one after another

i dunno whats happening, i tot things getting better in a way or another but it appears not to be what i expected...its like one after another kinda thingy u know if melayu cakap "macam jatuh di timpa tangga..." its like one blow after another...well what can i do, this is fate and probably God's way of testing me....just accept lor and try my best to change it to be better or at least adapt to it...

haiz....i tot at least id be smiling a little on top of all the frownings but i guess now the smiles are merely smiles for the sake of smiling not a smile from deep within. emo arent i? i cant help it....its happening...i know....i just know...

i dont know la, i dont know wats happening...

i just want to get away....from everything for sometime....cant wait for the vacations. i think id love to try travelling alone...will i have the balls to do it? hmm.... we'll see, if things really gets worse....ill definitely do it...i need something to release the tension...