i never want to grow up

no tts not wat i really want to be(refering to my title) its jus tt i realised up till now, i still keep on dreaming...NO not that im not moving...i am...but i keep on dreaming for more and more...get wat i mean?....the dreams the vision to go further never stops......haiz....probably capricons are bunch of extremely ambitious ppl tts not given an opportunity.....a fellow capricon just became a lift technician cos apparently, his business partners decide to disband the group and go individual....

see....i guess we are the bunch tt have to go via the hard way, not the expressway like some blessed ppl....they want dat there they go...in a jiffy..... or maybe because, i only decide to be serious and less playful(i said less playful) in my earlier days which had a great effect on the most important link in life in sg, the O levels....if not i guess i wouldve gotten my first choice(business studies) OR if i wouldve mixed with more art ppl, i wouldve realised tt i actually love drawing.....its the beginning.
the beginning went wrong...so i have to ammend in the middle, which is so fucken hard.
cos now its a matter of money, im no longer mama's boy, i have to feed my own and contribute to tha familia as well....so theres some restriction....and me i chose the option to earn a handsome paycheck first before pursuing other less important avenues, but if this particular path cant be achievable either cos i cant get 2 guarantor earning more than 3k....i guess, ill have to plan a back up.... i always had one.... tts why i never remain jobless for long...(hmm 4-5mths is pretty long) but its not about being jobless, its about bringing back the dough....

anyways drop the present state....inside my 7 1/4 inch circumference head, i still wanna set up a business someday(probably wen i retire from nursing), u know open shop, tidy up and sit back probably sipping kopi n shisha while waiting for customers...i still somehow love trading...anyways tt was wat our Phropet encouraged us to do....and at the same time, i can draw, create, and do things i enjoy... wow looks like ive planned retirement liao...hahahha.....well actually i wished it would come earlier but now the reality and the possibility is only at retirement, where id have ample capital to start off with. probably my younger siblings or my children will be the luckiest ones ard....well, too early to speak....

i love it when i have so much in mind.....but id rather not speak to a living being cos theyd probably laugh off to wat i say or probably smile but have negative tots inside....

anyways until then, got other stuffs to do...enjoi life i must say....