explain anymore?
im sick of explaining.....my intention wasnt hurt. it wasnt going anywhere, im tired of explaining. i dun understand anymore. watever it is, i always end up the criminal, so be it......i hope everything will be fine soon and everyone forgets about everything. i hate being the criminal, though i know its for everyones good. im still single for anyone who is wondering out there, i dont bullshit, i speak the truth, if i had wanted to be with someone, i wouldnt be spending my weekends at home or with my frens, id be asking ppl out for movies and such....its cos now i cant be bothered anymore after the 4th....if theres someone, then ok, if not i cant be bothered either, my time isnt anywhere close yet, wat i wanna do is concentrate on my future rather than dwell on something that just failed over and over again......memories cant be erased that easily like files into the recycling bin but i will keep it in the dark spaces of my brain so that hopefully it wouldn't hinder any of my goals.
im turning 27 in a couple of weeks, i need to focus, i dont want to repeat any mistake ive done and i dont want to hurt myself in the process anymore...i may be a nurse but even doctors cant treat themselves......
i hate being emo, im no longer one, that has already wiped out, i think with objectives in mind not emotions anymore. sorry i might sound cruel but im thinking rationaly, if somethings not working and you've tried fixing and it hadnt work and u knew it will be going round and round like the ferris wheel, why not put it to a stop, get out of the cabin and hitch on another ride? who knows you'd enjoy the next ride, u appreciate the thrills of the wheel and you learned how it goes about but it just didnt work out fine for u, so u buy another ticket for a ride that is more suitable for u.....
im no villain, im the victim most of the time, this time round, i appear like a villain cos i just stopped the both of us from being a victim of make-believe....hope u understand.a fairy-tale wont become a reality if the reality is steering off its path.
i dun wanna...
1 mo week
1 more week.........yeeehaaa....enjoi la gua...haiz tapi tak berduit...kalau la gaji gua cam dulu pat ntuc, bih bonus time plak tu, gerenti babe, mesti ada mende baru kat moto gua ngan kat bilik gua...dan gerenti gua gi short holiday punya....
i must tell u, attachments ar, fun.....but tiring...hehehe lagi2 gua dapat sakat2 apek2 yng sakit, ada sampai bingit sak ngan gua, ada cam members...hahaha.....kecoh ar ttsh tapi gerek ar, dapat buat bnyk members, bukan apek2 jer la...nurses pon....sister pon gerek ngan gua....cam best gitu......
nari aku kene 'cilaka' ngan apek...pasal dia nak terberak bih aku gurau2 bilang dia, 'btol ke lu nak berak?' hehehe dia jawab, 'cilaka lu ingat wa main2 ka?' hehehe nasib baik dia pon joke2...kalau tak aku tinggalkan dia sorang2 kat toilet...heheh biar dia wheel balik sendirik....
weekends nie cibai betul ar.....kene buat case study....frankly eh, malas sak aku mende2 extra nie...tapi memandangkan mende2 gila bleh buat aku lebih competent.....ok la......sebenarnye kat otak nie fikirkan 2 weeks break je nak buat pe nie...
hehehe.......
hmmm kalau 3++K tu masuk, alhamdullilah, 2weeks break aku nak start amik class2 ngan enrol class3, kalau tak, sabau je la bila ada wang lebih bleh enrol....hehehe.....kla gua nak lepak....ouh sebelom tu aku nak kasi buah fikiran sikit....aku rasakan nengok seagames nie buang masa je la, pasal half of the sg competitors foreigners.....china la, indo la....haiz....buat malu je.... tak original langsung...pada aku biar kalah tapi genuine.....okla papo......
sick ride
this is one hell of a sick ride.....at 690cc, i think itll make my pillion pee in the pants....anyways i just dont like the headlight, other than that, the dual exhaust system, the phat 690cc power, the motard rims, the wicked low fork just topple the scales, this ride is wicked....take off the headlight and i guess its like as good as king of the motards....
ifs...
ok before i start off my thoughts, i love nursing and i think im destined for it. i serve a purpose and i hope i will clear this 2 year course with ease.
ok as a child, i had dreams, let me stress DREAMS, some of them were rather unrealistic for example a race-car racer back then what i knew as racing was only those f1s or rallies. IF i were so freakin rich or sponsored definitely id love to do that and i still hope one day id just have a day at the race track competing for fun maybe on a motard or my gilera.....we'll see but definitely its for fun only. i love drawing too, since young, scribbles and all but i was lazy at secondary school, so i didnt get into the arts stream at sec 3, so there goes my dreams......IF given a choice i would still pursue my interest but i know very well i have a purpose, reponsibilities and such, thus, that will only come later in life.....probably as a past time.....
i hate ppl asking me again and again like just now, why i switched to nursing.....ok in case anyone out there didnt know, there's several core reasons.....and they are, stability, assurance of a brighter a future, a much more comfortable life in the golden years, the chance to migrate if i chose to, the chance to teach if i still have the passion to teach later on...that's why. nursing provides broad and many channels for me. its a fine and decent choice i made. secondary to all that, i guess im fated and of cause, my nature....i guess it just suited me well.......i will never turn back or regret....its the best choice ive ever made in my life. the hardships, the rough and hardwork that the job demands is nothing new to me, ive faced worse, i was a labourer for several times at production factories, i think i can manage. and being bonded with imh is another blessing cos they say its a little bit more relaxed down there...hopefully ar......my only worry is the prcp, the final attachment in the final year whereby u will be assessed stringently by perceptors......the rate of passes is very low....u have to be very competent and good or you'll fail. that is my only worry. i will concentrate this 2 years, ensuring i absorp all the knowledge i require so that i dont fail. i think, if im offered an overseas assignment while im still single, id grab the opportunity....id go.....serious...
im hungry, hungry for knowledge but im tired most of the time at the end of the day, i guess ill make full use of the academic time to absorp as much knowledge as possible, cos thats the best time for it, during attachments you are simply left with little energy to spare.....
everything that has happened in the past has a blessing.....im glad.....gnite peepz...
sigh
boredom galore......dah, memang dah takda plan pas tu takpe, the new clinical instructor that replaced mdm lee gave us assignments and pre-readings to do....which means haiz....weekends pon ada homework......kiwak btol betina tu....kasi la kier chan rehat......bleh katakan eh cos nie giler babi......6bulan, 6bulan straight ada menda nak buat, walaupun at the end ada 2 weeks break, tapi lu pikir ar, tu 2 weeks pon mau prepare start of new semester per.....
tapi takpa, walaubagaimana pun, gua tetap minat.......tadi gua kena datang saturday pon tapi gua cam enjoy....the main thing is love ur job....mesti ar kadang2 stress, penat, kaki sakit la....kepala pening la....hapa-hapa lagi la....tapi kalau keje yng takda sikit pon stress, aku rasa tu bukan keje lagi....muahahaha.....even cartoonist kadang stress.......
nari gua flat.........5hari keje satu hari sakit....tinggal besok je akunye so called free time......cam nak gi suntec ar, aku dengar ada big boys toys convention...nari ker?....hmmmm...ntah eh check out lagi ar.....kalau tak nak cuci moto....dah berkeladak da...
kla aku agak, aku nak mandi, pas tu main game japs baru tido......adios......
