im such an ass

i think im such an ass, i dunno why....but it happened again....sigh....

anyways went skating with ratnor last night.......yes i guess we are old...hahaha anyways its like slacking half the time rather than skating.....partly ratnor was tired from the 3km run he had earlier....and me, im just plain slacking....i was actually hoping for april to call but she was thoughtful nuff not to, cos when i get back she said she didnt want to call cos she knows im skating and doesnt want to like disrupt my fun something like that....anyways glad she's fine oredi....anyways ratnor taught me the essential of nose manual....well...i need more practise...tonight maybe?

sometimes i wish theres some kind of bullet proof vest but hey, its god's will in some ways right?......im glad anyways im more aware of what i might get myself into or of the consequences if things goes in the opposite direction....well im prepared.... sometimes i feel im like a small boy who needs the attention and all, i guess im not that independent after all eh?

its raining.....gosh i dont think i would go out in this kind of weather, i just tot of getting some food or something....hmm i guess ill just cook myself come sardines or something....

and babe.....i miss u larh...