No matter...

No matter how many times I profess how much I love you,
No matter how I confessed how I kept thinking about you when we're apart...

All doesn't matter cos frankly I don't know how to describe this feeling that is so strong, that I never felt before.

A commitment I took, without the littlest fear, I went straight to ask for your hand. So sure I was, that what others said, others think doesn't even matter cos yes, like what you said before what matters most is what we know what's in our heart, mind and soul.

To the interferences, funny but I would like to say thanks cos at the end of the day, I long for her more each day. I can't wait for the day whereby we'd have no barriers of being together everyday, whereby external parties have no say about our relationship, whereby the ties are tied with a dead knot.

And because of you too, I realized that some things are not worth fighting and now my task is to fight for you for I will take the vow to protect thee, to make sure of your well being, to make sure you are away from harm, loved, have food to eat, have a roof over our heads while we sleep, have clothes to change and many more.

For I was prepared to take all these responsibilities, I should just ditch all the toils of fighting for the truth, pride and rights for it doesn't matter if it doesn't kill me for God knows best and you my love, you understand me most and nobody else can and I hope you will continue understanding me.

I hope we will guide each other in the journey we will embark together, I hope you will steer this vessel we will be on if I am reckless enough to go the wrong way. We have equal rights in this, we will share this path and it is only right we will have equal control like we always have.

I still remember the times when you defended me, you fight for me in a subtle way.
I still remember when you pick me up, when you console me like you are comforting a child.
I still remember when you tried to calm me down, your touch calms the savage beast within me waiting to be released to defend and fight.
I still remember that look of yours.
Continue what we had love, what we always had.

I love you, like I said, words are only words, only God knows how I feel about you, what goes through my mind, how my heart delays a beat whenever I look into your eyes, whenever I held your hand.

Thank you love for being with me and soon we'll be tied to be together forever, InsyahAllah.