long wait.....worth it

it certainly is fucken worth it, the long wait...shahreil ure one lucky bugger..finally u got a job and it pays well....damn u.....ure so lucky....me, im still searching.... well, i got a job...but its not paying me enough......i need more......so annie get my dream job...and make my dream come true....or john from MTV ask me to do more animations for mtv or in another word....gimme a job.....thatll be a dream job.... but else ben! choose me....and gimme that loads of ot..... im hoping....hoping damn many-many....hehehe.....need to be driving my nsx....hehehe.....dreams....could be just dreams or reality.....mine, i want it to become a reality.....wish me luck guys.. to shahreil congrats....looks like ull be tying the know with yati pretty soon eh? congrats bro.....

weird

just wen i was abt to pull out from everytin....sms came again...but too bad i was sound asleep.....

engineering? is it wat i really wanna do? i got a feeling the pay is going to be good after the interview but then again i actually fear, fear of taking the responsibility bcos its a taxing job...not physically but everything.....i was scheduled for an interview at 4pm but apparently the engineer,ben was on site and could not make it so at the last minute they called me to come at 6pm. even at 6pm ben wasnt in the office, patience.......i waited, almost dozed off cos i was dead tired......then ben came in, in coveralls all sweaty....he explained....the job....how late sometimes u have to stay and it scares me.....my basic is pretty good and if i work ot its 10bucks per hour, pretty good nuff. now im just deciding.....whether to take up the GREAT challenge or just chicken away and wait for annie to give me another suitable job......i wonder if i should sacrifice my freedom for the sake of money and slug all day 6 days a week and probably more than 12hours a day.....or not....i want a balance life not slug all my life for money....well i dunno....ill decide upon wat he will offer me...anyways, there were only 3 shortlisted and im the lucky one to get to meet the engineer.......tis is probably the only job that provides the most challenge... projects...etc....whoah.....

meanwhile gotta catch up on sleep....meanwhile im a supermarket supervisor....harhar.

yani...call me tomoro....still wanna chit chat with u like before....i think our conversations play apart to my well being....i miss talking to u nurse yani....:)

how dumb can i be?

shouldnt have been so naive....shouldnt trust....should always be cautious....i know its not going to happen but i was optimistic and i tried to instill positive thinking into my hard shell....but truth prevails...that the species are hard to predict and sometimes even trust....so here i am almost dipping myself into a pot of boiling oil, except i was early enough to pull myself out.....but the force draws me back luring me by the sight of gleaming golden boiling oil......i shall not be so dumb to fall prey to the trap that they so enjoy to place....lure u into the beautiful sight only burning yourself in the process just like the moths that were attracted to the candle flames...
so bright so gleaming, so beautiful yet harmful when get in too near or deep....thats life.

enough of negativity.....back to positivity...ive been offered a position of engineering position at a local company....i think i could get 1.5k basic minimum... i hope ben is kind enough to accept me. and this would indeed be a breakthrough in my life. if im successful soon enough ill be like some of my frens, living a comfortable life....if at least i have wealth id think less of loneliness....

gotta sleep but i couldnt, im overly excited about the possible change thats going to happen....

yani, i dig u but too bad things not working out...frens is fine with me...1 thing i hate....why u n ur species cant just be frank? would it hurt?.....

gnite peepz

if u cursed me, congrats...

tt was the nick on my msn....but anyways my gilly is fine....the problem was the wires somewhere was loose....i dunno how it became loose...but anyways all i care is i dun have to pay a single cent, except my cab fare....12bucks sak...to collect my bike..

mom, still havent got her scan results...tumoro ill go down, hopefully by then they have some answers.....

dear girl....i like u but somehow u decide to change ur mind and ignore me instead... its ok....im used to rejection...but dun treat me so good in the first place then reject later la...that i hate....anyways, theres always retribution...enjoy it...cheers

oh omel i know u meant well but i think u dun really know her well enough...bt thnks anyways for ruining my week...

cheers everyone no harm intended adios.....next mth ill get that pair of NIKES

oh before i leave annie called again, i might be called up for an interview for EA position at sungei kadut...i hope i get it....back to engineering bye bye supermarket.

its the everything went wrong week.

1st mom got admited....suspected jaundice....further check up suspected stone in gul bladder....recomended surgery, remove the infected bladder AKA hep c. to date, nothing is confirmed yet, scan results not out yet.

2ndly, bike decide to break down, NEW bike some more....i dunno wat went wrong...

3rdly, someone i tot i would be closely suddenly changed...i dunno wat i did wrong but she has shown some signs that she is avoiding me.

4thly, bike brokedown, means money out for towing and possible repair costs.....so ppl please understand.

life suck this week, im under pressure and stress.....so pls dun add on to it... an you pls no more la omel...i give up....frens is fine....