hahahah i cant help it larh...i told myself to resist....but then i cant.....NO NOT REAL ORGASM!
hohohoh.....my monster named vicious is out oredi.....this monster between my legs give me the ultimate high.....the monstrous growl form its aluminium end can makes my heart pound....wooo
i was told 90km/h for running in....but the monster got control of me....hohoho....and i spent like $246 today oredi....new tail-lights(cos the old ones were to big and fugly......) and motovation frame sliders in case i fall....LoL.....
nothing beats a new bike.....and wats more....its a monster to begin with.....i know its a low end not macam KTMs or Huskys but this suzuki is good nuff for me....and i already made a new fren at the bike shop....Udin, he released his monster today too.....theres certain things im not satisfied with the scuffs on the plastics.....but then i saw the other bikes were like that too... aaawww nevermind its a supermotard, its supposed to be burly, monstrous and rugged....LoL.
another thing i feel the suspension a little too soft for comfort.....
one thing i was really surprised was, i felt like i have ridden the bike for years and somehow we just cliqued... we are like one......we are married......hohoho...i love vicious....woooooohooooooo
happiest day of my life.....so far....next month decals and mods.....LoL......i think ill hit the tracks someday so watch out for a plus size participant in years to come....LoL....
orgasmic
i forgot
i told my colleague.....at work yest....smokers should come to this ward.....
an advice to all my pals who's smoking.....quit please for goodness sake...yes not everyone end up with cancer.....but probably you'd end up with copd(chronic obstructive pulmonary disease) which gets you breathless and its worse than an asthma attack that your oxygen saturation plunges to as low as 40% in some patients!( the normal oxygen level is 95%-100%). take a moment and think bout how you'd be, how much suffering you'd go thru, that you'd even gasp for air even with a simple conversation such as "nurse, can you wind the bed up...".......and not mentioning the burden if you have a family(and not mentioning second-hand-smoking). not only that, being lack of oxygen, theres many other complications accompanying it. being in the internet generation, don't be ignorant.....read up and find out wat harm can a ciggie do for you, (theres more than just music/movies/gossips/onlineshopping).....cancer is the worst that could happen but theres many more than just cancer......
ive told my frens umpteen times but i guess my words are just given a deaf ear, i told my colleagues yest, they(smokers) should see fellow smokers who's suffering in the intensive care unit. they should.....before its too late....
i care but i can only do so much....:)
crap & bull
hohoho.......drama-mama-action-reaction....vicious cycle....
anyhus....i feel the world is more like a stage where everyone put up acts to please their 'audiences'. once in awhile u discover reality when the actors remove their veils/masks to reveal their true self but how you'd know beneath that mask, theres another one, skin-tight that you'd barely notice.....most of the cases, this actors have mulitple personalities.....
in the working life, this is more evident as office or shall i say hospital politics going on.....
back to life, its sad that theres still ppl practicing their acting in life and sad to say sometimes i'm too naive to trust and believe them and sad nuff sometimes i tot the 'real' ones are fakes cos their stories are hard to believe but when we hit off a same note, i know its real.....
probably u wouldnt understand this entry but im just expressing frustations......but then again, i think the previous days' conversations with various people sorta gave me a sign. im gonna take that as sorta guidance...thnks God for bringing me ppl around me to talk with and enlighten me in a way.....:)
i hate the PM shift....uggh....2 this week, 2 next week and itll be over.....i cant wait for saturday, thats all i care about now.....wooohoooo........
nyeh nyeh
nyeh nyeh...i lost weight, im not gonna put on any....nyeh-nyeh....LoL...too bad....
at least i know, im not a hypocrite.......go figure?
saturday...
wooots.....saturday...cant wait....probably the most expensive stuff ive ever owned....wooohoo...
when, ouh when will i learn to powerslide......LoL....probably i wont due to busy schedules and all. probably i wont, cos id be too 'sayang' to even try.....ouh wells, we'll see.....
turns out Black had the same story as i do......well not all of us are that fortunate you see...and we are the few who survived and is independent i would say.....and in just barely months id be totally independent....i can even look for new places to rent...but, then id be wise and save that excess cash that i would have for a house that i will own not only rent probably when i finally reach the age of 35 if im not married yet.....:) thats like 6-7years away....
MICU is a drag....i really dont like it there....but today was a little better....the never smiling staff nurse dorothy was frenly when i initiated the conversation....she taught me a couple of things....thnks sn.dorothy.....:)
lies and stupidity....sigh when will someone learn.....stop accusing, check first whether it really did reach me or not? for everyones info, i dont deny what i did....nuff said....:). like for instance, i was spotted 'walking around' yes i admit but i wasn't 'switched off'.......just an example. its uh-mazing how ppl jump to conclusions....i cant blame it...i do too at times but i dont accuse before i find out...for instance....my fren was late, i ASKED him first, did u recieve my sms what time to meet.....he took out his fone....and theres an unread msg.....'sorry dok, i didnt realised u sent me a msg...i tot it was the usual time' i could simply blurt out 'why are u late....' BUT i checked first.....stupidity makes u look even more stupid....and accusations wont bring you anywhere....:) all smiles peeps...
im more excited bout saturday more than anything else....osman/black told me to stop wasting my time....i dunno, should i? perhaps God indirectly sent a message thru him....he came by today to return my lens....perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.....eh?
timbuk2
for sale....not in use.....used only for less than 4months......bought at $180, hoping to sell at $130
specs can be found here.
fits my 13inch macbook, waterproof, lotsa compartments, still looks new, inside and outside. great for a school bag.....holler me guys if interested....:) hoping to top up to get that 'monster-dog' with the cash!
gnite peepz....
narrow minded
sorry for some of ya for being so narrow minded......
anyways today the brother(we call male nursing officers that) had a long talk with us about nursing to see whether we are into it.....his life story...i yawned a couple of times but hey, that fellow swear on it that he told the truth, respect....
the funny part was when he ask my age and if married.....and he said i should...he said i should pray to god...etc....etc.....i told him why im not married, i lost trust in girls and gaining that back is really tough when i get into new relationships and it happened again and again...so yeah...he said this, its not meant to be....ur match is somewhere out there already written....so yeah....perhaps he's right....
anyhus i still find MICU(medical intensive care unit) ubber boring.....and im wanting to discover my true real career prospects at IMH, im sick and tired of listening from the stories others tell that doesnt match sometimes.....if IMH suck, i have other options in mind, John Hopkins....the pay's good i heard...
sorry ratnor i have to forgo the trip to the costume store.......i was dead tired and the thunder gave me an excuse to not go....my back aching i guess from the 3months of hardwork...sharon told me this...dont worry larh, ure going to IMH, wouldnt have to lift anymore patients...u can rest there....she too, suggested places like at ang mo kio hospital for TCM, massage + acupuncture, i guess ill try some day, sounds cool...anyone wanna join me next weekend perhaps?
i pray for my own well being.....having money is not everything....having money without health is as good as having none......i just dont wanna be febrile and be a burden to the masses, if its my time, i wanna 'go' with ease with as little sufferings as possible......
sid is still unconcious in dreamland
first and foremost....i dun really enjoy dreaming something that wont come true...ouh wells, then why i daydream then? i cant help it larh, itll be wonderful......im still clueless...yes i know, im turning 29 soon and i should know better or at least foresee but in this field, i am clueless, honest. end of story....
yest, airport-send april's fren off, met hilmi and off to suntec...im only disappointed that theres nothing that caught my eye that i wanted to buy....uggghhh....saw jacqualine at the PC-show... and then iskandar who just bought a lappie.....how i wish i could spend too....ugggh....ill wait for bonus and that d300 that felt so good in my hands will be mine...i hope...or at least that d80 larh......and so sent april home and headed to meet my other frens at bukit batok......gosh i miss those peeps everytime....i dunno how i managed to neglect them years ago....for a total of almost 3years......guess i was blinded back then...hehehe...
sigh ICU is such a drag....so boring.....as we are mere students we cant pretty much do alot of things and that is such a bore.....i can literally fall asleep standing if i allowed myself to! yes its that boring......
theres many things more id wanna say but i guess ill get myself a nap first....toodles peeps...
ouh i hope i get my ride early saturday morning....so i can go for a ride with Aps....i hope....:)
LoveI
I love my pals.....especially ppl like mankey, lin, boy and many2 bb ppl.....cos of the simplicity yet joy they gave me....
yest boy got free passes to mos from his supervisor(sole-obsession ppl), we went to see the shoe exhibit, graffiti and turntablism....i swear, i will buy a turntable one day! met lufti and mick there, the lomo peeps....the turntablism wasn't as happening as i expected to be probably it was still early....we got bored so we left to fetch boy's gf, siling....
we had no plans, no where to go, we drove to that creepy house but we had no torchlights....so finally we just end up chilling by labrador and had a mini picnic....ice-cream, donuts, crackers and bottled drinks...just chill, sat down by the sea...was simple, cool and fun....its the ppl around u that makes things enjoyable, its not about the outing itself....:)....even if youre going to a tremendously awesomely planned outing but if the ppl around u are a pain in the ass, you wont enjoy it one bit....
anyways, i think id take a nap first....might be joining april late.....:) ouh april, dont go back phillipines permanently....can?
thnks 5A
its been a pleasant 3months working with ward 5A.....ppl like chen lin, darius, jamilah, nishi, liberty, liting, sister hamidah, sister ho, clarissa, joy, jessica....too many to mention, itd be a perfect ward to work in......i wouldn't mind asking for a transfer but then, IMH will pay me more.. so yeah...i think ill go for the pay....
so its over....i just feel bad not getting anything for the peeps...so yeah i bought 2boxes of donuts, thats like a total of 24 sugar coated doughs.....i wanted to get kfc initially but its way over my budget, so yeah.....donuts it is.....:) just a way of saying thanks to ward 5A.....:)
april met me today....woots....she's so lovable, she's a great pal, someone i guess i can hang out with all day.....too bad, ure not in ttsh oredi for the next two weeks....ill miss u pal....and she'll be going back phillipines too.....gosh.....and when she return if she does, ill be busy working at IMH. gosh....but luckily theres always msn, frenster and the mobile fone...:)
going out shooting with black tonight....he's been asking me to shoot for eons but ive been bz... ok so tonight it is...:).....trigger happy larh, apa lagi....
eh Aps....u should get a nikon larh....so i can trade lenses with u...hehehehehe.....
train hard?
im a fan of fights....a little violence for entertainment can be healthy and sometimes educational. why? today Pitu lost the fight.....in contender asia/singapore. he trained very hard but ended up losing in the first round. sometimes you need to take a break from stuffs and chill a little off ur regime/routine.....need to slack....
i slack but sometimes over slack...hurhurhur.....
anyways, im not pretty happy with my performance at ttsh....i couldve been better, provide better nursing care and been more attentive, its not bout grades.....cos Miss.Tang said id probably get a B+ or an A for my prcp....its more bout satisfaction....taking the staff nurse role isnt easy, paperwork sucks and because of that, you have less contact with patients and if youre not alert enough and your junior suck at his/her job, thats it.....itll end up like me on tuesday, i wasnt happy with myself for that day.....i could have been more attentive....and i think the junior plays a part too...shouldve informed me....sigh but wat is past is past, its a learning experience and i certainly learn from it......
its a sad cubicle to be working in.....another patient passed away thurs morning....he's old but again, its sad....and those who neglect their old parents, shame on you....thats what made me sad. ungrateful society.....
anyways i have to log off......and tumoro i will try to finish my roll so that i can pass Pammy before she heads for home, her flight to Manila is on monday....so maybe ill pass her the roll tumoro or saturday.....we'll see....
theres more id want to write but i think id better go.....ok ill tell a little....i STILL wanna do certain things i said many times before....i still wanna get to do them before i get old and febrile.....:) gnite peeps....toodles...love y'all and mank, lin and boy, im looking forward to saturday.....:)
collabaro part deux
collaborations are fun.....
coming up u can expect from hallucinate tees, collaboration with hairul and gilaman(haiqal)
itll be rad.....cant wait...
1.hallucinateXgilaman
2.hallucinateXspout
sunshine in a bag
i woke up suddenly wanting to hear to gorillaz.....so turned on imeem and ended up putting gorillaz-clinteastwood on my frenster site...hehehe.....
plain white tees
well not exactly plain but i guess ill have more white tees in the future.....LoL and the above will be one of it....
Hallucinate new release v.1 script
Script 1.0 will be wearable mid July. Those interested holler me with ya sizes. Will be in ringspunned AAA(triple A) tees made in mexico. Prices to be confirmed. Email me pals... pals of verivicious/hallucinate get to purchase this tee at cost price....woots! :) Balance pieces will be sold at 'Boards & Stuffs'. Simplicity rocks at times....:)
shopping list
shopping list for the next coupl-a-months:
For Vicious:
1.Drc led smoked tail lights and signals
2.Hel-steel braided brake hose
3.Motovation frame & axle sliders
4.Fat protapers
5.Hella air horns
6.Decals lots of em...i was thinking skurvy on my tank.
7.New rad bob-helmets(a davida would be nice but itll be too ex)
8. carbon fiber side mirrors.
I guess thats it for till end of the year...hehehehe
for myself, verivicious:
1. A pair of spanking new sneakers, a DC or Circa would be nice.
2. Kenzo for men(already ordered)
3. Threadless! (on the way! woots)
4. Berms...i love the old volcom designs...
5. that black levis 508 would look good on me...
6. I want another stussyXnewera!
7. New glasses, an oakley perhaps, my braun buffel paint peeling off oredi...
8. 1 more casio!
Not in a hurry to get but I wanna get!:
1. NIKON D80 OR D300!!!!!
2. A slik tripod.
3. dry cabinet.
4. A new lowe pro camera bag that can be converted to a backpack.
5. MACBOOK PRO!
6. IPHONE!
7. turntables (digital or analog) hehehehe
wahahahahaha......i dont think ill get to save any till the start of next year.....
ok gnite peeps....wanna sleep....woots...love y'all
nil input
dunno wat to input....but hey its a sunday and ive gotta work....suck aint it? pm somemore.... nevermind at least for i have 3 weekends coming....woots....and by the 2nd weekend hopefully, ill be one happy bunny with a monster....woots.......and more weekends means less excuse not to run. LoL
love y'all peeps.....adios amigos.....enjoy ur sunday!
