the revolvah

i come to a point where i cant think of a title for my entry...so here it is the revolvah(pronounced zach de la rocha style) for the not working mind......*pow!*

back as a civilian.....god damn it feels good.....but then my hair is so fucken short i might be mistaken for a recruit but anyways it feels light except it doesnt look good and my nani says i look like a fishball now....:(...hehehehe

this reservist reminded me of the last one, no, not about the training but about the incident it was the time someone i trusted most actually lied and cheated me....it was the period of time whereby i was so worried and sad.....but hey tt is long gone and ive long dusted it away and dispose off it for good......

u know wat it feels good to know tt someone misses u too.....at least i know im not alone....i guess god has given me a replacement for my countless heartaches in the past.
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i have so many ppl tt is around me tt makes my life alot more pleasant....thanks sayang....and thanks guys.....i dunno how id deal with life if i were so alone like somewhere at the end of 2004.

yesterday wendy from hr called up......
"hello, can i speak with mohammed siddiq?"
"yes, speaking...."
"i'm wendy from imh, id like to inform u tt u have been accepted into nyp for the 2 year accelerated diploma course"
(silently)"YES! YES AH!"

but then again, i have to go thru the medical check up before i can declare myself a a nurse at imh....heheheh......im in for this job for 50%interest + 50%stability and prospects. its all about the future......

my goals to achieve, is to save enough for the glorious day and get my own home and of course start a family.....im already turning 27....and after im finally a staff nurse id be turning 29. i know its late but like abdulrani my reservist mate told me, its never too late, he was married after NS, and hes now 28 and only completed his 3 year diploma last year, it was for the sake of his future he says....somehow, the conversation with him, motivated me and tells me ive made the right choice.

well, i want to own a home of my own and probably an automobile of my choice one day.
ive got a plan lay before me, and of course as usual a back up plan...

gotta clear up my room now, i wanna meet my baby later....love her....thnks sayang for being there for me 24/7, ive never had someone who loves me as much as u do.

she is the one.....

we're back to normal....i love her soooo much....ive never loved anyone this much before....ill miss u this week im away....love u lots.....

im sorry

i was cranky the other day, just a little, so when tt taxi refused to give way, i honked the horn so long tt she pulled away my hand thus causing the bike to wobble, which instantly made me screamed at her.....i didnt mean to scream at her, i was angry at the taxi tts all.....and mebbe too earlier i scolded her for changing out meeting place as i was already at the interchange only to read her sms tt she is now at the mrt station.....i was fine later on, but i sense tt theres something wrong when she was like keeping her distance from me....and she wasnt smiling for a very long time.....i was frustated actually when she refuses to tell me wats wrong and i already apologised tt i screamed at her, it wasnt intentional.....i hope she forgives me....