yoda said patience

may the force be with u....

patience is the key i guess....im too into my future thingy tt sometimes i worry too much. i cant wait to start school and see the outcome, see howd i do.....but i have to wait cos time appears to be moving slow.....so patience sid.

caramella, u have been left unattended and sunday i will wax u showroom shine and ride u ard.....i so want to put caramella in my own apt after i got my own tt is....but ttll have to wait at least in 3years time, if i do get married or sumthin, if not ill have to wait till im 35, where i can purchase my own home.......i feel old now but then again, the restrictions in sg made me so impatient to reach 35. i dunno why but i just feel tt.....if i happen to be not marrying and single at age 30, i hope i have an oversea offer and like susan(the lecturer) she have done nursing in UK, NewZealand and Hong Kong.....wow...its like a passport to travelling....cool...

speaking of travelling....i miss those days when i go in and out of singapore often. but i cant imagine how much i already spent cos i never really calculated but hey no regrets at all...it was fun and id love to do it again, except nowadays im a bit tight.

im still contemplating till today whether i wanna work till the end of the month of middle....i might need the money for books and stuffs for school....i feel like calling up mr chua, he's been asking black to ask me to call him....but paiseh la...
and wats more i dunno if i can cope working and studying....ill have to let 1semester pass first before i work part time, cos tis time round i dun wanna jeopardize my studies, i want to get good grades....not like the o level retakes, i only got 2Bs. i know i might be too ambitious for something tt i know nuts bout but hey my goal to get nothing less than a B....if possible all As.......ceh bah.....hehehe, we'll see..

c ya ard.....

sid thinks too much

fotos....can bring joy, memories, envious feeling, despair, anger and many more...
today some fotos bring me pressure.....fotos of my frens half-way to their fullfilments make me envious of them and wonder why im still nowhere......like my sayang told me, i think too much.....well, by nature im ambitious.....but did i not put in enough effort? in denial id say i did put 101%.........but then again, honestly, i did put in say 95%max....... but the thing is, i want to do what i like, not do jus becos i took a wrong path and im forced to follow that path, NO, i want to change tt path, tts why i took so long.....teaching....MOE u just missing a wonderful talent over here.......
i will teach, i hope so.....after 5years into nursing, ill get a degree and then ill try to get into teaching.....if theres no discrimination......hahaha

i worry, i think...too much.
i wanna do well in my 2 year of study.....but i worry i cannot discipline myself yet again to put in 101% effort.....but i guess im mature enough to do so....so sid, pinch ur penis and wake urself up....hehehe....NO i wont do that literally.......anyways, id want to do my best for me, not for anyone else... cmmon sid make those ppl's jaw drop for once.....

the wheather is so sweltering hot....but hey lets not complain....cos rain would deter me from going out....ouh, i pray during the 2years itll rain whenever i go out too often.....heheh....

alright more or less, ive laid my path before me, i only need to stroll thru it and probably climb some steep slopes along the way......but still i wanna live my childhood dreams....rockstar, racecar driver, or a superhero....fark ar sid go to sleep....heheh....nites everyone.......

iwantmyownapartment

i dunno wat to say......i just hate it when my uncle comes and talk bout his problems..
his problems is never ending.....financial....cos he wouldnt want to change.....and the more u shud shut the fuck up.....cos i need some peace at home and u speak like an apek so loud tt even me locked up in my room am irritated by ur stupid whinings.....and ure a coward, u only talk to ppl behind their back. damn!

so early?

why im online so early with this entry? 2 reasons....1.i was tired after floor waxing and i just went to bed early at abt 1245 last night, 2.i jus sense something was not right n i need to check out 'lostkeyz' 3.i need to send hweelan from hr my ns notification from mindef website....so theres actually three reasons...so wat... oh and why im not leaving for work yet? cos i jus dun wanna leave so early yet.....dun wanna recieve stocks and be the rest stupid servant while they claim they are busy stocking up their veges and fresh food.....ASS....like i dun have a department to take care like that......FUCKERS....anyways, today linda is on morning shift, so ill turn up anyways at 730am, she's nice to me, well to me theres only 1 bitch at work...and the mini bitch kaypo store keeper....only these two need to be sent to the firing squad.

when i read her entries, i felt guilty....guilty for making the remark "maybe ure just not trying hard enough".....ppl like shahreil n myself should know better at how hard it is to land ourselves a job even though we have a diploma and that remark shouldnt have left my mouth. about a year ago, me and some of my friends like is-topi, shahreil and many more are having a hard time looking for jobs...that was after the sucky job i got at harimau, who victimized unexperienced job seekers...
it was hard....we tried....i borrowed his classified section when i overslept and the papers were sold out....its like the only period of time, i religiously purchase straits time from the 7-11 across the street.....so, i know it is hard, do not despair....anyways ure still young, unlike me....i cant YET pursue what i really, really like to do.......well, nursing, i like too, thru the 2days attachment i enjoyed it.....but i would prefer teaching OR doodling...hehehe.....mebbe after 5 years of service, and after a degree, ill go into the education line....and become a lecturer at nyp, np or ite......finally, ppl can call me cikgu again...hehehe

to those out there looking for jobs...try and keep on trying, do not be bothered by wat ppl say, u know urself......some ppl only reach their success ladder a little later.....dont envy those who climb it sooner....for all you know they might be tripping when ure climbing urs......gee thats not too kind....hehehe....well, its reality.

insomniac

i cant sleep, issit cos of caffeine or i think too much?.....well i dunno but thousands of plans has flooded the membrane.....some are executable, some are not...i just wanna be on top....capricons...sigh....soooo ambitious...harharhar...

pissed off

some ppl jus pisses me off, shahreil pls be a buddy, help me look if u have the originals of reservoir dogs....u know whose bugging me.....shouldnt be so kind to unblock....sheeesh......

contagious

im down with flu since thurs.....up till now i still hasnt recovered fully....many are down with the flu....including my mom......my sayang too hasnt recovered fully.....

sigh....schools gonna start soon....im a nervous wreck....but i wanna make mom proud.. i want ppl to cheer me on stage recieving the diploma cos i get good grades and not like few years back the screamed my name and cheered on cos i had many frens....i want to be cheered for a reason...... tts not the only reason to get good grades...another reason is to secure a place for the specialist advance dip course after serving the bond. this specialist course is only available if the hospital decide to sponsor me and to make that possible, i have to prove myself worthy. the advance dip. means alot to me cos itll be my stepping stone to earning 200bucks more and my stepping stone to get promoted to senior staff nurse......then probably after some experience, id get the degree and become an educator...probably......i love it when i have plans.....:) keeps me going alright....