Suddenly I felt like listening to....
Anyways, I think certain parts of me have grown up....and when I think of what I have done and not done before the age of say 25.....alot of 'could have done' came to mind but hey, no regrets....I'm aiming for that advance dip now, that's all. Get into the good books of my superiors, outstanding performances and in no time I am very sure I'd be there.....
6 more years to my own apartment. I am not so psyched bout marriage, I just don't know why...probably the hassles of getting there is too much for me. Must I go thru all the 'customs' that we created? Customs or culture is not religion, so why follow them more strictly? I have no idea....
Anyways, ForceVomit rock my socks with 'KidsWhoWTF' and 'Siti' and other numbers that I didn't catch the title. Anyways thanks Aisha, else I guess I wouldn't have went. LoL
Dental appointment at 850....oh my gosh its been eons since I went and my sets not in good shape...somehow at this age, theres still fear with dentists, although i'm already in the health profession. LoL.
Sorry Hisham, couldn't make it yest...was tired after baybeats and all...cheers, bro. May you and all of us prosper....:) yes I'd want that Beemer too....a little too big a dream does no harm, not dreaming at all is harmful.
Suddenly
The start
The start of the racing gears.....wanted to get Oakley initially but they cost like $115 bucks...and this month i only got like 2/3 or my pay. So I thought I'd go for cheaper one...so I ended up this sleek MFizz at $40(after bargaining from $45). The Alpinestar that I browsed was fucken awesome but they cost $160. Bonus I'm going to get those Rjays race suit and boots, plus Shoei Hornet DS or Arai TX Motard....:)
Alhamdullilah
Yeah I'm glad many ppl are willing to help me and all. Even my nursing officer who helped me look for a room/flat nearer to work. So he found out that NC.Fatimah the Diabetes Clinician had a room as her eldest daughter was already married and not staying with the family. She can tell that I have problems and she told me that she can tell that I'm the sort that rather kept everything to myself. She even said that, she can treat me as their own son, her elder son is in NS, there's only her youngest son. I'm touched but then again, sympathy gets me a little uncomfortable. I don't know if its ego cos I'm not the egoistic sort. But somehow I prefer to be surviving on my own, even now I feel like buying my own flat but legislation won't allow me to do so and somehow I feel obligated to stay here as Bird's mom already trusted me and all...
Life somehow always comes u to situation where you are stuck in a dilemma and needed you to make tough choices. Like frens over prospects, dates over frens, work over freelance & part-time job, cameras over supermoto, the band and many more.....being occupied with so many things aint easy....I need proper planning....I just hope I won't get burned out cos I love all the things I am doing currently and I want to excel in all of them....can't help it la...capricorns have the tendency to be ambitious....they'd climb to great heights....LoL....
Ok gotta solat fajr and get ready for work....adios peeps, wish me luck with life. :)
minds...
I had a splendid weekend although a couple of not so good stuffs happening on saturday. I dunno if I was caught on the speed camera.....and someone stole my cashcard.
Apart from that I had a splendid time with Ain....we watched 'Pathology', good show, not fantastic but good. I enjoyed my time with Ain & I guess I am adapting to her, we do have certain similarities after all. I guess I am giving it a go, a try at it, who knows right? I think I am going to ask her out again this weekend. :)
Rashid got engaged today...in May next year, he's tying the knot. Congrats pal...
Yati gave birth to a handsome young man, Ryan Iskandar....I held him in my arms, I wish I will have my own in the near future. Congrats Yati and Shahreil.....:)
Ended the day at the coffee shop with Lin, Mankey, Halem, Pen & Adzwan....
I love my friends and I'm sorry Shah and the rest of the supermoto guys cos I have to forgo Saturday's meet up at Ben n Jerry's. Maybe next time yeah?....:)
Rent
Looking to rent room near sengkang area.....pals if you know of anyone renting out pls inform me. Sengkang/Ang Mo Kio/Hougang would be fine....cheerios.....
thursday
Ok it's horoscopes are meant as entertainment and accuracy are purely coincidental, I read not because I believe but hey here it goes, the one at facebook says:
'Capricorn: Do your best to be responsive to others without actually being responsible for them. Your charm and self-confidence will attract members of the opposite sex today. If you are not currently in a relationship, now is a great time to start one. You deserve the best, so don't settle for anything less.'
Good night peeps, enjoy your week....
wats next?
Firstly, pay increment within a week at sixth avenue...then came the salary offer that exceeded marginally with my expectation....now another opportunity to make some extra cash. Alhamdullilah, although I can say, I'm not a perfect or good muslim but thank God, I know HE is helping me. Could my dream of owning my own flat be realised sooner than I imagine? What next? Well, I wanna work hard for my degree cos while waiting for that promotion and a chance at advance diploma in 2 years, I'll have all the opportunity to find out more about the degree and a chance of adding 400bucks more to my paycheck monthly....the thing is WHO. I know I'll meet the WHO, whom will guide and give me information....... I just know....
Today I met my other officer, my NM(nurse manager). He's a little intimidating but being thru all kinds of stuff, I was fine conversing with him. One thing I am glad with working at 72 is the staffs are all male, theres VERY LITTLE politics compared to the general wards where females made the majority, I am not being sexist here but its just my experience, thats all.
My preceptor wasn't as bad as I assume he'd be(because of his reaction on day 1). He's fine after all, although there's some negativity, just some....but hey, I can work with him. You see, being a newbie in anywhere is all about adapting, I'm talking bout anywhere, not only your workplace, your new circle of friends. But that doesn't mean you let them step on you. You adapt but you show as well, you're not just another nail on that wooden block waiting to be hit on. You are alive.
Tomorrow as always I am going to discover stuffs on my own cos' as usual I don't enjoy the ridicule, criticisms and negativity I get. I always go discover things with an open mind, analyse and then all the negativity can come in if theres justification to do so. Else, even if I reject, I let it be.
I'm missing Sherry, she's a fun pal to hang out with but I guess she's busy with her new job. :)
Saturday, first jamming session after donkey years, meet up with the supermoto boys and probably meeting Ain.....jammed packed weekend.....Sunday, pay Bird's mom a visit and Rashid's engagement......woots I'm occupied....
I can't wait for payday, wanna bring out mom for makan....any suggestions?
thick
gosh, the coat of paint on my handguards were too thick....i guess i going to sand it and spray all over again this weekend....looks like a good past-time...LoL anyways i lost that tiny allen key again darn...
had an evening of charades with the cool bbss ppl....:)....
an im going to have a project ska band with bird....he wants me as the vocals....hahaha can make it ker?....hahaha, we're going to play all originals....and i gonna write the lyrics...cool stuff right? pray for us that you'd see these ol'birds rocking the scene.....LoL...
gnite peeps
DAV
Yes that was the ward I am posted to, ward7A&B also known as DAV-ward, short for Disturbed-Aggressive-Violent, the notorious of the unsound, the ghetto of the mental institution. It's not that bad....one good thing is 3/4 of my colleagues are great and 3/4 of my patients are pretty harmless but its too early to say...cos first day and theres already 3 incidents of slapping! LoL.... Gotta hit the sheets....adios...tumoro 8-4pm again...for 2 weeks I'll enjoy Sundays off... but for the month of August I guess I'll loose out on the shift allowance....daym........
Roland my colleague told me to expect promotion in 2years to the next grade and being send to advance diploma if I do ok.....wooots!.....Ill be a RMN in around 3years then if everything go smoothly....ouh RMN is Registered-Mental-Nurse.....kelakar kalau cakap cepat2...bleh jadi Registered Mentelness....LoL
SN2
Today I signed the letter of appointment, SN2. I was posted to Ward72B of IMH. The salary they offered me was pretty good, infact it's the highest paying job I've ever had. If my calculations for the allowances is correct, it actually exceeded my initial expectations. Somehow the doubt and greed struck me and I do wonder at one point if I am getting paid enough. If my interpretation of what the HR told me is correct, its excluding my shift & hazard allowance which sum up to around $260. If I am correct in the calculations, it actually exceeded my expectations. I ranged mom after I signed, she was happy for me.
Monday I'll start work at IMH as a staff nurse in my off white uniform with blue linings. I still do not know what to expect yet but I'm staying optimistic. Anyways the ward I was posted to is a long stay ward, I just hope theres not too much bed bound patients, else, I need to work out more in order to be fit for the workload and to protect myself from any injuries like back strains and all. Nursing is not such an easy job you know, unless you are posted in some specialist clinic/outpatient or polyclinic. Anyways, I gotta stay in IMH for 3years and I think I will move on to the private sector for a much promising pay if I am not offered to further my studies after bond. If they do offer me for an advance diploma or degree, I'd stay longer in Buangkok Green. :)
Tumoro I still gotta work at 6th Avenue, I don't think I am quiting, I will work there part time, say once or twice a week. The extra income will go either to my savings(for my own flat) or hobby.
I think I'll limit shopping and all till end of the year, next year, I'll save more than the final few months of 2008.
Anger
Ouh I wanna vent my anger....you damn act pious piece of shit......what for if you step in and out of holy mosque when you criticize ppl and fitnah and hurl sarcasms at a fellow muslim? shame on you.....shall I hurl shit at you? Nah....you're already smelly as shit...your heart's full of maggots....so much for tonggang tonggek and kuar masuk masjid....so much for you bragging not missing religious class.....you hurt my mom, you made her hypertension worse.....I hope that you.....Neh......God knows what to do.....
Take off your veil and plastic masks la...go paint ultimate warrior on your face cos your berbual so world, so ultimate......LoL....pious my ass....
give up
The sticker tested my patience, the curved surface of the rear shroud got me furious...LoL...the stickers ended up like shriveled prunes....LoL.....luckily the stickers I designed were for the front shrouds(not curvy, easier to stick on)....
Highlight of the day, I managed to pull a proper stoppie but I dunno how high I got but I know the rear tyre left up quite abit....I've been trying stoppies for weeks and this is the best I got...will challenge myself further when I get handguards....you actually need balls to pull it off...seriously, when fear is there my tyres never leave the ground.........
Today was me and my bike(and adil n his orange tagged along).....I was feeling crazy today and finally I did adjust my suspension.....and that direct muffler is a no-no for me...too loud, too attention seeking(for the boys in white).....mediocre is fine for me...but you should've listened to the pipe with the direct/short muffler.....monstrous....
Tumoro I might consider getting the handguard.....100bucks is fine, although the clamp doesnt clamp properly...we'll see....
I still not happy with my gear 2 wheelies...LoL.....cmmon courage where are you? my fingers always refuse to let go off the clutch....hmmmfffttt...
Slowly....like Ben said, the endo/wheelie guru....LoL
Taaa peeps....kyle xy again for me!
Racer X
Im mad at the adrenalin rush that it brings me....at least it's healthier.....my eyesight, i need to train them.....and reflex....
I've got a motard guru online...LoL.....Din used to race his KTM400 and won a couple of trophies and he's providing me with a little guidance.....there's an 80-90% chance you will be seeing me in future events....LoL....once I get fully equipped and all.......I'm a little late but at least I'm doing it before I settle down....I told many of my frens before that I'd wanna do certain stuffs before I settle down and grow old....and this is one of it.....It doesn't matter if I loose....or finish last, the thing is I got to do it.....:)
Another thing I will just do is, get that class3......Yes I know...it's been years since I said that and I guess my basic theory slip is turning yellow....but I will try to get it before I turn 30 and at my 30th birthday, I wanna get a car for myself.....:).....at 35, a flat of my own....woots...hey 5-6 years isn't a long time away....it's been 2 years already since me and my guarantors signed the bond for my nursing career and almost a year since I've been single, yes time flies and it's time to fill up my savings once again, since it's been dried up during the period of 2years......:).....
Gotta go guys.....visiting mom tumoro....:)
Lessons
Sometimes things work in mysterious ways......
Today, the staffs decided to be childish and never turn up for work dunno for watever reasons and I became the unintended victim. I had to tend the kitchen all on my own...I became like a superman in the kitchen, trying to keep the orders in time and making sure the food turn out right. I'm not the sort when I have to rush things I do a shit job, I take pride in things I do especially things that I like, for example cooking....I can become a perfectionist at times....
Abg. Zul gave a comment that flared me....he was joking then he apologized told me something that I will remember. He told me sometimes we can't be too nice or people will take advantage of you and when you turn a little nasty from a too nice person, they'll say you're extermely nasty or bad....As I hustled around the kitchen...I gave what he said a thought....Theres some truth to it...
Well, I am not the sort that would retaliate at measely tiny little things.....sometimes I played along, sometimes I ignore...I assumed that if I did the same to them, they would be ok with it but when I did....I became the totally nasty bad guy......Thnks Abg.Zul for the thoughtful words...
One of my ex-gf smsed me by mistake, it's kinda sad whats happening to her, I must guess its frustating for her with what has happened...sometimes I regret what I wished for when I was hurt by her, I wished she would face the same thing....I just hope she'd be fine, somehow I think I do still care about her....after all we did spend some time together last year.....
God loves people who wishes well for others.....sometimes I curse others because I was engulfed in anger and venting it out by wishing for something bad does makes me feel better but then again that doesn't change anything...I need to take actions if it involves something injustice but if it cannot be done, I just have to wish things will work out well for the 'victim' and may the wrong-doer turn over a new leaf and change for the better.
I'm at dilemma at work at times...I am at lost, cos I am like in the middle...my boss trust me so much that I got a raise within a week and yet I can only watch as some of the staff do the wrong things. I had to do something, so I told my boss but not mentioning who....he said he knows, and he understands that I am in a difficult position. He is just waiting for that person(s) to be caught red handed. I hope what I did was the right thing to do.
Ok I gotta go....get some sleep, tumoro is another long day.....11th August I'll start working at IMH, I really hope to change lives, to get them better, really...honest from the bottom of my heart.
gnite peeps
weekends....
Ouh well watched mummy on Friday....ok cool show, i still love fiction, fantasy, etc...I was glued to the screen...
Today I went for bikefest 2008, Sorry Ain, I make it up to you soon kay? promise....anyways, bikefest is ubber lame....boring and alot of waiting but theres a chick giving out redbull...hehehe. And Johnattan never showed his true potential as a stunt rider....and the motards that came was the minority...many never come....I regret coming.....but hey....was fun riding with some of the peeps and man....that husky got me drooling....was asking shah wat class2 motard should I get.... seems like he share the view of many, KTM525......sigh....when...when....
I went back early.....then I smsed Pen, 'nasib baik kau tak ikut....lame...' then asked her where she was and if she got plans....she was heading to an internet cafe to hunt for singfest tickets....I told her to drop off the bus so I can fetch her and she could use the net at my place instead since I got no plans and got nothing to do....bought food, tapau.....makan and she started hunting while I watch the tube and laze in the living room......I think I am still most comfortable with Pen amongst all girls, maybe probably thats why we remained frens for quite some time oredi.
So much for my weekend and tumoro I will slog at work for my pocket money for the month of August while Pen and her frens And Ruyani and her frens enjoy Singfest........damn......
Gnite peeps....:) ouh I popped 2 wheelies on a Saturday....LoL
staff nurse siddiq
Officially SN.Siddiq as of today! Woots....
Was registering myself with the Nursing Board at SGH when I received an sms, an old fren, Ruyani, she saw me. She finished work at 5pm, I never brought extra helmet so we met up at Borders....been a long time, we catch up on times, been awhile since we met up. Her fren she supposed to meet up came, so I left as I have a soccer appointment with the guys, speaking of which, I gotta run....see ya guys...
Fully Instant
Thinking of selling my Nikon FE2 to go fully instant. Will use the cash to buy a spanking Yone or Instax55i.....should I? Then probably the rest for a peel off camera......and I would still have left for a cheap compact RF and handguards for my supermoto.
kyle xy
hooked on kyle xy, thnks to aisha....if im not replyin on msn, probably id be watching kyle xy. LoL
wooohooo nervous
I might be starting work sooner than I expect...Yahnee smsed me just now that she'll be collecting her transcripts cos her hospital requested for it to be released and that Yahnee go down to collect it cos it'll be faster than them sending it via mail. I'm giving them a call and hopefully I can collect mine as well so as to quicken the process. And woots, I guess in a week or two I'll be SN Siddiq working at psychiatric ward in IMH. Goodbye lobo-ness and total freedom, hello work-reponsiblities and dreams chasing. Hello working world, hello Staff Nurse Siddiq...woots!
And in no time I'll be saving for my gear and racing at Tuas circuit....woots.....and in no time I'll be snapping on DSLRs and hello hobbies......woots....
