horoscopes

id not believe in horoscopes but sometimes it provides inspiration, motivation and some form of encouragement and strength in a way.....heres wat i read just now and i really am motivated......

Capricon~
Sometimes the road you're traveling on gets shrouded in fog. If that happens, don't pull over and wait for the weather to clear. Time is not to be wasted -- keep going, slowly but surely, on the same path. If you let little things stop you from where you want to go (or what you want to accomplish), your confidence will take a beating. Soon enough, you'll see a clear sign that will put your fears to rest and your mind at ease. You were on the right path the whole time.


~~watever it is, it always depends on fate and if GOD permits....insya'Allah....

Latest

Latest update!....one more kind soul agreed to help....adil...thanks man... if remy is ok, everything is set....if not i guess i have to look for one more....everythins going well and i hope nobody backs out.

stressed fucked out.......

im stressed out....real stressed out....i went to alif in seek of laughter, well i did laugh but when the problem came knocking in my mind.....i start to think again... waiting for remy's reply gets me so anxious, worried and i can say its driving me nuts but im asking a favour and i should let him take his time, at least he is considering, he never turn me down flat. i cant actually believe tt my future depends on a friend, more like a coffee shop acquaintance, cos we were never really close, yes we talk, play soccer, laugh and discuss guy matters but we were never really close. me and shahrul too, im touched tt he's willing to help but he told me before saying yes, "i trust u and this is no joking matter, so i hope ure serious.." i really owe him one..... and the other one, which i shant reveal down here, i better not i guess....i didnt expect the answer to be yes......well, the reason was, they trusted me and i WILL NOT DISAPPOINT THEM. i will do my best and ill always remember tt they are the ones tt made my dreams possible. at my age, 26 i definitely am serious bout the path i took....i can stay at canadian pizza macam kuli for almost 2 years......i can stay at fairprice for a year until i got nursing, so wat makes anyone think that i cant last the bond? i dont have any more time in life, ive made the choice and i have to go on with it, i cant AFFORD to turn back, its my future... its not about whether the job will be easy or not, its about future, its about me planning for a family and retirement, etc......

i hope ill get the good news from remy....if not saturday, ill start job hunting.. here we go again back to square one.....im just like a bird being trapped in a cage, i can see the blue sky, the beautiful sun and probably rainbows and i have 2 powerful strong wings flapping furiously wanting to fly but im trapped under circumstances....

help release me....

remy pls say yes

my only hope now, remy and not only that, i have to make sure all 3 can turn up by next wednesday to sign the deed...i hope the 3 will make up 6k else as of wednesday ill be declared officially incomeless.....mebbe theres a blessing in disguise, i always believe in that....well watever it is, we'll see.....im down with diarrohea now... darn i tot i was ok yest....one after another...this month is jus not fer me....c u guys...

sigh...

my future suddenly look so bleak.....but ill keep on trying anyways, im a halfcaphero after all....gonna keep on fighting....if im not fated to be a nurse, i guess id have to plan a back up very quick cos in 4 days im officially unemployed.

old school....

thnks to the internet, i can watch videos of bands i listen to during my youth which i think wouldnt be possible without the net.

the exploited


slayer


sex pistols


shelter


the adicts


haha i think tts it for now....too many...having too much fun watchin... i never had mtv wen i was young.....

i never want to grow up

no tts not wat i really want to be(refering to my title) its jus tt i realised up till now, i still keep on dreaming...NO not that im not moving...i am...but i keep on dreaming for more and more...get wat i mean?....the dreams the vision to go further never stops......haiz....probably capricons are bunch of extremely ambitious ppl tts not given an opportunity.....a fellow capricon just became a lift technician cos apparently, his business partners decide to disband the group and go individual....

see....i guess we are the bunch tt have to go via the hard way, not the expressway like some blessed ppl....they want dat there they go...in a jiffy..... or maybe because, i only decide to be serious and less playful(i said less playful) in my earlier days which had a great effect on the most important link in life in sg, the O levels....if not i guess i wouldve gotten my first choice(business studies) OR if i wouldve mixed with more art ppl, i wouldve realised tt i actually love drawing.....its the beginning.
the beginning went wrong...so i have to ammend in the middle, which is so fucken hard.
cos now its a matter of money, im no longer mama's boy, i have to feed my own and contribute to tha familia as well....so theres some restriction....and me i chose the option to earn a handsome paycheck first before pursuing other less important avenues, but if this particular path cant be achievable either cos i cant get 2 guarantor earning more than 3k....i guess, ill have to plan a back up.... i always had one.... tts why i never remain jobless for long...(hmm 4-5mths is pretty long) but its not about being jobless, its about bringing back the dough....

anyways drop the present state....inside my 7 1/4 inch circumference head, i still wanna set up a business someday(probably wen i retire from nursing), u know open shop, tidy up and sit back probably sipping kopi n shisha while waiting for customers...i still somehow love trading...anyways tt was wat our Phropet encouraged us to do....and at the same time, i can draw, create, and do things i enjoy... wow looks like ive planned retirement liao...hahahha.....well actually i wished it would come earlier but now the reality and the possibility is only at retirement, where id have ample capital to start off with. probably my younger siblings or my children will be the luckiest ones ard....well, too early to speak....

i love it when i have so much in mind.....but id rather not speak to a living being cos theyd probably laugh off to wat i say or probably smile but have negative tots inside....

anyways until then, got other stuffs to do...enjoi life i must say....

2 clicks plow!

2 clicks in a night cant be wrong....i sure did tore my ligament abt a mth ago....well all i could do now is to strengthen my thigh and calf muscles and make sure i have enough calcium and gluscosamine intake daily.....i dun want another surgery, its not the way.....i guess it was my fault after all, i ballooned after the surgery in 2002, i literally became a couch potato, my only exercise was walking to the beach and then lay down my volcom towel and laze with my then hunny.....i ballooned to about 90kg over..
i only start loosing weight in 2005....where till now im at a stable below 80....the lowest was during the cny period, 74kg.....weight too is a factor and being overweight certainly doesnt help my knee one bit.....from today...i guess, id try to curb those carbo and those sweet things in the freezer called ice cream....

if i cant strengthen my knee, i cant do alot of things i love to do with my pals....
so, dude, u gotta work it out man......hehehe....anyone wanna be a volunteer trainer?

king of all powerslides

how i wish i could pull this off....probably off fort canning or kent ridge hill..

muthafucka

some goddamn matrep....muthafucka decide to steal my alum air vents. i tot the carpark at marriot was safe nuff.....but proven not today.....seems like calamity have strucked me recently.....but its not tt bad.....but id still curse tt mothafucka who almost hit me few days back.....and id still curse tt mothafucka who stole my ventplates which cost about 48bucks today.......anyways i already made a diy mesh from the materials i bought at homefix....cost me only bout 9bucks....and i didnt even use the super glue, so actually only 7 bucks for a mesh for the air vents....pretty proud with my work....
goddamn fucken matreps...curse u.....u ppl are all the same, only know how to steal from others....find ur own stuff....earn it...hasnt ur parents taught u anything? or are they as dumbfuck as u are?.....fucken moron....and GODDAMNIT THE SECURITY GUARDS AT MARRIOT HOTEL ARE OBVIOUSLY SLEEPING....THEY HAVE CAMERAS ALL OVER BUT THE MUTHAFUCKERS CAN HAVE TIME TO UNSCREW 4 SCREWS TO HAVE MY AIR VENTS.....WATS THE USE OF SECURITY... FUCKEN ASSWIPES....im fucken pissed tt a public carpark is infested with morons...
curses...to all whom stolen stuffs from me, any stuffs, u guys ruin part of my life....fuckers........

chill sid, chill.......

sayang.....i miss u.....

anyways, i shudve listened to my little voices....its proven twice....i did not listen...u know those little voices...aka instincts...todae i had mine, i didnt feel like going out and actually i tot of going bedok to gramma's place....haiya but i still believe in fate.....its fated....

sayang, i miss u.....next weekend go out ok? :) hope u get well soon....