who cares?

who cares...ive been bloggin i think since 2002...i dun care wat they say, im comfortable letting out here.....

anyways...im the happiest at the last few hours of 2005 & the first few hours of 2006. i want it to happen believe me.....i think this is it, id give it my best shot, im glad i did not give up a couple of days ago.....im giving all of us chances....

budget is tight, wants n needs have to be considered...theres equally of both n its fucken hard to manage this month's budget though i had some OTs last month. anyway ill manage as always without assistance....chris' fren would be of great help if he decide sooner...perhaps i should oblige a little instead of keeping firm to my 'standards' wat i wanted.

im too fucken nuts about bikes....i guess tts boys' toys after all....its like a never ending hobby....i can foresee me owning a wicked harley or a 540motard in a couple of years time.....i bet ya i will...unless of course i can afford a mini and mod it up, airbrush and cool interiors etc....then ud see a mini zoomin past the road with the iamvicious decal on its windscreen....hehehhe...

i have visions, i am not without dreams so for those fuckers who judged me earlier on, too bad...drool on i must say...i must keep my head up, keep on trying and be stubborn like capricons should be, never look back and never look down once you are on the way there....but at the same time, i gotta be humble in case i fall from the big climb itd be a fucken great fall....

two-double-O-six.... a fucken new chapter opens up, i guess im more daring and bold than ever, i think, at least..... a fist in the air is wat its gonna be, i hope id get what i want this year, seriously....im really relying on that path i lay for myself, that particular one....before the big 30 is my target to achieve most of my goals tt is...i might be late than most ppl but its better than never....the drive to be there is flaming in myself roaring, heating up to get going....

some have been looking down on me, criticising me, and always have negative vibes towards me, im no good, im a bad boy, im rowdy, im selekeh, watever but i will gain their respect, soon nuff....i know wats in your mind....i know it might be my paranoia....but then again, some is fucken true....

paranoia, its something tt i cant totally remove from me because of my bad experiences in life....ive been cheated, lied, duped, conned, name it, im a fool, i trust too easily.....i love too easily....but tts gonna change a little but then i hate the paranoia....i really do.....it might just lead to my own destruction.... im just a victim of the in-house drive by....

my choice of life for two-double-O-six.....enjoy while not forgetting my goals, life is short, too short for frowns.......frens...my closest of frens, ill choose them above anything else, they've been there for me for 2005....im pretty sure they'll be there this awesome year too...

until then, chill out, best wishes for my frens and my familia in general...good luck
and believe in god.cheers.