im in love.....with kristen dunst....heee.....i watched crazy beautiful a couple of years back, on a vcd back then.... i personally think she's gorgeous and her acting makes her even more...gorgeous......her half-shut eyes, her natural not perfect teeth... see, u dont have to be perfect to be gorgeous....i must say its her acting.....kristen dunst pls pimp my ride...oops wrong script, tts suppose to be xzhibit.....
IF
if sg weren't so strict on vehicle modifications.......check it out
http://sparetime.jp/index_p.html
i wouldve owned one of those....
oh oh
i think i need a new controller....heee......i tried racing again, i guess the controller refuse to cooperate....
anyways i went to mustaffa just now and i got that golden watch...wooohooo check it out...
well spent...35bucks..heee
gundam
just wanna show the finished product of fathih's bdae present...i think its cool...i never really got a liking for gundam but this one is real nice after assembly. complete with a rifle, 2 light sabers and a samurai sword....coolness...
speaking of birthdays....theres many birthdays of ppl i know in december....adil's was on the 11th, my uncle on the 8th, my stepsister 12th, my brother 19th, sarah's 20th, my step-sister in jakarta 23rd, idan nizam's son 15th, mimi serenaide 22nd, mantan ten-inch s.c 22nd, and last but not least mine on 29th....heee...
and today, i tot id never touch that ps2....i just did, my bro brought back justice league tt he borrowed from his fren...ugggh...3 hours on it with my bro...hehehe
need for speed carbon...
hehe i got the game from shahreil on saturday night i think....i started playing on sunday, i almost completed it on wednesday morning....superb right? hehehe its bcos i spent 8 hours on monday night playing it and 12hours yesterday.....personal record broken...hahaha....i started playing at 11pm and ended on wednesday morning at 11am.....boy i need help....heheh but its fun..
i love racing....period....too bad im not a millionaire or sumthin....if i were i guess i wouldve owned cars instead of bikes...
i love my frens....the ppl around me....im glad i have them, cos now at least my holidays are not tt boring......i think they are the oldest frens i have around....they are the only frens that stayed....
im fascinated by casio watches now....and im so gonna look for that gold plated one that ruru was wearing but the gents version la......she said she bought it at mustaffa....im gonna hunt for that tumoro if its not raining and also buy 2 sheets of carbon fiber for my boba.....
rashid asked me to go to muse....he's like the 3rd person asking me....hida already bought tickets, adil n rashid is waiting for me. the reason is i have to carefully calculate if id have enough for january.....cos boba is due for servicing this december which means i need around 300 dollars.....and january, i need cash for new notes for the new semester.....so i dunno yet guys... id love to go....mebbe id go, mebbe not....
zaki is getting married this weekend, another fren got hitched....me, i dunno when.....but for me, i leave it to fate la...kalau ada, adalah, kalau takda takpa....i feel, personally marriage is not to be rushed.....although at first i thought it was a ticket for me to have my own home and all....but now since im approacing the big 30 soon....i guess it doesnt matter anymore....im getting old anyways....hehehe.....remy and myself have the same thinking....if not married by 35, get an own home... same for me here....
marriage is not in my mind right now, im more concerned about my future, i wanna make sure im comfortable in my old age, comfortable enough not to have to work when im old and febrile and not needing any support from my children...i wanna be independent just like shahreil's parents......i don't want to rely on children.....
i feel many lessons learned, more valuable ones are from people.....and many are not taught in the classrooms....
i wanna wish all my frens success, especially those with aspirations and dreams....mankey good luck, believe in urself, live ur dream....i will too, but not now, i need that foundation first......stable pillars to hold my dreams...:) im more realistic now, rather than the dreamer me few years back....but, i will make sure my dreams doesnt remain dreams...and im on it now...
i just pray that god allows it.....insyahAllah.....
i know everything sucks
well tts not really happening to me.....but tts just the song playing on my ipod....by reel big fish.....and tt will be the start of this entry....
the horns, the guitar, the vocals so clear.....and now as im typing skatalites is playing thru my ear canal, its like im virtually at their concert....oh my god.....audio technica earphones rocks......i swear.....i tot only sony my favourite music gadget make great sound producing earphones and players....ipod n audio-technica, great combination and the in-ear thingy is so cool cos it blocks unnecessary noise and it makes the bass sound so spanking clear and good.....and it only cost me 30bucks..... i definitely gonna stick by audio-technica for sometime now.....
this week i spent on quite a number of things.....its like macam retail theraphy like that.....last saturday i bought a spanking nice orange volcom ipod case....and im loving it although it has a tiny scratch on the vinyl screen.....but i bought anyways cos it was on sale....flash n splash was having 15% storewide.....i only regret i never bought the matching wallet....hmm mebbe, ill have a second look....and then, i bought a black berms from the only store tt sell black cargos at 8-12bucks...too bad the black ones cost 12bucks.....i need berms for school, i wear berms everyday to school...i also bought a new cover for my vespa, some idiot mustve accidentally torn my vespa cover...well it was 1year old anyways....today, i bought some toiletries, a screen protector for my ipod and then only i realised tt my ipod already have scratches on its chrome back....damn...and i asked shahreil to help me buy the great earphones im using now....it was the best 30bucks i spent on earphones......mebbe next time then i invest in a higher end one....
tumoro gonna buy fathih tt gundam robot for his bdae.....i already bought him a volcom wallet a couple of weeks ago and i gave him my sony-bean and now he's getting a gundam from me.....boy isn't it great to have an elder brother...ehhehe, i wish i had one.....too bad karina not working tumoro, if not i can get a 10% discount of tt gundam....
i think today i shall not race.....pretty tired.....hmm mebbe awhile...hehehe.....mebbe......
and i really hope it doesnt rain tumoro....pls......i wanna jalan2 sorang2....last saturday cam best gitu jalan2 sorang2 on my mp3.....hehehe.... skarang dah ada earphone power lagik....okla papo ppl!
yeay
i can say yeay today, cos its the 2nd day of the 2week long break...yeay again....
i woke up at 11 to play need for speed carbon and got hooked, stopped at 4pm before i bathe and got myself ready to go out....
went out with adil, window shopping and we had to go public because it was raining....okla naik mrt best gak pasal bleh sumbat telinga ngan mp3, duduk, aircon, relek......pas tu takpe dahla sejuk2....makan aiskrim budak dua nie.....2 scoop dia masya'Allah macam gunung......thnks adil....heheheh.....best gak jalan2 tak bermotor, cuma penat.....hehehe....
dah tu dok habib, biasa ar lepaking with the usual people....aku agak dah 6 bulan baru aku dapat rasa aku betul2 rilek.....
best, ketawe2, kacau orang....heheheh.....nanti january, siap la bz balik......:( apa nak buat, demi masa depan......
cakap pasal masa depan, the clerk was kind enough to let me see the current pay for staff nurses....i shall not disclose la but its definitely more than i have ever got.......eeee tak sabau la aku.....best nye......bila nie nak 2008....hehehehe
anyways, next pay day aku agak aku nak grab shirt satu ar......bleh buat gi wedding2, gi dating ker....hurhurhurhur........
aku rasa, vespa aku nak antar bikin ar next year...kalau ada duit spare.....jiwa vespa masih ada dod....aku tak rasa aku jual punyer.....
kla ppl, lepas aku ucapkan bye2 kat kawan2 kat msn, aku nak gi main game, pas tu tido....bsok ada date ngan sharil ngan don kalau tak hujan......papo!
same2 but different
hehehe....final day.....yeeehaw.......
anyways, why the topic......ive made a fren over at the attachments, a 3rd year student, actually alot of frens la but this one we talk alot, boys mah.......we find it easier to bitch about the rest of the staff, joke around with patients and we have passion....
we do everything willingly......anyways why same2 but different....john actually looks like a malay and can speak a little malay but he is 'serani' a mixture of indian and chinese....alot of patients tot he is malay.......and some thought im chinese cos i can speak simple mandarin and understand wat they wanted when they spoke to me in mandarin....but when they started to natter on and on in mandarin, i had to tell them im not chinese but i can understand and talk a little.......:)
anyways u all must be wondering why im up so early....haiya, perut sakit la....and my leg sore and my knee...hehehe...i think ar if after the two years, while at work if given a short break or leave, im just gonna see dr.matthew chen and ask him recommend me sports doctor that i heard about and maybe spend some Gs, to rehab and probably reconstruct again my ligaments and probably those metal plates replacements for the meniscus that i saw while surfing the net.......macam wolverine la aku nanti.. heheh nola its all for the better of me.....like i said before, i wanna be independent wen im old......if id were to die in my old age, i wanna go away peacefully without troubling anyone before my death......
ive also noticed while on attachments, that somehow male nurses are prepared......ok theres 1 male sn, 1 male asst.nurse and 3 student nurse.....almost all the patients prefer us.......no wonder male nurses are like wanted nowadays.....i guess its becos we get most of the things done and we are more tolerant of many things.....i think only la...hehehehe
i still sympathize those patients diagnose with CA.......kesian u know....some of them u can see their sadness beneath their smiling face.....some laugh out loud, jokes with u just to forget bout what they are diagnosed with......and some don't even know about their diagnosis because their children requested not to disclose to the patient...some became slightly anxious, confused and a little unsuound due to their illnesses.....some are strong and has the will to go on.....i guess nursing is an occupation where u learn the most about people.....i enjoy learning about people, every job i had, i like to take notice of people's character and way of doing things......sometimes i even get to learn skills from them....like cooking for example when i was a cook back then....and when i was a supervisor at the supermarket, i certainly learn alot of things...tts why i macam jack of all trades....but i dont think im a master of anyone......well, i hope i will be in nursing...heeee......
up till today, im still thinking if i wanna make a switch from imh to other medical/surgical hospitals......ive even heard tt ttsh would 'buy' over sponsored students who are good at their job......the things is im considering my career advancements..... u see if im in a mental hospital, my skills are limited and im limited to specializing in mental health.....but if i were to go to a general hospital, theres more choices....i would love to be an OT nurse, see people getting cut up everyday....and the pay, wah lan....they are highly paid....and whats more some OT nurses are also sent to learn anasthetics and thus becomes the anasthesia nurses who give those injections to numb u before surgery.....i guess, ill see how my progress of the 3 years with imh first and decide then...
ok guys, i wanna continue sleep....heee....tata.....
haiz...
to deal or not to deal........kalau deal bleh mewah skit, bleh enjoi skit time bdae aku.....tapi mungkin aku akan menyesal.
kalau tak deal, takda perubahan...sama je......cuma tak dapat shopping, dan mungkin tak dapat amik lesen....payah, payah tul
jakarta
jus realised my aunt n gramma is in jakarta....hmmph, i cant tag to my step-sis' wedding bcos of attachments.....sob-sob. asal takmo kahwin on my bdae........:( kalau tak ada excuse nak travel2...hehehe...anyway i think the wedding was last week...
touching...
touching ar drama2 skarang......hikmah dah habis(tapi gua nantikan season 2 next march), skarang sembilu pon coming to an end....entah eh sejak bila aku nengok drama pon tak tau, aku agak no choice pasal mak aku nengok aku pon dah terpengaruh skarang.....hikmah smalam finished with a happy ending
haiz....dah nak abis attachment nie....si cekgu nie tak habis2 nak menyusahkan kitorang ar....suruh cari type of drugs available in wards la, controlled drugs la, iv fluids la...ada je nak kasi kiter busy....dah lah penat balik, ada homework plak tu, besok pagi lagi...haiyah...bo patut la.......anyway aku sabar menanti je the last day.......
aku tadi time berak adalah termenung jugak, nak spray moto ke nak tampal2 je cam moto kamal....ada jugak angan2 nak spray boba aku kawasaki colour scheme, kawasaki-green, gloss black ngan putih skit.......mesti works....tapi kalau nak spray balik mau makan 300 ada.....aku dahla takda bonus...hehehe.....mebbe aku tak spray la, tampal2 sticker je cam motor kamal..... kalau tampal sticker ada gak brapa2 idea la, aku nie biasa ar, katun2 jugak aku feveret....mebbe kalau tampal sticker hijau aku nak buat theme incredible hulk cam ala 2fast2furious yng kereta negro tu...hehehe.....kalau aku tampal gloss black aku nak tampal sticker skurvy besar2.....kesian boba fett kene kopek...hehehehe.....blom lagik holiday nie dah bnyk plan aku nak occupy masa aku....
jiran aku nye kawan jumper aku kat frenster jadi dia add la aku......balik2 nie ada brapa2 orang yng aku tak kenal check out page aku, aku pon tak tau asal......kalau pompan takpa gak...ada gak lelaki.....aku nie gay magnet ker? muahahahaha... atau pon aku kene spy kot? hehehe......
i dun wanna...
explain anymore?
im sick of explaining.....my intention wasnt hurt. it wasnt going anywhere, im tired of explaining. i dun understand anymore. watever it is, i always end up the criminal, so be it......i hope everything will be fine soon and everyone forgets about everything. i hate being the criminal, though i know its for everyones good. im still single for anyone who is wondering out there, i dont bullshit, i speak the truth, if i had wanted to be with someone, i wouldnt be spending my weekends at home or with my frens, id be asking ppl out for movies and such....its cos now i cant be bothered anymore after the 4th....if theres someone, then ok, if not i cant be bothered either, my time isnt anywhere close yet, wat i wanna do is concentrate on my future rather than dwell on something that just failed over and over again......memories cant be erased that easily like files into the recycling bin but i will keep it in the dark spaces of my brain so that hopefully it wouldn't hinder any of my goals.
im turning 27 in a couple of weeks, i need to focus, i dont want to repeat any mistake ive done and i dont want to hurt myself in the process anymore...i may be a nurse but even doctors cant treat themselves......
i hate being emo, im no longer one, that has already wiped out, i think with objectives in mind not emotions anymore. sorry i might sound cruel but im thinking rationaly, if somethings not working and you've tried fixing and it hadnt work and u knew it will be going round and round like the ferris wheel, why not put it to a stop, get out of the cabin and hitch on another ride? who knows you'd enjoy the next ride, u appreciate the thrills of the wheel and you learned how it goes about but it just didnt work out fine for u, so u buy another ticket for a ride that is more suitable for u.....
im no villain, im the victim most of the time, this time round, i appear like a villain cos i just stopped the both of us from being a victim of make-believe....hope u understand.a fairy-tale wont become a reality if the reality is steering off its path.
1 mo week
1 more week.........yeeehaaa....enjoi la gua...haiz tapi tak berduit...kalau la gaji gua cam dulu pat ntuc, bih bonus time plak tu, gerenti babe, mesti ada mende baru kat moto gua ngan kat bilik gua...dan gerenti gua gi short holiday punya....
i must tell u, attachments ar, fun.....but tiring...hehehe lagi2 gua dapat sakat2 apek2 yng sakit, ada sampai bingit sak ngan gua, ada cam members...hahaha.....kecoh ar ttsh tapi gerek ar, dapat buat bnyk members, bukan apek2 jer la...nurses pon....sister pon gerek ngan gua....cam best gitu......
nari aku kene 'cilaka' ngan apek...pasal dia nak terberak bih aku gurau2 bilang dia, 'btol ke lu nak berak?' hehehe dia jawab, 'cilaka lu ingat wa main2 ka?' hehehe nasib baik dia pon joke2...kalau tak aku tinggalkan dia sorang2 kat toilet...heheh biar dia wheel balik sendirik....
weekends nie cibai betul ar.....kene buat case study....frankly eh, malas sak aku mende2 extra nie...tapi memandangkan mende2 gila bleh buat aku lebih competent.....ok la......sebenarnye kat otak nie fikirkan 2 weeks break je nak buat pe nie...
hehehe.......
hmmm kalau 3++K tu masuk, alhamdullilah, 2weeks break aku nak start amik class2 ngan enrol class3, kalau tak, sabau je la bila ada wang lebih bleh enrol....hehehe.....kla gua nak lepak....ouh sebelom tu aku nak kasi buah fikiran sikit....aku rasakan nengok seagames nie buang masa je la, pasal half of the sg competitors foreigners.....china la, indo la....haiz....buat malu je.... tak original langsung...pada aku biar kalah tapi genuine.....okla papo......
sick ride
this is one hell of a sick ride.....at 690cc, i think itll make my pillion pee in the pants....anyways i just dont like the headlight, other than that, the dual exhaust system, the phat 690cc power, the motard rims, the wicked low fork just topple the scales, this ride is wicked....take off the headlight and i guess its like as good as king of the motards....
ifs...
ok before i start off my thoughts, i love nursing and i think im destined for it. i serve a purpose and i hope i will clear this 2 year course with ease.
ok as a child, i had dreams, let me stress DREAMS, some of them were rather unrealistic for example a race-car racer back then what i knew as racing was only those f1s or rallies. IF i were so freakin rich or sponsored definitely id love to do that and i still hope one day id just have a day at the race track competing for fun maybe on a motard or my gilera.....we'll see but definitely its for fun only. i love drawing too, since young, scribbles and all but i was lazy at secondary school, so i didnt get into the arts stream at sec 3, so there goes my dreams......IF given a choice i would still pursue my interest but i know very well i have a purpose, reponsibilities and such, thus, that will only come later in life.....probably as a past time.....
i hate ppl asking me again and again like just now, why i switched to nursing.....ok in case anyone out there didnt know, there's several core reasons.....and they are, stability, assurance of a brighter a future, a much more comfortable life in the golden years, the chance to migrate if i chose to, the chance to teach if i still have the passion to teach later on...that's why. nursing provides broad and many channels for me. its a fine and decent choice i made. secondary to all that, i guess im fated and of cause, my nature....i guess it just suited me well.......i will never turn back or regret....its the best choice ive ever made in my life. the hardships, the rough and hardwork that the job demands is nothing new to me, ive faced worse, i was a labourer for several times at production factories, i think i can manage. and being bonded with imh is another blessing cos they say its a little bit more relaxed down there...hopefully ar......my only worry is the prcp, the final attachment in the final year whereby u will be assessed stringently by perceptors......the rate of passes is very low....u have to be very competent and good or you'll fail. that is my only worry. i will concentrate this 2 years, ensuring i absorp all the knowledge i require so that i dont fail. i think, if im offered an overseas assignment while im still single, id grab the opportunity....id go.....serious...
im hungry, hungry for knowledge but im tired most of the time at the end of the day, i guess ill make full use of the academic time to absorp as much knowledge as possible, cos thats the best time for it, during attachments you are simply left with little energy to spare.....
everything that has happened in the past has a blessing.....im glad.....gnite peepz...
sigh
boredom galore......dah, memang dah takda plan pas tu takpe, the new clinical instructor that replaced mdm lee gave us assignments and pre-readings to do....which means haiz....weekends pon ada homework......kiwak btol betina tu....kasi la kier chan rehat......bleh katakan eh cos nie giler babi......6bulan, 6bulan straight ada menda nak buat, walaupun at the end ada 2 weeks break, tapi lu pikir ar, tu 2 weeks pon mau prepare start of new semester per.....
tapi takpa, walaubagaimana pun, gua tetap minat.......tadi gua kena datang saturday pon tapi gua cam enjoy....the main thing is love ur job....mesti ar kadang2 stress, penat, kaki sakit la....kepala pening la....hapa-hapa lagi la....tapi kalau keje yng takda sikit pon stress, aku rasa tu bukan keje lagi....muahahaha.....even cartoonist kadang stress.......
nari gua flat.........5hari keje satu hari sakit....tinggal besok je akunye so called free time......cam nak gi suntec ar, aku dengar ada big boys toys convention...nari ker?....hmmmm...ntah eh check out lagi ar.....kalau tak nak cuci moto....dah berkeladak da...
kla aku agak, aku nak mandi, pas tu main game japs baru tido......adios......
sigh
lets sum up the day first of all bfore i hit the bed....
2 sad news, my case study was uncomplete according to Mdm Lee...sigh...but wat is done is done....
I have to make up this saturday for yesterday's MC sigh.........
I have to go to school tumoro just to submit the stupid mc....sigh......
i dont think my wound at my last surgery site has improved by means of antibiotics and regular wash and dress....therefore i might need to see a specialist, which means i need to use more money and thus have to forgo certain luxuries....sigh....
i might also need another op.....sigh.....lets hope for the best.....
ive learnt one thing, that when frens are good, they'd forget about ones wrong-doings even if they knew it very well and they even witness it, they tried to cover it up for the fren at first, then they could not hold it back but to tell it to the victim but once the victim is out of sight, they are good frens again or as ever and forget totally what has happened. i have a few frens who stood up to their principle and now they are left with lesser friends. so is that why some ppl, wouldnt dare tell their frens off? bcos they are afraid they'd loose more frens? just pondering....or some are jus like me who jus cant be bothered to get into their stubborn minds and their screwed up self bcos i myself am not perfect, maybe....so jus ignore la...hehehe....well, just pondering again...heee.....
i hate it when rashes develops due to the strong antibiotics....gotta see the doc again....
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