why

up till today, some things are still unexplainable....

im sorri razi, i have to disappoint u with the word no, i want that pipe but i guess id put my money to better use....how bout class 2 or class 3?

im gonna miss my hair in may...i have to snip it off for reservist.......suck right....

its that time wen i feel so lazy....my ass so heavy, and gravity pulling my eyes...

its tt time when i wonder wats wrong with me......

pls i want tt fonecall from either one, moe or wda...pls la..pls....

summary of the many days

emotional, materialistic, lusty on monday.....
i had a 'fling' well u can call it that....
i indulged in so unneccessary stuffs that made me happy while it last...
i spend, finally.....
im going to spend again...
im not so bad, so vicious, so evil after all
i am growing, oh no....not again...
i worked my ass off to keep that from happening...
im becoming more and more of a money making idiot and yet im spending more....it doesnt fit, id like to have more money but i end up spending...
i can get egoistic at times...
oh shit its becoming more like a profile on frenster...well its not
im beginning to think writing in fragments suck.
i bought 2 new games, nfsmw black list & def jam fight, i wish i was like my character in defjam fight so i can whoop those asses without a problem.
im listening to peterpan again, its making me hummm and its makin me emotional at times.
im weak, im a freak, so go fuck off....
i lost again at obtaining another....i screwed up....i shouldnt have...
my boss pisses me off, i just told him off and i have just put my job on the line..
he's such an asshole, he dunno wat he's talking and he thinks my job is so fuckin simple, mebbe cos im fat?
sega wants me to write a review for their latest game but i guess they wont let me have a free play of the game, so sorry, i cant do it then...
if i get to be a teacher, ill be the coolest one, well at least in sg....
if i get to be a nurse, ill get those broken legs dancing and those broken arms boxing.
im a believer, im a capricon, i believe in myself...
the chants at my void deck is driving me crazy...
i dun care anymore, im going to do wat i want and i dun give a fuck wat u say.... cos ure nobody to be saying anythin bout me...
im tired, yet i want to play soccer....
i dont want to worry and im not(well thats a lie)...
i dont lie, u do...idiot
i want to cheat and get the feel of it but im single now, im dangerous and an idiot to be writing this in public but then again like i said, i dont lie..
i envy other ppl alot...but i know i have my own life...
im not a walking time bomb, im calm and mellow, i scream six feet under.
last but not least, you n You n you SUCK.....u pissed off great deal..

late

such an idiot, im late n i missed 1 chance....nvr mind...still plenty more, cmmon sid buck up....

was at the usual kopi session with ma pals....talking bout the cost of a wedding... it scares me alright.....25K ouh...yeah tts right 25K estimated......im not getting married soon alright tts for sure.....even if i put aside 1k per mth, ttll take at least 2 years....

i think if i found someone, id just do the basic, no grand lavish wedding, unless insyah'allah i get a job tt earns me more than 2k......but for now id think minimal.
i understand its a once in alife time thingy....but if u cant afford it why kill urself. like shahreil's nick, if u work for a living why kill urself working....
but im lucky im single now....at least i got time to save, to plan, etc and wats best for me....i can at least do wats best for me...

wats important is i do well in life...tts all i want now...

gnite peepz