im so gonna miss the west, including the westside supermoto ppl....bunch of rad riding buddies....
westside
tyres
Guess what I've been reading on for the past hour? TYRES ouh, you would've guessed from the title of this entry...Duh!....
Anyways I didn't know there's so much technicality to tyres. What I thought was, more threads, more soft, thus more grippy....but there's more than that....and even the sizes comes into play....sigh going on the tracks is not as easy as twisting the throttles. I came across useful info from Raptor(a fellow supermotosg member). I'll do that DIY modification soon...infact later....LoL... Yesterday I managed to remove the PAIR valve system successfully and man I'm glad with the pick up now....woots...
I think my uncle's rad...I told him I wanna participate in the novice category and seems like he's giving me the thumbs up and support...hmmm maybe probably he rides too...a monstrous harley.....LoL....
Ok going down to give Zee a good wash and a little modification....nites ppl, enjoy the weekend....I have to work tumoro...urrrghhh.....
degree?
In a conversation with my colleague Chang, I just found out not all Unis offering Nursing Degree requires the applicant to have years of experience....woots!... I think I'm psyched up, I hope I still am after my probation, I want a degree under my belt which also is like a 'pass' to overseas employment....
I feel like there's nothing here left for me....so might as well leave when there's opportunity, I can pay mom a visit twice a year or something liddat....or can always skype.
Urggh....I need to give a big kick on my butt for that class3 although I know very well, I wouldn't burden myself with installments of a car. Unless, I got married or sumthin....
and with a degree in mind....next year gonna be a tough one to pass....LoL...but I think I can manage...InsyahAllah....oops not forgetting, I still wanna participate in that novice category, I hope I qualify...
Ok gotta go, iron my uniforms....taaa....
my gramma
yest i visited gramma from mom's place....i find that i really can talk to her now...i envy my gramma at 77, she's still active, taking classes and all and above all, healthy.
she was in tears as i bid farewell, cos 2 of her sons are not there...one in indonesia, the other, ouh well lets not talk bout the other....but she said something to me that really what is happening to me now....it might be a coincident but she being 'gifted', i think she knows whats going on with me.....i still remembered when i use to see so vividly my late grandfather but lately i don't, probably bcos i'm not such a good boy anymore....anyways, what my gramma told me, i think i will heed her advise....
ouh i also consulted her bout the sightings....she said it was probably my guardian.... she said, some people are blessed with this guardians to look after them. thnks for protecting me whoever you are and please guide me along...i know to some all these might be pure superstitions, for me, i do believe to some extent.
i need to save....seriously....6years is not long....i wanna be able to own a flat by then and probably settle down.....well, we'll see....
fate
shawal has always left me wondering why am i left in such a state....but then again, there are always ppl who are worst off than myself. at least i have a roof over my head, at least i still get to visit mom, at least i have food to eat.....
to all who's thinking of their ill fate, think about it, theres more ppl out there whos worst off...consider yourself lucky. i pray for all the muslims around the world, may their fate change and may God put on a smile upon their faces this shawal....insyahAllah.
i guess, some of my ill fate is cos of retribution of my wrong doings in the past. i still do not know how to redeem myself at times. i only can ask God for forgiveness for i do not know how else or wat else to make things right. in life, there's always retribution just be aware of things you are or might be doing, take care in whatever you do.
to all who knows me, 'maaf zahir dan batin' sekiranya, ada terkasar bahasa, ada tersindir, ada termarah and so on lah.....i know sometimes i can be too frank and i just blurt out whats on my mind, maybe i'm that sort that doesn't know how to 'mask' things into something nicer. i hope you guys understand, i don't mean to be mean, its just the way i am...
selamat hari raya everyone....:)
childhood fantasy
im excited, im going to be living my childhood fantasy.....woots...cmmon elvan get ur gears ready so we can start learning the lines at tuas circuit and hopefully participate in next year's event....
touching
my supermoto frens from the west planning a farewell party for me as i am going to shift to the east.....touching sey.....didn't know they enjoyed my company so much....LoL, we were frens for barely months....but we shared the same passion....different races, different ages(im the oldest i guess) but one passion.....supermoto....thnks guys for being so thoughtful....appreciate....:)
3 stitches....
i find that im a slacker half the time....but the other half, i like to push myself to the max....there's seasons....LoL
at one point, riding sessions were just a slow chillout session for me, and at times, i would push myself....and that is why i got myself a suit...being a responsible adult for myself and the public, id rather not be riding recklessly on the road although some bends are pretty sweet, especially when u have an equally fast rider behind u.....
last saturday, we learned stunting from the better riders amongst us....and i stupidly pushed myself again, i knew my limit but i tried too near to it...the result, 3 stitches but as always i got up again, my slightly more than average ego, ignores the pain and i rode again but the bleeding wouldn't stop and i ended up at NUH having 3 stitches done.....
the doctor was rather mean to use that alcohol swab against my open wound, i would've screamed and shout if i did that on my own but having all the nurses in the background, i just clenched my fists and teeth....he then proceeded to desentisize me with lygnoicaine, again he chose to use a bigger gauge needle....nabey pain sia...as my forearm went numb, it was fun to watch him trimming the dangling flesh, followed by the 3 stitches....as usual, LA never really work a 100% so kinda feel the needle went in, except or course u dont feel the pain but u can imagine how painful is it....
so much for my misadventure......a couple of weeks time id be moving to the east. i think id layback for awhile and stop stunting and concentrate on the tracks and probably participate in the novice category in next year's event at tuas. supermoto has become my passion....i know in the eyes of many down here is, when i wanna grow up. but being grown up doesn't mean you can't do what you like and conform with the norms. if you do that, when u finally got old, alot of 'could haves' will prop up...but if u have tried, it's a total different story....
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a rather long entry today......for the past few days...bird has been talking to me bout migrating to canada and he asked me along....the funny thing was, i wasn't that excited, although i did imagine how would it be like.....but why canada? cos its multi-racial down there just like singapore and probably there'll be less racial issues.... cmmon be honest with yourself, there's always racism everywhere only how serious it is thats all.....
still on the topic on jobs....so, its going to be 2months already, 4 more months i'll be confirmed insyahAllah and 34 more months i'll complete my bond. and i hope i can shine....cept i dont like the idea of negativity at work....not me but the rest...i mean like why cant everyone accept things with an open mind, rather that starting cold wars against each other, marking down certain parties and all in all behaving like pussies, for goodness sakes, we are all grown up men over there....damn....well, just some of them.....
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i need a good back rub.....sigh.....my back's aching, my neck's stiff....uggh....
help the 'needy'
anybody wanna donate a pair of race-boots so that this maniac can unleash the venom in his zee?
the life of an off duty staff nurse......
on my zee like a maniac....i wanna stop calling it suzie....
stoppies, pops....wheelies not yet....sharp corners and soon, tuas circuit.
full face, carbon gloves.....im left with a leather suit and boots....
but the sad thing is, ill be moving to tampines after raya.....ill miss my west side frens but ull see me hanging around tuas circuit....LoL....or prata planet.....i hope ill find new fun frens in the east....but ive always preferred west-side ppl, somehow they are more down to earth....well, at least most of 'em....
whaoh i guess my bonus gonna be spent on my track equipments....i think the most important thing now is to loose weight further....i need to be lighter if i intend to compete....i wanna compete in at least one race, at least.....
anyways, i think im gonna start packing slowly.....gosh i dunno how to break the news to bird n his mom that i'll be moving out....sigh.....
wings...
yeay watching wings....wooohooo....okla i love the music....
anyways my leovince has got its slider fixed today...woots...and i still find myself uncomfortable around mats.....LoL...but hey he got me the part for a cheap price, summo he fixed the slider for me...
iftar at al-ameen today again....didnt wanna go back bukit batok cos my step dad wasnt working...so yeah...im not bearing grudge, i just cant bear his hypocrisy and his fake smiles and all....
i think im fortunate to be at imh...the only disadvantage is my experience is limited to psychiatry....
Decision maker
As a staff nurse, you are supposed to be a good decision maker. I guess I can do that pretty well in my profession, most times I made the correct decision.
In life, it's a totally different ball game. I always face difficult situations whereby I have to make utterly difficult tough choices. I have to weigh between desire/wants and practicality most times. Believe me, I'm spoilt for choices but I don't like the decision making.
ONE OF THE SITUATION I'M FACING NOW IS(MEANS THERES MORE), whether to shift to Tampines or not. My cousin got his 4-room flat recently and he offered me a room. It is much nearer to work and thus I'll save on petrol and time BUT....I am already comfortable staying here, nobody bothers me(at least almost all the time). My frens are like 10 minutes ride away, my old bbss pals are around the corner. Basically I'm like in my own world. But staying in Tampines is not only for convenience, it's also for a cause, IF I go back there, we will be taking back Yai from the place his sons dumped him at. We WILL be his caregiver, afterall, although a generation away, we still have his blood dripping somewhere in our body. I am torn.....really...I need guidance, I need it from above for I could not trust the judgements of mere human beings for they might be blinded by the sweeter things in life.....speaking of which, I'm torn with ANOTHER situation, which I will leave to fate and guidance from above. I seriously can't believe I'm in the same situation years ago....and I don't wanna be at the loosing end, again.
I just hope my journey till my end of life will have less bumps and knocks, I just want a smoother ride, be it on my own or not.
IF I do live in Tampines, I guess you fellows would see less of me. Anyways, I don't think you people would even notice anyways, as I can see as time goes by, many of us drift apart even further, due to work commitments, family and all. And for the masses out there, my friends are actually MY 'family' other than of course mom and my 2 younger siblings.
Ok gotta go guys, trying a new route ZUl, taught me yesterday....and it does look alot shorter on streetdb.com
iftar with the x
went for iftar with annie....catch up on times and work...she's still hilarious as ever. she entertains me...LoL....anyways, nothing heavy today....just kway teow kerang, and its nice la, probably cos im oredi hungry.....
we went our separate ways after that, i head to sheng siong as i remembered i needed to get cereals...ive been eating cereals for the past few days for sahur...bird bought post and i think its nice....so this morning was the last bit that i ate and sheng siong just now had a promotion coincidentally, $4.20 for a box of post-cereals is freaking cheap lor, so i bought two, cranberries and pecan. yumm....
work....was better, though a little busier than normal, cos today is injection day....i poked 9 patients on their deltoids.....and i kinda bonded with my NM today as he asked me to go for the talk, sat beside him and i realised he's not so bad after all, he can be friendly....i hope he or the NC will make path for my future...im not aiming so high, an NC position, id be contented enough....
workworkstress
stress.....why? kena tested by my NM.....then nemind, pass report also kena shoot questions but nemind, i learn new stuffs....thnks arh
woooooohoooo i manage to find a template....new business for me? hallucinate graphics? woots! next in line 'carnage' graphics....wooohooo....or my own original idea that i had in mind....i hope this is a profitable thingy that worth putting in effort....and somemore i enjoy doing it....:) looks like another source for side income....woots...
shitty decal job
my shitty decal job....however it cost me less than 50bucks, so i guess ill have it edited and reprinted again soon...
BRrrraaap
my monsters roaring....another successful stoppie....longer wheelies....woots...im roaring....riding makes me feel younger....LoL
anyways, kalai was a great guide....taught me alot at work....i think im getting a hang of my job. what i need to do now is revisions....more studying, with knowledge i can answer to any questions my superior shoots me with.....and with that...i can certainly climb higher faster....
back to my monster....i think im going to just print out the shroud decals and just fix it, and trim on my own...who needs fucken templates...its fucken DIY yo!....LoL...i think by sunday you'll see my Suzie complete with the venom decals....and im thinking of powder coating my handguards as well.....LoL....gosh this hobby is the most costly of them all.....this saturday i think i will shoot with my cameras...havent been shooting for quite some time now....this weekend, jam packed schedule...morning go print out my decals, evening iftar at leo's place, night riding with the west-side supermotos....i dont need to hear 'for whats'...cos part of the supermoto community are my friends as well and in fact, one of them is my cousin....so yeah....
gnite peepz.....
the first print outs
it costs alot more than if i were to print with hairul but too bad his company caught fire, no joke man.....so well, sometimes u gotta do it all yourself....well here's the tail...im going to print the shrouds next...hope it turns out fine.....wasnt really satisfied with the tail...but hey, its my first attempt, i will get better at it...
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