sigh

its sad to see someone sad but i had to make things clear that it wont happen. i know im mean not giving a chance again but being so different just make things worse......u just didt fit in the empty space.....u know like the jigsaw.....ure young im sure u have plenty of suitors.....my previous ones all left me for better suitors, so why not u do the same. don't punish yourself for something tts not ur fault, its just tt we're mismatched, the 6months were jus trying to overcome so many differences but i just couldn't do that......im sorry. i once punished myself when someone i love so dearly left me but then i realised, what for??? she doesnt care, she left me for good, cmmon sid enjoy life, its not ur fault....tts why probably i went 'weight-yoyo-ing' cos at one period i had no appetite watsoever but then when i realised, i was pigging out again....

life is short, so beautiful to sulk about, leave the bad parts behind and start a new beautiful episode. theres 24hours in a day if 8 hours went bad, theres still 16 hours double of what went bad, 6 hours sleep, u still have 10hours to cherish, so why waste ur life away.

i will try somewhat not to read ur entries bcos i dont want to symphatize and give it a try again and just give u false hope and in the end it failed again because i know we will fail. we are mismatched and towards the end i really realised that. thnks for being with me for the 6mths, its been over for like 3mths already so please try to forget me.
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shahreil's not going to good vibrations.....sigh.....but hey, Is-rambut is still going......and yahnee is still considering....and i am still hoping to volunteer and if i am selected ill be working with hida......so ok la not so bad.....tokyo ska paradise, woohoo more and more ppl are taggin along....coolness.....i can already imagine how their performance will be......i know its going to be money worth spending......

baybeats 07, 20-dischanger is selected for the auditions...they are the 30 out of 200 who went....and 15 more will be kicked out. i pray that they get selected, the final 15 tt will perform at this year's baybeats.......member's punye band, mesti support babe...anyways they do have wonderful tracks...originals....

next week 2 weddings abang-adil's and jai's........hmmm.....how to split myself eh? nasib baik adil bilang datang malam... and ouh sorry TAGs, i cant make it to the barbeque.....2 weddings la.....

yest, sitting in the car with shahreil driving, made me yearn for a class3 but i told myself its no hurry cos i wont have a car anyways and even if i wanted to buy, im not able to yet......only probably after i draw my full pay. so i told shahreil probably in a year or 2 id get my license and he even said itd be easier when i draw my full pay already.....we talked along the way about nursing mainly, thoughtful of him to do so. well, i do want to migrate but not permanently cos i still love sg, i mean my loved ones are here, unless i can afford to bring them all with me, thats a different story. and yes i may want to consider switching to general ward to gain experience....perhaps after my bond. and i can bet im not settling down till then...

okla gotta go, having an online discussion with my team-mate yahnee....high-tech eh skarang, dont u realise times have changed, last time in sec school we discuss school work over the phone....now its msn.....heee...okla ciao...