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Life, same ol same ol....
Still hoping to get a flat very very soon.....some ppl dissed me, if you were not that old, I would've told you off, she's my wife after all, you diss her, you diss me too. You're lucky, very very lucky. Cos I rarely keep it inside and pretend nothing happened. I find solutions, I confront, I get things solved or resolved but that too depends on the other party.
Anyways Mr.Assistant Director called in most of us yesterday for the pay adjustment thingy. Well, not much change, took away one allowance, increment a little to level out. Just hoping July's increment will be better. Promising talk with MR.ADN though, he said MOST PROBABLY I'd be in for a promotion, 1 up and next batch of advance diploma. Sounds good, he tell me to think, plan and decide by mid-May what I wanna do in IMH, what are my plans and give him a call, degree or advance diploma.
Pros & Cons....
Degree, I have to fork out 50% which I think I need the money more for my new life, maybe new flat eh? And what's more, part time degree a little scary..
So I think, I'll opt for the Advance Diploma, since its full time 8mth course. Although I rugi a little on all allowances but then, I can concentrate more and weekends super free.....woots!
Looking forward, looking forward.....wish me luck peeps...
Back to reality
After the Bali break, finally back to reality....work...
A friend told me something like why I didn't grab the opportunity to do what he did but looking at my friends whom had no time for anything else. I'd rather not, I'd want to earn more but not at the expense of sacrificing time with my love ones. I know that's tough to do but I am sure I can, just need the right time and luck.
So far I made $50 in total from my ebay-trade. It's minimal and tiny as compared as to years ago where I make $300-400 per month. Motorcycle accessories are slower to go and tougher on the capital. I am still waiting from my fren to go to china to check out some stuffs. If it's worth taking the risk, I might just jump into it.
I tried to be more positive at the slow sale. I view it as more of a savings account. Example, I bought an item at $240 to be sold, I view it as saving $240 and when I manage to sell it, I get to withdraw it with an interest. And I buy things that I can use, so if it really is not able to sell, I can use it for myself.
Yes, I know I am a little ambitious and small scale isn't going to earn me much. I think I will consult my mechanic friend end of the year if time is right, if I can put the products I bring in at his workshop. Also a flat of my own would help so that I can store some of my products in a vacant room.
I am also thinking of bringing in shoes and clothings but that will have to wait.
The tour guide on our back home said something inspiring, something like if we think we can, we will. I also remembered this saying 'if it's worth doing, then it is worth doing it well'. I just saw my friend's fb acct, with the orders he get from printing stickers 7bikes, 7cars. that's pretty good for an individual part-time business. I regret not continuing doing it, cos partly I had troubles with doing the template. Anyways that line now has alot of competition, unless you stand out from the rest, then its worth venturing again. Plus that requires time, space, patience and practice. Even if I wanna venture in that again, I have to wait till I have my own home.
I just have dreams, dreams of retiring away from Singapore......Malacca, Solo-indonesia or anywhere else.....
Hullo
Good afternoon blogger...
It's been awhile since I post something here time flies eh?
I'm down with upper respiratory tract infection, my tonsils were swollen with spots on it....urggh...must be the snacks. On antibiotics and getting better, 2 days medical leave. Sometimes you just need to get away from work. I love my work you know, sometimes I bring light to the patients, I get satisfaction when I make them happy knowing that they are abandoned and unwanted by society. Some of them when they discharge, they get shunned upon, family and society refuse to give them anymore chances at life. They refuse to understand their condition is chronic and lifelong and family support is super important.
Like me, I am glad I have all the support I need, from my wife, my parents, my relatives, my family, my friends whom are very understanding, my subordinates, my colleagues......Although I can't deny there's some whose against me but hey I got no time for them either. Sometimes we just have to see that we are very fortunate as compared to some others out there. Right?
Friday, we'll be flying to Bali.....wooohooo...
I love traveling and I hope November will be a reality, I really wanna go somewhere further. I can't wait for this Friday and November.
My life, still much more to achieve.....
A flat of my own, Car(&license of course) and stability.
And I wanna start planning my retirement plan, I still haven't decide if I should retire here or elsewhere. Cos I wouldn't want to work once I retire. I can see that the living expenses here is rather high and I might have to work in my old age if I do not have enough savings. I've considered Malacca(since I have relatives there) or Solo-Indonesia(since Dad is there) or maybe elsewhere where my relatives are but I still prefer asia.
I stumble across a seller (of a flat) that was quite promising, I might just have my own flat pretty soon. Wish me luck guys. Although its in an area that is rather foreign to me but hey its not really far from everybody. It's abit further from the in-laws but nearer to work and nearer to mom and frens in the west. I hope for the best. I hope I am lucky this time round.
Work...
I hope I get what I think I will get...praying hard and thanks all for having faith in me.
I also hope I get that Advance-Diploma place.
Trading
I have kicked out trading....woots....
Will try vpost next time round, I'm going to sell the set I am purchasing to fund for my own...woots!
free to decide?
Free? My ass...
Not when you are tied down 'cos of circumstances and consequences.
Not when it meant that it could jeopardize your career path.
Not when money comes in between your decision making.
Not when, your decision to way of life is frowned upon cos of the couple of black sheep.
Not when people still stereotype.
Not when discrimination still exist though much more subtle and 'unseen'
Many factors made us less free to decide. And I guess some of you out there are feeling it too...
additional plus
I think I wanna start doing part-time stuffs again....
-In around 2002-2004, part of my additional income came from trading on ebay, I buy and sell parts, clothes, accessories, helmets and almost anything to do with vespa. I made quite a fair share, if I remembered correctly close to $400-500 a month. That's good nuff back then and I wasn't fully aggressive, if I did, I think I can do better.
-In 2005 I did MLM for elken but I didn't have the supportive network, so I kinda slowly come to a halt...
-In 2007, I printed t-shirts and tried selling them off, some were sold at sheikh's skate store but guess they don't support new labels much.
-Same year towards 2008, I started trading cameras, get good deals online and sell back at small profit, I also brought in stuffs from Hongkong and managed to sell them off for some profit that made it possible for me to indulge in my hobby back then.
-In 2008 I joined LFI but my new job keeps me too busy and working shifts doesn't help but I think I will go back to trying the products first, then slowly market it within my networks.
-also 2008, tried selling graffiti products got from KL and Japan but got poor response, so stopped.
-Same year, supermoto craze was in, managed to make a couple of extra bucks, trading supermoto related items. But all the earnings went to additional spares that I needed...hehehe...
Now, I am looking at other avenues of additional income that requires the least time so that I don't have to sacrifice my time with my family and of course my lovely friends. Money is not everything you know, I have a dream but then if it meant being away from everyone I love then its not worth it. Just watched Afdlin's 'Papadom'....I don't want to be like him. If you can give your family everything but you are never around, what's the point?
dreams
There's still many of my dreams that i have yet to make a reality or even start working on it. For some of them I don't know how to even start, I don't even have a clue. For some, it's the time and cost factor and maybe a little fear-factor.
I just hope I'd be guided a little a long the way. I know I am able to achieve some of them, it's onlya matter of time.
I also feel that I need to give back a little, I am considered fortunate enough as compared to many less fortunate souls out there. Even that littlest things like parting with the loose change in your pocket means alot. I feel that's part of the purpose in life as humans, to help out when we can within our means.
I also pray for those engulfed with 'evil' in their own little box. May they be forgiven and steer back to the less 'evil' route. One day I am sure they will realise their wrong-doings.
I feel that till this date, I am still misunderstood but I don't care anymore cos' I know at least my love ones knows who I am, why I do stuffs a certain way and what my real plans are.
Everybody wants the best for themselves and the people they love but sometimes all those won't come immediately. Not everyone is as fortunate.
As Haji Rawi once told me:
'if you have a car, look at those who have to brave the sun and rain on their motorbikes. And if you own a motorbike look at those who have to cycle to work. And if you have a bicycle, look at those who have to walk.'
His words reminded me to be thankful and not to frown upon what we cannot get and not to look down on others.
Undead Hobbies
Watching skate-podcasts just makes me wanna skate again....that brings me to the flab....I don't think I can skate with this amount of flab and the race-suit that's hanging by the wall, I don't even know if I can fit in those. More runs, yeah more runs....cos I wanna skate as well as race again......so heratnor, get ur knee to recover fast! and changi tracks c'mmon speed up the construction....
I am glad though my wife enjoys running as much as me, so far we ran twice short runs as a married couple, this Sunday yeah? Let's seen how far we can run after 2months of being inactive preparing for our wedding back then. Let's hit that 10km again and hopefully adidas sundown? halfy? I think we can do it...:)
I can't wait till november, a proper trip. Destination? Have yet to be confirmed cos it all depends on whether or not we got a flat by then cos if we do, I'd be guessing we need loads of dough for the flat.
Anyhoos, gotta go....
Dear wifey, love ya always.....love me too aight?
You Already Did...
You already did love me so much even before we got together. Yesterday was when I realize the zoo-york you bought me actually cost that much. You shouldn't have seriously, but hey I appreciate it. Thanks love. I know you already love me when you got me my birthday presents in 2008(yes I got 3 presents) but I did not know one of them cost that much. I know it's not cheap but I did not expect it to cost so much, no wonder I don't see anyone else wearing it...hehehe...
Anyways, I am glad I am very much accepted into the family. Although I must say, I am still a little shy. It starts all over again, in this chapter of my life, trying to adapt to a new family. First one was when I decided to go on my own and stay with Bird, his mom accepted me as part of the family(I should pay her a visit one day). Where in the world can you get a landlord who says the rent is 'ikhlas'? Then after my cousin offered me a place in his then empty flat, again I had to adapt to a new family, my cousin's that is. Then when his grandparents move in, I again tried to adapt living with them.
Now my in laws....
I am glad however in all, they accepted me, without a problem. I pray for them, their health and well-being, InsyahAllah God will grant my 'Doa' for these wonderful beings.
Although I am not blessed with a perfect family, with a perfect life, I think I am one of the most luckiest dude on earth. Everywhere I go, somehow there's welcoming hands to offer me some assistance in one way or another to make my life more pleasant. Alhamdulillah.......
I am thankful but I do want better, so right now, I am really hoping for good news come July and I really hope they'd send me for that advance dip. It's almost 2years now in IMH, time flies. Thank god for this job, the stability, the pay, the benefits, it's actually more than I expected. Although in Singapore context it's nothing much but at least it's comfortable enough for daily average living.
I am now really really really hoping for my own flat. I hope the coming HDB sales we will end up with a flat. It doesn't matter if it's not perfect, we just need our own shelter.
I love my life now....
Deliberate?
I am not happy. I hope it was not done deliberately, if it was, screw you no matter how much I respect you.
Even if it is not, I already am starting house hunting, I spent about 2 hours of my night shift reading through housing issues and something new sounds good to me, we now can get 3-room flats(provided if its from a mature estate) if I interpret correctly, the combined household ceiling income for 3 rooms is 8k. That's pretty good news cos now we don't need a 4rm flat, we just need a place of our own, even if we have kids, it'll be perfect, the kids will be 5years old at least before we are allowed to move, just nice. The issue is if there's a boy and a girl and when they reach puberty, we need to separate them, that's the main issue as a muslim. So for the time being I'd make do with a 3rm flat. It ain't so bad, at least I know my wife wouldn't mind. Anyways it'll be much more comfortable on the payment side, at least it won't totally wipe out off our cpf, at least we got spare maybe for investments or hospital claims, etc...
I am going DIY, if it's too troublesome, I'd seek my friend's help.
My entry yesterday had something about spare a thought for others, clearly nuff some people don't probably cos they don't understand our situation, yes we are menumpang if that's any clearer.
lonely
It's weird maybe its because we just got married.
Today, I know how you felt when I had to go to work and you were all alone at home, lonely, that's how you felt. It's ok if I am on morning shift cos before you know it I'll be home but if I am on PM shift or night shift, I think it'd feel like ages. That's how I am feeling today as I am resting at home waiting for my next night shift, you are away at work from 9 to 6pm and to make things worst, I don't even get to see you for 2 hours like yesterday. But at least I got to see you for about an hour this morning....
Anyways, I am so looking forward to our trips we plan this year. I just hope we be able to make it financially and a flat from HDB would certainly help. Cos for one huge reason, we don't have to fork up any cash, even if we have to it'd be minute as to compared the tens of thousands the open market asking for. And with our own home too, we'd be having much more privacy and can pretty much do whatever we want and not confined to just this tiny room of ours.
I am sorry too, my friends that I can't tag along for the April trip, I very much want to tag but many factors stop me from doing so. I guess it's kinda blessing. The main reason was the pinoys, it's Good Friday, so priority goes to them when it comes to leave.
And the factor is of course, I am saving up for many things to come including our much awaited trip in November, location have yet to be confirmed cos it all depends on the budget and if anything crops up, like the flat. And of course the blessing is, I need not leave my poor wife all lonely, cos from 5th onwards I'd be doing my national service for a week, If I go for the trip, poor thing she'd not be seeing me for a good 2 weeks.
Now I understand how tough my friends had to choose between family and friends, so I guess you singles or those ignorant can self-reflect or spare a thought when we as husband and wife have plans sometimes. Although we are married, that does not mean our life stops there and furthermore for people like me on shifts, time together sometimes are hard to come by. So just spare a little thought kay?
Speaking of which our plans last Tuesday had to be changed a little for many reason. Partly I wasn't feeling too good and secondly my Yai is in High-dependency in NUH. Of course my Yai is my priority, I only wish I have the means to look after him. It pains me to see him in such a condition, I hope there'll be some justice if what he said is true and not only came from the 'confused' him. If what he said is true, I hope there'd be some justice, the 'inhuman' part of me just want 'an eye for an eye' but the civilized me just pray that they'd realize what they had done was wrong. I hope my Yai will be better taken care of after he leave NUH. I think a nursing home is a better place for him cos at least he's taken care of 24/7 and by paid professionals not by half-willing individuals or unskilled maids.
I just hope when I grow old that wouldn't be my fate. Ain told me, 'treat your children like how you want them to treat you', well that can be true but that can be otherwise too cos I still believe in the saying 'spare the rod, spoil the child'. I'd love my kids no doubt but discipline is discipline, the old skool way.
I am still disturbed by issues around me, I just hope some parties wake up. I know I shouldn't say alot but then I am starting to dislike some people here and sad to say they are my family.
I pity those who have to shoulder their burden and responsibilities.
I pity those who have to suffer for them.
I pity those who receive sufferings from them.
It angers me to learn what they have done.
The above 4 sentences applies to various around me, it's kinda private to say who they are cos after all they are family but then please lah wake up. InsyahAllah one day they will, I pray to God. I am unhappy but yes I am helpless cos theres nothing I can do or able to do. I just hope things will be better.
For those with rosy-near-perfect life, please spare a thought for those with many imperfections. Like the pakcik at work told me, 'if you have a bicycle, look at those who have to walk and think how fortunate you are'. Thinking this way. makes us thankful for what we have and makes us understands the not so easy life others might have and also makes us more careful with our own.
Spare a thought be thoughtful, it's not all about fun and accomplishing your 'cool' life and concerns only, when others unable to, think why before letting your anger sets in and then negatively think about them. Likewise with views, we come from different backgrounds, when one is against some stuff, they have their reasons but if you are along the same line, go ahead.
My twilight galaxy
Did they tell you, you should grow up when you wanted to dream?
Did they warn you, better shape up if you wanna succeed?
Well, I don't care really what they say, although I'd be lying if I said it doesn't affect me one bit. But hell yeah, I did things the way I am. I didn't fall into the mould, I did once and I headed nowhere. Engineering my balls. I should've went ahead with my dreams of doodling but now thats a tat too late to do so. So I chosen a different path but this time my own. I did things the way I wanted.
Now, I'm on this with my soulmate and it's only fair we steer this together. It's great enough that she's the most understanding person on earth next to mom. She would evaluate and assess and then give a go-ahead if there's nothing wrong with what I wanna do or give a constructive comment otherwise.
I'm 30 already going on 31 and I still have dreams, my life doesn't stop at having a family and a stable job, I wanna push myself, my own way. The thing is, sometimes I need to focus a little more, I know I can do it, just need a little more focus.
I can't wait to get my own flat, and pretty much settle everything on the 'family' aspect. I wanna settle this quick so I can further my studies and hopefully with more private hospitals coming up, I have more opportunities if my future where I am at seem bleak. By then I guess I would have at least 5years of experience. I am still not leaving out the overseas opportunities options but then, things happening down here kinda part of the factor that kills the keen factor. Like mostly family issues.....I am on a mission to save the weak and bullied, I think I can do something about it or at least contribute.
Life is alot more complex than just earning your meals and to entertain yourself when you are feeling down or much needed it.
If you are just concerned about that, I guess you are pretty much indifferent from the patients I face everyday. It's easy when everything's perfect without conflicts and all. Mine, I grew up with lots of it.
I'm just glad that life seems much better, the future too seems much more promising. I just hope everything falls into place, like the flat and the degree. And hopefully after that, little ones....insyahAllah.....
U have no say!
While printing the wedding fotos for dad, I realized...
No matter what, you're still my dad. If not for you, I'd not be here or even exist.
Blood ties can never be severed.
Thanks for coming all the way from Solo-Indonesia. I appreciate it pak. I'll come visit you someday if time and finances permits. Love you...
Single no more.
You're the one, indeed.
I love you to the core.
Nuff said, the rest is self-explanatory.
You're my side-kick in the journey we had already embarked on...
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