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personalized candy bars

zahidah told me to try and create personalized candy bar wrappers for her, the candy bars or chocolates will be used as 'berkats' or door gifts(?) for malay weddings. I came up with one so far, cos she asked me on such short notice...i didnt know to use whose names as sample names....so i decided shahreil and yati since they are getting married soon...hehe...so do u like it? and would u buy?

civilized?

if we were in the barbaric age, god knows what wouldve happened....probably a huge club wouldve landed on his head just to wake the bugger up.....and rather shut him down. if we were in the early human civilization, probably id already give him a good beating... if it were in the hang tuah era, my tamingsari wouldve been depressed deep into his flesh. if it were in the era where legislation and law were not that established probably he'd get a good pounding of my fist. BUT we are now living in a so called civilized world.....but still some ppl behave like animals....

if ure lazy to work, ud probably use an excuse to be exempt from work. watever it is, its ur fucken business. when u use what i did as a fucken excuse, it becomes my fucken business and i wish i could clobber u dead or with the knowledge i have just plunge that needle fully loaded with potassium. its not once, twice or even thrice, its been years of tolerance and sometimes i just couldnt take it. ppl who wouldnt understand or not living under the same roof probably would say, "just buat bodoh la...y take it to heart when u know his like that..." im not perfect and ive changed from being temperamental to patient and still i can feel the heartache...its not easy.......my mom told me what happened when im away, he's the usual no balls guy who talks behind my back or when we ended up quarelling, he's scream at the top of his lungs senseless and stupid invalid statements before hiding himself in his room like a little girl...probably on diapers in case he wet his pants. he's the ultimate king of backstabbers and hypocrites.

this was wat he said last night, "tak boleh cat rumah la semalam radio kuat kepala pening..."(i cannot paint the house just now, the radio was switched on loud, headache). so that was the excuse so that he need not go to work today reason being he will only paint today bcos yest, the radio-playing caused his headache. when my mom told me....i was like WTF...pissed and ubberly upset! ok let me tell u....i came back home at 3+ yest, nobody was home....until he came home close to 4pm, can u finish painting within 3hrs before buka? surely not...the whole living room? the other day he spent the whole day just to paint cloudy whites which is so ubber ugly and awful looking. so it was just a pure excuse at my expense, certainly he had no intention to paint, else he wouldve started early like last week and not went out only to be back at 4pm. this is just one of his ugly behavior....theres still many not mentioned....

this entry has been an angry one and it kinda soothing to jot it down here...watever it is i shall not be angry cos of such a spastic individual, not worth it....im trying to keep my cool.....deep breathes and exercise to sweat out.....hopefully endorphins will be released and i will be in a lighter better mood...insyahallah...

he just purely disses me off....i cant wait to start work and be able to afford my own apartment.

tired

it was an early knock off today but that doesnt mean im not tired.....i spun my uniforms when i got home....i tot id lie down awhile...i end up asleep only to be awaken by laughters on the radio.....then i realised i slept like 1.5hours....haiz.. thats ok...im suppose to come up with designs for choc bar wrappers for a fren...and i havent done nuts...

so i switched on the pc with ol-skool wu tang playing on itunes...then mom knocked on the door....i opened....i was pissed when mom showed the slip from posto....apparently, mr postman was knocking on the door to deliver the much awaited ltd edition hallucinate caps....but my selfish stepfather decided to pretend he's asleep and not open the door. watever la....so i tot id collect it direct from the post office....called sayang, to meet me slightly earlier...i was excited and i already ordered 3 frames for printing hallucinaTees....so annie came down earlier...i ironed my purple tee, wore my black berms which i couldnt fit into before ramadhan....then head down to the post office with my sayang....but to my horror, the caps are not there, i didnt read the slip, it says 1 or 2 working days later, the item can be collected at nearest post office.... Ugggh...nvm that, so we head to microscreen to collect my frames....halfway thru at PIE toa payoh...it rained....so i made a filter out...got wet and we had no choice but stop there abandon collecting the frames cos they close at 7pm and decide to break fast there.... had a sumptous meal of halal chinese food at fork and spoon.......i tried to forget about the 2 mishaps....sigh....then at toa payoh, i got the fake crocs which i will be using for my OT postings...at least i got something today, useful of course....

we decide to head for geylang when the rain stopped completely cos lazing around at east coast chit-chatting isnt a good idea since it just rained awhile ago...walked around...had that nice chendol, showed annie around, window shopping basically....
we ran into mankey and lin at tkc...then we tagged along with them...then i saw awing-songkoks at a shop....and got meself a spanking high songkok, i like....then annie got these brooches for herself and my sis......then mankey got this nice samarinda which will be used as samping for his baju...we were all happy and ended the day at habib, with a couple of drinks and laughters....had fun today... lots...

im loving annie more each day.......gd night peeps, gd night sayang....cant wait to go visiting with u in that purple baju and probably golden-yellow ones if ure getting
love ya....see ya soon in a couple of hours....hehe

lost

lost.

having muscular twitches/spasms at the scapula area....maybe im just tired or its bcos of the fall i had.

i dunno la.

cuteness

cuteness....sweetness

love, sweet

i love u sooo much for...
accepting me the way i am,
wanting to sacrifice,
understanding our differences,
wanting a future with me,
making living my life wonderful,
making me look forward to everyday,
making sleepless nights less dreadful,
willing to take the risk with approvals from parents,
changing ur ways to make me happy,
loving me,
making me happy everyday,
showing me what love really is,
and many more, the list could go on....

i only wished....
i met u earlier before u got a religion,
i met u earlier before the girls before u broke my heart,
u are a muslim too,
more ppl have an open mind,
u can be by my side 24/7,
i still have my paternal father with me,
and many more i wished....

watever it is, i hope u know how i feel about u, though this entry might make some puke blood but its how i feel....so i dont care

gotta sleep, see ya guys around. love ya annie.

hee

yeah i know i should be getting ready for my clinicals but im just mesmerized by this foto when i was playing with my fone, isnt she sweet? annie, in her first baju kurung. love ya sayang.....miss ya..

i love this foto taken by my sayang...of my room....soon itll be orange walls, no more black n pink......sayonara....look out for new foto in a couple of weeks time!

mom met annie, mom seems ok with annie....except like not expecting her son to bring back a chinese girl.....she talked with annie but i guess annie was too shy to talk much...heh....

i love my sayang.....yes, i mean what i say....gnite peepz.

1st month

time flies....and its oredi a month that we've been together...love u sayang... hope 'beary-sid' the bear i bought u just now will accompany u whenever im not by ur side. love ya lots....ure my angel alright....hope to meet u tumoro....hope we'd really go visiting in that shade of purple bajus....:).....

ubber cool

multi-tasking,
chatting with annie, surfing the net, laundry, packing stuff for tumoro, getting ready but this is ubber cool....

OH MY GOD!

Diana, my ex bbss schoolmate is now studying sports at ngee ann part time....thats not exciting but whats exciting is her lecturer is Chris Haslam's mom!!!! and guess what im getting Chris Haslam to wear hallucinate tees.....im giving one of my tees once its printed to Diana to pass to her lecturer who will pass it to Chris Haslam!

Am i realising my dreams or what? woots!

hahaha and chris haslam is a december baby too!....he'll be getting hallucinate tees on 19th December if everything goes well.

nurse doesnt equal to occupation

i dont see nursing as job....

daily, im sharing what i know with ppl around me...

and giving advice to my fren whose father is diabetic and hypertensive, really made me think that ive answered the calling...and nursing does come in handy......im worried bout myself too....cos my late grandfather have CVA(cardiovascular accident) or stroke.

im worried about one thing though....wen i graduate, will i still be as enthusiastic or will the routine in my job makes me less enthusiastic?....well thats another thing..

was telling ratnor...i hope to be an APN one day.

my annie is feeling better...im glad i was not the cause....but id like to find out why too.....im meeting her later...i love her and im ubber excited...

gtg shower guys...see ya...

sigh

ok....i might have been to irritating and probably not understanding enough... i dunno, i might've been paranoid, just paranoid....i dunno....watever it is, i am sorry.

i would love to blame the past but its me, its not the past....i have no intention to hurt anyone but if i did, i am sorry.

i think ill just go to bed, what is done, is done.

im considering to get class 3, i might have to depart with something i love but its my decision, nobody have the right to tell me what to do. ill decide soon and roy, ull be such a lucky ass...well, we'll see.....

im eye-ing on four wheels....no more two wheels...although the sight of the red roadking at adil's carpark just now, made my heart stomp awhile......although that roaring ducati that passed by us just now made me want a bigger bike....but i guess id be going for that 4-wheels...but not as yet....only when im a staff nurse......

im not in a pleasant mood either....i just hope annie gets better.....i dunno wat to do, seriously....i like just turned dumb.....

i just want you to know, the whole time im outside with my frens....i kept thinking about u, how ure doing, whether ure feeling better and if it was my fault that u felt lousy, when i saw that baju, i visualized how ud look in it but then i remembered u felt lousy and all i could think of is how u are doing. im not 1bit sleepy right now bcos i am still thinking of u, how u are doing and all. im sorry if i caused u to feel lousy, i really am.

gtg....see ya guys around....monday my clinicals day...i hope the old folks at ward 7a can cheer me up or something......

im just pissed off at dumb guys....thats all.....