still....

when i held her in my arms, its like as if i just dont wanna let go...i wish the time wouldnt have passed so fast....wen shes with me, its like as if every pain, every problems has just went away....everything just disappear in a blink of the eye....i can only see u, and u calmed me down, u calmed down the savage vicious beast within me...
i need u, my dear....gnite...

mad house

first of all to my baby....im sorry....u appeared bothered by wat ive said....i really didnt mean any harm....

mad house.....ppl shud stop having the perception that a mental hospital is filled with haywire and chaotic patients who bang their heads against the walls, smash windows, etc. but in actual fact those rarely happen......well it does but mebbe only one or two but rarely....seriously....

they are just normal ppl in their world of their own.....their illness are mostly result of problems....like, relationship, financial, family, work and even studies..
only, ONLY once in awhile they get their relapse and started shouting, blabbering nonsense on their own or even pick a fight with fellow patients...otherwise they are fine......i played ping-pong with one, scrabble with another and a long game of checkers with the champion of the ward, mr razalee....so u see, we all who have never visited IMH has this wrong impression, that the place is with bars, and ppl behind it are chaotic and violent....we are wrong.....u should visit IMH one of these days, instead of feeling scared, ud feel sad for them, their condition and worse, some are even abandoned....im sad, it touched my soul, especially seeing my fellow muslim brothers in there, unwell and some abandoned....they did not ask to be in their state, im sure enough they do not want to be like tt......i almost got teary, when i see some of the good ones, help out, clear the tables, make the bed, even though some have physical handicap......theres more to describe i can go endless.....i think im going to love my new job if god permits....

do visit IMH one of these days, its a real eye opener....

.....

be my forever.....guide me for i still need guidance,
i was lost, i was misled previously, i was left, lost alone.

i think ure the first tt truly love me, ure the first tt worries i might go away, ure the first.

i miss u...

pray for my future, which will also be our future.....pray that i have chosen the right ladder to the top.

insya'allah everything will go smoothly......

gnite my dear...

prezzie hunting

ive been hunting for a present for dear mommy with my sayang for the past couple of days and only today did i settle for that swatch watch....i wanted to get the dress watch but i want something tt mom would wear everyday, so i get something more for daily use.....i love my mom, she gives me support in things tt i do....she knows ill be there but i may take some time....

ive got an attachment with IMH, insya'allah ill be gain acceptance into the accelerated 2year dip in nursing....insya'allah ill have a handsome paycheck after the 2years and insya'allah i can send my mom to haj...n insya'allah kalau ada jodoh...u know...

shahreil n yati, u guys looked like as if u were already married jus now...u know newly wed couples...i dunno why la.....bt tts wat i felt

im so comfortable with her...ni....my sayang....its like we've been together for years....yes ure my everything....

gnite peepz.....

sleepless

i cant sleep.....1stly i have to iron my uniform, 2ndly, i just cant....sigh....

still floating in the air...

i love u baby....thnks for supporting me....i feel like im much stronger with u by my side...love ya...gnite

deja vu....

i was reading the tag board....then i realised....mebbe id have tt deja vu in a couple of years time.....hehehe was just thinking...

i dropped my baby's helmet....i just bought her tt helmet last week...i broke the tiny thing tt holds the beak....but luckily, i got it fixed...good as new now....sorry dear, was an accident...

today i guess shes dead tired, she didnt reply wen i msged her gnite......

today i finally spoke my mind to doreen, the fat bitch at work who manipulates and abuses her authority....she was in charge of rostering us, supervisors....but damn u she makes everything convenient for her....tt bitch changed my off day once i objected but i let her have the good friday off in place for a saturday....and now she's taking advantage of the fact that i can compromise and changed my off day at the last week of april...damn her...i spoke my mind off just now....it took some weight of my chest... and my dear was happy tt i told tt bitch off....shes such a bitch....anyways, i dun intend to stay for long....their system sucks...and some things they do are just wrong....i just hope i get into nursing soon...if theres no reply by end june, id look for elsewhere for another job, a better paying and a job with a better prospect and future...

i want to make it happen, what i told u....and i hope it will....:) cya tumoro...