ACDC is motivational.
Anyways, I thought I am rather unlucky at times but actually I am. Very. On top of my wonderful wife. I am blessed with choices. Although our journey had bumps here and there but we got to choose, we got to leave.
For now, I am just hoping for that promotion so that I'll get an increment cos the dough is more important than the decor.
I am hoping for that unit. And I am hoping to get chosen to go for advance dip cos that's like a stepping stone to be an educator or home nurse and go on 5day, office hours duty.
I am planning for the future, well actually I have already planned but I didn't know that the plans have to go so slow when executed. In the planning stage, it seemed so easy but I guess reality hit me and was a little disappointed but in actual fact it is still ongoing, it never failed.
Thanks wifey for keeping me in track, I realize I can be weak at times.
Anyways, whatever it is, we have tried, that's most important. The rest we leave it to God to decide.
ACDC
Back in black
I hit the sack
I've been too long I'm glad to be back
Yes, I'm let loose
From the noose
That's kept me hanging about
I've been looking at the sky
'Cause it's gettin' me high
Forget the hearse 'cause I never die
I got nine lives
Cat's eyes
Abusin' every one of them and running wild
CHORUS:
'Cause I'm back
Yes, I'm back
Well, I'm back
Yes, I'm back
Well, I'm back, back
(Well) I'm back in black
Yes, I'm back in black
Back in the back
Of a Cadillac
Number one with a bullet, I'm a power pack
Yes, I'm in a bang
With a gang
They've got to catch me if they want me to hang
Cause I'm back on the track
And I'm beatin' the flak
Nobody's gonna get me on another rap
Don't look at me now
I'm just makin' my play
Don't try to push your luck, just get out of my way
CHORUS
Well, I'm back, Yes I'm back
Well, I'm back, Yes I'm back
Well, I'm back, back
Well I'm back in black
Yes I'm back in black
hooo yeah
Ohh yeah
Yes I am
Oooh yeah, yeah Oh yeah
Back in now
Well I'm back, I'm back
Back, I'm back
Back, I'm back
Back, I'm back
Back, I'm back
Back
Back in black
Yes I'm back in black
Out of the sight!
Sad
No doubt I'm hurt. A minute ago, I was about to give in to my emotions, sadness and all BUT then again I realized I have been thru worse and I pulled through. I realized my strength and like vacuum, my tear ducts sucked in all those tears and in the bottom of my heart goes 'so what!'.
I think it's God's way of testing me or his way of making me realizing my strengths or his way of punishing me for my deeds last time. I don't know, only HE knows.
Along the way home, my brain runs like the noise on my Suzuki, it ran through a flight of thoughts and ideas. It's like on nitro.
Many things coming up, I know it'll be tough but I bet I can do it with the support of my love Nurain. Plans will still be carried on, dreams still lives.
Eh budak!
Eh budak, seblom kau cakap kau selidik dulu boleh? Kalau senang sangat dapat rumah ingat aku nak duduk dengan nenek kau yng merepek, suka sindir2 orang, bila friday night nengok keroncong sampai pagi tak ingat dunia, tak ingat mati? Pikir lah babe.
If getting a flat is so simple, I would've move out already.
I don't need your help, I never asked, you offered. If you never offer, I would've still be staying in Teck Whye Lane but then, everything happened for a reason, like my wife said. Else, probably I wouldn't be close with Ain and who knows even not ending up together. So thanks hor on that part. Other than that, please use your brain or at least read the papers and keep yourself updated cos even if you don't trust me, you can trust Straits Times right? Go ahead trust your demented, psychotic, altered mental state granny for all you care. Cos come Sunday bye2.....although it meant me forking out $600 per month, I'd rather be paying that than paying bills for someone who diss my wife, cos they'd be drinking the water from what I paid, my hard earned money. No blood and tears lah, don't bedek lah ......
I am so tempted to paste the post that I saved over here but anyways you posting it on facebook was public enough and hey just showed that you are an angel with the brains of a 3 year old. LoL
Gnite peeps. You want trouble? I can give you trouble, my pleasure.
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I want to break free
God knows I want to break free....
Even if it meant paying a rent amounting of up to $400 more.
I'd rather be out of this hell hole.....
I only wish I hadn't move out of Teck Whye....
If you get pleasure by being a nosey fucker and spreading untrue gossips 'bout my wife or me, may you hot in hell. May you rot further for all the backstabbing.
Updates
Life, same ol same ol....
Still hoping to get a flat very very soon.....some ppl dissed me, if you were not that old, I would've told you off, she's my wife after all, you diss her, you diss me too. You're lucky, very very lucky. Cos I rarely keep it inside and pretend nothing happened. I find solutions, I confront, I get things solved or resolved but that too depends on the other party.
Anyways Mr.Assistant Director called in most of us yesterday for the pay adjustment thingy. Well, not much change, took away one allowance, increment a little to level out. Just hoping July's increment will be better. Promising talk with MR.ADN though, he said MOST PROBABLY I'd be in for a promotion, 1 up and next batch of advance diploma. Sounds good, he tell me to think, plan and decide by mid-May what I wanna do in IMH, what are my plans and give him a call, degree or advance diploma.
Pros & Cons....
Degree, I have to fork out 50% which I think I need the money more for my new life, maybe new flat eh? And what's more, part time degree a little scary..
So I think, I'll opt for the Advance Diploma, since its full time 8mth course. Although I rugi a little on all allowances but then, I can concentrate more and weekends super free.....woots!
Looking forward, looking forward.....wish me luck peeps...
Back to reality
After the Bali break, finally back to reality....work...
A friend told me something like why I didn't grab the opportunity to do what he did but looking at my friends whom had no time for anything else. I'd rather not, I'd want to earn more but not at the expense of sacrificing time with my love ones. I know that's tough to do but I am sure I can, just need the right time and luck.
So far I made $50 in total from my ebay-trade. It's minimal and tiny as compared as to years ago where I make $300-400 per month. Motorcycle accessories are slower to go and tougher on the capital. I am still waiting from my fren to go to china to check out some stuffs. If it's worth taking the risk, I might just jump into it.
I tried to be more positive at the slow sale. I view it as more of a savings account. Example, I bought an item at $240 to be sold, I view it as saving $240 and when I manage to sell it, I get to withdraw it with an interest. And I buy things that I can use, so if it really is not able to sell, I can use it for myself.
Yes, I know I am a little ambitious and small scale isn't going to earn me much. I think I will consult my mechanic friend end of the year if time is right, if I can put the products I bring in at his workshop. Also a flat of my own would help so that I can store some of my products in a vacant room.
I am also thinking of bringing in shoes and clothings but that will have to wait.
The tour guide on our back home said something inspiring, something like if we think we can, we will. I also remembered this saying 'if it's worth doing, then it is worth doing it well'. I just saw my friend's fb acct, with the orders he get from printing stickers 7bikes, 7cars. that's pretty good for an individual part-time business. I regret not continuing doing it, cos partly I had troubles with doing the template. Anyways that line now has alot of competition, unless you stand out from the rest, then its worth venturing again. Plus that requires time, space, patience and practice. Even if I wanna venture in that again, I have to wait till I have my own home.
I just have dreams, dreams of retiring away from Singapore......Malacca, Solo-indonesia or anywhere else.....
Hullo
Good afternoon blogger...
It's been awhile since I post something here time flies eh?
I'm down with upper respiratory tract infection, my tonsils were swollen with spots on it....urggh...must be the snacks. On antibiotics and getting better, 2 days medical leave. Sometimes you just need to get away from work. I love my work you know, sometimes I bring light to the patients, I get satisfaction when I make them happy knowing that they are abandoned and unwanted by society. Some of them when they discharge, they get shunned upon, family and society refuse to give them anymore chances at life. They refuse to understand their condition is chronic and lifelong and family support is super important.
Like me, I am glad I have all the support I need, from my wife, my parents, my relatives, my family, my friends whom are very understanding, my subordinates, my colleagues......Although I can't deny there's some whose against me but hey I got no time for them either. Sometimes we just have to see that we are very fortunate as compared to some others out there. Right?
Friday, we'll be flying to Bali.....wooohooo...
I love traveling and I hope November will be a reality, I really wanna go somewhere further. I can't wait for this Friday and November.
My life, still much more to achieve.....
A flat of my own, Car(&license of course) and stability.
And I wanna start planning my retirement plan, I still haven't decide if I should retire here or elsewhere. Cos I wouldn't want to work once I retire. I can see that the living expenses here is rather high and I might have to work in my old age if I do not have enough savings. I've considered Malacca(since I have relatives there) or Solo-Indonesia(since Dad is there) or maybe elsewhere where my relatives are but I still prefer asia.
I stumble across a seller (of a flat) that was quite promising, I might just have my own flat pretty soon. Wish me luck guys. Although its in an area that is rather foreign to me but hey its not really far from everybody. It's abit further from the in-laws but nearer to work and nearer to mom and frens in the west. I hope for the best. I hope I am lucky this time round.
Work...
I hope I get what I think I will get...praying hard and thanks all for having faith in me.
I also hope I get that Advance-Diploma place.
Trading
I have kicked out trading....woots....
Will try vpost next time round, I'm going to sell the set I am purchasing to fund for my own...woots!
free to decide?
Free? My ass...
Not when you are tied down 'cos of circumstances and consequences.
Not when it meant that it could jeopardize your career path.
Not when money comes in between your decision making.
Not when, your decision to way of life is frowned upon cos of the couple of black sheep.
Not when people still stereotype.
Not when discrimination still exist though much more subtle and 'unseen'
Many factors made us less free to decide. And I guess some of you out there are feeling it too...
additional plus
I think I wanna start doing part-time stuffs again....
-In around 2002-2004, part of my additional income came from trading on ebay, I buy and sell parts, clothes, accessories, helmets and almost anything to do with vespa. I made quite a fair share, if I remembered correctly close to $400-500 a month. That's good nuff back then and I wasn't fully aggressive, if I did, I think I can do better.
-In 2005 I did MLM for elken but I didn't have the supportive network, so I kinda slowly come to a halt...
-In 2007, I printed t-shirts and tried selling them off, some were sold at sheikh's skate store but guess they don't support new labels much.
-Same year towards 2008, I started trading cameras, get good deals online and sell back at small profit, I also brought in stuffs from Hongkong and managed to sell them off for some profit that made it possible for me to indulge in my hobby back then.
-In 2008 I joined LFI but my new job keeps me too busy and working shifts doesn't help but I think I will go back to trying the products first, then slowly market it within my networks.
-also 2008, tried selling graffiti products got from KL and Japan but got poor response, so stopped.
-Same year, supermoto craze was in, managed to make a couple of extra bucks, trading supermoto related items. But all the earnings went to additional spares that I needed...hehehe...
Now, I am looking at other avenues of additional income that requires the least time so that I don't have to sacrifice my time with my family and of course my lovely friends. Money is not everything you know, I have a dream but then if it meant being away from everyone I love then its not worth it. Just watched Afdlin's 'Papadom'....I don't want to be like him. If you can give your family everything but you are never around, what's the point?
dreams
There's still many of my dreams that i have yet to make a reality or even start working on it. For some of them I don't know how to even start, I don't even have a clue. For some, it's the time and cost factor and maybe a little fear-factor.
I just hope I'd be guided a little a long the way. I know I am able to achieve some of them, it's onlya matter of time.
I also feel that I need to give back a little, I am considered fortunate enough as compared to many less fortunate souls out there. Even that littlest things like parting with the loose change in your pocket means alot. I feel that's part of the purpose in life as humans, to help out when we can within our means.
I also pray for those engulfed with 'evil' in their own little box. May they be forgiven and steer back to the less 'evil' route. One day I am sure they will realise their wrong-doings.
I feel that till this date, I am still misunderstood but I don't care anymore cos' I know at least my love ones knows who I am, why I do stuffs a certain way and what my real plans are.
Everybody wants the best for themselves and the people they love but sometimes all those won't come immediately. Not everyone is as fortunate.
As Haji Rawi once told me:
'if you have a car, look at those who have to brave the sun and rain on their motorbikes. And if you own a motorbike look at those who have to cycle to work. And if you have a bicycle, look at those who have to walk.'
His words reminded me to be thankful and not to frown upon what we cannot get and not to look down on others.
Undead Hobbies
Watching skate-podcasts just makes me wanna skate again....that brings me to the flab....I don't think I can skate with this amount of flab and the race-suit that's hanging by the wall, I don't even know if I can fit in those. More runs, yeah more runs....cos I wanna skate as well as race again......so heratnor, get ur knee to recover fast! and changi tracks c'mmon speed up the construction....
I am glad though my wife enjoys running as much as me, so far we ran twice short runs as a married couple, this Sunday yeah? Let's seen how far we can run after 2months of being inactive preparing for our wedding back then. Let's hit that 10km again and hopefully adidas sundown? halfy? I think we can do it...:)
I can't wait till november, a proper trip. Destination? Have yet to be confirmed cos it all depends on whether or not we got a flat by then cos if we do, I'd be guessing we need loads of dough for the flat.
Anyhoos, gotta go....
Dear wifey, love ya always.....love me too aight?
You Already Did...
You already did love me so much even before we got together. Yesterday was when I realize the zoo-york you bought me actually cost that much. You shouldn't have seriously, but hey I appreciate it. Thanks love. I know you already love me when you got me my birthday presents in 2008(yes I got 3 presents) but I did not know one of them cost that much. I know it's not cheap but I did not expect it to cost so much, no wonder I don't see anyone else wearing it...hehehe...
Anyways, I am glad I am very much accepted into the family. Although I must say, I am still a little shy. It starts all over again, in this chapter of my life, trying to adapt to a new family. First one was when I decided to go on my own and stay with Bird, his mom accepted me as part of the family(I should pay her a visit one day). Where in the world can you get a landlord who says the rent is 'ikhlas'? Then after my cousin offered me a place in his then empty flat, again I had to adapt to a new family, my cousin's that is. Then when his grandparents move in, I again tried to adapt living with them.
Now my in laws....
I am glad however in all, they accepted me, without a problem. I pray for them, their health and well-being, InsyahAllah God will grant my 'Doa' for these wonderful beings.
Although I am not blessed with a perfect family, with a perfect life, I think I am one of the most luckiest dude on earth. Everywhere I go, somehow there's welcoming hands to offer me some assistance in one way or another to make my life more pleasant. Alhamdulillah.......
I am thankful but I do want better, so right now, I am really hoping for good news come July and I really hope they'd send me for that advance dip. It's almost 2years now in IMH, time flies. Thank god for this job, the stability, the pay, the benefits, it's actually more than I expected. Although in Singapore context it's nothing much but at least it's comfortable enough for daily average living.
I am now really really really hoping for my own flat. I hope the coming HDB sales we will end up with a flat. It doesn't matter if it's not perfect, we just need our own shelter.
I love my life now....
