i dun feel like doing anything

sorri peepz dun feel like doing anything....today, tumoro n god knows when....jus wanna lie in bed and stare at the ceiling.....gnite peepz....i think my 1 week reservist will help me a little....i think i wanna tender my resignation at fp very soon...but gotta be after 3rd, wen i get my pay.

fun to me is....

i was telling my baby...fun to me is....skateboarding, scootering and anything tt i enjoy doing without pressure.....:)....

one month....

on the 10th day of may, we went out and boy, the dinner at ramen ten was wonderful... sure nuff its super spicy...both of us, eyes watery and all...but hey i was satisfied and guess wat, exactly one month ago was the time wen we first held hands, wen we first realized we did really fall for each other, wen we put aside differences and surrender our egos.....wen we open up......time flies eh?.... love ya....

gotta sleep now, reservist training tumoro...medic!...heheh...sian....

bad + good day

hmm shud i start with the good or the bad....i think ill go in the order of its occurence.....

my damn area manager tt katek tt thinks he knows it all reprimanded my staff n me for our unsatisfactory performance....firstly i feel its not fair, cos 1, short of manpower, 2. he keep coming at the times wen we finished selling most of our stocks for instance monday morning, as u know, weekends, alot of customers thus more stocks sold out......i do not want to elaborate as it only increases my blood pressure doing so. to cut it short, hes a doesnt know wats really happening so stop blabbering...and mr sng, ur way of managing is kunoh...tts not the way to cut cost....u cut down manpower doesnt mean u get greater GP. less manpower means less job done thus means store not 100% ready for shoppers, thus.....u know the chain reaction.....

ok lets go on to the good things....so my blood pressure would go down a little...

the smile on her face just make everything bad disappear....and boy was i relieved plus delighted to see tt smile on her face......to hear her giggles and laugthers just put a wide smile upon my face.....before we knew it, we were back to normal, we knew we loved each other tt much......i love u my dear and i hope we never part....

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work, was okay....as i kept in mind tt ill be leaving pretty soon but sometimes frankly, i do enjoy retail line.

my dear today had a bad day at work, i didnt do much to cheer her up, instead i made her felt guilty for things she had not actually done but she thought she did. no, u never controlled me, i was just being fair to u. i didnt made plans with my frens, i told u we'd go out today since i was out with my frens yesterday, tt was the simple explanation why i turned my frens down. i gave up trying to convince u to join in cos i now already u'd never change ur mind. the karaoke session with my bros were never planned, it just so happen, we all were eager to check out the new gilly model, tts all....and they had to bump into me....i hope both my frens and my dear understands with the decision i made.....if they dont, i guess they are not what they are after all.

i felt lousy, wen i saw tt teary eye, i knew something was wrong, i was too persistent and insensitive but then, i was dumb enough not to know wat to say or to do to calm or ease her....all i could do was smile but i couldnt find the words or things to say cos she just wouldnt open up....id rather she open up, be frank with me tt shes not ok then keep it inside and feel angry, hurt or sad on her own. now, im the guilty one not her....i guess this is the first day tt everything didnt work out, the first day after one month being together.....i guess today was never meant for us to go out.....firstly, the irritating customers at work just spoils her mood...2ndly, joane, her colleague wanted to find out whom her bf was, which is me, their supervisor......3rdly, i bump into my fren and my pestering her to join in the fun just spoils her mood further and made her felt lousy........4thly the lightings, the false alarm of a heavy downpour forces me to send her home and just stops me from ending the day with her & myself smiling.......i hate today.....if i knew today was going to turn up this bad, i would just rot at home this fateful beautiful sunday, i was awaken at this hour cos i just cant have a sound sleep....to sum it all up, i was never angry at her, i was only upset and disappointed, tts all. i just wanted her to join in the fun i usually have with my frens, the ppl i turn to when i had no one else all this while. and im never the kind of guy tt would leave u along the way to join my frens, that is just not right, furthermore, i made plans with u first and in the first place, there wasnt any plans with my frens...

at times like this, i feel im not the one for her. i hope if she feels im not it along the way be frank with me and just dump me. but if she can accept our differences, then ill be very happy.

bored

the chalet was utter boredom....shouldnt have went but fyn is our fren and being there at least put a wider smile upon her face.today i think i ate too much, im bloated...heh

speaking of which, i hope my other half wouldnt be so worried about her getting out of shape....i think she looks fine and frankly theres nothing wrong with her, i felt guilty though jokingly pointing out some of her flaws...i felt so guilty tt i feel theres a need to apologise....stop worrying my dear, i was only joking la....can?..

anyways, im tired....need to work tomorow....gnite....