its been a while....

updates of me life...oh so viciously.....

been better, been a lil more bz.....with abg aman retiring.....the ol man gone, my workload certainly doubled......with one of my staff on medical leave for her operation, that adds on even more.....but im enduring while i can, till i get a better one, meanwhile i cant let go of this job i need it......for many reasons....

i certainly need to organize my playlist....its haywire in there, one minute integrity is playing and the next track is jamal abdillah's ghazal untuk rabiah....can u imagine? certainly music changes moods but not in such a sudden manner......

my previous post was full of angst....this one, im a little more relaxed...i think love is in the air but wat worries me if its one-sided....but anyway, i miss her up right there in the north.....i actually blurted out the truth tt ive been hiding...i like going out with her....i didnt want to say tt to avoid frightening her off but on wednesday i blurted out.....anyways, it did not scare her off, so tts a little blessing, means i still get to go out with her..... a lil different from previous girls that i date, im calm when im with her, she brings out the calmness in me.... and i like it....even if she would stay a friend, id appreciate that.....

shahreil is getting a gilera, heeee i guess after all he likes the bike and wats more, yati likes it too......i envy those two, six years is definitely a long time. and its about time guys, u two tie the know....:)

so looks like 1 more gilly fren on the list...more rides it seems but everyones getting older, getting busier....everyones going home earlier.....:)...time not to be wasted, age catching up, in a couple of days ill be 26....im not holding back anymore.....gotta go all out, really....my week long leave, ive got no cash for a holidae but tts a blessing in disguise, its the time i can hunt for jobs, its the time i can seek opportunity and its the time certainly to loose weight...hahahaha.. oh n its abt time for me to sketch another graf n put my thoughts on the walls of tt sk8 park again....gotta keep my mark going...seriously, its a stress reliever when im adding colours to those walls.....

tumoro, afternoon shift....a drag...but more relaxing....weekends, i like cos my work load is a lot lighter as i do less manual but more planning and paper work...speaking of work, i almost quarreled with my boss in the office, i was fuming mad when he reprimanded me for ordering excess stocks...he said i was new, etc....but im a risk taker, i know that stock is limited, so i ordered the bulk of it not so much only 10cartons each, i know its high value and adds to cost....but on the first day ive already sold almost 2 cartons...doesnt that bring in sales......he stopped me from arguing and asked me to listen to him, i shut my mouth, controled myself as i breathe heavily...but at the end of the day, all i know is i did it for the good of the store and at the end of the day i know i brought in sales....in business if u dare not take risks, then ure not fit to be in the business....a well calculated risk, brings in a handsome profit and even if it doesnt work, loss is minimal....that was wat i tot but i guess my boss, being old & rather conservative and not that adventurous....

will write again some more.......gotta check out a link.....adios pals...yani, i miss u...:)

u & u & u..

the imaginations so real, tt i actually feel it, i feel the joy of pushing that wooden 2b pencil thru ur ears.......the tot of it piercing ur delicate eardrums is beyond description, i cant imagine the joy i would feel.....you, YOU are so damn talented, god gave u a talent that u abused......i agree i have misused mine too....but mine does not harm anyone......the evil within u, is masked by the external, superficial material called skin......if i had giant palms, i wouldve squashed u, crushed u with my barehands to stop u from inflicting pain.....humanity is indeed the devil, the devil is just a figment of everyone's imagination....in actual fact, the devil is within u, u made urself do evil things, not the devil.....u enjoyed the misdeeds while it lasted only to regret in the latter part of ur life when u realised uve been bad.....u are actually aiding urself in self-destruction.why put on a mask, reveal urself, bukalah topeng mu....why when u are so arrogant, so confident, so strong. i have been accessorized in performing an act, an act tt devil condones.....

life has indeed been wonderful but not wonderful enough, humans are never satisfied with wat they have, i admit to that.....i always wished for more & more.... in the transition between birth to death comes life....and in life i learn alot not at school not from twisted teachers but from individuals who unknowingly imparted their knowledge and skills to me most willingly. im glad. real glad. if only theres someone who couldve read my mind, they'd be shocked, amazed at the sight at the information they obtained without my permission.

disbelief, a word that has appeared in my vocabulary like a virus multiplying against time. disbelief of many things.....but in the end i accepted it as facts and reality that have been thrown to me in my face.im living for a reason, and that is one of them to accept watever is given, either i rectify or i leave it pulling me down thru the hole smaller that the pores on ur skin to bring me down.

do i appear sick to u? or am i just too honest with wat i feel? i believe some of us have similar tots like mine. im not sick, its just occassional hatred engulfing me...

one of the couldve

i couldve been a few hundred richer today but its just a couldve....

was bored, so i checked out creative's sale.....i could only drool...i wish i have 500 odd dolars to spend....then id get that zen, the comparison with ipods, its alot better only thing i dun have the cash....next year's bonus perhaps....hunted birthdae prezzies for shahreil n adil....alyn was bored so i asked her to tag along.....fun being out with her...like ma sister, joked and i could behave the way i am....like with the guys, tts the coolest part....n sg is so small, tt she knows the frens i know as well...nice knowing u girl...n i havent had some real nice food lately until just now, tt eel was certainly nice......gotta come back next mth...teeeheee....but i still miss tt softshell crab...was supposed to eat with nini but both of us bz....and the rest dun quite like seafood.........hmmmppfftt.....

gotta sleep, gotta work tumoro, so dreadful, working on a sunday...oh SIA or NUS pls call me up for an interview......:)........adil, hepi bdae...n shahreil i hope u like tt sheer skin colour undies for ur bdae prezzie...hehehehehe....adil was lucky enough to get the white one, i bought the same one for them except the colours and both wrapped identically and made them choose.....:)......and warriors was a cool movie to watch...the cake was superb, the sushi filled my tummy....i must say, these is one of the few days i fully utilised and enjoyed myself doing it.....cheers, gnite mates..