haiz

its my break from my revisions as usual.....

had a chat just now with mom....hmm i forgot how the topic came up....ouh its abt how parents ask for dowry, or the affectionately known duit hantaran......how they ask a ridiculous amount for their daughters who are neither princesses atau putri gunung ledang.......well, its the trend, the culture right now for parents of daughters to put such a high 'price' for their daughter.......i hope those parents who went for the prayers on shawal morning listened to the sermon attentively.....do u know u sin if u make it difficult for ur child to get married and thus letting him getting into more sinful acts? haiz, why make the life of the gentleman difficutl? if he is sincere enough to marry ur daughter and willing to sacrifice and look after your daughter isnt that good nuff?? isnt sincererity much more priceless than tt coloured paper?........i came across both kinds of parents in my life but heheh im still not married somehow, i could have actually but too bad the girl dunno how to behave....hehehe... the parents was like, nikah only, the rest is really unnecessary unless you have extra dough......simple as that.....

another worrying issue that the imam touch during the sermon was the fact tt many young muslims are converting to other religions....its bcos of their weak knowledge of the religion....its shocking but true......the 'other' religion send their ppl to spread their religion and take advantage of these youngsters and pull them in, or rather i should say reel them in.....masyaAllah. it is happening and u can get figures i guess if u approach the relevant bodies......freaking shocking....

this year raya as usual i expect to jln raya with my close pals from bbss....but this year due to many having their own cars dan kemaruk tak kene tempat, we did not rent a bus like usual......everyone wants to drive their own car.....and i hate tt idea like the rest of us yng tak berlesen......bebal ar dorang.......tak paham langsung aku.....i guess this year i pass, mebbe i follow sunday onli.

i only realise just now tt i have 2 jemputans on 2nd week november....alamak clash.......one is syed from tag scooters and the other is omel, my ex gf of 2 weeks.....both, im very close to......haiz......if only i could split myself into two....hehehehe....

yest, the visiting we as usual but haiz, never get to chit chat with my nenek.....sooo many ppl la....but im happy bcos my aunts and uncles actually is supportive of me getting into nursing.........nurse gila....oops nurse orang gila....hehehe...
my aunt whose a nurse manager at sgh also encourage me to take advance dip and a degree after completion of my 2 year course......seems like i have to hassle my good frens again....ehhehehehehe......i can foresee a future of free education.... wee hooo.....

speaking of education, as my younger siblings, salam me in the morning of shawal, as usual, the brother gives advice like the mom to me......i told them the same thing...."respect ur parents, jng kurang ajar, study hard.....if i can do it so can u but i want to see u all do better than me, if i have a diploma, i want u all to go for a degree, make me n mom n dad proud...." i hope they do.....like i said before, i want to change the state of being in the middle working class....although its tough its doable, if im unable to do so due to time, due to me realising late, they still have alot of time ahead of them.....

the sight of the successful yest also drive me further to pursue.....both the existing world and thereafter......the sight of my uncle driving a mercedes kompressor, i cant deny im a little materialistic.....for me a spanking harley and a mini cooper would be sufficient...hehehe....me and my dreams.....

ok i think i better continue my revisions......to all muslims, selamat hari raya aidilfitri, maaf zahir dan batin......forgive all my sins, intentional or unintentionaly......i already forgave everyone elses........

tumoro insyahallah i want to fast.......puasa shawal bnyk berkatnye....bagaikan puasa 100hari di ramadhan.....