the youth of today

the youth of today like me and many more, those who wasnt born with a silver spoon would probably be a working class till they die....they'll never get to enjoy really to the fullest their fruits of their labour, their hard earned bucks from their sweat, blood and brains and probably never get to retire for as long as their limbs are able to move.......being mediocre is just purely not enough in SG. if ure just that like me and many of my frens and probably many youths you just earn to make ends meet and probably a little bit of luxury, like ur mp3s, ur hps,a car, or a big motorbike...this things too,(wat we called luxury) ends up eating away us....cos we have to pay for expensive petrol, road tax, parking, coe, bills and watever that can milk out our hard earned money civilizedly.

the phrase the rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer is definitely evident in the society now, as u see companies, employers alike taking advantage of us youths, giving us measely pay, i even heard a degree holder got only 1.4k....gee, i shudnt been complaining when i got 1.15K last year, cos im only a diploma holder. its getting ridiculous, i dunno wats right, wat im suppose to get and how stable my future is, that sorta thing.....i guess my parents back then dun have much worries as us nowadays, cos the rich weren't so evil last time.

taking advantage of us youths are just killing the future, as we speak, a quater of my friends already thought of relocating, though unsure and probably could not afford it, the thought & desire is there. instill a little encouragement, and given a dose of determination and probably some financial help soon you'll see us youths waving goodbye to their rich frens whose comfortable enough living down here.

probably i speak of all these because i belong to the middle or probably slightly lower incomed family and probably i wasnt born with a silver spoon.

these days, the money u earn today will only disappear probably the next to bills and many other stuffs that we have to pay for, even transport fares is taking a hike. think about it guys, if we are not rich, we never get to enjoy real life in sg, probably u'll have to skimp and save just to enjoy a tiny probably 5% of the enjoyment the rich is having and probably u'll have to end up working OTs to cover the cost of ur expenses....the cost of living is just increasing and our salaries are remaining stagnant if not lower....is it fair for us? even a movie on a weekend would make me think twice. probably those media pirates are good guys after all.

yawn.....

im feeling so lazy and irritating today...irritating is a form of enjoyment for me today and when im tired of it and theres no one else to piss off, i just wanna lie on my comfy bed n shut my eyes....but then....the weather is so warm, that i kept sweating as i lay down...hoping that my cheap fan will cool me down...sheesh here am i, up again sweating n unable to sleep...hahah...wake up sid, do some exercise, ure gaining the pounds back oredi.....and stop going to the kitchen for your own good...harharhar... im so useless....i think ill start loosing weight again wen i finally start work......cant wait for that, cos speaking of work, ive already planned a holiday in december n ive asked the december babies to join me, they agreed....but its only thoughts...see how la, if the money is there, then we'll go...!...yipidee.....wherever it will be!

great

so, ure getting engaged n pretty soon tie the knot...congrats2.....happy ure taking that path and in a way it helps me too...thnks.....:).....

-bulletin blog

-okla, magadascar was funny but still not wat i expected and true enough wat nurul said, the graphic wasnt as good as maybe shrek or nemo.....but overall its a so-so movie la but not up to my expectations, the story wasnt that good and the ending, i didnt like that...

-hehe i was shy just now, i dunno why.....so the paiseh, late some more...hehehheh...

-anyways, next in line, i wanna watch mr & mrs smith and batman....so how? anyone wanna join? hehehe....

-oh i didnt get the fish n co thingy cos the hr said she'll call today if i get shortlisted....sigh....

-im still hoping my job start only after the 17th cos on 16th & 17th i have animation workshop at nafa....and i really want to attend cos im interested in animation and wats more, its free..hehe

-caramella has been 'eating' lightbulbs, its been the 2nd lightbulb and its blown again....sheesh...something wrong with the wirings....kau dah 'sod' eh caramella? ehehhehe...

kla gtg, got my usual duel of checkers on msn....heheh...c ya peepz...

it just plain pisses me off

it just pisses me off, wen u need something u asked me to send it to u, i gladly did cos i got a bike and i was on the way to town...but wen i needed a simple help of asking someone's name which i forgot, u shut me off and asked me to ask myself. wat kind of crap is that?....like i said im always so dumb being so nice...well watever..

the attack of the killer HR

i was excited for the interview.....cos for some ppl out there wouldve known i love cooking, wen i say cook i meant not instant noodles....i cooked for my ex gf once, i tried funky simple meals....n i guess f&b got some kind of attraction for me but i know it aint got much of a future. i was looking forward to get that managerial position with fish n co, i know itll be temporary but at least temporary fun. BUT the hr was a killer....she asked quetions and i meant questions, real questions and she kept repeating that same question when she didnt get wat she wanted, like "wat actually u want to do in ur life, or wat u wanna be" i kept saying tis is the path that i have turned to cos engineering was bleak, i guess that was the wrong answer...she asked then " wats ur passion" wen i answered, she then responded with "why not pursue a career with ur passion?" i know sometimes im a bad liar but she made me look like a stupid pinnochio.....sigh....

nuff with the hr.....im hoping to start work with ntuc cos i cant wait to finish up paying my loans...and back to at least $0 than minus$ heheh get wat i mean? after that ill start saving up, cos i wanna settle down in a few years time, i wanna live on my own, and leave my past behind for good just hope i find someone better.

im not saying this to put in good words about myself but i never get an opportunity to be bad....hahah watever that means...its always im the victim....im the toy at those fairs, where they throw darts at or shoot air guns at......its always im at the recieving end. some ppl can get the same item but still have it in a better way. i have to be somehow the guinea pig, the lab rat, they experiment their evil on me. felt remorse, regret, then they change and move on to something knew already better and not so evil.sometimes i wish i could get back at them but im not so evil after all.

it is sad but true, the world does work in that way. for the few of us, we are just purely unlucky to be experiencing that, i mean i never did any real harm to people before but somehow i still recieve...like wat ida said, susah skarang senang kemudian...maybe wat she said is true...(well she was refering to jobs) but there is similarities. oh by the way congrats on ur job at the lawfirm, sure enough u n an will tie the knot soon....

im starting to enjoy my life now, i laugh, real laughters like i use to have before the last quater of 2004. im back to last time, i laugh, real laughters though there are still worries at the back of my head, sadness but of different sort but im glad though im actually thinking. i want to entertain myself, make myself happy, cheer myself up, cos being alone meant i have to independent but i also have to bear in mind, prepare for my future watever that might come....cos in life there sooo many unforeseen incidents therefore its better to be prepared. but this is wat i ultimately want, a happy ending to my life. thats all.

sometimes i hate memories, sometimes i wish theres companies like in the movie jim carrey acted in "eternal sunshine" if im not mistaken. just wipe out the memories and thats that....but then again its working against nature.....

ive got so much on my mind....a blog isnt enough, i can type endlessly but thats life, interesting, those short blogs only meant filtered out life.....

today, im gonna laugh over a good animation movie....madagascar, i heard from adil & ai its good....i cant wait....

shiat!

it always happens this way.....

tumoro, i have an interview with fish & co and ive already got the job at NTUC only awaiting my medical check up results and to sign the agreement...and then now, i just saw a job advertisement, its something i like alot, radio controls....a technician with a company to assist engineers in developing unmanned radio-control aircraft..and what they require is what i have!

ive just sent out my resume and i hope they call me up before i sign any agreement letters....insyaallah, although they offer 1 year contract only but i would have the reputable experience i need by then...and id be doing something i like! hands on some more!.......wish me luck guys...... nites....

YEAHOOO my lucks turning the other way 'round

guess wat?....ive got another interview on the way....tumoro, i have an interview with fish & co, im already accepted as a branch supervisor at NTUC but fish & co offered me a management position...have to find out the pay first....i'll see bout that tumoro at 330pm!....wish me luck guys...

hot tuesday afternoon...sweat2

woke up early, for the medical check up...i had to go down tagore drive first to collect the medical chit, so that i do not have to pay for the check up....was a long ride there on my caramella.... i asked janet, when will i start work, she said once the results out and usually new workers start on mondays...thatll be like at least a week more of joblessness....anyways at the hq, i saw the posibilities of career advancement as office ppl clad in smart suits walks ard...sure enough if i work hard enough, i might just be one of them....but that will depend, cos the future is rather unpredictable for all u know i might be building my career elsewhere...heheee...

im lucky again, the clinic we were suppose to go to is somewhere in cbd n i reach just in time few minutes after 10am cos i dun have an iu. the check ups were usual, ala cmpb, head to toe checks...well wat the heck, ....it was noon wen i left the clinic, i wanted to take advantage of me being in town...so i roamed around and i ended at waterloo looking for sidemirrors as it dropped off this morning...sheesh the bicycle shop opp nafa was so overpriced....i got almost the same mirror at sungei rd's bicycle shop for 2buck less.....it was hot, i wanted still to roam on my caramella but the heat and me sweating profusely, makes me just wanna sit in front of my fan, like wat im doing now...hahaa...overall, im a happy man....got wat i wanted and im confident, ill start pretty soon...

im looking forward to more enjoyments ahead.....i wanna make my life a fun one...no use sulking, brooding over wats gone, wats no longer mine...im focused now, like the capricon always is...focus to getting wat i want....and indeed i will....a happier life indeed....towards the future!....cheers! harharharhar....

monday's mixed feelings....

-monday started with a shocking news, ard's dad passed away....but i had to carry on my -usual hunting....my condolences goes to aisha, ard & family....

+in the afternoon janet called, stating my salary & that i required to come for a medical check up as i have been accepted for the position...yipree.....

-i didnt managed to catch kingdom of heaven cos there wasnt tickets for me....:(

+ai, agreed to print out the forms for me, i didnt have to drag my lazy ass to MOE!

+watched star wars again, with rashid, shahreil & yati for the 2nd time....yeay, never got sick of it...

-i cant resist temptations, i ended up eating 2 prata kosong...urgghh!

-was teased by some girls at the void deck, no mood, sleepy.. n they disgust me with their behaviour...which era are they in anyways?

-tumoro i have to wake up early for the medical check up...

good nite peepz....c ya ard...

yeah, thank GOD...

Alhamdullilah is how i shall begin this entry...thank you God, uve answered ur humble servant's prayers....one final request, i hope tommorows medical check up goes well. NTUC called up, i was shortlisted among the 14 applications....as a branch supervisor, i know its nothing to be proud off...but at least ill be earning my own bucks and probably i can contribute more to the family and start saving for myself, im not getting younger day by day....i need to start saving....alhamdullilah, .....

im considered lucky

although my life's not as perfect as most of ya, theres some ppl who are worst off than me...i mean as in their fate.....jobless, mom's ill, brother's not cooperative and now, father passed away....im sorry fren....i hope 'she' will provide u some ease in life....

back to mua...mornings as usual, hunting for $$$.....sigh.....today i think my bowels abit irregular...as im typing, my stomach's aching again...must be those sambal paus i ate yesterday.....

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oh i forgot to mention something ive wanted to say.....

probably some ppl enjoy wrecking other ppls' life poking their nosy noses into the situation and saying something that probably isn't factual just based on assumptions, well if u like doing that, a big fuck to u...stop ur freakin hobby and fucken grow up pls....

cheers~

weekends unearthed

i need a new specs......scratches are starting to show in the lenses......

sunday, so warm, so hot, so sweaty, so boring.....so....lazy......

yesterday again as i become a 'delivery man' whose being exploited, i left for tanglin mall wanting to explore on my own, reliving the times when i always go out roaming on my own......the crowd didnt help me much....i couldnt browse thru the flea market easily as kiasu singaporeans being so jus themselves rushing, pushing against one another... i moved on as always when things doesnt seem good to further explore the area singaporeans call town when its just actually buildings for ppl to splurge their hard earned money....but i was forced to make a journey back as the sight of tps wasnt inviting. along bukit timah, there was more....i rode acting cool n calm....i do not fear them, i fear the tickets they like to ride........ i stopped just before turf city, giving osman a call, hoping he would be at turf city n can provide me company & entertainment at where they usually race their cars...but, sigh its almost dark n they are home already....shahreil was tired from work and the rest, probably busy with their other half.....at times like this, i wish i had a job that can let me work wen i feel bored, so at least money's coming in when enjoyment is hard to find.

my father in jakarta has been calling me for the past few days, even my step mom.....its as though they want me to stay with them there.....the tempation is great but im wise enough to think, so don't worry peepz, im not about to leave SG yet.....i have yet to return something to my mom, ive always wanted to send her to the holy land on my expenses, i mean she's been with me since i was two n she took care of me singlehandedly for 11years....

sometimes i wish i had a brother who's ard my age, where i can speak to n would understand what im going thru...but im thankful enough i got frens like shahreil... who provides me company, advice and thoughts that are helpful to me......nights are spent at his place playing computer games as the internet is becoming more & more boring & stagnant.

i made a sale last night, GOD didnt want my funds to run dry, so he told this guy to buy my evo7, no its not a real car, its one of my toy cars.......and yes one day i want a sports car but not just any sports car, a modded up original mini!

i guess im the only one with a blog that has so much to write everyday.....gd bye frens...hope uve enjoy ur weekends.....:)