fantastic.....

yesterday was the last day of attachments.....woohoo 2weeks break for me.......my legs recuperating for the skate trip tumoro... i hope to land a couple of newly learnt tricks......

anyways when to watch fantastic-4 with the guys.....was a great movie........its fun watching with the guys.....ouh ive ended up bidding on an 85bucks ipod....cos i dont think that creative will work with my mac....that shuffle is going to be my main motivation to jogging and stuffs......speaking of which, i felt guilty downing a large size mcD meal yest....but hey once in a blue moon is fine right? im going to start now......resisting temptations.....whenever the temptation strikes, ill down myself with water to keep the craving away......also saving up for mom's gluscosamine and told her to go see the doctor regarding UTI and her flank pains.....my stepfather, i cant be bothered, if he's lazy to go change the dressing, his pasal....i dont care.....

this month i hope to save at least 50bucks if i could, at least la......could be more, im going to start saving.....for many things to come......drivers license, my own house and probably a nice small car for myself after that.....im worried about my siblings, my only worry is they might regret when they are older for not studying, for not putting their focus in school....i hope one day they will listen to one of my endless nagging.......i dont want them to be a burden to mom till she's old.....she's already 50odd now.. if the two of them can do well in studies, u can get busaries and stuffs to further ur studies.......and probably get a good paying job and maybe with together our combined contribution, mom need not worry about working or anything, she'd only be needing to worry about her own health thats all.......its tough being the eldest....u have to think of all this....i think itll be tougher if i have my own family....and i know im not ready yet for one, though i crave but i feel its only peer pressure thats causing that.....have to keep my focus and stay true to myself and only myself, nope im not self-centered, im saving myself from any future regrets.....

but for now, this two weeks will be spent skating, jogging and looking for temporary jobs.....i wont be working when i finally start school cos i wanna focus 100%, last semester i managed to get an A, this semester im challenging myself to get at least 1 distinction and a couple of As, i know i can do it and i will, insyahAllah.......i wanna feel satisfied....not 'half-fuck'......i gotta do what i have to do.....do or die......

im putting aside thoughts of a new bike, id ride my present one till its no good no more for transporting me to and fro work.. i feel now, its not really neccessary, its a want, a desire that i will only indulge in when everything is fine......i know someday it will be fine, id be smiling.......

i hope tumoro evening it doesnt rain.....and i hope the time-table and booklist will be out soon, i wanna have a headstart, i wanna start early, i wanna kick ass.......and at the same time, i do not want to stress myself....a strong foundation makes a building easier to build on the way up......just like that.....so if i start early, by the time exams comes, itll be a breeze, just like a walk by the beach.......

im hoping for a windfall, probably win some bucks off a contest or something so that i can feed my desires.....a big bike would be nice, a new bedroom door, a new teevee and a new pc for my siblings.....

ouhk the seller for the ipodshuffle have already message me.....adios peeps....ouh im thinking of selling my ipod-video 30g, thinking only....any offers?