aiyah.....

theres nothing wrong with laughing....in fact its a good way to ease oneself.... so dont worry, i guess ure just pretty happy yeah?.....

at first i worry bout writing this down...but hey, id like to jot dot wat comes to mind........im having second tots bout letting caramella go.....ok if its below my expectation....ill not let it go...id hold on to it.....i still love it...perhaps id lay it off for awhile uh?.....ill find part time to make up.....really.....

haiz....its just months away till we are really busy with each others stuffs....me, going back to school, pursuing my future and u on ur first real job..... but hey itll be only 2 years yeah?...so i guess we'll have to bear with it....then after that itll be back to normal....

reservist coming soon....sigh....

my area manager is keeping his eyes on me....he thinks i did not perform....well, fuck him....i did my job tts all i know....i tried....if he thinks its so simple, well take my place dumbfuck......ill just bear with it till i start school...... i do love retailing but the system is just fucked up....major cock up....

gotta go dudes....surfing for means and ways to kickstart my ebay 'business' again..

sigh....

im a happy man....my dear, laugh a little lesser, nanti tido ngigau...hehehe....

kla frens gnite, today is another day, ill sleep smiling.....love u my dear....

yeah!

my darlin will be thrilled to hear this....ill be a nurse....imh has decided to take me in....'iamvicious' is officially now a registered nurse for the institute of mental health.....

splitting headache

i dunno why but my head hurts a little right now....

my sayang will be having her interview tumoro for the TL position with FP, i know she'll get it....gd luck yeah.....

chris called me up, i hope this time round chris can help me close a deal....then my savings will kickstart instantly....well, its already started....cos of the progress package.....put aside 500 liao....the rest i have to settle my 'debts' and bills....
many ppl wouldnt understand....but hey i think im making the right choice......i should be....

tumoro, i can forsee itll be a long day at work...i can see that ill dread to go back.. but hey, i gotta make myself useful...and i shall not disappoint the ppl ard me....i guess my boss is starting to trust me a little...

i gotta sleep, im going to the bank tomoro with shahreil...to find out more bout saving plans....i hope it doesnt rain in the afternoon, cos i got loads of things to do tumoro, tt includes.. the bank, bike shop for servicing....

gnite, peepz....she jus msged me, she lost her anklet....aiyah nvm la, i buy u another one kay?....gnite all....

gd luck sayang

hahaha sajak ar tu laki bini supervisor kat ntuc fp......anyways gd luck for ur interview next tuesday........i know its hard to get a job nowadays....but patience and keep on trying......anyways im positive ull get it....

if i love someone, no matter how stressed up, how busy, how tired, ill always make time for tt someone....id rather she confide in me than keep it to herself....at least i know wats going on...

im more relaxed nowadays at work....theres load of things to be done...but i take it as it comes...i get less stressed out nowadays...and im feeling great....why ar?...hehehe.

going to the chalet organized by fellow tags...my other brothers.....the rain made me ouh so lazy....but ill go anyway, i promised ill come, so i will....cya guys....

try this harmless test

Test.. have fun! Don't cheat!! If you are honest, this tells the truth. It's pretty good. Write your answers on a piece of paper, and NO cheating!!

1.Which is your favorite color out of: red, black, blue, green, or yellow?

2. Your first initial?

3. Your month of birth?

4. Which color do you like more, black or white?

5. Name of a person of the same sex as yours.

6. Your favorite number?

7. Do you like Flying or Driving more?

8. Do you like a lake or the ocean more?

the answers:
1.If you choose: Red - You are alert and your life is full of love. Black - You are conservative and aggressive. Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back. Blue- You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love. Yellow - You are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.

2. If your initial is: A-K You have a lot of love and friendships in your life. L-R You try to enjoy your life to the m aximum &your love life is soon to blossom. S-Z You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

3. If you were born in: Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected. April-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will not last long but the memories will last forever. July-Sep: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good. Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be great, but eventually you will find your soul mate.

4. If you chose: Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard at the time but will be the e best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change. White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

5. This person is your best friend.

6. This is how many close friends you have in your lifetime.

7.If you chose: Flying: You like adventure. Driving: You are a laid back person.

8.If you chose: Lake: You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved. Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people..

ive done it and guess wat, shahreil is my best friend....hehehe.... n i have 6 close frens, so few....hahah...

why not earlier...

ok, so i didnt go to bed....hehehe....cos i just had to find out if u wrote something... actually sayang, i was wondering about it too....why didnt i meet u earlier? must i meet all the rotten ones before i meet u?, must i go thru umpteen heartbreaks and aches before i meet u?......but i wouldnt complain cos finally i met someone tt is really worth meeting, cos finally all the unhappiness is gone....

well, ur mom is right, we are indeed inseperable....i love u sayang....gnite....

Ke mana saja
Kau berlari bersembunyi..
Ku tahu cintamu
Padaku teguh..
Takku peduli cara
Dan tingkah lakumu
Kerna ku takkan pergi
Jauh dari sisimu
Dengarlah kasih

Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu
Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu

Kan kubina sebuah singgahsana
Untukmu berlindung
Dari hujan basah
Pabila malam
Ku termimpikan wajahmu
Takkan jiwa ragaku
Berakhir nikmatnya
Dengarlah kasih
Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu
Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu

Senyuman Ragamu ~ Gerhana Ska Cinta

sigh....

its like ive known her forever....its like we've been together for so long....and funny we have alot more in common than i expected....i think its call fate....

im so relaxed with her.....its like as if im going thru some kind theraphy whenever im with her, im so calm, although like she said, i think too much but still, i think calmly.......after all, i did ask her to be my drug...

im not a paranoid android wen im with her...no worries....more like just plans.... and plans...and plans....we think alike.....i think that goes with the saying great minds think alike....hahahaha....

i cant wait to be hearing from IMH......i think tt job is my future....i think id love the job....it helps me in away...it helps me to keep me awake and it tells myself not to think too much or ill be like them....hahaha....

i saw the group of harleys roar past me last night, its like purposely making me drool....i dunno why...but i still think harley is cool....provided its not those pakcik2 wanna be who rides it.....hahaha....the image of the harley is supposed to be associated with big burly individuals or those hardcore, toughie image not some fat, beer bellied, flabby pakcik2...just ruin the bikes reputation....hahaha......sorry no offense but tts what i feel.....

my dear, sorry i fell asleep last night...i was tired i guess....and sleepy...i slept soundly, no dreams.....hehehe...love ya lots....

haiya....

watever la eh....i know wat im not....
i write watever comes to mind good or bad....so if u dun like it, dun read, simple. i dun compose, i just write wat comes to mind.....a criminal will stay a criminal in ur mind only.

24th april is mom's bdae

happy bdae my dearest mom, hope ud like the watch i bought u......

i am cleaning my room now until i start sneezing away at the dust around me, so here i am on my computer as bob marley is wailing on my speakers......

i realised that i have an expensive taste for hobby...i tend to like stuffs that are expensive, like motorcycles, photography, games and gadgets......but my paycheck doesnt allow me to have some of those.....in fact i have to give up some cos i need to start saving....hopefully, wen im stable and all and probably wen my paycheck reach at least 2k, id love to own a car but due to its impracticality, i guess a harley would be fine, those fat ass rude choppers....but then again, a ktm540 supermoto would be nice too...
hmmm....i guess, im outgrowing small bikes....but still id go for unconventional motorcycles...hmmm.....dreaming is nice....can feel those engines vibrating, the roar of those phat engines....grrr....hehehe

dreaming is nice but making a dream a reality is even better.....and god knows im on my way to do that, although i might be slower from some ppl....i still feel shahreil is the luckiest of the lot....a good job(he's even making money off freelance assignments) and good soon to be wife....sigh...wat else can u ask for....

i feel a need to pick up a skill that might be useful and might bring in some dough too...ive always wanted to pick up photography..hmm mebbe wen i have a little bit of spare cash....mebbe....but meanwhile, i guess ill pick up cost-less skills... i saw this "threadless-tees" they have all sorts of t-shirts tt sells, seriously sells and the designs are what i could come up with....but then again, theres too much competition in this line in sg....anyways ill do wat i like, id start off with one for TAGS(twist and go scooters) my new few months old scooter club....ill come up with something, silk-screen or hand paint my own tee n wear it one day and see wat they says....:)....

gotta bet back to cleaning up before my butt get glued to the stool that shahreil bought me for my bdae......

i need to save up...

i actually pull out from the leo vince exhaust system reservation bcos i think i dun really NEED it.....and i NEED to save up......for something else......for myself...my future...sorri guys for troubling u all....i hope its not much of a problem to strike off my name from the reservation list......

i gotta start to be more disciplined.....have to budget myself and probably have to start bringing food from home to work.......and mebbe less movies....mebbe just once a week....:)....

i think somehow u woke me up yest thru our conversation.....love ya...true nuff, im weak with temptations and i tend to spend when i have the money......i guess im going to start another bank account, this time round, no atm cards even if i have, id let mom keep it....any suggestions for which bank i should save in?....

alright, gotta get ready for work....tts all folks...

saturdae....

nenek, sorry sidek lupa la....nasib baik cik timah sms...hehe....my grandma is going off next week, to mecca.....so they sorta held a doa selamat for her and my two uncles.....my stepmom came from indo just to attend it but she have to go back tommorow and wulan my sister didnt come cos she started work oredi....i faced some unfamiliar faces and of course my aunts n uncles n cousins whom i see only once a year....its good to get together with the family....my nenek told me my dad is better now, he's starting to send money for my 2 younger siblings......before i left, nenek hugged me, can feel tt somehow im still like macam her fav. grandchild...hehehe

ouh my uncle were trying to tell me not to switch to nursing cause ill waste my dip in mech eng.....but hey, ill go back to eng if i really didnt get into nursing...my aim is to be a lecturer one day.....if i can discipline myself to get good grades and hopefully get sponsored for a degree...and so on...

i think my bike needs servicing and change of brake pads and probably adjustments to the shocks...n i need to go to viacom on monday....speaking of which monday is mom's birthday.....gonna suprise her...

went out with my baby jus now, she's fluish...but we really enjoyed the movie i must say...and i just found out, we like the same drink, guess wat, teh halia...mine i prefer teh o halia....hehe cool...and guess wat, she likes maggie goreng too... coolness....oh nurse yani saw us jus now.....but she was shy to approach us....so she msged me just now....hehe....

now ive got to refrain from overspending...i must start saving....little by little pon jadilah...heheh......skit2 lama2 jadi bukit kan...

ouh i hope ud get well soon dear....monday we go out kay?...gnite dear...swt dreams...

still....

when i held her in my arms, its like as if i just dont wanna let go...i wish the time wouldnt have passed so fast....wen shes with me, its like as if every pain, every problems has just went away....everything just disappear in a blink of the eye....i can only see u, and u calmed me down, u calmed down the savage vicious beast within me...
i need u, my dear....gnite...

mad house

first of all to my baby....im sorry....u appeared bothered by wat ive said....i really didnt mean any harm....

mad house.....ppl shud stop having the perception that a mental hospital is filled with haywire and chaotic patients who bang their heads against the walls, smash windows, etc. but in actual fact those rarely happen......well it does but mebbe only one or two but rarely....seriously....

they are just normal ppl in their world of their own.....their illness are mostly result of problems....like, relationship, financial, family, work and even studies..
only, ONLY once in awhile they get their relapse and started shouting, blabbering nonsense on their own or even pick a fight with fellow patients...otherwise they are fine......i played ping-pong with one, scrabble with another and a long game of checkers with the champion of the ward, mr razalee....so u see, we all who have never visited IMH has this wrong impression, that the place is with bars, and ppl behind it are chaotic and violent....we are wrong.....u should visit IMH one of these days, instead of feeling scared, ud feel sad for them, their condition and worse, some are even abandoned....im sad, it touched my soul, especially seeing my fellow muslim brothers in there, unwell and some abandoned....they did not ask to be in their state, im sure enough they do not want to be like tt......i almost got teary, when i see some of the good ones, help out, clear the tables, make the bed, even though some have physical handicap......theres more to describe i can go endless.....i think im going to love my new job if god permits....

do visit IMH one of these days, its a real eye opener....

.....

be my forever.....guide me for i still need guidance,
i was lost, i was misled previously, i was left, lost alone.

i think ure the first tt truly love me, ure the first tt worries i might go away, ure the first.

i miss u...

pray for my future, which will also be our future.....pray that i have chosen the right ladder to the top.

insya'allah everything will go smoothly......

gnite my dear...

prezzie hunting

ive been hunting for a present for dear mommy with my sayang for the past couple of days and only today did i settle for that swatch watch....i wanted to get the dress watch but i want something tt mom would wear everyday, so i get something more for daily use.....i love my mom, she gives me support in things tt i do....she knows ill be there but i may take some time....

ive got an attachment with IMH, insya'allah ill be gain acceptance into the accelerated 2year dip in nursing....insya'allah ill have a handsome paycheck after the 2years and insya'allah i can send my mom to haj...n insya'allah kalau ada jodoh...u know...

shahreil n yati, u guys looked like as if u were already married jus now...u know newly wed couples...i dunno why la.....bt tts wat i felt

im so comfortable with her...ni....my sayang....its like we've been together for years....yes ure my everything....

gnite peepz.....

sleepless

i cant sleep.....1stly i have to iron my uniform, 2ndly, i just cant....sigh....

still floating in the air...

i love u baby....thnks for supporting me....i feel like im much stronger with u by my side...love ya...gnite

deja vu....

i was reading the tag board....then i realised....mebbe id have tt deja vu in a couple of years time.....hehehe was just thinking...

i dropped my baby's helmet....i just bought her tt helmet last week...i broke the tiny thing tt holds the beak....but luckily, i got it fixed...good as new now....sorry dear, was an accident...

today i guess shes dead tired, she didnt reply wen i msged her gnite......

today i finally spoke my mind to doreen, the fat bitch at work who manipulates and abuses her authority....she was in charge of rostering us, supervisors....but damn u she makes everything convenient for her....tt bitch changed my off day once i objected but i let her have the good friday off in place for a saturday....and now she's taking advantage of the fact that i can compromise and changed my off day at the last week of april...damn her...i spoke my mind off just now....it took some weight of my chest... and my dear was happy tt i told tt bitch off....shes such a bitch....anyways, i dun intend to stay for long....their system sucks...and some things they do are just wrong....i just hope i get into nursing soon...if theres no reply by end june, id look for elsewhere for another job, a better paying and a job with a better prospect and future...

i want to make it happen, what i told u....and i hope it will....:) cya tumoro...