i dun wanna...

explain anymore?

im sick of explaining.....my intention wasnt hurt. it wasnt going anywhere, im tired of explaining. i dun understand anymore. watever it is, i always end up the criminal, so be it......i hope everything will be fine soon and everyone forgets about everything. i hate being the criminal, though i know its for everyones good. im still single for anyone who is wondering out there, i dont bullshit, i speak the truth, if i had wanted to be with someone, i wouldnt be spending my weekends at home or with my frens, id be asking ppl out for movies and such....its cos now i cant be bothered anymore after the 4th....if theres someone, then ok, if not i cant be bothered either, my time isnt anywhere close yet, wat i wanna do is concentrate on my future rather than dwell on something that just failed over and over again......memories cant be erased that easily like files into the recycling bin but i will keep it in the dark spaces of my brain so that hopefully it wouldn't hinder any of my goals.

im turning 27 in a couple of weeks, i need to focus, i dont want to repeat any mistake ive done and i dont want to hurt myself in the process anymore...i may be a nurse but even doctors cant treat themselves......

i hate being emo, im no longer one, that has already wiped out, i think with objectives in mind not emotions anymore. sorry i might sound cruel but im thinking rationaly, if somethings not working and you've tried fixing and it hadnt work and u knew it will be going round and round like the ferris wheel, why not put it to a stop, get out of the cabin and hitch on another ride? who knows you'd enjoy the next ride, u appreciate the thrills of the wheel and you learned how it goes about but it just didnt work out fine for u, so u buy another ticket for a ride that is more suitable for u.....

im no villain, im the victim most of the time, this time round, i appear like a villain cos i just stopped the both of us from being a victim of make-believe....hope u understand.a fairy-tale wont become a reality if the reality is steering off its path.