lucky

I think I am the luckiest. I've been granted with so many wonderful things in life although my life was not perfect. Although there's some unpleasantness along the way.

God granted wonderful people around me to provide the balance and at times I can even overlook the unpleasantness. At times I even teared because I am moved by these wonderful people around me. First of all, Alhamdullilah I have been granted with a wonderful mom, she stood by me from day 1, till come to this period where I leave single-hood and be someone's husband soon. Dad was never really there for me but having such an extraordinary mom, I never really need a dad except it wasn't a social norm back then to be a single-parent even though mine was a mere divorce case whereby both parties could no longer live with each other. It wasn't their fault but somehow still it was a little unacceptable to society. Mom was strong, she stood by all the way till where I am today. Thank you mom, you don't know how much I love you.

Then there was wonderful friends who stood by me, even though I was temperamental and at times my frankness hurt them unknowingly. These friends are those who really made me forget that I had backstabbers and cheats in my life. They are God's gift to me that kept me strong and going and still knowing there's at least still living things around me that's worth calling human beings. Friends like Shahreil who gave me a listening ear thru times of trouble who gave me advise even though he's like a year junior but have sensible thoughts and solutions. Friends who shared certain unpleasantness in life like me, who are not so lucky in life as to be blessed with everything they want. Friends who wants to give a helping hand at the slight thought that I might need one even without me asking. Friends like Is-burong who provided me shelter when I was staying alone, all by myself lost and of course his mom who welcomed me with open arms. Friends like, Raimie, Raihana, Rashid and Shahreil who believed in me who signed my bond even though they know the risk they got themselves into, 44k to be exact. Friends like Mankey who willingly took the risk and be my guarantor when I wanted to indulge in my interest in bikes. Friends who believed in me like Ross and Hairul whom introduced me to their friend Ain who soon will be my life partner. Friends like Zack who consoled and counselled me when I needed it back then. And many other Friends alike who guided me along the way in every little bit. Uncles and aunts who defended, stood by me, guided and believed in me. Of course my cousin Hadi who actually provided me shelter right now, even though he himself is in alot of problems for himself to handle. People like my nenek who go finding my Dad who's in Indonesia and try to bring us(his children) together. And last but not least, NurAin who made me feel loved and wanted, who stood by me, who believed me, who gave me a listening ear, who makes me laugh, who makes me happy, who's willing to live with me for the rest of her life.

I just hope I fall into the category of wonderful people in life of many others. I will try not to disappoint you guys. You guys rocks and theres always a place for you guys in my heart. Although I might not have showed it, or showed my appreciation much but deep in here, I am very thankful and prays that God will repay your kindness, InsyahAllah. I hope my prayers will be answered cos you guys deserve it.

And of course even those ugly, decietful, hypocritic, evil, heartless....whatever you would like to call them are indeed gifts from God. They make me learn, they made me stronger, they make me wary, they make me wanna fight further. They too did play a major role in my life.

All in all, Alhamdullilah, for where I am now, God is great. Allah-hu Akbar.

realise...

The world works in mysterious ways.

I realized that its like a chain reaction, one thing leads to another. I realize that what I am doing now matters to what might happen in the future no matter what and of course what I did or did not do before is taking its effect now or maybe in the future.

For instance, I did not make effort to know my cousins or relatives that much. Now...
I injured my knee while I was still in secondary school...Now....
I did not study, I was playful during my secondary school days....Now...
I was job hopping and all....Now....

BUT what's the use of regret? Look forward now, change, try to make things better. When we have thoughts, ideas, feelings, use it and don't hesitate. It's better to know you fail rather than regret not trying. I go for it, I try not to procrastinate although it does happen still at times.

Thanks people around me for making things happen.

Hairul asked me if I had any bestfriend(of course Ain is mine) but other than that, there's none. Seriously.....BUT many are special to me, many are good to me and these good people will make my next plan a reality....

Gd nite peeps...

A belated entry.



Effort is the key thing that makes most things happen. In life effort is one of the essentials, although sometimes and some people do get lucky and get what they want with little or even no effort.

Last Wednesday 8th of July, was something that alot of effort has been put in to make it happen, Ain's birthday party. All thanks to her wonderful friends, the surprise birthday party was a blast. It was also effort that made us last this long and definitely longer with all plans in mind. I thank God for granting me such a wonderful companion in life. Like the MCYS ad(if im not wrong), imperfections are sometimes that makes a relationship perfect, it sort of compliments each other. For me, Ain is the nearest perfect thing that has ever happened to me. Alhamdullilah...

Well, HDB hasn't been so kind to us, they changed the regulations, our plans although not elaborated, has to be changed yet again. I am sorry Shikin, due to circumstances, I guess we have to halt for a moment. Whatever it is, we still will get one.

I am glad that Ain's so patient, calm and has no high expectations on me. I am also glad that she is willing to listen and communicate her views and opinions. I guess that's one of the reason that we are still surviving till date, we talk it out and we listen to each other. She made me brave enough to speak my views and because I speak up, likewise she did too.

Anyways, to cut story short, now the planning stage is the painstaking one....anyways like in the first paragraph, everything requires an effort to enjoy a more satisfying success/victory. I can't wait to see what all this effort comes to......

Anyways Ain, Happy 25th, I love you, bear with this stage we'll be there soon. :)

And Guys, thanks again for making it happen, I couldn't have done it without you guys and of course special thanks Hairul and Ross for introducing me to Ain. :)