gray life....


there are various definitions for the word gray, for me my gray life....just means lacking cheer or brightness in my mood.....well of course not all of the time. that's why the meet ups at alifs, thats why my frens around me. they add the colour to my life, the cheer, the brightness......the daily dosage of laughters that came in the night just brighten up my gloomy gray life. they are like a medication for a comatose to be alive again, they are like colours of paints that splashes on an empty canvas. my scooter, the cat, the simple things in life that is beautiful to this pair of eyes created by God adds colour to my life as well, taking me away from my gray life....
thank you God....Alhamdu'Lilah.....

beautiful rain drops forms the puddle on the ground...

i registered for 4 subjects.......at first i wanted to take 2 only but what the heck, so i got registered for english, malay, science & maths......hope to get all 1s on all this.....

some might think im nuts, having a diploma n retaking my o levels....fer wat fuck...but i did terribly at o levels n probably thats why i didnt get into teaching. I love to teach n i want to be a teacher n theres no harm trying again n again, while of cos working else where......thats what i wanna do, n i have to work on it to make it happen.

wish me luck guys......c ya ard...nuthin much to say....

kill me, im fucking vicious

life jus plain simple fucked up, matters of the mind and heart being played around with. no wonder the weird feeling last night, its happening again. emotions, beyond our humanly controls although how hard we tried to suprass the powerful feelings that engulfed us, itll still be there. its like holding down a quater ton crocodile, agigated, provoked by your intentions of calming it down.

words, a beautiful form of expression, which gives birth to music and stories....
expressions on a face means a thousand words cos you could never tell what is the one thing that lies behind it. its an art that nobody can master fully, the smiles on the face, could just hide the sadness in the mind and soul, the frown on his face could just mean he's having a stupid stomach ache. its pretty complicated, GOD is indeed a genius. With this, it makes us think, use our brains, heart & soul to decide on what's best though we are totally unsure of it no matter how best we thought the decisions were. Its because, we can never be absolutely certain, we decide but we leave to fate to give the verdict if the decisions made, were indeed perfect. If not, we have to face the painful & harsh reality, toturing our mind & soul as it uncovers.
Regrets & remorse then engulfed us, and a thousand 'IFs' would be playing around our weak minds. As we move on, to uncover the new, to leave the flawed past, it still haunts u from behind, turn for a second & it gets closer to u......

this is indeed life, aint it beautiful.....

but if its coming from me, its half crap.....harharhar....

arrest me, kill me, i am vicious

installed photoshop....had fun with my dgcam....heres the result....enjoi

i am vicious!p.s(view more at myfotopage!)

kill me, i am vicious

that was my nick last night on msn.....didnt feel like going down alif, cos i have to settle my computer n stuffs ....if not ill drag n not do it.....so once and for all, i reinstalled some parts of the comp, which has already irritated me cos of malicious spyware programmes which corrupted my comp.....

if im not outside, this is where ill be at, msn.....c ya ard....

this is good

guys check this out for ull be amazed at his illustrations n motion design.... www.munkmotion.com

shoot, shoot, shoot...

was playing ard with my new toy....no, no its not the iflatable doll! its my dgcam...
was snapping myself in my shoe......enjoi......

sid(a doll of me) in his favourite shoe!
p.s the dolls customade, order urs, i'll design, sew it up n itll be urs for a small price....:)---help the needy harhar!

laluna, i love ur voice........

laluna is an indonesian, their songs are so 60s pop......and the voice that sung them... lovely...

didnt have much fun today....hey lysda with that comment on my fotopages....it seems or it appears that all of us are smiling or having fun but half of us are having problems of their own.......:) we meet up to comfort each other, making everyone smile jus for that moment......thats the real truth....

today as usual, met up with the guys at alif's.....trying to forget the day's worries, problems & emotions....living is rather stressful, the usual talks, the usual smiles.. tumoro the plan is, look for job in the morning this time round i got 2 frens, buncit n boy.....late afternoon, karaoke with shareil, yati, sharul n whoever wants to tag...
seems like fun? but im not sure yet if i wanna go.....

nite to all, not really in the mood to write anything....cheers~

Some things are better left alone

emotions aside, matters of the heart aside....this is a public blog so i aint gonna bitch about stuffs like that.....

anyway, the italian never did call me, so i assume i never got the job...sheesh....
going for another interview tumoro, wish me luck aight? kinda bored today....nuthin much really, except selling off most of my stuffs online......

me still dreaming of my future, where ill be at in 5 years time...etc.... until then enjoy the pictures on my fotopages. if ure dumb enough as to not know where to go, ill give u directions, scroll to ur left and click on one of those links idiot!...harharhar....

no more obstacles.....

why must my title always have a meaning behind it? ah....now u know....:)
jus wanna show u that effort put in equals astounding results..here are before & after pics of my room after mths of not cleaning up, ever since raya to be exact.


before


after

kau hancurkan hatiku, untk melihat mu.....

eee....sound so emo.....but anyways, that came off peter pan's hit song, today they got in 1st for the song "Kukatakan Dengan Indah"...their songs are so 'life like' meaning its as though its taken off from someone's life sorta narrated story...its not like some song composures that you can straight away tell its purely fictional....

so much so for songs....
went to the library to indulge in mass knowledge absorption thru 3 books on my new upcoming hobby....and 1 self help book.....that aisha laughed at...oh met her cos she had to pass me the firewire cables n charger and all.....after that she went to meet ardha..... me home for me as the clouds turn dark forbiding me to ride further.. probably its just telling me, enough for the day....:)....

by the way my room's clean......and i have a dgcam.....but i still take fotos using my k700i....idiot!......here's my caramella....enjoi!


caramella my love.....

my screen is fucked

urgghhh.....my monitor is fucked....the screen appear distorted.....just great when im short of cash all the fuck problems came up....nvm that.....ughh!

stimgam left a remark "GAY!"...harharhar...probably he is the one whose GAY...lame ass.....:P. i love my caramella, my scooter u got a problem with that?