asswipes

LMAO ure so insecure ure treating life like a ratrace......wth are u thinking? LMAO....
haiz, rains not on our side, tickets book already, objective(she needs to buy shoe for work) need to be met, so here we are off to town on an MRT....LMAO....ok see u guys ard, dun wanna keep her waiting...

whaoh man

ive been poisoned too much way off the limit i set for myself....i guess i gotta start straving soon, wasn't disciplined enough gave in to the temptation......LoL....dont worry im still alive...and somehow i always know how to recover....got a couple of back up plans in mind......LoL back up plans sia...LoL.......gotta stop spending....ugghh....spending is so therapeutical.....i think today last movie for this month, after that no more....LoL...next month.....and maybe one processing this month........maybe have to use my "gold" that i put aside whenever i have excess....LoL....think have to block ebay....LoL....that fe2, zenith, minox and fed have to wait.....

lavalicious


yeayness....my first lava lamp is working....love ya mank & lin...thnks for the prezzie!
ouh mind the background cos was watching jackass2.5!

skejap

skejap nye....wah less than an hour...its already starting to work! fooohoo

yeay

i got another bday present....a belated one from ahmad mankey....azhar la....LoL thnks lin n mankey for the present....a nice lava lamp....not yet working need to warm up for 5hours i think...
cool huh? green n yellow....thnks again guys....love ya...

4 star general

like a four star general....he executed without mercy....ppl like me were at his expense

just random rantings....anyways school, i mean real school started....the first day aint nothing cos the stress hasnt got to many yet but today mdm chin jk briefed on the final year project...ooh puhleese a research final year project....uggghhh....well got no choice have i? unlike when i was duped, that i got a choice to believe and i did and i was duped.....LoL.....but shant repeat the same mistake again right?.....sigh....humans....manipulate the weaker and the sincere....too bad... thats life, well just gotta accept it....

im glad though theres still many sincere frens still around me.....thanks a million.....

aarrghhh so much for school......i feel, im giving a kick start to a new beginning...me, myself and i. LoL......sigh dont think that class3 will go anywhere with such a hectic schedule but Her, yeah his surname is HER.....told me just go ahead la...slowly2....yeah, probably i should....but he advised me not to enrol in school...just go pvt...well, we'll see la....

other than progression, lets talk about leisure....hmm im feeling that im really hooked to my current hobby.....and the new frens i know are getting me deeper and deeper into it....hehehe. i tell u my dear, that dslr will definitely be in hands by end of 2008 just in time to shoot the fireworks, that if im not on night shift....harharhar...........

just had dinner.....i think ill ease up a little on writing....adios peeps....ouh no post is complete without a picture....
me, ranon, haiqal and umm...didnt get his name, outside timbre on the last days of 2007 having a whale of time, thanks guys...and the coolest thing about this pic is, under my hat, under the light my face is hidden.....heh

'almost mohawk'


i know its one day late....but jus showing my 'almost-mohawk' cut(cos thats what i said to the cute hairdresser).....LoL....shorter hair seems more comforting for me nowadays....

so much for innocence

so much for innocence, i knew it, i was just a ....thnks for all the bullshit, helllooo 2008! yehaaaa.....save your bullshit for somebody else....hilarious, i guess a leopard wont change its spots....good luck to the next duped....i got duped but i dont think i loose anything except time..

presents

hehe my 28th birthday i got more presents than i expected....the last time i got loads of presents were like 4-5years ago.....after that it was only from mom. but this time round i got more, although late, im pretty happy, its the thought that counts not the value....so today first day of class, yani shocked me.....'siddiq happy belated birthday. here....'
its a small gift but like i said, its the thought that counts. yani said she bought that becos she thinks it looks like me...probably bcos of my hallucinate tees....heh....sheesh, i think i wanna print a shirt for her. anyways thanks yahneee....LoL...she always asks why i spells her name with more than 1 'e's. ouh its suppose to be a handphone keychain thingy but i decide to hang on my bag, cos i keep my phone in my pocket most of the time.

and a couple of my classmates noticed certain changes bout me.....
ada: "eh he wearing pants ar? tot usually berms?"
kay: "eh where all ur reds? now so earthly ar? green, brown.."
yani: "siddiq change colour already ar? red to green?..."
zhiyuan: "where's your red bag?"

its because last sem, coincidentally i got a red crocs(bcos thats whats left with my size and i have to use the voucher before the dateline), a red crumpler(pen sold me hers becos she's not using it.), Orange watch(adil sold me because also he not using it), Red t-shirt(ouh i like the design on the skate shirt)........so at most times i will have at least 2reds(my bag and crocs) & 1 shade of red(the orange watch).....LoL.....this semester macam more greens....LoL, green bag, green watch, green shoes.....LoL.....

thnks

thnks for the birthday prezzie jabriel....ive put up one, tumoro ill put up another...

new challenge at lomotion

wah this month's challenge tough man....panning...how to achieve that? im thinking cars or skateboarders. the cyclist picture is an example of panning, panning is when you follow a moving subject focus on it and shoot thus blurring the background coolness....itll be a challenge with the cameras i have cos none of them are slrs, that means i dont get to see thru the viewfinder how its going to be.

hullo 2008

started off the new year online.....forums, chit-chatting with frens, saz, nat, annie....before endulging myself into what i like doing alone, watching movies, except i dont like the idea of going to the cinema alone, did that a couple of times in my life though, batman and one show i cant recalled when my gf back then decided not to show, it was at greatworld city.

anyways, im not a party kinda person, though i enjoy a little music and chill just by the bar stool with pals...im no dancer and certainly the countdown isnt my cup of tea. its not that i dont look forward to 2008, its just that i dont see whats the big hu-ha is so ubber necessary, after all its just numbers and humans just attaching meanings to it....the real calender is the rise and fall of the sun, the moon, that counts how long time passes.....heh its complicated to explain what im trying to say into words......

so anyways, the last day of december was spent waking up late at noon, meeting yuan to do the barter trade for my frogeye for his crumpler + actionsampler. good deal i would say. good for him too cos he's into wakeboarding and he'll be at the waters pretty often and thus the frogeye is ubber suitable for him. after that i left for bukit batok, had lunch with fathih, western chic rice. before downing two chlopherinamines to ease the runny nose that irritates me. was sleepy and the medication helps me sleep for quite awhile. when i woke up mom still not home yet and i decided to go over to bird's to visit his mom who just got back from haj. he has a wonderful family and his fate is similar to mine, except his mother never did remarry, that's why he's probably happier. i respect my mom's decision to remarry when i was 12 but i know it wasn't her decision totally....the cruel society made her do that. i mean like whats wrong being a single parent? she succeeded in bringing me up single-handedly from i was 2 till i was 12. its just the pressure from society i guess....and she thought i needed a father to replace the one that left us. sigh, u must say why write down all this over here...well, like i said to many, im a man with very little secrets...to say no secrets at all is a complete lie.

ok so much so for that.....bird's family was very accomodating except one of his auntie whos rather unfriendly. the rest like Om', auntie hamidah, his mom and their elder sis were all great hosts that i don't feel like i'm a stranger to the family. tumoro they are having a feast to say thanks in away for the safe trip and all, to share joy....well at least thats my definition of a 'doa selamat'.

i was reluctant actually to go back to bb after maghrib cos i know that old man will be around. but today, i was like wtf, who gives a fuck, i have rights, its my right and i dont give a fuck, id do what i wanna do and i wanna meet my mom. so i went....the fuckhead as usual is praying to his god, the teevee....he's a shithead that he can quarrel with a 13year old over television. yeah he's that fucked up. anyways met mom, chit-chat for an hour or two before i left home for teck whye where i first intended to meet frens for coffee or somethin but they replied a tad too late cos i left home with the fan already and so dont expect me to stop by with that fan and anyways i reckon they'd come down straight. so, eventually i never went to habib's cos they were only coming down at 2300hrs and i was already groggy with another dose of the anti-histamines...

i switched on the tube...apparently watever was showing on teevee didnt amuse me, so i switched on cable, my mac and there back to the first paragraph....i decided to watch a movie, hida gave me the link yest and i was grateful nuff that i told her this, "u know what u just got my belated birthday present..." LoL cos she asked me what i wanted and being me, i jokingly asked her for ridiculous things that i know she cant get me......well why i say the link was like a present cos itd keep me awake, entertained as i usher in 2008......

so today i shared the link with saz n nat, i know they too are enjoying the movies and me, i really enjoyed "the number 23" jim carrey as the main cast. awesome show about an individual's obsession that ruined his life. well i find it entertaining and something i can relate to, cos after all id be working at a mental institute. various movies ive watched somehow has its mental elements in it. probably i was fated to be psychiatric nurse...cos i enjoy analyzing at ppl's behavior and believe me, it can be very amusing at times. im not saying about the psychiatric patients, im referring to the 'normal' ppl that we everyday meet, our friends, family and all.....seeing them manipulating others to get what they want, observing them lying to others to cover up their tracks or again getting what they want, occasionally letting the cat out of the bag by accident and at times making themselves look stupid and disgusting.....its amazing at how individuals behave.....how some would do anything to get ppls' approval or acceptance into the group, to see how they fake themselves to be accepted in the society, to see how they dress up to conform to the norms...

to sum it all up, what i feel is, individuals, should be individuals....do what you want, you don't have to please others all the time, occasionally yes cos i understand it give us the 'feel good' kinda feeling but why be a slave at the expense of another's joy? what about yourself? have you given a thought about urself? mind you, im not self centered either cos i despise those who manipulate others, lie and all for their own gains.....what im trying to say is just be yourself, be true, thats the key.....can u live with guilt? i know some can but i cant....im not saying i dont lie at all. i do but not unnecessarily and not just to get what i want and certainly not at the expense of another's turmoil or suffering...seems like this entry is getting a little too long and im confusing myself too....heh....i think id better stop typing right here....for those who get what i meant, kudos, for those who doesn't, well you don't need too so don't go asking me questions the next time you meet me.....heh! :P a happy 2008 to all.....i think i had a pretty good start.....cheerios.

~keep the faith, we are merely humans...

29th-30th december

29th december 1700hrs++ (@soong sisters')

29th december 1730hrs++ (@grange rd)

30th december 0200hrs++ (outside timbre)

im glad the closing of 2007 was fucken awesome....awaiting plans for NYE!

soong sisters' shot

the soong sisters'

the lomo outing was superb......although some ppl i just cant click with no issue except that dunno wat to talk about....while some can naturally talk like been frens for ages......

was a great day, unknowingly all of them made my day....my birthday...hehe especially at timbre after the shooting spree at soong sisters' and national museum.

i tell u peeps, timbre is the place to be....fucken awesome place, not mentioning great food on top of all the booze...the piza and chic wings rock man....and blardy haiqal need not pay for the pizza! apparently they forgot the bill.....the band playing were awesome too, the goodfellas...they are like a walking ipod 80GB, they know so many songs and all that they played i can say are perfect. the guitarist rock, the vocals had a wonderful voice and the rest of the band too were awesome. they played coldplay, killers, strokes, franz ferdinand, and many more. apparently the bucks i spent on the wings and errrm...are well spent bcos of the band......overall timbre is a cool place...not overpriced and cool sounds....and to top of it all the ppl with me bunch of crazy peeps that really made my day, i was half-dead after mn but they made me laugh again....cool peeps....all came from different walks of lives.

thnks for the birthday wishes, i recieved like 3 smses last night....and one old fren which i actually least expect, remembered and mind u she doesnt have frenster or any sort and she still remembered and im ashamed that i forgot hers...LoL....better search my diaries or anything if i wrote down somewhere....LoL....

last but not least gotta thanks cuz haiqal for getting me into this shit...loving shooting bro... reely...