i could smile all day...

reading ur blog made me smile.....reading ur blog made me feel the warmth... i could smile all day now and put all things behind me, all the bad things....indeed god did put a smile upon my face...:)

god put a smile upon my face

i think im feeling it again....

the essentials....

im preparing my pack for skate sessions, the essentials for a full day skate session.
1. sunscreen 2.knee brace 3.tiger balm muscle rub 4.face towel 5.my sony bean loaded with 'power' packed songs....sheesh i just realised my right eye is swollen...damn...

u know why i twisted my knee....i never followed wat naz told me, wen u know ure not gonna make it let it go dun follow with the deck...i dunno wat happened back then i guess the 5050 wasnt stable but i followed thru...true enough i bailed bad.... lesson learnt, shared amongst all....and guess wat it can be applied to life too, if u know its not gonna make it, let it go....peace...

im still wondering why my right eye is swollen, was it the pain killers? i dont think i have any allergies....i hope itll be fine...double whammy, bad knee, swollen eyes, wats next?

nxt week, patience my fren

soon nuff i guess ill recover from my injury.....soon nuff ill be rolling on my board grinding, fliping, turnin....soon nuff......it has started, itll b sometime before i stop, summo i got more skate buddies now...im back to like 10 years ago....except i feel like im more mature...i dun care bout those ard me, i skate for myself.....no pressure at all...do wat i want...

ouh, muliani's father did a fairly good job except he never did the whole treatment cos he was afraid i could not withstand the pain...pain, everyone feels pain, its whether one can endure it or not and i think i could endure....reely...but hey at least i can straighten my knee now and i can limp faster....hahahah....oh my bb frens sorry, sid have to be missing from alif for at least a couple more days, his knee failed him, see ya in a couple of days......

see ya guys and adisam, hey dude i have to forgo thursday's session.....next ya dude? aight? c ya ard peepz

told ya sid

i told ya, why must u be stubborn sid?..u n ur risk taking....but hey now i know, so at least i know and thus i wont be going on hoping or sumthin like tt.....:)... thursday it is, hope naz is on afternoon shift or off....lets skate...tt is if my knee is ok..

end of another week...

coolness....been wanting to skate for like weeks....today was fucken great. from 11am all the way until 4pm when i twisted my knee(i have history with my left knee). i came to the skatepark alone....hoping theres nobody...so i can skate and do my stuff....then i saw someone there, wen i came nearer it was naz-ironman...heheh....coolness the old time skate buddy back in bukit batok wen i was just 16.....now im 26....its like as if we had arranged for a skate session....anyways it was great, few clean kickflips, halfcabs and 50-50 im contented but i need more cos skating is my drug....and naz tot me how to use the half pipe too...its tough.....but its fun...

yest, the gilera meet up, was fun but a little disappointed cos many never turn up... i was out with them from 6pm all the way to 5am...whaoh.....but the funny thing is i woke up at 10am not tired but rather the urge to skate....

now im down with a twisted knee, i know a small bit of my meniscus is stuck in between.... sheesh get out of there so i can straighten my knee and not walk like a retard....the ppl at the skatepark was great, especially the old birds of skateboarding.....hey go back put ice ar, if not cannot skate....and he didnt even know me....ill be back....confirm, 101% this thursday if i recovered, ill try to perfect my thang.....hehehe...

anyway muliani, when's the next movie session eh?....seems like ure now my movie buddy....

kan ku serah segala padamu

tis ska-melayu mp3 has been playing non stop ever since i got it from rex last night. i love gscyes didil when the jammin session? i vox or bass kay?

Gerhana Ska Cinta feat Radhi OAG
Senyuman Ragamu

Ke mana saja
Kau berlari bersembunyi..
Ku tahu cintamu
Padaku teguh..
Takku peduli cara
Dan tingkah lakumu
Kerna ku takkan pergi
Jauh dari sisimu
Dengarlah kasih

Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu
Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu

Kan kubina sebuah singgahsana
Untukmu berlindung
Dari hujan basah
Pabila malam
Ku termimpikan wajahmu
Takkan jiwa ragaku
Berakhir nikmatnya
Dengarlah kasih
Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu
Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu

interesting night

no muliani u did not promise....hehe and no i dun mind if we cancel it...but anyways we end up watching dorm, was satisfied with it except its not scary all the way.. but anyway overall its worth to watch....ouh i forgot to mention.....someone was late... hehehe but luck was on our side, the show started few minutes after we sat...

the tests....ive been wanting to discover how accurate the tests were, these tests will somehow determine some sort of ur personality....i think basically in ur love life, ur characteristics...and yeah its was quite accurate....ive read before....and some said these are done by thousand years of studying the pattern of human behaviour, i read it somewhere long time ago but never really knew of the tests ....somehow things u do, the way u do things reflects on what u are in person....

the questions,
1) if given 2 routes to somewhere say ur gf's place, which would u choose the long route or the shortest one?
well for me, at times i take the long route but in this case and usually i take the shortest and fastest route.

2) if u have 20 red roses and 20 white roses, and were to give ur loved one 20 stalks how many would u give? i chose to give 15 white and 5 red, my reason well, i like white better and i feel without red the essence of love would be missing....i wanna show her i love her but at the same time give what i feel is nicer n more unique overall...

3)if u came to ur gf's place and she were asleep, would u prefer her to wake her up or would u just let her sleep n watch? i would watch, cos i did tt before, i couldnt sleep, she was sleepy, i like looking at her sound asleep...theres this kind of soothing unexplainable feeling its like so calm...

4)if u go to her house, would u wait for her or anyone to open the door for u before u enter or u just open the door urself?
i would wait cos i feel its not my home and i should let the owner open, then i enter.

THE CONCLUSIONS which i agree but not totally..

1) the longer route means u dun easily fall in love,...i chose the shortest route and true enough i admit, i easily fall in love of course la not with everyone..

2)red roses means u give but u dun expect anything in return while white the other way round....this i partly agree cos when i was selling stuffs last time, i expect to make alot.....but if in love, i give a 101% and honestly i do expect the person to give the same....

3)if u wait for someone to open for u means u cant solve ur relationship problems urself and need someone to help u settle things, a third party. not totally true, i settle things myself but i do seek advice and opinions but ultimately, i make the choice and decisions.

4) if u watch her sleep, ure the kind tt like the person the way he/she is and would not demand her to change meaning accepting as wat she/he is. very true...

conclusion, quite accurate indeed wat u do actually shows wat u are...

the other test i did was my handwriting pattern, i was to write the numbers 1-9 and somehow the way i write shows wat i am and the results were,
im not straightforward, i tend to beat around the bush...
im not fillial(nah i dont think so) probably this applies cos my dad is in jakarta hehehe...
my other half is so-so not pretty not ugly either, normal....true enough my past ones were..its not totally bout looks u know..:)
i do not know how to save...very true...i save but i end up spending it...
i got lots of frens but theres backstabbers....very fucken true and proven as well.
ur other half is shorter than u ... 2 out of 3...i guess the 3rd one doesnt count much cos tt was only like 2weeks long...

these tests is not reading the future, tt would be wrong and i wouldnt want to do those cos, firstly its wrong in Islam and 2ndly if u can tell the future...haiya go figure...these tests are rather showing the patterns of how humans do things actually have some relations to their characteristics/behaviour....

thnks ya for the tests, it was very interesting....

after the movie n the tests, i went on to meet syed, aidil & ryzan, my gilera frens, i already turn them down last saturday cos i was bz fixing up my pc, and i havent met them since the bbq....and i miss seesha....the normal we do over there, bike talk, tech talk, etc...talking cock..ehehe...but main thing, we were going to do a patch for all our 'members'....believe or not now we are 18 man strong,..hmm actually 16men & 2ladies all riding gilly.....but of course there was no meet ups tt all could turn up....hehehe...wish therell be one day....if only adil & nadzir would join in the fun.....but i reckon theyd do so, adil rejected my invitation so many times..its pure fun....i wish adil n nadzir would come if i ask them to join this saturday's outing.

anyways, thnks the four peeps tonight whom made my evening a fun one...love y'all and guys id make up for the soccer next week...ouh thursday....waxing...haiyah work late again...sheesh......but 2 more days to my off day....yeay.....

i had to jot this down

before i slept yest, tot of racing on my ps2 but then i ended up watching rodney's skate videos, his act always amazes me.......the yearn to skate has been stretched to 2 weeks now as my buddies is busy with work n stuffs.....so this is wat i dreamt as a result.....>>>

i was with my skate board pulling wicked ol skool stuff, i guess it was at some kinda shop like go-sport, old skool, tattered and all.....then i needed to go to the loo, and somehow i accidentally touched the wall that was filthy with 'human-dirt' ewww..then suddenly i lost my pair of lovely skate shoes....on my way out....i dunno how, after all its a dream....i went looking and looking thinking it was some prank, then i came across to this messy room, looks like mine but this one is way beyond repair with lots of cobwebs and dust and trash but loads of cool stuff....but one thing caught my eye, the unicycle, the spanking chrome just shined thru the rubble of trash.... i took it and end up doing the unbelievable, i can unicycle....then out of nowhere my family was there then one of them warned me riding a unicycle is dangerous....HAhahahhah..ouh one thing weird bout the unicycle, the seat's wooden.

farnie right? well, why the dream i think bcos of the video and bcos i yearned to skate its been 2 weeks now and probably bcos ive always wanted a unicycle.....and bcos QTs toilet can get real filthy at times....the residents there who uses the loos are no better than untrained dogs....we should remove the toilet and let them hold their bladders till they get home...its not only about aiming, even the used toilet papers are thrown all over the place....its either they are grown up retards or dogs in human's skin...

adios dude, gonna make meself a bowl of oatmeal......im hungry.....

i am here for me...

splendid week indeed...the army never called...phew....settled most of my stuff at work.
my pc running well, souped up with an extra 40GB, BenQ CDR, an extra fan, Video card all from my old pc....and im proud to say i did it myself!

usual day at work.....irritating customers, demanding customers, crazy customers...haiz weekends, u get to see all kinds of ppl.....

nuthin much to write...mebbe cos i talked it off with a fren of mine...hehehe... but anyways life's cool and im lovin it, except when am i going to get a reply from IMH or SGH?

gnite peepz....gonna race aftr i watch rodney do sick tricks on his board....adios..

finally

a new pc, it burnt a fairly medium sized hole in my pocket but its better than getting one from those bloodsucking company who earned about 20% of interest each year out of dumb ppl who fell for their trap and me, im not one of them, cos mentally i calculated how much would my pc cost at the end of the day.......

i just realised one thing, i cant do without a pc, am i a freak or am i just addicted? nah i guess its just a way of occupying my time when im at home and id miss reading blogs, blasting my fav mp3s and of course the wonderful msn, where i meet ppl that i cant meet everyday in person.....its cool n its been a part of my life...

2nd day of the new spankin diy pc.....read shahreil's n muliani's blog......i tell u peepz, if their blog were to go public i guess ud enjoy reading them too. well, shahreil havent updated his blog yet... muliani good luck on that job application.....and no, i wasnt having a headache tt day with u girls....its just tt at times i felt left out....generation gap ar...hehehe...ouh now then i realised wearing a cap makes me look older....but hey i dun comb my hair....serious...my fingers are my comb......so sometimes it gets messy, tts why the cap and tts why i prefer my shoulder length hair...cos even though it gets messy, i felt comfortable....i dunno why... but with shorthair i tend to worry if id look like a dork or sumthin.....

anyways, thnk god, the army did not recall us this week...if not id have to drag my lazy ass to macpherson, our mob center....thnk god.....oh if they'd call, pls call tumoro cos at least id get to take time off work..hehehe...

muliani finally agreed to help out in the stock take, thnk u auntie nancy...hehehe
i could always use some extra help....anyway thnks muliani uve been wonderful...if not id not be able to even write this blog cos i wouldnt have windows...hehehe.....and ouh the stock take, thanks a million....a movie next week aight? my treat....

my fren asked me for the book i borrowed, narnia....gosh i havent finish reading it cos im preoccupied with so many other things....anyways u can have it, cos its been collecting dust for weeks anyways....ive only read 3 chapters...hehehehe....

whaoh this entry i guess is the longest.....anyways im still anxious over how i fare for the 2 interviews....when are they gonna bring me the good news.....i cant wait... well like many i dun have much choice...if given a choice, if i have the time and money to spare, ive always wanted to be a cartoonist......be it digital or on paper.....ive discovered this during the english project back in secondary 2 where i created a comic book with azmi.....it was entitled 'Askme vs Dr.Cdiq' vbut in SG in order to survive u need money, so tts my first priority money thru a stable profession. maybe i could use my interest to cheer up patients and ....nurses...hehehehe... anyways my doodlings had left its mark at different places.....the noisesingapore website, volcom's website, the walls at the skatepark, the cartons at my workplace, hehehehe so peepz at work tt doodlings were done by me...hehehe...

until then, cya......wanna add on my old hard-disk to my new one....foooohooo....

haiz.....

stagnant...progression is slow cmmon gimme the answer, well im hoping i get in sgh...
2 years of sacrifice to a life-long career, ive made the decision and theres no turning back.

last week, raimie, eizhar were just talking bout future and how our age catches up, raimie being the lucky one, he signe up with one of the uniform groups back in ns where up till now he have a stable career but one thing he regret, he never saved back then, its only a couple of years back that he started....well, its the same with me...wen i left ns i was working, hard but spending hard as well....and i was dumb to do so... cos it got me nowhere and hmm i dunno wat else 2 say, it was 2years odd of splurging, spending like nobody's business until i guess 2005 i got my mind straight i gotta get a hold of myself, so i started but still the saved cash had to go to my debts when i was jobless, tts my caramella my bike, my only love since late 2004. im glad now i paid off all of it and in fact i got another bike cos i sayang so much caramella that i cant bear to ride her everyday and actually its slow for going to work and all la...heee..

now im more firm with decision making.....if ive decided id stick with it...and theres always a back up plan....like i have to sell caramella for various reasons but if say when it comes to the time tt i have to renew my insurance and still there's no buyers, id opt to uplay it and probably keep it in my room, or at pen's place...and about nursing, its a stable career ive opted for, theres no turning back if i got accepted but im unsuccessful, i guess id keep looking for other routes....... age is catching up, theres no turning back....ive wasted a total of almost 3years and im not going to let that happen again.....no way....

this day, my cuzzen, muhaled is getting engaged...congrats bro....he was the closest cousin ive ever had.....but we drifted since ns times....anyways congrats....

sigh, work soon...sometimes my current job is a drag but sometimes its ok and i kinda enjoy it....but i want a job whereby i look forward to everyday and of course the possibility of promotions...

until then gtg guys...cya peepz ard....

splendid

i was lucky, alhamdullilah....god let me save 100bucks of my much needed hp....my trade in wasnt possible if shahril's fren syed wasnt working there....cos my hp was trashed, but he made it possible......so i saved a whopping 100bucks on top of the 50bucks voucher i oredi got.......i just got an average phone...my budget was below 200...and i very well stick to it, i only needed to fork out 148....love my new phone, wanted to get v3 actually but syed told me sony is much more worth the buy...

watched gubra yest with the the crazy colleague of mine.....i love the show, worth every single cent i spent.......ive yet to watched sepet but gubra was already a good one, so later on, im gonna watch sepet on dvd......i hate orked's husband, he's the piece of meat, the dirt, the stupid one...he had such a wonderful wife and he had to round fuck around.......anyway watch it urself to find out more...teehee....

ouh i gotta get my iu unit working, if not everytime i wanna go town i have to park my bike somewhere n take a train or bus........or mebbe next time ill just go public...

and i so want to do better this friday....cos i want to be at sgh more.....for many reasons....

until then cya, gotta iron my uniforms.....and ouh i got 2 free movie passes from my training yest! cool....gonna watch the DORM soon....

the mind is a terrible thing to waste

like the phrase i heard umpteen times, ppl wont call u ________(fill in the blank) if u kept ur mouth shut. aw shit, my blog is supposed to be a happy2-joy2 thingy...but nvm.

i have many reasons for my actions....and i can not say it out.....but i hate it when baseless accusations are made.....dumbfuck....find out, ask before u accuse someone, well i did but u lied until i found out the truth...anyways fuck it, but to the kaypoh mak nenek who decided to tell every fuckshit wats happening congrats you've conveyed the message efficiently and at the same time piss the hell off me......

anyways back to my ol' beautifool, recovering life.....yest, adil & adisam, my new found skate buddies....we, the old 'birds' started skating again...and it was hell lot of fun and definitely cheaper than a movie or shopping....and fuck yeah i can add more tricks to my blackbook.....i tore my volcom jeans....wat a waste but ill have it sewn back.....

im listening to more ol skool hardcore-hip-hop nowadays, i dunno why but its like music that drive me to skate....well actually slayer has the same effect too...so yeah listen to SLAYER....hehehe.......oh god i cant wait for the next skate day...

GOOD NEWS FOR TODAY-----i got an interview come friday with SGH....fooohoo....great place to be working at, my auntie is the nurse-manager there, my fren ruyani is at a nurse at one of the clinic there and my cousin qistina is working there too.... yeah yeah id love to work there with all the ppl i know around me.....insyaAllah....ill get to work with SGH....cant wait....

skool starts, income low, i need a part-time job to make up so tt i can continue contributing to my family.....

anyways adisam n adil.....keep the faith dudes.....skate or die.....fridae amcams kalau date lu cancel kiter skate....ok la see ya guys.....iamvicious relives...

i cant wait for sunday

bless me on thursday, let saturday pass with a breeze and let sunday come sooner...

thursday---> MAJOR INTERVIEW FOLLOWED BY MOVIE DATE
saturday---> MOBILISATION(ARMY SUCK)
sunday-----> SKATE DAY WITH ADIL N ADISAM

but for now, im getting ready for SOCCER!....boys will be boys....

black, wait up, im sure gonna pick up racing(RC) again....once i got nuff cash... miss those days we thrash the carpet tracks with our fully mod 1:27 scale sports cars.....

i love my hair now ....... i flick it to the other side, instead of my parting on the right, i change to left....kinda cool...heee....experiment...its healthy...

i had a 'hot' dream last night....why must it always be mysterious...hehehehe damn!...

ok guys gotta go....the boy in the ballack jersey is going to rip those posts tonight!

the sore thighs

thursday night, i ran for about 3km, breathless i still managed to come back in a piece...friday night after the movie we were aimless, so jalan2 all the way from marina to suntec to bugis to arab street...yest i started skating.....TODAY my thighs are sore...damn.....worn out....

new hobby means less time wasted, i got a feeling id be single for at least another 4-5 years...hehehe....but hey at least i have fun....at least i got plans for the future..

anyway NI, thnks for fridae....if not i guess i wouldnt be watching fd3....cos everyone in my list have watched it just cos i had to work late last week...damn...anyways it was gory macam ala-happy tree frens.....

i had to do some appraisals for my staff which would determine their annual increment, i recommended all to get that....wouldnt u love it to have me as ure superior?...hehe
anyway its not my money....if they were to question me to justify the increment, the reply i already prepared....

i so wanna skate again today....dz why no reply dah ......my foot is itchin....damn

d greatest exercise machine

i invented in wat i think the greatest exercise(cardio) 'machine' ever invented....the skateboard....its fun, it makes u sweat, builds up ur courage and increase ur heart rate to a healthy level....my thighs already feelin tight...aww.....

i look like an idiot anyways, so old amongst the kids at go-sport probably the oldest skateshop in sg....anyways, i feel good, progressions pretty fast and i hope it dont stop there, being mature does help u mentally...though the fear is still there and i twisted my knee trying to pull a pop shove it...damn...heee...its fun, ppl out there join in the fun....i already did...

close shave

capricons are stubborn ppl.....it was a close shave last night back from alif, where i pop my boba across the hump, i landed slanted...damn itchy me....hehehehe...

anyways, shahreil, my previous entry was jus about my DREAM.....and ouh im not sombong, i had to iron my uniforms just now, cos i woke up a little late today and have to rush alot of things...

i wanted to write bout sumthin last nite but was too sleepy....anyway i gained weight, cos im lazy to run again...ive skipped running for 3 whole weeks now....suppose to run at least once a week....but now i guess once a month.....i just hope i dun balloon to wat i was before...but hey i can still fit in my my 32inch berms, so i guess its fine..

i need(want) a new handphone.....soon, soon....

i will have to part with my locks soon....sigh....

today i recieve an sms tt put a smile, mile wide even though i had to work late, it reads " good night sid, my dearest fren...." i only wished the last word wasnt 'fren'
hehehehe but good nuff...in life u have to learn to be satisfied sometimes..

ive been listening to black sabbath these few days.....i wish i had a band whom i can jam with.....oh dizzy started skating again....n im pumped to skate again....it was how i occupied myself a couple of years ago, when 'disaster' was just a smell away.. but optimistic capricon refuse to smell the stench of it...hehehe....i think only i know what im talking bout...hehehehhe...anyways, the next 'rubbish' im gonna buy is a skateboard.....n yeah i will skate......n yeah i will try pull tt 50-50 clean.....
soon.....soon....

gnite peeps...n my dearest fren(s)......:)

i think its true after all

hmmm im beginning to think im not paranoid after all, i see ppl avoiding me...its true, ive been deleted of frens list somehow from the ppl i know, not those whom i knew online only....i do not know if its done delibrately or by mistake....sigh, lets just forget bout it cos i know i still have my wonderful frens still ard me by my side, well unless they too get sick n tired of me....

many was pleased with the bbq, and some even thought of having a 'sequel' to it...zul suggested a chalet, i tot a picnic would be great and many want tt kind of chillin session again...but probably more organized n prepared....

i hope money does comes in cos i wanna 'soup' up boba....and if i do get back to school n graduate with a rewarding career, i want to look for a race buddy, buy a nuovo and race it on weekends....i want live my dreams....i told tt to ppl close to me before, theres a couple of things left to do and one of them is racing....legally of course...
oh n i always wanted to try jump off a ramp or sumthin on a motorbike....crazy huh?.. but hey its a fantasy....

dreadlocks, ive always wanted to do that but sigh im almost there keeping the length but i have to sacrifice tt for my future sake....

i had a weird dream on monday, i had a family of my own....but i have no driving license so my family had to tumpang ridzman to dunno where...teehee...and ouh i didnt get to see my 'wife''s face...but i think she's someone i knew...anyway its just a dream....gnite peepz....

work

work will start again, i cant wait for the switch....
im addictive, addicted, to many things superficial and real.....
i need that chin up bars, the only place i do chin ups is at my workplace where i hung to those metal shelvings...oh ive broken the zero again....
im still wondering how id look in white n black shoes....
i still got a strong feeling bad things abt me is being spread about in this wonderful sg...
i am still the same paranoid me....
i chose to waste my offday away......the lazy bug is in me again....
im loving comedies and love stories more....
im thinking of ways to chop my hair....im vain...
i feel the bulge as im typing away, im fat...
im not sleepy cos i slept too much...
im not hungry cos i ate too much....
im sneezy cos i stopped vitamin c.....

wandi's bike is a superb noise emitting machine it sounded just like those xr4s, im considering still that powerfilter n performance pipe...believe me, id pop again...
tee heee....

here are my most current wants.....if u won a lottery buy me one of the followings..:

a sound system for my ps2/mp3, so i can blast them while i race
tt wireless ps2 controller
a flat screen monitor cum teevee
a new pc
tt recliner from ikea, to go with all of the above
a chin up bar, an ez bar and more weights
tt motard arai helmet
a gpr or leo vince
a malossi power filter, torque driver plus performance rollers
tt 'lost' wallet
some nice leather shoes for my interview
a new haircut...
a new pair of glasses

well i guess tts about it for now......gnite peeps, :)