ive got an interview!

ive got an interview, ive got an interview!......hope i get better pay....

u know wat?

u know wat, i hate u.....u ruined my life....a year passed and i still hate wat u did.

tt definitely made me stronger.....but i wish everything could just disappear, i wish there was such thing like the one in the movie, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind or something like that...i wish it existed....cos i hate u, really...no grudges but i hate u...pheww lega skit after letting out those....thnks blogspot, u do wonders..... self-theraphy....hehehehe....

1 week, leave, 1 week leave.....yeeeeeeehaaaaaaaa.....plans n plans n plans..... hmm i feel like i wanna loan osman's 1:10 Buggy.....hmm i dun think he'll let me, tt thing cost a bomb....hmmm...whole week to ride caramella....beware pedestrian for the golden monster...hahaha....hear it roar at 50km/h hahahaha.....syed is giving me the single-seaters, thnks dude....hehehe...who needs a second seat anyway....cant wait for 2006.....2006, 26, 4 more years ill be half way thru life...aint that fast....

still havent got tt 540....or a mini or even a class 3...sheesh im way behind schedule.....shahreil was talking bout learning to play the sax....sounds interesting, since im bored of strumming away alone at home.....and not getting better at it...hehehe....my violin already been adopted by my fren...if only i had a keyboard...hehe but a sax is cool....but for now, the computer speakers are fine..
hahaha....im bored....so tis is wat i do, talk to myself....tumoro's my off day... so the boring, cant shop, hmmm library? everyday been to the library....nope i dun read books, i read mags, my regular reads at the library, transworld surf, bike, black belt and of course the daily papers....hehehe....i think the librarian is so familiar with this long haired fat boy plugged on to his music reading the same mag everyday... ehehhehe

hmm gonna surf ard, some internet window shopping...heheh vespa accessories.....

sweet one...

she was sweet, caught my eyes but beside her sat a guy whom i believe is her bf, oh wat lucky fucker he is. tt girl look so sweet, my type, would be perfect with me...hahaha but im not perfect...thats the shitty part....her smile still remains vivid in my mind, i can picture her sitting opposite of me, giving the same smile i saw just now....

hahaha.....too bad sid, u could only admire her, like many, she's taken....the few good ones are taken sid....the sluts are out there waiting...the sweet n goody ones are already booked, taken or not interested in your scruffy self....heeee....

anyway im fine on my own, tts all i know, i only get lonely at times....tts all... gnite peepz....and the one, why are u shutting urself away from me? did i do anything wrong? or did i disgust u recently?....or is it just work tts keeping u away from me? i do not know and i dare not ask.....gnite....everyone...

sigh

i stood up, yes...i did....asking me back to work for a stupid feedback meeting, i simply stood up and said...im on leave, i wont be in sg(of course i lied) its my birthday somemore......hahaha muthaf***** are u dumb or wat, give me a break ar, its the only time i take leave and the stupid meeting falls on my birthday, have u got no brains? idiot....or should i say IDIOT.

music has been my frens

ny real life human frens has been providing me with laughters and a little unwinding from the hectic lifestyle we all singaporean have.....but music relaxes me most, to n fro work.....break times, at home.....the soothing voices and at times the screaming ones....just ease me up a little.....recently ive been listening to sad songs and at times its nice to listen to bringing back memories as the lyrics bears similarities to my life.....

im brave enough to admit wat i feel and i dun think that makes me a pussy or an emotional person....im just not hiding anything here.....

i just hope 1 day there'd be someone out there...tts all....

one thing for sure, nyonyas at my workplace gotta stop play matchmaking me with the malay cashier....sometimes it does get irritating....

im thinking of ways to earn bucks so tt on my bdae i can give myself a treat, spent some of the cash oredi on a pair of jeans and the 2 large pizzas for fathi.... hmmm. thinking of temp factory job, daily paid ones, so that i can earn some bucks while on leave, cold hard cash and on the 29th i can pig out, or shop.....all i know is, i dont need anyone...cheers, getting sleepy and drowsy with ariel's voice...nighty nights....

still love my torn pair

it seems tt wen u love something, its hard not to not love it anymore...hehe watever la.. like i love my vespa....and my torn 501....came across a sale, 505 for 50-odd dollars......its 2 size bigger, i wear a 34 but i bought a 36 since no 34s were in sight n i tot 50+bucks is a steal....and i can tahan about 10 days of meals for tt pair, tried at home, like the colour n all.....but then i still love my 501 tough its torn and the 34 has actually worn out to a 36 and its loose oredi like the new one i bought....but hey 50+bucks for a levi's is a steal...and i guess its only my 3rd or 4th levis....n i still feel levis made the best jeans....ive had volcom, droors, and other loads of jeans but i wear levis till its rag-torn. see, im faithful...hehehe....watever

sigh, just as i tot, i was totally ignored...bling! an sms came in...phew(relief) and at the same time...what?!(u want?)...u know tt kinda feeling.....24hours i waited... for a simple reply....nvm its ok....not my first experience anyways....:)....nite peepz
hmmm wen i can wear my new levis...hahahaha n wat goes with it?

the silent killer

many things u can relate with the phrase 'the silent killer' it could also be a noun. in matters of the heart, the silent killer is the most painful of all.....why ignore, why deny the truth, why lie? this form of rejection is the worst kind ever. its better to be frank right? like me? im frank mebbe tts why a fren of mine told me, when im nice, im real nice but when im nasty, im horrible.....i told her, im not nasty, im frank. my names not frank but im frank....hahah lame....

anyways, im immune to hurt, umpteen times...ive been thru its ok, i can deal with it. anger is just a waste of energy so why not laugh it off? there are frens who care, ppl ard me who care.....im just picky...id rather be with....

i turned down the peterpan concert for many reasons....frankly(again) i do want to go and i could if i dun eat at work anymore like wat ive been doing i survive on a bottle of heaven and earth jasmine green tea and rejected products for the past few days... but then again, theres many factors tt still stops me from going.....1, i want to get my brother a bdae present tt is meaningful or mebbe bring him out...2, cos tt someone doesnt want to go, 3. cos i might need to borrow money in the end, 4. cos i want to finish up paying caramella, 5. cos i dun feel comfortable with ppl i dunno, 6. if all the points sums up to pull me back from telling gum, yes i wanna go book for me a tix as well...

sacrifices yet again, tis is life for me....sacrifices yet and yet again.......many might not see...the things i buy mightve blinded them from the sacrifices i made.. but i couldve sacrificed more....right? surely all of u would ask....why indulge then if u say so...the answer is, i have a life too, life is short, i already compromised i already gave in where i could so just give me some face....

another matter in life is, help.....do expect anything in return when u help? no? good, i dun too....but i dun expect to be shut out so suddenly....wat telah happen?
nevermind its ok....

today im faced with another test...of how strong n determined i am to pursue what i really want...again, ppl are nice to me....i was late for work...everyones waiting for me the keyholder to open the shutters....then the chief cashier struck a conversation which i tot was abt me being late but i misinterpreted, it was abt a cashier....then my boss' voice came from his office, siddiq....i tot i was going to be reprimanded yet again at my daring and risky attempt to achieve sales target but he offered me 2 'kuehs' instead "siddiq u makan already? eat ar this, halal one..." he made me feel guilty.....i said thank you politely, accepting the 'kuehs'. i know if i were to leave the store because of a new job i have no choice but if i were to leave without notice, id feel bad...i know the store needs me but if i have to leave, i will.....i dunno how i wanna tell them.....ive gained everyone's trust and ive actually made them think that i can work there and i can perform...and they least expect me to leave.....but im sorry, i have to, if i have better opportunities...