failed again...

sigh....she showed no remorse...

i last shed tears on raya morning....cos i now am living alone, i hugged mom, although i know i will still be visiting her whenever im free but still id not be living under a roof with the mom i loved....

i controlled, i hold them back but my eyes grew teary...i try not to make it roll down my cheeks cos big boys dont cry and i shall not...im just shaken and shivering and really upset + disappointed + shock.

the worst thing is....when i wanted it to end...'do watever u want..'

im shattered...

hmmmftttt....i dunno wat to do....i hope i made the right choice, it hurts but i guess its for my own good.