smiles

shahreil n yati.....sweet couple indeed, not mentioning their 8year long relationship and soon they'll be tying the knot, i guess i might tear at their wedding, just like at shukor's wedding...hehehe mentel ke emo nie...hahahaha

phew, case study completed and i think i did pretty ok.....counting down to the weekends and one more week before a 2week break yeay! although i have to really study cos i got 3 papers during those 2 weeks....but hey ill stay optimistic as always....i can, i will.

im more competent in my job right now....knowledge thus play apart, u need to work extra hard for that, research, study, read... learn from real cases, etc....it does help knowing more...but one thing i need to improve on is my speed....although competent and i know what im doing, im a little slow....but i guess ill pick up the speed thru time....

things im looking forward now....the end of the 1st half of clinicals, NOFX!!!!, the tp test, mom's bday, the end 3 papers, completion of year 1 which also means 1 more year before im a certified nurse...and back to IMH.....that also means nearer to total independence and that also means i can afford that smacking ktm640 motard or XXL883C Harley.....i still cant decide....ill decide when i finally can afford them...

tini's going bangkok next week, god i miss travelling, i wanna start travelling again, i dont see myself getting attached or married soon, so might as well make use of the freedom to do things i want.....LoL.....

hmm i need to start working on my knees, strengthen it probably during the 2weeks break, need the strength for my job....

new fren

it was just now tt i went out with my new found fren tt lives just around the corner, well not really ar....but within bukit batok...LoL.... initially we were supposed to go out in the evening to bugis, same thing every year in april, ill be looking for my mom's bday prezzie while she, its just been a long time since she jalan2 in bugis.....then in the morning after she came back from work she smsed me, if we could go out earlier....okla tak cerewet janji balik siang pasal besok gua werk....so there we were, new frens...

it turned out we have alot of shit similar....ouh ya i did say shit right.....i meant problems....that we faced thru life......it was heart wrenching to hear someone worst off than me and being in the same kind of shit makes me feel for her....so far, many times all i hear was happy stories....well, not that tragic la her story, similar to mine except more terok......certain things i do not like about her though but then again there were many things that we could relate to and we could understand each other....ive yet to know her further, so far we've only been on msn.....

and so it was time for me to go as i told her i wanted to go back early, so she decided to join her friend who was going to shop, we waited outside mc, hehehe i was prepared to be shocked cos ive already seen her fren's fotos...hehe blonde babe...minah abis babe....so different from tini.....okla masing2 la....she came with her sister and yes indeed fizah was a minah...LoL...okok takmo kutuk2, tu semue masing2 punye pesen, dorang nye pasal....ouh and while waiting for them to decide to eat or not, guess who i saw.....ala malas ar nak mention, korang agak sendiri la...but she was the same.....she reminded me of ol times....her dressing and all.....but the reluctant hi says it all......and so we made a move, i told the girls, ill be taking 61, but then i really needed to pee....so i ended up walking to city hall, pee, walk ard a little before i took mrt home...ouh did i mention, i went public just now bcos of the heavy rain.....olskool tunes on my ipod, i sat, thinking, wondering, mind in deep thought....well, it was a sunday.....indeed....and hey i got to eat my ol time fav.....fish ball mee pok dry.....suprisingly 'ah chew' was open on a sunday! thnks tini for the sunday......i think im getting mom a swatch, the bracelet type.....gnite peepz...

medical advancement

stem cells has always been useful.....ppl keep them in banks so that one day it might save them.....stem cells are like fresh new unprogrammed cells that can multiply and grow into any other cell.....but it was until recently that they found stem cells from an adult can be used as well and whats more for cardiac problems.....

it was on rtm1 a channel i rarely watch bcos most of the time its malay programs.....but today was a good one, its a documentry on discoveries and advancement in technology, medicine and science......in london a heart patient went to belgium to go for a trial treatment for his cardiac problems, they draw his stem cells from his spinal cord and later on implanted it on the failed portion of his heart, suprisingly after a certain period of time he recovered and the ct scan showed his cardiac muscles actually improved and worked better than the rest of the portion. scientists and researchers have yet to find out how it really worked in a way.....but they were optimistic and quoted that someday stem cells can be used to treat any diseases without drugs, isnt that wonderful? think of it this way, ur kidney fails, draw some stem cells from ur spinal cord and implant it to the portion that fails and it grows and recovers.....isnt it wonderful? im really amazed......and i really am not to keen about drugs because of its side effects, it does help but at times it creates a new problem....for example a patient who is undergoing chemotheraphy might develop other problems due to the toxicity of certain drugs...

treatment without drugs is certainly safer.....and whats more with the discovery of stem cells capabilities.....for all i know, i might not even need a total-knee-replacement, i might just need to inject in my stem cells to my cartilage, acl & mcl and soon my knee would be functioning like new....and i can skate again....hahaha ill wait for that day to come....

habibi ya maulana...

today i felt like habib....hmm but habib's no fun without shahreil thats why usually i asked/sms shahreil first if he'll be there... today no reply, hmm guess he's with his anang or cousins outside or something or probably sleeping...but hey looking on the brighter side, i get to write in here and continue studying later on....

speaking of which, although technically i have started studying days ago but it was only just now's session was fruitful enough, hmm 'not quantity, quality' zhiyuan quote few months back when i said to him, 'wah lau they not human ar, even during break can study....we always slack, at home after watch teevee then start to panick n study...even start early cant absorp..' hehehe what he said was true but i put in a little extra effort and it was great that i finally got an A few months back.....i dunno how much exactly i got but Mdm Chin did say 'Siddiq, you did very well...' LoL bangga ar tuh! bukan, cuma puas hati saja.....

today's sermon gave me a wake up call.....its about having dreams and not working on it makes those dreams, dreams only permanently.....well, im glad i made a move when i did not succeed in one field to try an alternative route to make my dreams a reality......and soon, insyahAllah, i'll be a happy psychiatric nurse....

today too, i made a new fren.....fad, added me on tagged..ouh he's not the new fren, his fren is....ouh she lives around my area, so i figured why not send her a message...and wala she replied and soon was on my msn and we talked......it was refreshing after a long time of having a new fren....in the past years, i did made alot of frens....but....hehehe soon nuff, they macam disappeared....ouh, some get attached la, some get married la....some went overseas la...and some decided to mix with the cool crowd that i do not enjoy hanging around with....LoL.....certain frens go, certain frens stay, you cant have all......anyway i cant handle all...LoL...still recall the times when i had to decide between my gilera frens, bukit batok frens, nursing frens and my ex gf when they all asked me out on the same day.....LoL......anyways, some frens are really those you have to cherish cos they are of the rare kinds.....:)

hmmm ouhk my mind suddenly went blank....ouh ya what im gonna do next 2 days, study....a movie if rashid and shahreil decides to go for one....hmmm change the oil on boba(or maybe next week)......get that 8pack action figures, swimming if not lazy....school gym if not lazy...LOL...hmmm tts about it i guess....and ouh wash caramella and search for the road tax....ugggh.....

speaking of caramella, she's staying....not going anywhere....im gonna keep her, till her coe ends and hopefully by then i have my own flat, lay up and keep her in my flat....:) after all tts what i wanted to do initially....orite....gonna switch on the tube to see whats on...if nothings good ill sleep or maybe read up a little....gnite peeps....

DNR = DO NOT RESUSCITATE....

do not resuscitate, leave me to die....LoL emo sak tu sentence kalau kau nengok dari angle salah.....LoL

ouh, NOFX NOFX NOFX.....wooooohooo..counting down......

was telling pen, my fren turned good pals turned distant pals turned msn bitchin pal....heheh well, she's still my pal after all this time, we were like bros n sisters sharing secrets.....anyways was telling pen, i wanna go for total knee replacement and a holiday where theres snow, to snowboard.....pen said, that will cost u alot......hehehehe well, life is short and when i finally can afford it, why not right?.....just wanna try things before im finally old and febrile....LoL

arrggh speaking of old and febril, lifting them gave me a back ache today...the hazards of nursing when u are pissed or tired of asking ppl for help because they can take their own sweet time, so i lifted the apek myself....at the expense of stretching my back....bad and stupid move....but her tigerbalm works wonders.....LoL.....speaking of which i got a whole lot of drugs to learn....sheesh! gotta go, cya....

hmmm....

need some soul searching i guess......i know my dreams....i want to work for it real hard though sometimes i get distracted... but the thing is, till now i dont know what i feel....if u know what i mean.....im stupid in this i know, i shouldnt be missing someone who doesnt cherish me but i know back then, that was real until...ok fullstop...LoL

was telling shareil, hey when can i like have that spending power huh?....he said soon, dont get married....LoL.......shareil i do want to get married.....and right now theres only one candidate in mind...hahah but she has someone i suppose....shes just a fren.....actually ive liked her for a long time....since we've known actually thru the introduction of lisda....but hey shes just a fren...

just now, we went to the flea market at china square and far east square....and hehe i got shareil tempted at toys but hey he resisted pretty well only to come back next week for that mad magazine board game....i, i bought lando & bib fortuna....next week if i have sufficient im purchasing that 8 figurines set....LoL.....and i bought myself a DC t-shirt just now...nice, simple, moose....LoL......haiz....im behind time in my schedule...gotta speed up my studying....focus sid, focus...and i realise my abdominal area is growing in girth....better start that routine of crunces i long left....LoL......ive been a slacker....being a nurse tires me out, so i did not work out but just laze on off days....better give my butt a kick to start off....LoL....

ok gotta go....and ouh...anyones got any ideas for mommy's bdae prezzie?.....was thinking crocs...hmm should i?....

uggh

ok life as a nurse....tired ba......but i think ill get used to it by next week, need to warm up a little.....AND I NEED TO START STUDYING SOON AND PUT THE TIREDNESS ASIDE......UGGH!

one more thing i find that im not really competent in my skills...need to brush up....and ouh, the clinical instructor not making life any easier by giving us assignments and things to do......

uhhhggghh my mind is so disorganized....

ouh NOFX....wooohooo.....20th april....the 4 of us gonna skank to the ska tunes and mosh to the punk rock tunes.....wooohooo
50bucks will be money well spent.....

i watched prison break just now.....it seems like they will succeed but then when i saw the gazette for next week....upset la brader....why la scofield, why ba, why give in to love, at crucial times like that u still think bout woman?? cmmon la ba......stupid la.....irritated sia....

ouh teevee again....hikmah2....i like......seems like 2007 is so happening ba.....hehehe...dunno y ar....theres more n more fun things happening in my life.......its jus tt tired ba......just hope i dont burn out.....k la gotta get some sleep....tumoro is FRIDAY! YEAY!!!!! gnite all...

tired is the word

geez...tts the word, im tired being on my feet for 8hours again.....sheesh i dunno how id juggle my revisions in this state, i think i need to pop those vitamin pills...prevent myself from getting sick n stuff.......uuuggh optimism babe....gotta keep the faith, im sure i can do it........

anyways, it was fun last weekend but didnt get to blog cos i was tired and busy preparing for the clinicals.......anyways i didnt realise i could gossip over msn with a classmate of mine over school for like hours....heheheh....was funny though....and funnier that we think we alike.........

tumoro i can foresee lots of work...as therell be few staff in the morning......thus equals more work......everytime something tries to bring me down, i 'inject' the idea of working at imh into myself and try to look forward and be optimistic....ill survive, i know, i will and i can......sorry frens for the next couple of weekends till after exams, i cant be free...gotta study ...... wanna have a different set of grades this time round, no more Ds or Cs.....at least Bs.....and at least an A........

what about u? gaba gaba hey!

they say i got a hole in my head and you tot i was dead,
and you may think that i am sick but i think you're sick too!

hahaha ol skool babe, fishtank was indeed one of the first few ska bands in sg tt got ppl skankin.....

im missing ol times, serious...and when is-bird told them i was an ex-cesspit, well half true....back then there wasnt a name yet...and it was not ska but it was punk more on the heavier site, ranging from adicts to chaos uk to the exploited, more old skool....and i was out cos i wasnt good i guess...well understandable, they had a vision and having me a lousy musician just holds most of them back...i wasnt practising and certainly i cant sing...harharhar....

then when i left them or should i say after i was kicked out, i was jamming with rosli, iskandar and umm...well it was an on and off thingy...we only wanted to have fun.....channeling our teenage energy to the instruments.......

then another phase after i went poly.....started to loose touch with the old guys...then somehow i got close to rashid....and then bean....and then their jap fren hide....and we started jamming....went for band of the beatles by gold90fm but didnt make it though we sound awesome i must say and i cant believe tt was me screaming....sound so different.....i even landed a gig with hide for doctor mix...a very short one.....then came the taiwanese guy.....we jammed for a couple of session until i dunno wat made me loose interest or was i preoccupied with other affairs i think?.....then i was out again...on my own...heh!

well those were the memories....sweet memories of me as a wannabe musician....while my cousins got better luck at it, i wasnt im meant for something else....hehehehe.....

i wanna grow old with u.

hehe tt was a dream tt was never met....anyhows why the topic? ouh i was hanging 4 of star wars figurines cos i had no more space on my lousy display unit.....so had to buy those hooks and hang them on my wadrobe and happened to glance at the photos on the door, scooters, beach, fun, frens, raya, army...hehehe memories....gosh time sure flies and its like almost 4 years since i completed NS....tt was fast.......

ive been busy for the last couple of weeks......and today im rushing thru 2 assignments, bad time management i must say.... the 2 practicals yest tires me out totally and being up late doesnt help me to have full concentration on my assignments and i had to collect my toys just now at china square and of course i cant help but look around and end up buying 2 more figurines..... a rather rare at-at driver and my fav, R2D2....walking around alone can be fun at times especially when indulging into things u like doing.....

yest was not so satisfying....i was referring to the concert not sex....hahah....shame on u corrupted ones....anyways, tokyo ska paradise orchestra was good no doubt about it but it was too short.....1plus hour is not enough! they didnt even played my fav, elephant walk!.....but hey they were good....okla at least i got student rate! hahaha....ok la gotta get back to my assignments... adios, love u all.....cheers....dun get drunk with love....

uggh

ok my fault tulah...ingat lu superman per, nak amik 2 practical in the same day, kan penat bis tu fail.....bengap....

anyway i passed my stage 2 in the morning after the 2nd try.......so i was excited and decided to book stage3 at noon....har har har.....24point babe...failed my evaluation....uuughhh next one tuesday....damn....try harder on tuesday and hopefully id clear then can book tp liao......then later part of next year....oooooohoooo

ok regarding my choice of bike, i was more inclined to harley....ive always wanted an XL883R......i can imagine changing the handle bars to straight ones and wearing my vintage open face helmet.....probably work my biceps even more and wear a cut-off shirt.....and probably shades or that changing colour lenses....but then just now i saw LC4KTM640.....makkau....chantek sia.. that motard shit sure caught my eye.......as i was moving off a mat salleh came to park his harley.....makkau......nevermind got 1 whole year to decide, actually more.......i wanna wait till i get registered as a nurse then i get my new bike.......eeeeeEEeeee gerams.......laila was asking me at msn, "when u getting married?" i said not yet, then she said "ouh forgot ure married to ur bikes...." hahahahaha.....ure half right there......the actual correct answer is i want my future to be certain first.....and i havent found the right one....heee and im not keen to find one yet....

sob sob....

i failed my 2nd practical.....ugggghhhh.....mebbe i should relax a little.....i went for the practical straight after school.....what caused me to fail? the stupid bumpy course......the instructor told me, i should go a little slower if i wanted to pass....i ended up going to slow....and went off course....damn!......boy those taking class 2, its not as easy as it seems.......tumoro morning at 8am is my next try.....wish me luck.....i hope to complete the course before the new semester starts at least or even better before exams so at least theres extra motivation to do better for my exams..........pass me tumoro please......:)

harley harley harley

hehehe ala saje je nak motivate diri sendirik......

anyways, class2 wasnt easy.......the reason why u hear such a discouraging comment from me, is because i never lie...hehehe
firstly, the weight factor.....if im heavy weighing at 80odd kg, the bike is way heavier.....its like an elephant(no offence shahreil) on wheels. the minute i put the bike down from mainstand i can already feel the weight pulling and the huge tank makes riding a little less comfortable if u are wearing jeans tts suppose to fit u months ago....hahahah...buah tersempal beb bila duduk....but after a couple of minutes riding, it was great man...u can feel the power....except it isnt fun riding slow on these big bikes...and trying to hide your bad habits does not make ur riding alot easier AND having been riding a non-conventional gear-shifts on the foot adds on to the difficulty level AND having ridden an automatic scooter for a year or so makes it alot more difficult... im just like fresh new 2b student.......ok i pull it off pretty well on the slopes and lane changes and other normal ridings.... and then it came to the stage where we have to try the narrow plank at 10secs or more to pass and pylon slalom in less than 5secs. i actually cant believe that the plank is much more difficult than the pylon....maklum la racer jarang bawak slow per.... no la to tell u the truth, its the weight factor and the tight jeans factor and the big phat tyres factor.......but luckily i never fell off the plank whenever the instructor was looking...only once..when he was looking and many more when he was not...hehehe...for the pylon slalom, i got the kick of it....foohoooo dah syiok tak sedar yng road tu basah.....ada gak skali tu macam rasa terslip skit...
AND did i mention im the only class2 and the rest was class2As......nobodoy knows how i felt just now......2A??? chicken la, takmo yek eh mama......gua pass 2years ago lu bleh blah...

at the end of the day, my forearm's sore from pulling the clutch, my shoulders and biceps is like as though i went thru my routine of push ups just now.......to the girls who rides big monstrous bikes....salute! its hard work and u tiny girls pull it off!

i still got a year to decide between ktm525sm and Harley XL883R........we'll see next year.......yanie, if i choose motard ill tell u...heh!

nope not B

no i did not get a B for my pharmacology test.....I GOT AN A.....so damn u those who look down on us weaker students, we can do it too.....ive proven it.....my first A for the semester and more to come.....mdm chin said when handing out the results "siddiq you did very well......America" wooooo i felt like dancing.......i did it.....i can and i will continue to do so.....

to celebrate this, im going to bbdc to enrol in my class 2...i cant find my basic theory....so maybe the next time i go for practical i book my final theory.....see ya guys....

i passed....

i cleared......i passed my clinical skills test.....wooohoo....was a nervous wreck but i passed! tts the most important thing... and tumoro is the release of my pharmacology test results.....i really hope i get an A.....i really, really, really hope.... so id have an excuse to enrol for class2! hahahaha...

some call it.....

wooohoooo watching 300........sorri rinie have to count u out....next time probably.....we already booked...LoL....watch simpsons with me kay?.....:)

heroes, heroes, heroes.......if you had special powers what would you like to have.....no, nobody can choose peter's power... the rest can.....i would love to have claire's power.....rapid tissue regeneration.....i can be indestructable....i can do all the sport i want to without worrying bout injuries.....ill definitely start racing.....and definitely skate again.....and those cliff jumps at the quarry that we use to do when we were young...and lots more!.......although being invisible would be a lot of fun.....hehehehe

tele nvr got better

i love fiction, mysteries and of course action & violence.....and the serial 'heroes' is way outta this universe, i must say its the best by far.....im loving it......thnks shahreil.....and ouh i still have yet to catch '300'! which i hope to do so in a couple of days...

so close yet so far....

so close yet so far......i was like few marks shy from an A....damn... another B but this time round, i got a B+ instead of the normal B!.....was satisfying but not nuff.....i wanted an A.....but ok la, fair nuff, considering the fact that i didnt concentrated much on endocrine cos i was concentrating more on the anatomy part....

todays paper was easier than expected but then, still, i had a couple of mistakes... i can expect an A coming....but still results are yet to be out....all i know i might have careless mistakes here and there which will pull down my marks and prevent me from getting a well deserved A...........i made a pact with myself last week, if i get any As, i would enrol myself for that class2!!!........and insyahallah next year you'd see 'doughboy'(tts wat adisam calls me cos of my nick in mirc donkey years ago..) riding on a bigger bike than his usual scooters.....hehehe

i wanna watch 300......hmm mebbe watching with mankey on sunday......

hmm i dont think im volunteering for motored alert that rinie ask me to be part of. sorry rinie, i dont think im going to be part of the crew and sori heheh cant send u home...hehehe......nak chan ride free home jer.....:P anyways for those who dont know, motorolla is having a sort of party at the rooftop of some building at market street on 24th march.......

im not excited bout that.....what im more excited is....tokyo ska paradise's performace come friday......and that Nofx gig come april 24th AND sick of it all and stompin ground 20th may.....tts what im excited bout..........

cheers peeps.....enjoy....

disabled boy with balls...

those fuckers who look down on diabled ppl should watch this....

flexible chair, i like!

something i would have when i own my own home.......