, it was just a tot, at a moment of mental jam.... the tot was sweet..
anyway, i dun think i can do without u guys, i mean u guys are like my theraphy for my sick n overworked mind.....:) rest assured, sid would not disappear and the 3 years was a fucken big mistake...i made a wrong choice.

my body's feverish....i dunno if i wanna go to mimi's wedding...but i do wanna see her in her wedding gown and all......but....im feverish...flu-ish....sigh....