i guess its true

probably wat adil said yest was possible....its not tt we do not want to be wealthy and all, its just we tend to be contented with being in the middle, moderate, kalau orang melayu cakap sederhana....BUT, i do want to be up ther or at least somewhere near, at least a car and a comfortable life....at least i dont have to scrimp and save to buy the things i want or have to think about the bills...know wat i mean?....

someday, someday...

finally

finally ive got a decent monitor now....i have a decent pc now! with a decent monitor, the new ibm monitor cost me 32bucks...cheap right?.....

thnks adil for the help, if not i couldnt possibly get tt monitor on a bike...hehe

i am me, not anyone else.

she was worried, worried tt history will repeat itself.....i am me, sid, siddiq not anyone else...wats more the almost similar incident happened to me too a couple of years ago, i too was devastated, lost, u name it......i too lost trust in the other gender...but to label all of them the same would be unfair...cos not all of them are the same, probably in a flock of white sheeps, there'd be some blacks but we cant possibly stereotype them.

i know, i worry too, worried to try again but she gave me the confidence and i think she shud be confident bout me too.....about wat if i met someone better, to commit for me is to accept the person as she is, to accept watever flaws if there is, to accept the differences....like they said, the grass will always be greener on the other side but if u kept looking at the other side, how would u know the one ure on isnt as green or even greener? get wat im trying to say......wen im on it, wen i commit, theres only u, no one else only u....

"i would never even think of it, i would never even try to hurt u, u trusted me and i shouldnt betray ur trust in me...i loved u, i loved u even more when i learnt ur true, undying love for me, i dunno how to prove it bt only time will tell..."

gdnite my dear, take away all those fears from ur head, erase the history, the negativity tt has happend just like wat im trying to do everyday....soon nuff, ull put everything behind and there'll only be sunshine, stars and rainbows ahead for u, not gloom.....gnite, sweet dreams sayang.....:) urs truly, sid.

the ninth cloud

nobody, nobody has said such things to me, ure flattering me, im not tt perfect my dear, but wat u said touched me deep, deep inside.....i never knew tt u wud love me tt much. i hope so too ther'd be no tears, if there had to be, it wud only be tears of joy... :)

i cant find the words to fill this entry....
i just feel tt my life is so much better now with u....now, i only yearn for a better job. so tt i can make some things a reality...

you...

ure it, ure my drug, i just know.....i yearn for u...i do not know how to show or tell u how deeply true is tt. u made me smile, jus lookin at u made me smile, u brighten up my day, u made me miss u, i didnt know u were so addictive....ure the cure, the cure for the ailments that i had, i ever had and probably those i will have will never even exist...ure it...:)

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frens of the gilera clan tags became closer....we became much closer than just frens, it felt like we're a family, brothers....the bond got closer as we shared our interests....but i hope itd go far beyond than just interests, laughter and fun...i hope we can rely on each other in times of needs....like the guys in bukit batok, my brothers, the few, im proud of u guys, kudos to u all, who kept me alive while im struggling to recuperate from the devastation, the dieseas, the plague that consumes me.....ur encouragements, ur words, so little yet helped me to gain strength to stand up again.... thnks guys...
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ive never had a perfect family, i rely on external parties sometimes to make me feel at home, alive....they, my frens, the closer ones are like brothers i never had....

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i still yearn to skate, i wish my knee would go back to its form again....i do squats to strengthen my thighs and calves so tt i could skate again.... its a passion tt i tot was just part of growing up back wen i was 16 but wen i started again, its much more than tt...its not a matter of how good u are, its how much u enjoy it.... having frens like naz and adisam kept the spirit alive...i guess ill be like tt guy i saw whom have a 10 year old kid and still skating.....he stayed true to himself doing wat he enjoys and not swayed by peer pressure to grow up and leave the things u love behind. salute.....

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Iskandar-shry told me to keep my vespa in my room....i wish i could....but im not living on my own....:)....i love my vespa, really....honest.

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lastly, was i the culprit or was i the victim....who gives a fuck what they think,i know who i am & im happy now, tts all i care..

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can i go out with u again tumoro pls?....:) sms me aight?

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