'hey dude... hows life?? anyway i would like to ask u about someone from ur list of frens.. his nick name is Censored and he's real name is CENSORED.. do u know him?? ermm.. its a long story.. ermm.. i just wanna know whether is this guy attached or something..'
that was wat i got on my frenster msg inbox.......from someone who so long never talk to me and it camed with that smile sent shit thingy....and u know what i replied?
"all i know is he is not married, so ok per...ala i guess girls also behave the same nowadays if u know wat i mean...ive been thru relationships and i know....half the time i came across with girls like that and one was even worse than guys(at least the gusy i know)....just tell ur fren, if she does have a bad feeling with my fren, just find another guy la.....senang, laki2 banyak....buaya pon banyak, kena pandai pilih jer....LoL"
sedap ye kalau kene kan orang...siddiq2 jahat kau....ala tapi dia sendiri mau ingat la...tanya soalan tu kat aku...bodoh..... dulu kau buat apa? tak ingat ker? ker eksyen lupa...bodoh nye pompan....
lupa ker?
we skate
we skate...yes we skate......
its been a long time since i hear the pop of my deck......yest i decided to tag along adi, adil and yanto skating.....it was a tough start, the phobia of injury struck me, i dare not pop nor did i dare to do that 180 powerslide turn.....nor that fakie shove it that i use to do.....it was bad.....i was feeling like 'uggh i cant skate no more'.....that was while waiting for yanto to arrive.....i sat and i stood and tried again, it progressed a little......adi told me to plug on to my nofx and i sure can.....something like that la...so i took out shuffle and just pressed play.....and tried again....full concentration.....improved a little......yanto was late cos he was making his way home from work and then to capitol where we were suppose to meet.....so we decided to 'warm up' at the mscp.....aww man.....i was popping again.....although shitty...i actually went off the ground......and i managed a couple of fakie shove it though shitty....
when yanto finally came, we made way to the skatepark.....along the way we stopped at SMU for the steps....they were right, it was like macam in the video game...i meant the setting...coolness, except rather dark.......i watched them, was a little not too confident to try anything.....then adil gave me encouragement as i popped ollies as practise, 'diq, try ollie to step ar, satu jer...' ok, i tried.....yeah man...made it, i know its low but for starters it made me happy......then, looking at them ollie down, made me so itchy that i tried....one step ok, then two....before i completely was confident and good at two, we had to leave cos the security made his appearance.....so we made our way to the skatepark.....skating along the streets in the night where there were few ppl around(its already 2330hrs on a weekday) was really great...felt like the good old days....
at the skate park, many had improvements, though adi had a bad fall.....yanto and adil...had many successful 50-50s and me, a couple shitty failed 50-50 but i still managed to feel the.....'grrrrrrggg' the sound of the trucks meeting the edge...was a great feeling after more than six months.....we then made our way home when the sky started to drip....
the feeling was great.....the sweat, the skating, all lah........today my thighs were sore but i guess i benefited from it......i felt a little stronger on my knees....and the sweat yesterday, if done every week, i guess i can loose a couple of pounds....it benefited me, i enjoyed it, i forgot bout everything else and i had fun......thanks guys.....the week after next yeah....if the time is right.......we'll be surfing the concrete jungle.....
we skate
we skate...yes we skate......
its been a long time since i hear the pop of my deck......yest i decided to tag along adi, adil and yanto skating.....it was a tough start, the phobia of injury struck me, i dare not pop nor did i dare to do that 180 powerslide turn.....nor that fakie shove it that i use to do.....it was bad.....i was feeling like 'uggh i cant skate no more'.....that was while waiting for yanto to arrive.....i sat and i stood and tried again, it progressed a little......adi told me to plug on to my nofx and i sure can.....something like that la...so i took out shuffle and just pressed play.....and tried again....full concentration.....improved a little......yanto was late cos he was making his way home from work and then to capitol where we were suppose to meet.....so we decided to 'warm up' at the mscp.....aww man.....i was popping again.....although shitty...i actually went off the ground......and i managed a couple of fakie shove it though shitty....
when yanto finally came, we made way to the skatepark.....along the way we stopped at SMU for the steps....they were right, it was like macam in the video game...i meant the setting...coolness, except rather dark.......i watched them, was a little not too confident to try anything.....then adil gave me encouragement as i popped ollies as practise, 'diq, try ollie to step ar, satu jer...' ok, i tried.....yeah man...made it, i know its low but for starters it made me happy......then, looking at them ollie down, made me so itchy that i tried....one step ok, then two....before i completely was confident and good at two, we had to leave cos the security made his appearance.....so we made our way to the skatepark.....skating along the streets in the night where there were few ppl around(its already 2330hrs on a weekday) was really great...felt like the good old days....
at the skate park, many had improvements, though adi had a bad fall.....yanto and adil...had many successful 50-50s and me, a couple shitty failed 50-50 but i still managed to feel the.....'grrrrrrggg' the sound of the trucks meeting the edge...was a great feeling after more than six months.....we then made our way home when the sky started to drip....
the feeling was great.....the sweat, the skating, all lah........today my thighs were sore but i guess i benefited from it......i felt a little stronger on my knees....and the sweat yesterday, if done every week, i guess i can loose a couple of pounds....it benefited me, i enjoyed it, i forgot bout everything else and i had fun......thanks guys.....the week after next yeah....if the time is right.......we'll be surfing the concrete jungle.....
pelik tapi benar part2
asal la aku nie asyik terjumper orang2 pelik.....betul tak bohong....nie pelik tapi benar.....
aku takmo elaborate la....tapi pelik.....orang pelik.....aku agak dia ada rosak skit kat atas tu tapi aku takmo serkap jarang pasal kawan baru, blom kenal lanjut pon......
ahhh pedulik ar tu semua, yng penting gua harap nanti petang takmo hujan sua........pasal aku, adisam, adil dan mungkin yanto akan bersukan papan gelunsur.....hahahaha kalau Liyi(dak yng nak step blaja cakap melayu mentang2 bf dia melayu) baca, mesti dia cakap "why u must use chim malay..." padahal bukan 'chim' cuma kau tu cina....hehehehe gi tanya ar bf kau....... kepada seri, sori je, smalam kene study nari last paper....hehehe....sOorRi...hehehe(nak buat style mr.bean tapi kat sini tak kedengaran dong.....
anyway speaking of the last paper....nie subject paling vague dan theory2 yng putar belit cam keling.....health psychology & sociology.....yer2...jng pandang rendang kat nurse2 eh....bnyk tau dipelajari.....bukan senang nak jadi 'misi' kalau nak jadi misai senang la...heheheh
lagi satu hal, on labour day, aku tertipu tipah.....shahreil cakap nak ngok spiderman....tapi sblom dia booking tiket dia babble jangan pandang belakang la jangan main blakang la....apa ntah...aku tengah groggy....tak, mana ada....gila...aku tak buat tu benda semua...im clean...hehehe...anyways, rupanye dia nak bilang nak nengok citer hantu....yng aku nie, sampai la wayang tu start baru aku tau.....hehehe.....anyway ok la filem melayu dah ada improvement in terms of shots dia, dah pandai buat transition, effects...etc.....cuma hantu dia, dia nak buat terlalu seram sampai jadi kelakar.....heheh...anyway thumbs up, kalau melayu tak puji melayu, sapa lagik kan?.......
kla nak mandi.....eh seblom tu bukak pakaian dulu...hehehe......pas tu makan pas tu gi skola menghadapi cabaran terakhir buat semester ini.....doakan gue, semoga sukses.........amin......dan soreh nanti, gleamin' the cube dengan teman2 gue...
'stress ar...' <<<----major understatement
im stressed, tough paper tumoro, its a matter of grades.....
i cant input anymore, so im taking a break.....when the clock strikes midnight, ill turn into a werewolf...not...
when the clock strikes midnight, ill run thru once until my eyes....my eyes says, siddiq u idiot go to sleep moron....then ill sleep wake up at 6am and prepare for doom....
zack, i finally realised it was him under the moustache in the 'deal or no deal' commercial....zack i want ur harley, damn u... better find me a good deal....ure a salesperson after all...hurhurhur......azlan quote "sid nak beli harley cari number plate baik.." who cares about number plates when its a harley with ape hanger handle bars...........kiken sent me a smile.... 'ur photo and caption tickles me..' i replied no worries i dont have white balls....hurhurhur......
aku stress la...dah stengah giler nie.....ada sapa2 yng ada valium tak? ker diazepam ker...apa2 type of sedatives la......urrghhh
and one more thing, i just find out orang 'alim' pon kadang2 get lured by money.....n greed...hurhurhur.....
ouh man i seriously need valium.....jab me doctor......and i dont mean with that.....fist(wat were u guys thinking?)
harley harley harley harley.....sori ruyani, not getting a motard...hurhurhur.....
tremors...nope not parkinsons...
was it the coffee or was it the itch to skate?
i had a break from studying...one of many actually.....and itchy me brewed coffee and turned on my ipod to see rodney mullen and many more skate in the tiny screen......uggh.....in my mind was already thinking of where can i skate on my own in my neighbourhood without ppl looking?.....sheesh....im so itching to skate that i tot tumoro is a good day to start, maybe just cruising around the neighbourhood, ollie kerbs and start where i last stopped, my half cab ollie, 50-50, kick flips and shove its.... damn......so itching but another part of me says no, jog first build up ur leg muscles first loose some pounds then skate... its like one half is a devil, the other is the safe no risk kinda shit.....
now both my legs is like having little shivers, its like the power-lytes have magnets that summons my feet to ride....urrrrghhhh.. now im even thinking which socks to wear......damn.....and which brace to use...damn....ugggh.....i can tell u, once u skate, ull always want to try again once in awhile......its already like a bacterial infection that refuses antibiotics.......uggghhh better sleep away before i go nuts.....
wake up
my fav song at present....so soothing....wake up....and i think armstrong's vocals is pretty sexy....ooouh i sound so gay....
takmo cakap bnyk...
takmo ckp bnyk ar....gua dah pass tu jer....class2 babe....bila mau ride harley atau motard babe....hehehe sblom apa2 ucap dulu alhamdullilah save duit.....dah pass....hehehehehhe....nengok ar tahun depan tukar motor....meanwhile nak start on class 3 yng aku dah tangguh lama.....sblom tu kene blaja dulu...eh salah gi westmall cari bday present mak aku!
3 big events
3 big events 2 days this week.....tumoro my class2 tp, wish me luck guys......friday my 1st paper and the start of a new business. wish me luck 2 more times guys....heh........actually i should say wish me, my mum & my uncle luck, may our business prosper.....insyahAllah......
i look like elton? wtf....
saw this at a fren's blog.....itchy2 wanna try....but ended up a little disappointed.....cos i look like mr gay elton john....hmmpfft!
still in nofx land...
this is why i love them back in my teen days and now still even though i listen to more vast genre of music......they are just rude and straightforward, well ok, im not rude...im a good boy...hurhurhur...anyway enjoy....
my grammar suck...
ok, i read my last entry and boy my grammar's horrible...but who gives a fuck, i cant be bothered to edit though....fat mike doesnt need fantastic grammar to be there....hahahah bodohnye budak sebab tu english kau b3 je..... anyways cant help it but to show the growth in my collection...saje je nak show off....hehehe.....wooohooooo
sore but fucken happy and satisfied....
when in your life would u feel sore but yet happy and satisfied....? hmmmm....if u were at nofx rockin performance just now u would.....i bled, i sweat, and i had sores in my shoulders and neck....and im broke....but its fucken worth it.....i spent 50bucks for the tix, which is way cheaper than some gay boyband performances....i spent 40bucks on TWO nofx tour tees, which is way cheaper than some gay surfer wannabe tees........i strain my neck muscles which ive never experience to this extent even on 69....i bled on my knee....i sweat more than i was totured back in army, my knees were weak, my whole body ache but it was fucken worth it....im 28 soon but who gives a fuck...im having fun without drugs or booze, im still a good boy right? hurhur...
i sang along to familliar tunes that i heard back when i was 14 till my voice went coarse and husky.....i jumped with my knees tucked in and my feet in the air as though i did not have any pain in my knee.......i swirl, turned, tossed like a drunken monkey but it was worth it......cos i was watching NOFX and you wasnt there.....my pals, boy, shahreil and nadzir are witnesses to that fantastic gig too, ask them....its way better than some gay music videos u watch on teevee.......if u wasnt there and u love punk rock, ure one dumb ass ,,,,,,,idiot son of an asshole....hehehe...ouh mind me, that was a song title from one of NOFX's numbers....they rock and i will be there again if they do come back even if im already 40! money well spent just now, best day of my life....so far.... heh!
NoFx are pure natural, funny set of musicians who can pull it off and make the crowd go wild, they dont need no fancy smancy suits or nice hairdos or designer jeans....they were there in tees and berms.....and they still rock, two of them are fat and not good looking but the fans fucken love them......who needs looks when u can joke, rock like NOFX.....
im tired to explain further, if u love Nofx and u weren't there its like giving a one night stand a pass....i think that pretty much describe it.
thnks nadzir for the info first hand, thnks str8's records for posting that bulletin that tickets are out, thnks to the hongkees who bring them on the tour....and thanks nursing for providing me with allowances to feed my nonsense.....hurhur....good night.....i was a happy kid again....or should i say always?
hehehe thai song....
okok.....the pt with schizo n depression can only talk to me without being violent.....okok so the staff nurses say im his best fren....its the approach dah....u appear fearful of him, once u have this tiny bit of...."ishk orang giler..." they can see thru u man.. can u imagine on wednesday night he can say "tumoro u morning shift ar?" i was like, how do u know......he simply answered "i know la u look hardworking..." LoL.....probably just good guess....this morning when i came to work, they said he went amok and threw chairs and stuffs that they have to restrain him......i know whats the problem, look at how they handle these ppl la... wah lau, from ur look, even the blind can sense fear and those "eee orang giler..." kinda thought, u have to treat them like a friend, be one of them, well, not literally of course......and they'll be fine.....i even asked him what languages he can speak cos i overheard him cursing in english, mandarin, hokkien, malay, tamil.....serious no joke.....and i overheard he told someone he knows a little thai....so itchy me and the mischievious side of me............asked him, "hey how to say i love u in thai? i want to say to this girl la...." heheheheh.....then he paused for awhile as though in deep thought......and soon he sang....hehehe...in thai of course.....i asked him, whats that...."thai love song la!"....LoL......
too fast
like the girth of my abdoment whenever im back to school, my starwars collection is growing too fast, im spending like 55bucks in 2days for 3clone troopers and 1 AT-AT driver...gosh im nuts....with that, ive come to a conclusion to let go my older collections, like the kiss series 2 collection.....im not looking to make, just to sell off to make way for starwars....LoL...have to concentrate on one right.....but well, i cant bear to sell off my he-man, silver-hawk, ghostbusters, starcom, ninja-turtles, thundercats.....these i cant bare to let go, too classic...too many memories.....hehehe.....id want to show off to my kids what daddy had when he was a boy or never had...heh......
hehehe showoff...
sajer nak eksyen, here's my current 19carded strong star wars action figures collection...harharhar....and shahreil we'll have a duel someday when i get that darth vader light saber.....
im a trooper, are u?
heheh i own one of the rarities.....sandtrooper at mere 10bucks.....wooohooo, just collected it just now....drool dudes...drool!
then up next in the list to be collected this week are.....
and all of the above cost me 51bucks....damn me......hehehe cant help it la...was too tempting...not to mention, ive still got 2 more auctions waiting to end that cost 26bucks...ok thats enough for this month...LoL.....its eating away holes in my pockets...
pelik tapi benar....
i think ar, ure full of bullshit....but who cares.....
anyways, its been quite sometime since i had weird dreams.....tts sometimes wierdly enough, reappear in reality.....
ok i cant remember clearly but here's how it roughly went......
mom had a restaurant....uber cool...alhamdullilah if it happens in reality.....i was done helping mom, i took my skateboard and left, i was in the uncoolest outfit ever, tight jeans and long sleeves, i mean wat was i thinking man....i didnt see myself but my legs were alot smaller, probably i lost weight....HARHARHAR.....ok so, i was skating with a couple of frens....then alamak, i tore my jeans.....so i wanted to loan something to wear from, fahmie, my sec school pal......we skated, crossed a street and took a super cool train macam mrt, except no seats....then the cool thing is this train stops just infront of his block, disembark and its already at his lift landing....so, its in the future i presume.....along the way, theres this cute chick...super sexy but carrying kids.... MILF.....hahahaha, but i guess she was fahmie's wife....i cant recall the conversations but somehow i ended up wearing a green basketball jersey bearing numbers which i cant recall again, i then skated again....before i finally was awaken by the star wars midi on my alarm....teeheee....weird but cool dream....macam ala 'back to the future' and 'gleamin' the cube'
ouh adisam, i really wanna skate.....ill give u a ring someday...aight?
kembang...
hari nie gue paling kembang skalik.........aku datang keje je, pompan cina tu bilang aku, "eh u got compliment u know..." aku pon tanya, sapa? patient mana? dia tak tau.....okla buat bodoh je la...aku carry on la as per normal, skali sister ho tegur aku "siddiq, u recieve a compliment from a patient last week, keep up the good work and that same patient also complained, bla, bla" ada la, bila dia admitted kawan2 kiter kat admission tu tak taruk dia on red tag pasal dia ada drug allergy, sapa tak bingit, kalau kene drug salah, dah member tu kene anaphylactic shock.....anyways....it didnt stop there....aku pon cakap la thnks kat sister ho, pas tu carry on la keje cam biasa.....pas tu jeane, HCA pon sama, "siddiq, u get compliment u know....." wah mengembang2 aku nie....hahaha dah gitu takper 2pm standard, mass pass report time....sister hamidah pulak announce.... kat khalayak ramai......gua blush ar gua agak, dah gitu takper yng buat tak sedap dia gi kata...."if a student can do it, be attentive to the patients, i think u all staff nurses and ANs can also do it......" alamak....nie yng tak sedap....ah gitu takper la, gua pon eksyen tak dengar, carry on la cam biasa....bz....skali ada sister besar nie turun.....bilang aku to keep up the good work....hehe biasa ar gua punyer reaksi, tersenyum, tapi gua bilang, "ouh i didnt do anything much..." dia jawab, "ya u might thing u didnt do anything much but many people might be looking and watching, thats why u got commended" gua senyum jer ar....takper la gua nie dah kembang giler nie, campur malu pon ada......sister hamidah plak datang....."siddiq, u know uve been commended? i hope u will keep this up and not only now as a junior.." aku pon angguk la.....hehehehe.....u know, these kind of compliments make me love my job, makes working less work...u know what i mean.....my secret, when really it comes to caring, treating for patients, i treat them like my own grandpa, my own uncle, my own fren.....thats how....yah no doubt i laugh along them and sometimes cant help it when they act funny...im just mere human....LoL.....anyways im loving my job.......the last person that made my day today, was that apek.....when he gave me a thumbs up for helping him out......it was a great day....better than sex.. oops id take that back.....LoL.....
lucky
felt like going out just now after i washed carmella and boba clean and getting some hardware from the store.....was going queensway but then i decide to stay home and go later instead, maybe in the afternoon....wah lucky me, as i was lazing around at home, it poured damn heavily.....LoL...lucky, lucky.....so ill go tumoro and make sure be home before it pours again....hehehe IF la kalau tak malas kan...n probably to my fav store too, to grab some more figurines......heheheh....
somewhere last week somehow i thought of not switching bikes so soon....mebbe ill ride boba for a lil bit longer....maybe until i completed my bond...or something...mebbe ill save up for that harley and pay in cash rather than utang....hehehe see how la.. ouh by the way still havent decided whether that supermotard or the sporster....hmmmph....kla sleepy oredi.....nytes...
smiles
shahreil n yati.....sweet couple indeed, not mentioning their 8year long relationship and soon they'll be tying the knot, i guess i might tear at their wedding, just like at shukor's wedding...hehehe mentel ke emo nie...hahahaha
phew, case study completed and i think i did pretty ok.....counting down to the weekends and one more week before a 2week break yeay! although i have to really study cos i got 3 papers during those 2 weeks....but hey ill stay optimistic as always....i can, i will.
im more competent in my job right now....knowledge thus play apart, u need to work extra hard for that, research, study, read... learn from real cases, etc....it does help knowing more...but one thing i need to improve on is my speed....although competent and i know what im doing, im a little slow....but i guess ill pick up the speed thru time....
things im looking forward now....the end of the 1st half of clinicals, NOFX!!!!, the tp test, mom's bday, the end 3 papers, completion of year 1 which also means 1 more year before im a certified nurse...and back to IMH.....that also means nearer to total independence and that also means i can afford that smacking ktm640 motard or XXL883C Harley.....i still cant decide....ill decide when i finally can afford them...
tini's going bangkok next week, god i miss travelling, i wanna start travelling again, i dont see myself getting attached or married soon, so might as well make use of the freedom to do things i want.....LoL.....
hmm i need to start working on my knees, strengthen it probably during the 2weeks break, need the strength for my job....
new fren
it was just now tt i went out with my new found fren tt lives just around the corner, well not really ar....but within bukit batok...LoL.... initially we were supposed to go out in the evening to bugis, same thing every year in april, ill be looking for my mom's bday prezzie while she, its just been a long time since she jalan2 in bugis.....then in the morning after she came back from work she smsed me, if we could go out earlier....okla tak cerewet janji balik siang pasal besok gua werk....so there we were, new frens...
it turned out we have alot of shit similar....ouh ya i did say shit right.....i meant problems....that we faced thru life......it was heart wrenching to hear someone worst off than me and being in the same kind of shit makes me feel for her....so far, many times all i hear was happy stories....well, not that tragic la her story, similar to mine except more terok......certain things i do not like about her though but then again there were many things that we could relate to and we could understand each other....ive yet to know her further, so far we've only been on msn.....
and so it was time for me to go as i told her i wanted to go back early, so she decided to join her friend who was going to shop, we waited outside mc, hehehe i was prepared to be shocked cos ive already seen her fren's fotos...hehe blonde babe...minah abis babe....so different from tini.....okla masing2 la....she came with her sister and yes indeed fizah was a minah...LoL...okok takmo kutuk2, tu semue masing2 punye pesen, dorang nye pasal....ouh and while waiting for them to decide to eat or not, guess who i saw.....ala malas ar nak mention, korang agak sendiri la...but she was the same.....she reminded me of ol times....her dressing and all.....but the reluctant hi says it all......and so we made a move, i told the girls, ill be taking 61, but then i really needed to pee....so i ended up walking to city hall, pee, walk ard a little before i took mrt home...ouh did i mention, i went public just now bcos of the heavy rain.....olskool tunes on my ipod, i sat, thinking, wondering, mind in deep thought....well, it was a sunday.....indeed....and hey i got to eat my ol time fav.....fish ball mee pok dry.....suprisingly 'ah chew' was open on a sunday! thnks tini for the sunday......i think im getting mom a swatch, the bracelet type.....gnite peepz...
medical advancement
stem cells has always been useful.....ppl keep them in banks so that one day it might save them.....stem cells are like fresh new unprogrammed cells that can multiply and grow into any other cell.....but it was until recently that they found stem cells from an adult can be used as well and whats more for cardiac problems.....
it was on rtm1 a channel i rarely watch bcos most of the time its malay programs.....but today was a good one, its a documentry on discoveries and advancement in technology, medicine and science......in london a heart patient went to belgium to go for a trial treatment for his cardiac problems, they draw his stem cells from his spinal cord and later on implanted it on the failed portion of his heart, suprisingly after a certain period of time he recovered and the ct scan showed his cardiac muscles actually improved and worked better than the rest of the portion. scientists and researchers have yet to find out how it really worked in a way.....but they were optimistic and quoted that someday stem cells can be used to treat any diseases without drugs, isnt that wonderful? think of it this way, ur kidney fails, draw some stem cells from ur spinal cord and implant it to the portion that fails and it grows and recovers.....isnt it wonderful? im really amazed......and i really am not to keen about drugs because of its side effects, it does help but at times it creates a new problem....for example a patient who is undergoing chemotheraphy might develop other problems due to the toxicity of certain drugs...
treatment without drugs is certainly safer.....and whats more with the discovery of stem cells capabilities.....for all i know, i might not even need a total-knee-replacement, i might just need to inject in my stem cells to my cartilage, acl & mcl and soon my knee would be functioning like new....and i can skate again....hahaha ill wait for that day to come....
habibi ya maulana...
today i felt like habib....hmm but habib's no fun without shahreil thats why usually i asked/sms shahreil first if he'll be there... today no reply, hmm guess he's with his anang or cousins outside or something or probably sleeping...but hey looking on the brighter side, i get to write in here and continue studying later on....
speaking of which, although technically i have started studying days ago but it was only just now's session was fruitful enough, hmm 'not quantity, quality' zhiyuan quote few months back when i said to him, 'wah lau they not human ar, even during break can study....we always slack, at home after watch teevee then start to panick n study...even start early cant absorp..' hehehe what he said was true but i put in a little extra effort and it was great that i finally got an A few months back.....i dunno how much exactly i got but Mdm Chin did say 'Siddiq, you did very well...' LoL bangga ar tuh! bukan, cuma puas hati saja.....
today's sermon gave me a wake up call.....its about having dreams and not working on it makes those dreams, dreams only permanently.....well, im glad i made a move when i did not succeed in one field to try an alternative route to make my dreams a reality......and soon, insyahAllah, i'll be a happy psychiatric nurse....
today too, i made a new fren.....fad, added me on tagged..ouh he's not the new fren, his fren is....ouh she lives around my area, so i figured why not send her a message...and wala she replied and soon was on my msn and we talked......it was refreshing after a long time of having a new fren....in the past years, i did made alot of frens....but....hehehe soon nuff, they macam disappeared....ouh, some get attached la, some get married la....some went overseas la...and some decided to mix with the cool crowd that i do not enjoy hanging around with....LoL.....certain frens go, certain frens stay, you cant have all......anyway i cant handle all...LoL...still recall the times when i had to decide between my gilera frens, bukit batok frens, nursing frens and my ex gf when they all asked me out on the same day.....LoL......anyways, some frens are really those you have to cherish cos they are of the rare kinds.....:)
hmmm ouhk my mind suddenly went blank....ouh ya what im gonna do next 2 days, study....a movie if rashid and shahreil decides to go for one....hmmm change the oil on boba(or maybe next week)......get that 8pack action figures, swimming if not lazy....school gym if not lazy...LOL...hmmm tts about it i guess....and ouh wash caramella and search for the road tax....ugggh.....
speaking of caramella, she's staying....not going anywhere....im gonna keep her, till her coe ends and hopefully by then i have my own flat, lay up and keep her in my flat....:) after all tts what i wanted to do initially....orite....gonna switch on the tube to see whats on...if nothings good ill sleep or maybe read up a little....gnite peeps....
DNR = DO NOT RESUSCITATE....
do not resuscitate, leave me to die....LoL emo sak tu sentence kalau kau nengok dari angle salah.....LoL
ouh, NOFX NOFX NOFX.....wooooohooo..counting down......
was telling pen, my fren turned good pals turned distant pals turned msn bitchin pal....heheh well, she's still my pal after all this time, we were like bros n sisters sharing secrets.....anyways was telling pen, i wanna go for total knee replacement and a holiday where theres snow, to snowboard.....pen said, that will cost u alot......hehehehe well, life is short and when i finally can afford it, why not right?.....just wanna try things before im finally old and febrile....LoL
arrggh speaking of old and febril, lifting them gave me a back ache today...the hazards of nursing when u are pissed or tired of asking ppl for help because they can take their own sweet time, so i lifted the apek myself....at the expense of stretching my back....bad and stupid move....but her tigerbalm works wonders.....LoL.....speaking of which i got a whole lot of drugs to learn....sheesh! gotta go, cya....
hmmm....
need some soul searching i guess......i know my dreams....i want to work for it real hard though sometimes i get distracted... but the thing is, till now i dont know what i feel....if u know what i mean.....im stupid in this i know, i shouldnt be missing someone who doesnt cherish me but i know back then, that was real until...ok fullstop...LoL
was telling shareil, hey when can i like have that spending power huh?....he said soon, dont get married....LoL.......shareil i do want to get married.....and right now theres only one candidate in mind...hahah but she has someone i suppose....shes just a fren.....actually ive liked her for a long time....since we've known actually thru the introduction of lisda....but hey shes just a fren...
just now, we went to the flea market at china square and far east square....and hehe i got shareil tempted at toys but hey he resisted pretty well only to come back next week for that mad magazine board game....i, i bought lando & bib fortuna....next week if i have sufficient im purchasing that 8 figurines set....LoL.....and i bought myself a DC t-shirt just now...nice, simple, moose....LoL......haiz....im behind time in my schedule...gotta speed up my studying....focus sid, focus...and i realise my abdominal area is growing in girth....better start that routine of crunces i long left....LoL......ive been a slacker....being a nurse tires me out, so i did not work out but just laze on off days....better give my butt a kick to start off....LoL....
ok gotta go....and ouh...anyones got any ideas for mommy's bdae prezzie?.....was thinking crocs...hmm should i?....
uggh
ok life as a nurse....tired ba......but i think ill get used to it by next week, need to warm up a little.....AND I NEED TO START STUDYING SOON AND PUT THE TIREDNESS ASIDE......UGGH!
one more thing i find that im not really competent in my skills...need to brush up....and ouh, the clinical instructor not making life any easier by giving us assignments and things to do......
uhhhggghh my mind is so disorganized....
ouh NOFX....wooohooo.....20th april....the 4 of us gonna skank to the ska tunes and mosh to the punk rock tunes.....wooohooo
50bucks will be money well spent.....
i watched prison break just now.....it seems like they will succeed but then when i saw the gazette for next week....upset la brader....why la scofield, why ba, why give in to love, at crucial times like that u still think bout woman?? cmmon la ba......stupid la.....irritated sia....
ouh teevee again....hikmah2....i like......seems like 2007 is so happening ba.....hehehe...dunno y ar....theres more n more fun things happening in my life.......its jus tt tired ba......just hope i dont burn out.....k la gotta get some sleep....tumoro is FRIDAY! YEAY!!!!! gnite all...
tired is the word
geez...tts the word, im tired being on my feet for 8hours again.....sheesh i dunno how id juggle my revisions in this state, i think i need to pop those vitamin pills...prevent myself from getting sick n stuff.......uuuggh optimism babe....gotta keep the faith, im sure i can do it........
anyways, it was fun last weekend but didnt get to blog cos i was tired and busy preparing for the clinicals.......anyways i didnt realise i could gossip over msn with a classmate of mine over school for like hours....heheheh....was funny though....and funnier that we think we alike.........
tumoro i can foresee lots of work...as therell be few staff in the morning......thus equals more work......everytime something tries to bring me down, i 'inject' the idea of working at imh into myself and try to look forward and be optimistic....ill survive, i know, i will and i can......sorry frens for the next couple of weekends till after exams, i cant be free...gotta study ...... wanna have a different set of grades this time round, no more Ds or Cs.....at least Bs.....and at least an A........
what about u? gaba gaba hey!
they say i got a hole in my head and you tot i was dead,
and you may think that i am sick but i think you're sick too!
hahaha ol skool babe, fishtank was indeed one of the first few ska bands in sg tt got ppl skankin.....
im missing ol times, serious...and when is-bird told them i was an ex-cesspit, well half true....back then there wasnt a name yet...and it was not ska but it was punk more on the heavier site, ranging from adicts to chaos uk to the exploited, more old skool....and i was out cos i wasnt good i guess...well understandable, they had a vision and having me a lousy musician just holds most of them back...i wasnt practising and certainly i cant sing...harharhar....
then when i left them or should i say after i was kicked out, i was jamming with rosli, iskandar and umm...well it was an on and off thingy...we only wanted to have fun.....channeling our teenage energy to the instruments.......
then another phase after i went poly.....started to loose touch with the old guys...then somehow i got close to rashid....and then bean....and then their jap fren hide....and we started jamming....went for band of the beatles by gold90fm but didnt make it though we sound awesome i must say and i cant believe tt was me screaming....sound so different.....i even landed a gig with hide for doctor mix...a very short one.....then came the taiwanese guy.....we jammed for a couple of session until i dunno wat made me loose interest or was i preoccupied with other affairs i think?.....then i was out again...on my own...heh!
well those were the memories....sweet memories of me as a wannabe musician....while my cousins got better luck at it, i wasnt im meant for something else....hehehehe.....
i wanna grow old with u.
hehe tt was a dream tt was never met....anyhows why the topic? ouh i was hanging 4 of star wars figurines cos i had no more space on my lousy display unit.....so had to buy those hooks and hang them on my wadrobe and happened to glance at the photos on the door, scooters, beach, fun, frens, raya, army...hehehe memories....gosh time sure flies and its like almost 4 years since i completed NS....tt was fast.......
ive been busy for the last couple of weeks......and today im rushing thru 2 assignments, bad time management i must say.... the 2 practicals yest tires me out totally and being up late doesnt help me to have full concentration on my assignments and i had to collect my toys just now at china square and of course i cant help but look around and end up buying 2 more figurines..... a rather rare at-at driver and my fav, R2D2....walking around alone can be fun at times especially when indulging into things u like doing.....
yest was not so satisfying....i was referring to the concert not sex....hahah....shame on u corrupted ones....anyways, tokyo ska paradise orchestra was good no doubt about it but it was too short.....1plus hour is not enough! they didnt even played my fav, elephant walk!.....but hey they were good....okla at least i got student rate! hahaha....ok la gotta get back to my assignments... adios, love u all.....cheers....dun get drunk with love....
uggh
ok my fault tulah...ingat lu superman per, nak amik 2 practical in the same day, kan penat bis tu fail.....bengap....
anyway i passed my stage 2 in the morning after the 2nd try.......so i was excited and decided to book stage3 at noon....har har har.....24point babe...failed my evaluation....uuughhh next one tuesday....damn....try harder on tuesday and hopefully id clear then can book tp liao......then later part of next year....oooooohoooo
ok regarding my choice of bike, i was more inclined to harley....ive always wanted an XL883R......i can imagine changing the handle bars to straight ones and wearing my vintage open face helmet.....probably work my biceps even more and wear a cut-off shirt.....and probably shades or that changing colour lenses....but then just now i saw LC4KTM640.....makkau....chantek sia.. that motard shit sure caught my eye.......as i was moving off a mat salleh came to park his harley.....makkau......nevermind got 1 whole year to decide, actually more.......i wanna wait till i get registered as a nurse then i get my new bike.......eeeeeEEeeee gerams.......laila was asking me at msn, "when u getting married?" i said not yet, then she said "ouh forgot ure married to ur bikes...." hahahahaha.....ure half right there......the actual correct answer is i want my future to be certain first.....and i havent found the right one....heee and im not keen to find one yet....
sob sob....
i failed my 2nd practical.....ugggghhhh.....mebbe i should relax a little.....i went for the practical straight after school.....what caused me to fail? the stupid bumpy course......the instructor told me, i should go a little slower if i wanted to pass....i ended up going to slow....and went off course....damn!......boy those taking class 2, its not as easy as it seems.......tumoro morning at 8am is my next try.....wish me luck.....i hope to complete the course before the new semester starts at least or even better before exams so at least theres extra motivation to do better for my exams..........pass me tumoro please......:)
harley harley harley
hehehe ala saje je nak motivate diri sendirik......
anyways, class2 wasnt easy.......the reason why u hear such a discouraging comment from me, is because i never lie...hehehe
firstly, the weight factor.....if im heavy weighing at 80odd kg, the bike is way heavier.....its like an elephant(no offence shahreil) on wheels. the minute i put the bike down from mainstand i can already feel the weight pulling and the huge tank makes riding a little less comfortable if u are wearing jeans tts suppose to fit u months ago....hahahah...buah tersempal beb bila duduk....but after a couple of minutes riding, it was great man...u can feel the power....except it isnt fun riding slow on these big bikes...and trying to hide your bad habits does not make ur riding alot easier AND having been riding a non-conventional gear-shifts on the foot adds on to the difficulty level AND having ridden an automatic scooter for a year or so makes it alot more difficult... im just like fresh new 2b student.......ok i pull it off pretty well on the slopes and lane changes and other normal ridings.... and then it came to the stage where we have to try the narrow plank at 10secs or more to pass and pylon slalom in less than 5secs. i actually cant believe that the plank is much more difficult than the pylon....maklum la racer jarang bawak slow per.... no la to tell u the truth, its the weight factor and the tight jeans factor and the big phat tyres factor.......but luckily i never fell off the plank whenever the instructor was looking...only once..when he was looking and many more when he was not...hehehe...for the pylon slalom, i got the kick of it....foohoooo dah syiok tak sedar yng road tu basah.....ada gak skali tu macam rasa terslip skit...
AND did i mention im the only class2 and the rest was class2As......nobodoy knows how i felt just now......2A??? chicken la, takmo yek eh mama......gua pass 2years ago lu bleh blah...
at the end of the day, my forearm's sore from pulling the clutch, my shoulders and biceps is like as though i went thru my routine of push ups just now.......to the girls who rides big monstrous bikes....salute! its hard work and u tiny girls pull it off!
i still got a year to decide between ktm525sm and Harley XL883R........we'll see next year.......yanie, if i choose motard ill tell u...heh!
nope not B
no i did not get a B for my pharmacology test.....I GOT AN A.....so damn u those who look down on us weaker students, we can do it too.....ive proven it.....my first A for the semester and more to come.....mdm chin said when handing out the results "siddiq you did very well......America" wooooo i felt like dancing.......i did it.....i can and i will continue to do so.....
to celebrate this, im going to bbdc to enrol in my class 2...i cant find my basic theory....so maybe the next time i go for practical i book my final theory.....see ya guys....
i passed....
i cleared......i passed my clinical skills test.....wooohoo....was a nervous wreck but i passed! tts the most important thing... and tumoro is the release of my pharmacology test results.....i really hope i get an A.....i really, really, really hope.... so id have an excuse to enrol for class2! hahahaha...
some call it.....
wooohoooo watching 300........sorri rinie have to count u out....next time probably.....we already booked...LoL....watch simpsons with me kay?.....:)
heroes, heroes, heroes.......if you had special powers what would you like to have.....no, nobody can choose peter's power... the rest can.....i would love to have claire's power.....rapid tissue regeneration.....i can be indestructable....i can do all the sport i want to without worrying bout injuries.....ill definitely start racing.....and definitely skate again.....and those cliff jumps at the quarry that we use to do when we were young...and lots more!.......although being invisible would be a lot of fun.....hehehehe
tele nvr got better
i love fiction, mysteries and of course action & violence.....and the serial 'heroes' is way outta this universe, i must say its the best by far.....im loving it......thnks shahreil.....and ouh i still have yet to catch '300'! which i hope to do so in a couple of days...
so close yet so far....
so close yet so far......i was like few marks shy from an A....damn... another B but this time round, i got a B+ instead of the normal B!.....was satisfying but not nuff.....i wanted an A.....but ok la, fair nuff, considering the fact that i didnt concentrated much on endocrine cos i was concentrating more on the anatomy part....
todays paper was easier than expected but then, still, i had a couple of mistakes... i can expect an A coming....but still results are yet to be out....all i know i might have careless mistakes here and there which will pull down my marks and prevent me from getting a well deserved A...........i made a pact with myself last week, if i get any As, i would enrol myself for that class2!!!........and insyahallah next year you'd see 'doughboy'(tts wat adisam calls me cos of my nick in mirc donkey years ago..) riding on a bigger bike than his usual scooters.....hehehe
i wanna watch 300......hmm mebbe watching with mankey on sunday......
hmm i dont think im volunteering for motored alert that rinie ask me to be part of. sorry rinie, i dont think im going to be part of the crew and sori heheh cant send u home...hehehe......nak chan ride free home jer.....:P anyways for those who dont know, motorolla is having a sort of party at the rooftop of some building at market street on 24th march.......
im not excited bout that.....what im more excited is....tokyo ska paradise's performace come friday......and that Nofx gig come april 24th AND sick of it all and stompin ground 20th may.....tts what im excited bout..........
cheers peeps.....enjoy....
wat cool & wats not
wats cool....
fucken cool folding chair......I WANT ONE!
wats not,
me drooling in the library as i catch some sleep just now and realising that i was snoring loud......heh!
another B?
bershukut la bak kata orang.....alhamdullilah too phat nyanyi.....anyways it was my 2nd B for the tests.....when Mdm Chin released the result one by one, she asked me, "siddiq, you did quite well this time, what do you think you get?" well, she said 'QUITE WELL', and i know myself i did some careless mistakes, so an A is quite a miracle, so i answered "B?..." and so i got my well deserved B again, although i wish i had an A. i would have gotten an A had it not been for my careless mistakes......BUT yesterdays test was terrible.....im expecting between a D and a C..........this friday's paper another chance to go for A....my target this semester is to get at least ONE A.....i know its not impossible, it can be done.....
today simon met me to pass me the 4action figures he owe me.....today im a proud owner of luke skywalker, orange carded stormtrooper, orange carded boba fett and c3po......hehehe i can stare at my display unit for hours.....i think i wanna get a decent display unit for ikea wen im free or probably a shelving unit, i can predict i will have more action figures.....meanwhile i need to collect silica gels for my collection so the plastic wont detoriate with age.........im gonna study c ya....
Darth Vader
imac is something new to darth vader....here's a movie of him trying the isight on his 6month old macbook......
SUCK!
todays paper suck!.....i was hoping for an A but now i guess at most ill only get a C....the paper was a killer, serves me right for taking endocrine system lightly.....sheesh....if it weren't for endocrine i guess id get an A easily....chicken feet....but endocrine pulled me down....fark, there was like 20 odd questions on endocrine!!!!!!!.......lets just wait for the results........ugggh!
ugly betty
well, kay i wasnt 100% studying....i was watching ugly betty at the same time....and guess wat i guess im not going to miss betty every sunday....its my next fav show.....she's not ugly....she's cute....well though the definition of cute is ugly but adorable, well....i wouldnt mind if she'd be my gf...hehehe.....she's cute! period....
next up on the ol tube is hikmah season 2....wooohoo 26thmarch.....something to look forward to...and on that day im having the day shift......i can watch....yeayness.......
ouh, 300 attracted me....i guess i wanna watch dat.....anybody out there want to watch with me?
ok i need to memorize more body parts and joints....tomoros my bio prac test....uggghhh! and friday, pharmacology, 2 tough papers in a week....worst week of march!....and ouh happy bday to juherman my cuzzen and yazid......everyones getting older very quickly....heheheh...cheerios...
addiction
okok starwars is addictive....damn.....if everything goes well, and nobody outbids me.....ill have to fork out 50bucks for 6 action figures....tts a good deal alright but then again, i limited myself to only 20bucks per week but ive overshot by 30bucks, if i win, ill have 2 tie-fighter pilots, 1 moff tarkin, 1 princess leia, 1tusken raider and 1 luke skywalker.....and yeah luke stimgam, we'll have a battle when i get my lightsaber from vader himself.....
mesti ada orang kacau.....
mesti gini tau, benda yng aku nak ada orang kacau....uggghhh someone outbid me on the orange card r2d2 damn! but i won the boba fett and c3po plus this.....
i want the r2d2....i hope my fren has that so i can coax her into selling me......heh! ok la wanna sleep....cheers peeps....im a happy fat dude.....anyways....im saving up for that fx lightsaber...i hope they still have it when i finally have cash to spare...i want that darth vader replica......red!.......
hehehe SW freak...
okok....i know im going over my limit of 1 figure per week...but hey, its cheap and im not spending more than 20bucks on it, each day i spend usually less than 10bucks, at most 10bucks la....so this weekend im not going anywhere...hehehehe and maybe id spend less next week....okok here's the exciting part.....
in 1hour approximately ill be owning this....
and this....
and this....
and this in 2days time....
all of the above will be mine hopefully if nobody else outbid me!.....yeay...ok im going back to the books.....yeayness so excited....
ok stop nagging..
okok perhaps i should be studying or perhaps sleeping so that i can study in the morning....but i slept just now since 6 i guess, cos practically i didnt sleep on thursday night, i just had naps in between studying...well, i hope i get good grades at least a C or B la......for all that effort.......im supposed to finish 2parts of presentation and studying for pharmacology and anatomy by sunday...hope i can pull it off, oh shahrul sori i ddnt reply, was away in slumberland......ok as i wasted my time playing deal or not online, i contemplated if i should send in the application on not for a rather long time.....well, frens, should i?
i was browsing thru myspace, friendster and youtube when i chanced upon this cool commercial....nice...enjoy.....
and this one...
yeay and ummm
today results for the paediatrics paper was released......i was really anxious when the lecturer said, the top scorer came from the group and the lowest failure also came from the group.....top scorer definitely not me......yani was the top scorer....i, fear that i failed but my classmate reassured me cos i had most of the mcqs correct....yippeeee i got a B! though i couldve gotten an A if i wasnt so careless.......k tts nuff fir today....tumoro i got another paper, its on clinical skills...ugggh...i hope i do as well or better.. next week, anatomy n physiology prac test, followed by clinical skills test, followed by pharmacology test, followed by developmental psychology presentation.....wah...so hectic for the next 2-3 weeks......uggghhh.......i dunno if i can enjoy tspo totally or not.....i hope so....hehehe kla gotta hit the books....wish me luck readers...love y'all.......
uggh
rain, rain go away.....aku nak balek.......
here am i in school, stuck in the dreadful rain...well ujan is rezki but then it also gets me stuck down here....so...ill make use of the time studying....and...im already full now...the weather like macam wanna put me to sleep mode.......i pigged out on an upsized spicy mcchicken....well, it was tempting at 4.90 and i had an excuse, the malay stall is left with so little food to eat.... hehehehe.....
hmm tests coming up but im a little blessed cos my pratical test is on week 11.(this week is week 9) that means i have 1 test less on week 10! yipree.....the exam time table is also out.....im excited, anxious and ambitious all at once....like i said before, i want to get at least 1 A!!!......pls let me have at least one A so i can aim for 2 next semester...heee....
kla to get an A, i need to hit the books....so, till then cya peepz....wish me luck....ouh i do think sometimes she's adorable.....
suddenly
suddenly im so stressed...i dunno what triggered the sudden outbreak...must be the irritating powerpoint slides that refuse to print and my group member who ammends it like macam mak bapak dia punye project work, although some parts are good but i dunno how now to present...its like altered what i planned to do and made things more complicated.......uggggh....breathe in and out sid.. im like a pressure cooker now so suddenly....anytime ill explode....im more like a timebomb....calm a minute and ready to explode the next.....the blog is my coping mechanism....help.....i need o2 to relieve this.....ugggh...damn......okok chill....uggh..
yankee doodles
ok so i learned to bathe babies today....so fucken wat? i cant even go to a nursery...wah lau....can only go to paediatric wards... hmm meaning toddlers onwards......must be our culture....okok, asians still are sexually active but theres very little jacko i guess,.....nvm that......why must mdm.chin keep reminding us tt there was 11failures out of 17 in the 3rd batch....so wat right? doesnt mean we have to fail.....tts for prcp, it sure suck big time......but im gonna make sure i pass.....ttll be like a year away... still got lotsa time to prepare...the thing is not to procastinate.......ok ure right the title has got nothing to do with the entry... but whoever made that rule? there isnt one right?.....ugggh got to study for friday's test.....seems like i got to put away half of my leisure time to studying......and ouh forgot to tell u all...heheh my fren selling me her crumpler for 100bucks cos she's going away....and tt 'part n parcel' model actually costs 216SGD and she only used it for like 3 times because its huge.....haaaa... blessed...with a 50% discount....well, i need a new bag, though the old one can still be used but the straps are a little torn on the sides and wats more, ive been wanting a crumpler for a rather long time.......AND....another fren is letting go of his star wars collection....hehehe cool.....but he have only a few...but im sure he'd let it go cheap.....cool.....so much goodies this year... first concerts now toys...wats next? turntables? hehehe adrian, go get a new set, so u can sell me ur old t-tables....hehehehe...
or maybe dj rattle be frens with me and teach me scratching...hehehe...or maybe Fatmike take me on tour with NoFx or lou of SOIA let me scream on the mics....hehehe dream on sid........kla gotta go...cheerios...
relapse
relapse......i needed a hobby to take me off those books once in awhile....music has been it.....but needed something else..... its a relapse of an old addiction....toys.....im buying them again...yeah i know ill be 30 in about 2years...so what? nobody can ever get old with star wars.....today i collected 3 star wars action figures which added on to some of which i already had...before CNY i collected darth vader, last week i collected another darth vader(i can never get enough darth vaders) today, i collected han solo, obi wan and that spanking stormtrooper....hehehe i love em all.....more to come....ouh i still have r2d2 on hold, i was suppose to collect it today but the seller could not make it......i think this weekend im heading to ikea to get me self those diy shelves...hehehehe.....
believe it or not...im hooked on breakbeats and tt scratching sounds....damn u dj.rattle u really got me interested to find out more and when i found out, it got more interesting and i think im building up a new hobby.....and i think, i just think i might get a 'set' myself once i draw the full 'dough'......yeah, im enjoying my life alright despite the fact that i have work piling and many irritating tests coming up, one presentation, one debate and one stupid essay......all will end in 3 weeks time, pretty fast huh? then ill go for a couple of weeks to paediatrics and then the exams...and then semester 2 is over....weeehooo....very the cepat la before u know it, you'll be enjoying the holidays......positive thinking babe....tak guna pikir2 negative.....buat stress jek.....
kla cheers.....ouh one more thing if anyone knows where that nike polka dots tee is still available do tell me...damn they sell out so fast......
SOIA
blame it on my love for music....blame it on my liking in various genres of music...mostly non-mainstream...blame it on the more open singapore.....blame it on the world wide web where musical invitations have been brought to another level.... because of all those, ill be spending my hard earned pay for concerts after concerts.....ok i got to go goodvibrations festival for free in exchange for labor......but then come march 17th ill be watching tokyo ska paradise and i had already spent 42bucks on the tickets....ouh bless my student pass else i would have to pay 62bucks......and in april NOFX is coming, god knows how much their tickets will cost......and in may.....this.....
the local legend stomping ground will be opening for SOIA.....Sick of It All that is.....the money that will be spent will be well worth it....cos i'll be witnessing 2 hardcore legends one local and one from NYC.......i grew up in the era where punk, hardcore were playing on every kids walkman.....and i was inclined to hardcore probably for its aggressive and positive message....i just gotta be there...i have to...i will....anyone else wanna join me in the mosh pit? once more details of NOFX and SOIA is out, i will be updating on my blog......latest rumour....NOFX will be playing at the same venue....far east square..
cheers....
hmm
hmmm ok paediatrics....some careless mistakes.....sigh....i certainly hope id at least get a B or C no Ds please.....
i think theres some problems with publishing my blogspot....it seems my editing doesnt appear...hmmm nevermind...i got more things to worry........like finishing up my nursing course.....heh!
ive grown, even my fren notices......should exercise......i guess...heh....who cares...i do for my health....not for anything else....
cheers....gnite....
my respect to...
bushmen for wondeful reggae numbers tt got me swaying and tapping my feet.....
wicked aura for that heart stomping percussion beats.........
dj rattle 4th rated internationally local dj for scratching n spinning like nobody's business.....
joe flizzo and malique of Too Phat for rhyming and giving such a wonderful performance......
malique for hanging around and having a short 15minute chat with us......
respect to all the regional and local musicians....you guys show us yesterday that we have our own home/regionally grown talents that do just the job....play wonderful music.....kudos....keep the faith....
good vibrations....bad vibes...
ok ill start with all the goods.....bushmen....good....very good....dj ratlle rocks.....first time i listened to the top dj in sg... dj rattle is the owner of the hip-hop shop in queensway....he's good...international class....wicked aura batuccada....wah lau.. power.....Too Phat....just TOO PHAT......showmanship and the rhymes and the dj.....POWER....but too bad they played at the stage where they were less ppl....i feel the organizers are biased towards regional artists......malique told me, they were supposed to play at the main stage....but the organizers changed them....from a later slot to an earlier slot and even worse to a stage where there were less crowd.....bias....malique was pissed.....i didnt get to talk to joe....cos he was macam bz like that with his pals...malique was so approachable and frenly.....and we even got to snap photos.....speaking of photos i didnt get to take much cos, security was kinda tight....BUT i shook hands with JURASSIC-5, CUT-COPY, DJ DAN, CICADA when we fetched them from the airport....J5 was frenly.....akil, i can only remember one name...heeehehe...they are cool and one of them were super huge, tuna.....speaking of J5, their performance was the bomb!.....ive never seen a hip-hop act live and today i see a superstar act.....J5 was fucken awesome....the way they rhyme, their energy, their dj....fuck man....i feel they are even way better than beasties....though beasties got the crowd jumping double time J5, i guess J5 was a little underground tts why.....but hey i tell u J5 raps way better....and i think i wanna look for their record....and i think i wanna try my hand at turntablism when i have a stable income, just as a hobby for fun......overall, its the best 'free' performance ive ever been too......
speaking of 'free', it wasnt free after all, cos i volunteered for the festival.....i dont mind theres no pay and all but fuck those who thinks we are their slaves and those who were rude.....to us, we are ppl also u know although we are not stars....so far i think most of the ppl i work with are fine...like andrew, jerlyn, don, adrian and farah...the rest, not worth mentioning.... i think next time i wouldnt volunteer, id rather pay for the tix.....
ok back to the good things....i made many frens.....many....i got to mingle with stars...hehehe tt guy from urban exchange.. malique, J5, the crew....some nice ppl.....frens whom i never met for a long time...my cuzzens nafi and eman....hmm pen, my long lost tomboy fren.....mimi-juraime.....yani the nurse....helmie(faezah's bf), tt dreadlock guys.....ninie, hida, eka...and yaya my old fren....sofea tt pretty chick....hehehe...many la....overall i would say its more pros than cons......an experience i wont forget.....
my conclusion....ill get J5 CDs.....yeah really....and beastie boys they rock too playing familiar and old numbers...intergalactic, check it out, sabotage, BRASS MONKEY and many more....imagine.....POWER......ouh, the reason i volunteered bcos i never got ppl to go with me, so i figured i volunteer, had i known adisam going, id tag along......okla good night....cheers! hic... oops..
excited slut.
hmmm slut, so excited dunno for wat....but jurassic5 been playing on my ipod-stereo since last nite......and being up early, i browsed thru my frenster.....i decided to look at my testimonials.....i didnt realise too much tt theres so many frens tt loves me....hehehhe.....u gotta try this, one day just read all the testimonials u got at one go....tis morning wen i did it....whoah it certainly makes u feel good...knowing tt ppl ard u loves u....well, i hope it remains that way.....i need these ppl around me.. they are the reason im still kicking asses........
i told nurul before she logged off, i dunno she got it or not....."i wish jurassic5 would say, "hey sid be our assistant or something....follow us touring....." hehehehehhe i wish......
k dudes n dudettes gotta study a little before i leave to have a whale of a time....cheers....love u sluts....
hmm?
ok...so i have to come extra early tumoro....hmm
guess wat im fetching jurassic 5 from the airport, tts my assignment for tumoro.....cool huh?
macam ambasador for gvf sia....kla gotta sleep.....ciao....
fraud
so much so for my email address bearing the words nofraud.....apparently someone is trying to use my paypal account, unscrupulously apparently he/she tried to list items on ebay using my account, which means if any items is sold, i will be charged for listing fees and the 5%charge(i guess) on my debit card.....damn......i hope whoever who attempted to do so will stop trying. i have been unactive on ebay for so long and my paypal account was actually frozed. so lucky for me in away, if not had it been still active, i wouldve been charged for no reason......damn....
advice to pals out there who have accounts of such or once shared email addresses of any sort change ur passwords occassionally, untk keselamatan diri.....heh.....secondly, i guess if u wanna do business or make money u have to be honest about it, i guess it pays to be honest........if you are not, just believe in karma......
anyways, i hope the fraud meant her or his ways......may the force be with u....heh! and ouh ive changed all my passwords for ur info.....
comments
ive rectified the problem that prevent my readers from commenting on my blog...u all now can comment on it!.....:)
if
im doing a survey wat else for my coursework....its about euthanasia....oh wat is euthanasia? dont be a lazy fag, go search on the many dicitonaries available online.......this is what i need to know from anyones personal point of view...." if life is not worth living, it is good to end it." agree or disagree, and probably ur views...thankie2....for those who would like to contribute and help me gather more info and perhaps if u have any links watsoever that might be of help to me pls mail me, thnks guys.
i think im having a new close cousin....i used to be very close with muhaled...then we went NS, everything changed......we got our lives of our own.....now after a couple of outings with haiqal, i think we have one thing in common, we like music but we have such a huge generation gap and he looks up to me as a big bro, asking so many questions about jobs, skools etc....im 28 and he is 16 and his fren thinks i am 20.....hahaha i wish.....this sunday n monday we'll be some of the many volunteers for good vibrations festival.....and I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO MEETING BEASTIE BOYS IN PERSON! god im so excited tt i feel so gay.....hahaha.....
i need to shit, and i certainly hope sunday and monday the weather will be sunny bright and fun....ill be praying hard......uughh i stink...i havent bathe and my fart certainly stinks.....ciao peeps.....
good or bad...
jerlyn called me in the evening......siddiq been looking for u....haiya......me, haiqal n 2 more guys will be under her charge for GVF......we will assist her and will be stationed at the international artists tentage.......good....we are the nearest to the artists and we have access to backstage....bad=we cant have a clear view of the performance, but jerlyn promised we'll have a chance to roam around...well, i hope...else id disappear on my own.....ok im tired....but hey just found out from nofx myspace site, THEY ARE COMING...ohh my gawd......im tired now, tumoro have to study ....cos sunday n monday burn....gnite....
thnks
thnks jabrulingahe......okok although today i ended up not revising but hey, meeting up with frens does make me feel a little lighter...no, not weight, im still as heavy.....but the stress, pressure...u name it.....shahrul treat the guys including me to dinner.. we ate together and laughed over stupid jokes and all.....we had fun, simple fun.....we enjoy each others company....i personally had fun...ok so i miss a night of revision but hey, ill stay home saturday and sunday up to 6pm, ill pump myself with the info i need........tumoro i have to distribute GVF flyers again.......sigh.....
damn u
before i sleep...curse the seller whos selling his R2D2 at a low price and refuse to contact me because im the winning bidder at mere 8bucks for an R2D2 action figure......fark u, if u refuse to sell at such a low price why put up ur starting price as that? idiot...moron.....u should be served on a dinner plate to jabba.......
i am wat i am
iamwatiamiamvicious
bored dah.......study2....gotta take a break...i think GVF is a good incentive for working hard......i think i gotta work harder so that gvf will seem like a reward to my effort....heh!..........
yani dunno tt theres extra tix...and me, im jus disappointed...cos now its harder to sell the complimentary entry to the festival.. cos they are not giving out tickets...now its only submission of the name u want to put on the guest list...thats right, singular not plural......damn!.....
hmm im finding ways to sell it off.....waiting for reply from lin-cikgu.....hehehe....if they going ada chan la gua dapat duit... ehehe......if not i dunno la....hmmmppfffthttt...
smiles
its good to see smiles.......sigh....i bet tumoro is going to be a long day but i guess itll be fun.....have u ever heard of self-fulfilling prophecy?.....gnite frens.....
i suck
this suck, im behind time and i have to complete my assignments and i have to study at least one chapter before sunday ends. sorry guys i have to forgo the karaoke session.....next time probably....frankly im short on time and cash so please understand kay?......u all want to see me successful in pursuing my dreams right? thank you......
:) smiles.....i think i gotta relax rather than crack under pressure.....wheres my ipod...where is it? ahhhh.....music, music soothes, even the savage beast......
i wanna skate again, for the fun of it....weekly chop2 skate ard the neighbourhood probably an hour or two......anyone?....im missing popping that 7layers of plywood.......i dunno if i still can pull any tricks off.....but hey its for fun...nothing competitive, no pressure kay... i promise....shall we? ady or adil?.....cmmon we're the lords of the dog town sg style...hehehe...
smell
sometimes scents wont go off.....and tonight the scent on the bedsheet just brings back memories.....the bedsheets been washed a couple of times but the scent is still there......no not smell...its scent...
i misjudged this semester, i tot itll be easy......or at least easier...but hell no, its rather tough...one of the reason is, im dont have a really strong foundation...my 1st semester was just average....and to make things worse, i dont have a bio background and 80% of nursing is bio-related....damn.......but hey, im a fighter...u all know that....
i bought myself a ben-sherman's today! bobo gave me a discount and i got to put a stack of GVF flyers at his shop, thanks bobo, more good stuffs do tell me...hehehe...and ouh thnks for the support.....i think ill drop off somemore at go-sports and that hip-hop shop but not just now, cos it was packed as hell, ouh i was refering to queensway......
i love my life now i guess except im quite bloated up....gotta loose a little pounds so tt id look great if im taking fotos with beastie boys...heheehe......beastie boys rock!!!........
cheers peeps, im hitting the books again....
7% pay rise??
ill be graduating in 2008......but the news flash just now really got me so motivated....pay rise for nurses by 7%...wooohoo...
adi sam
camner bleh adi sam plak? ntah.....
ok since the results is out and i didnt win, let me tell u a story...
i woke up this morning, dazed, then in a minute i realized i have to take down the numbers.....from my dreams of course. for all i know i could be rich...well, turns out im not fated to be....few weeks back shahreil smsed me my hp number came out tops... the night before i had a weird dream with ppl ard and my hp rang....and i did not interpret my dream back then....i tot it was nothing but last night was so fucken clear even adi sam's face...heres the dream...
im at some place....theres some ppl ard but i didnt see their faces, the prominent one was adi-sam, with his way of talking n stuff all the same even to his voice and his cheeky grin.....he was showing me some stuff, which i couldnt make out wat it was but somehow i seem to be bargaining with adi over watever it is he is holding on to...."adi berapa?......transfer bank account kau brapa?" something like tt la, then this was wat adi-sam said rather clear, it seems so...."151-454-98.......hmm 30+15=45ketol...hmmm arrh 40 sua...." and then i woke up from my dream immediately looked at the clock, it was 7am exactly......i wrote down all the numbers and asked shahreil to buy me 15-1-45-4-9-8-40, combination of 7numbers...hehehe turn out i didnt win any...harharhar....... but still wondering why adi-sam gave me all those numbers? is there some significance or was it really his bank account numbers? hehehe...but tt was just another weird dream, rather clear......AND the moral of the story, not all dreams can make u rich! hehehe.....
so now, i have to pay shahreil $3.50....heheheh....
crocs!
<<<--ronald wanna be!
i got my crocs finally!!!!....ok im just fated to get the red......i wanted red but was never sure if id dare to wear....i went to imm to get last week but they only got baby blue left for my size....just now i went bugis....theres two....bright green or red...the green is the beach model while the red, professional....so i tried both....the green was nice, cos i like the holes on the front...but then when i tried walking, its jus not comfortable cos its too fitting....i gotta get 1 size bigger but theres none......then i tried the professional...without much thought....wadda hell..."ok, ill have this...." i whip out my 40buck voucher and i only need to pay 22bucks...okla not so bad la....hehehe
come back..
dude....come back to the ground, anchor the hot air balloon ure on......get back to reality man and work ur ass off.....heh...
ouh tt was just a motivational thingy to myself....heh.....
the thought of prcp frightens me but hey, im a fighter, i will fight......:P
see u gvf peeps this saturday yeah.......hmmm....2 weeks to beasties....fooohoooo....
sheesh
its CNY again...and malls are packed with them.....hmmm...went all the way to IMM to claim my 40buck voucher...went to royal sporting house and world of sports, was torn between crocs and tt vans slip ons.....finally i decided on the crocs....fuck no size.. size 8 is the closest....not comfortable if i put the strap on...sheesh....looks like i gotta scout thru other malls under capital-land so tt i can use the voucher...damn...
this movie, must watch.....waiting for it to open in sg......
and this i gotta have....hmmm next month?
and this i will buy if the seller drop it to 30bucks! brown....i like!
sial betul
sial betul ar shahrul nie....ishk takmo cakap la.....
anyways, the flyers distribution wasnt so bad....okla tiring a little, walk2...but macam exercise so ok la benefit me too....
and umm....i had fun.....the 2 girls were pretty farnie i must say...hehehe...and ive got a new fren...a dj...hehehe...and 2 girls.. and i talked with my cousin whom i rarely talk to........plus i get one motorola t-shirt, u know the wi(red) thing....hmm they say the actual day tee is going to be from quiksilver...hmm cool another freebie.....hmm, i gonna beg jolene for another free tix.. hehehe hopefully she'd budge....hmm i feel tt music is just me, its just tt im not given any opportunity...hehehe cam betul je... cuma dapat skali jer on stage....though it was brief, its something id never forget....hehehhe.....
we were talking bout shahreil's wedding jus now, i guess itll be cool to wear darth vader's costume instead of the traditional costumes...hehehe......but i wonder which girl would agree to that? hehehehe....
anyways bulu roma aku berdiri....shahrul lu siak ar....hehehe....takpe gua blaja......
hmm
thai footballers + coach, hmm ungkal, degil, sore loser, spoil sport...hehehe....hmm but the replay certainly looks like the thai player pulled alam shah down.....although the decision is harsh but i dont blame the referee, i respect him though for not changing his mind although the thais protested. he stayed firm with his decision, kudos to the refree.....the sg players, abit sloppy at times but they did put in alot of effort....
hmm ouh regarding my blog....hmm kalau orang melayu cakap, "aku punye suar dalam la..." kalau omputeh camne?? "my underwear ar!" heheh tak ar....."my problem ar!" ......my pasal la, my blog wat.....
heheheh....getting runny nose....hmm wonder if i got it from caroline or yahnee? both of them on mc today and they are in my group.....poor girls...get well soon and dont pass the bugs to me...heheheh
dreams...
sometimes i wonder, do i dream too much? no, i dont think so but isnt it good to dream? at least its as though an imaginary path is laid before u only u urself can make it possible.....any mistakes along the way would mean alterations in the ultimate dream......i think so......
reflections, i guess they are very useful....look at urself, ur resources and what is possible to pursue.....although they say the sky's the limit but in this dog-eat-dog world u gotta put other factors into consideration. if i were a rich man's son, i wouldve pursue my first dream but now being from the middle working-class, i can only dream of comfort for my future and not what i really-really wanna do. im not saying i don't like nursing, i love nursing....and i think, nursing will bring me to my first dream and more things that id love to do but i just think....for me, i would be comfortable enough becoming an N.O. or something in a couple of years time......heee.....
why this sudden entry, nothing la, just those times when u look into the sky and wonder......:) cheerios....
ahhhh
no not orgasm....just tt today i get to go home early....but that sigh of relief is temporary cos soon it will be taken over by the piles of work i need to do, research and stuffs...and i gotta start on the sickening essay again...hmm but hey it does help me on my marks.....
im trying to include apples in my diet....im trying to make it a must, at least 1 a day.....i dont want to burden my children when i grow old. :)
u know wat, sometimes i think my classmate is a bitch but sometimes i think she's smart but sometimes i think she just wants attention and wants ppl to know she's smart, ugghhh.....
i think i need to watch my speed...i can type as fast as i can but i will try not to that on a bike...NO not type, ride....i think its kinda dangerous....with great power comes great responsibility....hmm who said tt? mr.miyagi isnt it?...hehehe... or was it yoda, sigh...they are so similar.....
i gotta give myself a pinch on the buttocks wake up and push myself harder, i feel that im not putting in max effort that i could......im disappointed with myself over the weekends, kinda wasted too much time....if i wanna get better grades than last semester, i gotta work even harder.....
suddenly, the 1yr++ left seems like so draggy...i wanna it to quickly end, earn good dough and get everything i want then....
ouh yest i had fun testing out the photo paper i bought, niceness....shall print some more...heeee.....speaking of fotos....fotos sure do bring back memories..i decided to load all the fotos i took into my ipod and gosh, some sure does bring back memories....i miss those times...but hey....the sun is shining ahead not at the back of ur head.......
okla gotta go....suddenly i feel like my entry is like in fragments......gotta do my work...adios...
an apple a day...
health tip 101.....
an apple a day keeps the doctor away.....but why? heres why....
-has an anti-cancer agent.
-suppress ur appetite.
-rich in fibres helps fill u up.
-instant energy for its contents of natural sugar.
-apple contains 0 fat.
-apple contains carbohydrates for ur other source of energy.
-vitamin c, about 5mg as a supplement and perhaps boosts ur immune system.
-water, to maintain ur body's water requirements.
-potassium which is something we need and yet forgotten.
-zero sodium(aka salt)
-calcium for strong bones n teeth.
-vitamin A
-apples wakes u up in the morning (think replacing coffee)
so, apples anyone? and why, why was the apple the forbidden fruit? hmm....
theres even websites that uses the natural abilities of the apple to come up with real working diet plans...hmmm....nah...hehe
i don't encourage u to follow all these diet plans blindly, see if its suitable for u and do consider the side effects of depriving urself.....like the 'no carbo' diet.....have fun....
hello my name is...
hello my name is...
im so fucken lazy that the lizards on the walls go ch-ch-ch-ch.
im so fat that the horse on my t-shirt appears to be moving everytime i breathe.
im so smelly that my nose gets blocked all the time.
im so bored that listening to the radio makes me wanna dance.
im so excited tt i dreamt of tspo.
im so enchanted, that my dream last tuesday could've strucked me a fortune if ive known.
im so stupid to have not interpreted tt phone ring in my dream.
im so diabled tt skateboarding is no longer my past time.
im so crazy to have fixed a 10.5 sliding roller in boba.
there could be many more but every start has come to an end...heh!
aiyah si jabrul nie gi telfon gua ngah tangkap lentok...takpe la members punye pasal gua turun.
