what if i was a superstar?...

the previous entry was done in anger and frustation over me losing yet another valuable assignment and friends being irritating unintentionally....so pardon me...

anyways, i was not a real geography teacher, they dumped me to 2weeks assignment to teach that subject for the upper sec......well, i did studied geog in my secondarys school days but that was like 10years ago.....so there i was living in denial that i know geography...until truth takes over, i dunno a shit and 'they'(the fucked up school who calls u up as and when they need you but you would go back to them cos the money is good....haizzz.....) found a replacement, a real geog relief teacher, well, i hope he fail to deliver too! cos the students are rowdy, rude and ignorant....i hope he doesnt last and the school will realise that im the only relief teacher that can 'tahan' their nonsense......cos my mind was focused on earning that 65bucks per day.....thats how desperate i am.....its stressful to be a teacher and its worse if you are just a relief cos somehow, the students know you will be around only for a short while and thus they do whatever they want, knowing you wont be back to nag, scream, punish them....so the few of the 'stupid'(cos they do not realise they are destroying their own future!) ones would walk around the class, walk out, talk with each other, listen to their mp3s, play games, etc...while i carry out my lessons to the few, very few who wants to learn....i don't give a fuck about the rest of them cos i have tried telling them, its their future.....i was their age once, so i know they don't give a fuck......its only when they are my age, they would regret their actions.....

some people at my age are worried and stressed out about marriage, settling down and getting a house of their own....but for me and some of my frens, we are worried about getting a real career.......being in the middle(having a diploma & not a degree) is not good at all......cos u cant get a job at your 'level' cos the employers are asswipes not wanting to waste money on trainings....so they seek out diploma holders with experience only.....while, if you applied a 'level' below u, for example those jobs that only require 'o' levels, they would not accept u either cos they fear you would ask for a pay raise and would not stay long.....ive went for these interviews before, they kept askin the same stupid question, "you have a diploma why you want this job that requires only NTC?" and ive repeated the same question umpteen times " cos i want to gain experience and its better working from below so i know more and anyways, employers wouldnt want a diploma holder with no experience, so if i start from below, i can build up a career and experience as well and id be a better engineer in the future with your company, i do not mind the salary or the jobscope as you can see from my resume, ive worked hard labour and long hours before...." and so on....means and ways i try to convince them that i need a fucken job and employers only want a diploma holder with experience and that jus fail to compute to their useless brains......wtf, when will this mentality stop?.......ure killing the young of singapore.....only those with contacts or IS mandarin gets jobs easily.....for the rest of us, we are either freelance technicians, baristas, waiters, managers of some fast food chain or those with bikes despatch riders......while all of us either have diploma or a degree......so don't look down on those flipping burgers they might have a degree, they are only not given the opportunity to use their degree..... i would be one of them, as im taking the step to apply as a trainee manager(and i failed to get the one at delifrance cos she tot i would not stay long...) at mcd or something... i heard the pay is good...but ive read the profile...you CAN build up a career, the only thing is whether i would like it or not....but that doesnt matter now, cos what matters more is survival...

for those blessed with jobs....treasure yours.....i never did treasure my last 'REAL' job as cos i tot that engineering firm was taking advantage of me(well they did, cos they paid me a measely $1150, where elsewhere ppl with ITE earns $1350.whats more, no overtime pay and i have to travel to jb every month!, no allowances!)and i was duped into taking up the relief teaching cos the pay is good but the truth is they only BEG u to come when they need u and they just push u away when they don't need you.... or maybe i should've taken up, MR Chua's offer of me becoming the perm cook at 1.4k....but seriously if i did, i'd have no life......but at this point who cares about life(as in enjoyment and stuffs) all i care is about survival and not being a burden to anybody......

if i were to carry on, letting my fingers type furiously, itll be endless.....its just my way of sharing with you guys, how hard it is living down here....if i had a choice, i wouldnt be here......probably some angel would take me to another country.. mebbe find a gf from somewhere else or sumthin....hahahahaha ....now im blabbering nonsense.......g nite peepz!