down

down with cough n blocked nose....
down 300g....tt makes me 77.9kg....

i still miss u.....(i still hate u)

2 days of break....lets partay....

shahreil getting engaged tumoro....congrats...

2kg and counting

78.2 tt was my weight...hope to loose more...but i just ate a burger at midnight, sheesh sure itll be a long way to my target.....

horoscopes

sometimes horoscopes do fit in place, im not sayin i believe them but coincidentally they fit in place....i was indeed yest shopping alone, yes alone...looking for a new shirt for certain occassions.....check out the horoscope i just read just now....
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"Here we go again! You're in the mood to shop, big time, and to buy whatever it is that you're absolutely sure no one else has -- or, at the very least, no one you know. Before you whip out that plastic, though, think about this one thing: If you really want to be different, why not put your credit cards and your checkbook away and redo something you own -- in your very own way. Invest in some paint and a couple of stencils. You might end up with a profitable part-time business."

and i do like makin money part time, been selling vespa rare parts off the net, clothings, toys and knick-knacks over the past few years just for the extra cash, even shahreil got into it after learning you could actually earn a little out of this part-time business......

anyway, i was in the mood for shopping cos i was sick of trying and trying on something tt probably id never get....anyways nice knowing ya.....cheers...id rather party on from now....oh bangkok's cancel, i was not going anyways, too soon, not enough time to save up.....remy's going bali probably in march, adil will get his bonus then, shahreil too, me hopefully if boss decide to give me(performance bonus). if i do get, id love to tag along...ive grown to like bali after the 4 or 5 trips there with sisha...see how la ar....heee.....

my body still warm and i hate the way i feel, weak and easily exhausted....the flu is certainly a dreadful virus.....it drags......i need energy to work these few days, theres so much to be done but im so weak.....

and i miss soccer wednesdays soccer sessions, the boys like have no time anymore as everyones busy with work n family...i wish we'd start playing again soon, our regular wednesday football sessions....miss the kicks..

short one

no mood, no mood at all to write... i mean like, wadda fuck....wad did i do? well fuck ya, u can say it st8 to my face, need not be so arrogant....

wat was i thinking man..

frankly, im not the party kind, my way of unwinding is chilling and talking rot at the neighbourhood coffee shop and wat i used to do with my ex, laze by the beach.... but yest was sumthing different...i went to MOS with my buddies....cool...happening but still i cant let loose...

i think out of all of us, its boy and me who cant really let loose a 100% somehow we are still stiff.....adil, whoah he got the moves i must say......and certainly he can flirt alright....shahreil....hehehe can see he's not a clubber but he did enjoy himself. raimie...the abg2 clubber type....leo, like as if he's in his world of his own, me & boy just wanna have fun but not totally comfortable....hehehe

anyway MOS is a place to be....believe me, ive never seen a club so huge before.... theres even an escalator inside....zahidah, u dunno wat u just missed, shouldnt have gone to take the car....i told ya...heheheh

i dunno wat it is but im single and some ppl are like treating me like one criminal, like as if i did a major crime, cmmon, im single.......i did not lie, at least...

sorri boys i cant join for bangkok...its cos i dun wanna take the risk....id love to join, frankly i do....but i dun wanna be broke wen i come back, cos i dunno how much id be getting for my next pay and bike maintainance coming up, belting, tyres, insurance etc.....if we were to stick to going in april, maybe i could make it...

next time maybe yeah?....seriously....

anyways have fun guys.....tell me bout it when u come back.....cheers...

oh i learnt one thing, boy, booze does not bring ur fever down...hahaha...

just notice something-facts

k first of all this has got nothing to do with my frens....

facts, frens will be on ur side no matter how guilty u are and the other party will always appear the criminal, shunned off and untrue gossips spreads and slowly reaches u back.im so sorri if tt happened to u....but it did to me....anyways ive told off one particular person....and im waiting for another to reach my ears...teehee....u know life is so interesting....remember this, frens will always be by ur side even if ure the guilty one, trust me, i know...heee.......so dun loose ur frens.....

but then again, u might not know.....wen ur frens will turn ard and backstab u, rex just experienced that...and it suck alright coming from a fren of 20years or more... anyways, rex u still got the rest of us, ditch him dude.......its difficult to tell, who will remain true thru out....some actually have demons inside waiting to be unleashed.......so becareful with the not-so-true facts u spread around cos one day it might just backfire.....retribution, heard of it anyone?......well i did...

my advise

my advise to some ppl out there, dun fucken provoke me, dun be a kaypo..... u never cared, so dun be a kaypo.....understood?.....

things wouldnt happen if u claimed what u are.....ure just full of shit...

heee....fierce sak abg nie....well, sometimes need to let out wats inside... wat i feel, wat comes to my mind....

i hate pressure....but tts wats keeping me alive......last minute decisions..urggh...
im not a real risk-taker anymore.....i would evaluate, consider the consequences and think ahead....maybe thats bcos paranoia is consuming me......at the same time, i feel im a little more wayward crazier....how is that possible i do not know....

girls, why cant u ppl be more predictable?....ur kind is like a mind-boggling puzzle..
one minute ure this, the next ure not, then back again...well, watever....

bangkok or not.....sheesh.....on such a short notice, its hard to decide, bangkok is well deserved considering ive been a good boy for more than a year, ive never left singapore(except to jb of course)....ill wait till tonight......looks like ill have to survive on free loafs and rejected goods again...heee......

in life i learned one thing......its ok to fail, but to not try is a big regret....
its all thru experience....believe me.....

hmmm......

i dun think im going to partay...this fridae tt is.....im not feeling comfortable for it...we'll see how wen the day comes......cos id rather be chilling out or sumthin... u know....but a change could be fun....anyways...we'll see....

im seeing, inches lost....wooohooo fucken coolness...more work, more work sid....

u know wat im feelin now overall in life....i wanna kick ass....tts tt....in everythin, i wanna kick ass....n i will do wat i want, wat i will n i dun fucken care wat any of u will say, i will go ahead with wat i want even if any of u try to stop me...get tt str8....
in your face, tts wat i say....

sleep now in the fire...

as ignorance became a part of everyones life......its like as if, we are sleeping in a fire blazing so furiously....

not being a mind-reading freak doesnt help one bit in life.....so many ppl, so unpredictable....be it colleagues, my boss, frens, etc.......a fren just got backstabbed by another....wadda fuck happened to civilization? civilization only exists, it does not occur.....watever that means.....

the rubble that use to be library has now become a mind-cemetary.......similar to tt of life....once useful, once demolised, destroyed, derailed, it becomes useless and to build tt up again, it takes forever....

enjoyment/entertainment is just a toy in life to comfort us from the pain, the toture, the stress and every negativity we go thru in life everyday....

irony....aint it beautiful....

im anxiously waiting for my belated bdae prezzie from nini...gee...thnx...

im anxiously waiting for my hp to recieve an sms or call from.....

im anxiously waiting for fridae to come, cos its my off dae and....its partay day...

im anxiously waiting for february to be present, cos tts when i can see the route..

im anxiously waiting for my next pay day....

im anxiously waiting for CNY, 2 off days....cool...

im anxiously waiting for chris to close the deal....

im anxiously waiting for simon to bring in more accessories...

im anxiously............ZZzzzzzzzZZZZzzzzzZZZZzzz

skin n bones...

i knew there was something, wen i started talkin with my colleague abt the stall tt i usually ask the boys to buy me food.....but i just took it as a flashback....teehee..
my collegue, said probably i was lousy...heeehehe...well, watever....

anyways, congrats...for privacy's sake i shall not mention to whom im congratulating but im happy for ya....

heartaches, there will always be...cos in my 26 years of age, tt was the only one ive ever had....seriously...

before i end this entry, id like to apologise to miss nursey, cos i feel a little guilty, cos i never told the whole truth.....and ive never kept anything from ppl i love before...but this time i did...but my frens told me its ok, im not doing anything wrong....:) i hope not....

well guys, i just hope tt the path im following thru this 2006, will bring me there.. and i hope oh chris, pls dun go back on ur words...cos im looking forward to the april trip....

will update ya guys later...

oh i forgot to mention one big fat joke....ramli said to me, sidek takmo bukak balik spuloh inci....i said im old, i mellowed down, i enjoy scooters butid rather be an individual, he said but ten inch was there even before sog......i said, nuthin to be proud off....everyone left already and wats left is the founder who never move along with time but decide to stay put on his interests, passion, watever u call it....

k gtg guys...c ya...

football hooligans

caca , zul-enjul got engaged yest.....went to the engagement....i arrived, just as wen the couples are talking bout registering for a new flat.....the singles have yet to arrive.....urrgh......

yani smsed me earlier, if i wanted to watch a movie....of cos i would...hee...but i least expect tt shed want to watch football hooligans.......believe me, if u have yet to catch it, go quick......its great....i was glued the whole time....this year, its the 2nd good movie ive watched...the first was narnia....and im reading the books now, she just loaned me the first one...theres 7 of it....i shant spoil the fun, go n watch football hooligans...if ure into the warriors, this movie would be it.....seriously.

plans for trips has been postponed again.....i want to go but im not sure im able to in april....cos of money matters mainly.....

whose line is it anyway? has just entertained me for the past 1/2 hour.....

life, has never been cooler......i dunno, tts wat i felt this week....mebbe not next week...but hey lets be optimistic...

single cylinder....

more than a year singlehood....im doing ok...except i miss being loved n cuddled...
anyways...im tired of trying...id rather enjoy myself for now......no point putting in all the effort......too sleepy to write further...anyways...went toiletries shopping just now, were suppose to wander ard town or sumthin...but the rain made me lazy... k la until then adios....and my new frens, thnks for being frens with me....nites....

alot of phews

smart decisions ended up with alot of phews....actually fate help me decide... i so need a pair of shoes....my budget was a little tight so have to settle for those below a hundred.....88 was my choice and it was priced at 99bucks...hahaha...anyways, no size for me....then the minah tudung who was so sweet showed me osiris sample which they are selling of for 119 cos its the only piece and its a sample before the real stock comes in....but had to forgo tt cos the camo was a little too much, so i ended with a chocolate osiris louie barletta signature model....I LIKE...heee.........n im glad i fixed tt ice mudguard cos its the last piece!!!......sori guys i came first...anyways. looks like i have to eat a little less till 4th of next mth....hee....paid everything, bills, instalments, parking, gave mum, gave nyai, paid sisha some....it was a big PHEW for me finally today, i feel at ease....all settled....though theres not much left, but im fucken relieved.....coolness....

oh,this mth gotta bantai on more OTs this mth...i hope i can tag along leo n the rest of the boys to bangkok's rockfest, 2dae event i guess 300bucks is sufficient...we'll see.....im starting my trade again......trading items for cash....gonna try to korek2 tt shop at waterloo for rare items for sale to rich brats....adios...until then, my mission continues....oh btw im nuts about u ......u know who u are.....

stupidity

aiyah left my tracks behind....
it was waxing night as usual, i have to stay behind and supervise the contractors wax the floor...while they are at it, i grabbed(GRABBED) a cup noodle and gobble it down....the thing is i forgot to throw the bowl away cos as i was in a rush to go home, so i locked and armed the store and forgot to check.......haizz....sure enough the supervisor opening tumoro will know....well, watever...im hungry...i dont care, they made me stay alone....

tired

this entry will be made up of words.
tired.exhausted.yearning.love.unloved.missing.ambitious.dreams.hope.efforts.boredom.sick.nites.

who cares?

who cares...ive been bloggin i think since 2002...i dun care wat they say, im comfortable letting out here.....

anyways...im the happiest at the last few hours of 2005 & the first few hours of 2006. i want it to happen believe me.....i think this is it, id give it my best shot, im glad i did not give up a couple of days ago.....im giving all of us chances....

budget is tight, wants n needs have to be considered...theres equally of both n its fucken hard to manage this month's budget though i had some OTs last month. anyway ill manage as always without assistance....chris' fren would be of great help if he decide sooner...perhaps i should oblige a little instead of keeping firm to my 'standards' wat i wanted.

im too fucken nuts about bikes....i guess tts boys' toys after all....its like a never ending hobby....i can foresee me owning a wicked harley or a 540motard in a couple of years time.....i bet ya i will...unless of course i can afford a mini and mod it up, airbrush and cool interiors etc....then ud see a mini zoomin past the road with the iamvicious decal on its windscreen....hehehhe...

i have visions, i am not without dreams so for those fuckers who judged me earlier on, too bad...drool on i must say...i must keep my head up, keep on trying and be stubborn like capricons should be, never look back and never look down once you are on the way there....but at the same time, i gotta be humble in case i fall from the big climb itd be a fucken great fall....

two-double-O-six.... a fucken new chapter opens up, i guess im more daring and bold than ever, i think, at least..... a fist in the air is wat its gonna be, i hope id get what i want this year, seriously....im really relying on that path i lay for myself, that particular one....before the big 30 is my target to achieve most of my goals tt is...i might be late than most ppl but its better than never....the drive to be there is flaming in myself roaring, heating up to get going....

some have been looking down on me, criticising me, and always have negative vibes towards me, im no good, im a bad boy, im rowdy, im selekeh, watever but i will gain their respect, soon nuff....i know wats in your mind....i know it might be my paranoia....but then again, some is fucken true....

paranoia, its something tt i cant totally remove from me because of my bad experiences in life....ive been cheated, lied, duped, conned, name it, im a fool, i trust too easily.....i love too easily....but tts gonna change a little but then i hate the paranoia....i really do.....it might just lead to my own destruction.... im just a victim of the in-house drive by....

my choice of life for two-double-O-six.....enjoy while not forgetting my goals, life is short, too short for frowns.......frens...my closest of frens, ill choose them above anything else, they've been there for me for 2005....im pretty sure they'll be there this awesome year too...

until then, chill out, best wishes for my frens and my familia in general...good luck
and believe in god.cheers.

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i think im vain, i love my hair, i love my face, i look in the mirror after baths.

no direction

im lost, i have no direction....i want to achieve but then im lost, no direction at all... urrghhh......february come quick so u can make my life a little easier... thnks.
wda dun disappoint me aight?.....i hate this feeling of pressured under the age factor. as age catches up, i worry more.....as wat ive yet to achieve....capricons...sigh..

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i hate this very day every year....

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i wanna sleep till the sun is bright....the rainbows above my head and every fuck thing is beautiful.....