its been almost a week

been almost a week since i wrote.....its been a fun week...and damn lotsa spending.... i think to date, ive spent close to 1grand.... fuyoh...look at ma language....

anyways....it was a fun week indeed...my long wait ever since my caramella broke down has ended last saturday...with the new addition my gilly.....its an awesome machine, quick pick up, no hassles of gear shifting....cool electrostarter....but, i am short that i have to tip toe everytime im stationary.....overall, a vxr is awesome...great handling, quick response, quick pick up and hell lot of technology....and of course accessories, wats a bike without lots of accessories....BORING....ehhehe

next on my list....short visor, neons, carbon mirrors or meter case, seat cover... man im gonna mod my gilly....but i still miss my caramella....wish shes around so that i can ride to alifs once in awhile......

im gonna start like wat i started with ten inch about 4 years ago...but this time a gilly club.....all gilly's....got 3 so far...hahaha....hope to make more frens and soon a club will emerge.....watch out man....when we roam the streets on our MODern machines....cheers!....

another day without a bike

morning as usual....i was a little late....so i fast marched to the mrt, im still on time, i see the usual train commuters i see daily at abt the same timing...at marsiling... it started to drizzle a little, there were only tiny droplets, so i walked calmly, confident of making the 1 bus stop walk without getting wet....all of a sudden it started to pour, gets a little heavier, i sprint, non stop from bus stop to the next.... then continued across the street until i reach a void deck....it was amazing.. i was exhausted but i was amazed at the speed i ran continously but i was already half dead when i stopped hahaha....goes to show how unfit i am....hahah....i was wet, i dunno from sweat or the rain.....wat a shitty day...but other than that, work was fine today, didnt do much practically.....managed to use my authority to order ppl around.. hahaha wat a lazy fuck i am....i merely pointed out to this boy whose so fucken ambitious....asked him to take down the posters while i merely helped him hold on to the posters, he did all the climbing and taking down....i inspected the selling area and ordered again him to replenish ensuring theres no empty shelves....i have to make it clear to him....he's an retail assistant now not a supervisor...if he wanna act supervisor, then whose going to stack all the goods? damn u, wait till u finish NS la then u can become a supervisor...idiot... hahah. in actual fact i hate him disagreeing to what we supervisors tell him to do, i know he got views of his own but there are reasons to the things that we ask them to do, not suka2 ask him to do....he always has something to say and his mouth is damn huge and keeps on blabbering like those of a hand puppet....so annoying....he acts as if he knows everything.....i guess he shouldve applied to be a branch manager instead of a supervisor...idiot boy......

other than that idiotic fellow, im enjoying work more nowadays, adapting to it... im more and more becoming a salesperson, im concerned about whether an item sells and im concern if a certain item is slow but theres a regular pool of ppl who likes them and keeps buying them. im concern about how nice the block stacks on the selling area.. its like im trying to become more professional in my job, i think, i didnt actually first thought this job would require much thinking but after almost 2 months, it actually does.....and its getting interesting everyday...hopefully when i retire or have a lot of money, whichever comes first, i can start a business applying my knowledge attained....coolness...ive always dreamt of owning my own business...

speaking of wish, a young chap approached me if im interested in starting a label. i have a little knowledge of it and i can always ask ppl like din for help...the fellow that wanted to start intend to start when he completes school...i hope he does, cos im keen to try...probably just as a side job cum hobby...coolness...so shami hope u keep it real eh?....

gonna call those mungens who delayed my bike....i hope i can collect my gilly today.. tumoro my off day....if i could take it out...yeay....ill go riding around... coolness...then probably shop for a decent helmet.... adios muchachos seniors...

bleached, bitched. beach

its such a bitch to be waiting for something u expected and want so much.....life itself is a bitch.....anyways, heres why....the damn bike shop couldnt release my gilly yet bcos of COE issues...damn you, shouldnt u inform me before i paid? so that at least i can opt for anothe shop, damn u mungens.....public transport is so costly nowadays but the luxury of being able to doze of during the 20-30minutes of journey can be rather relaxing at times....but if on a bike, ur journey is 3-4 times faster so that u can lie on your comfy bed and doze of to 3-4 hours of sleep.....thats the fucken difference and its such a bitch that u actually have to pay more for a nap.....biatch!.

todae, i was a bitch.....hahaha....my attempt made me victorious, well at least for today....i shant say why cos its so unimportant.......

its so boring without a bike, furthermore when the rest of ur frens have partners on their back....they asked me out but i jus cant tag along...cos i cant be following them riding around on foot right?.....

today i came up with an idea, a money making one.... a d.i.y item that i think will sell....but first id try to recreate it myself when i have the time and money to experiment......it shouldnt be difficult but much effort is required and probably assistance....

before i go, here's a list of i needs that ive already noted down in my star wars jotter book.....~
1. a new monitor
2. a decent helmet
3. a raincoat
4. a new shoe, leather for work
5. a watch
6. underwears & socks
7. a pair of specs

theres plenty more but these mighty 7 is more important.....adios amigos....PAPO!

rock maintain beb.....xpdc!

Aku Dan Sesuatu

Di telan pahit
Hendak ku buang terasa sayang
Engkau bermadu
Hendak ku minum engkau beracun

Kau bisa hingga punah-ranah
Dan mati akan diriku
Kau kebumikanlah aku di sini

Kau serang hendap
Cinta yang berbunga di hatiku
Berikan racun pada aku yang
Sedang dahaga

Cintamu membakar aku
Hingga jadi abu
Bergunakah aku lagi
Untukmu

Dewasalah aku dalam
Perjalanan hari ini
Binasalah aku
Andai dikudakan telunjukmu

bz as bee

as we reach adulthood, most of us are preoccupied with work or the other half... for people like me, it gets lonely at times...esp wen its my off day....i need a hobby that i can do on my own....cant wait for next pay day...so at least i can mod my ps2 or get a new cammie.....gotta sleep guys....my eyes are like as if im on bong....cya peepz ard

tumoro hunting for a new helmet....either a full face or a 3/4 kind....then if theres time im bringing the kids for willy wonka...cheaper on a weekday....c ya guys ard..

27 days to pay day...counting down...nites bitch!..hahaha

the summary of a day called saturday

firstly.....wake up so early cos i have travel by public to work.....2ndly i think i did a grave mistake again in ordering....thirdly sooo many stocks......fourthly..i think i pissed a colleague.....fifthly, i guess going back right on time wasnt such a good idea....

works done...oh shai is now a proud father of a healthy baby boy......congrats gindon n shai...

shareil fetch me for the rock concert, no bike yet.....the rock concert was a blast, all of them sound like they just playing on the radio except live....the atmosphere was unbelievable...and the feeling....is beyond description....ive never appreciated rock, esp rock melayu to such an extent.....its something new for me, i meant the concert... id definitely go to the 'search' one on 1st october....the one just now, definitely is worth my 30bucks.......they were so professional...each and everyone of them... metalasia, amuk, yantzen, wings, xpdc.....superb, awesome....if u missed it, too bad...thnks shareil for asking me along....it was great....

adil passed me a link, a blog that potrays extreme racism so openly....its against my kind, malays...fuck ya, u have the cheek to say we are taking over UR country, when actually, its a malay who founded singapura...and why the national anthem is in malay and not mandarin or english...damn u racist pigs...u admit urself that we dont get jobs bcos who wants to employ rodents(thats wat he/she call us malays). im not surprised such a person exist, cos some of them are already lurking ard me, at work, passer bys, customers, etc.....sometimes my a lil chinese look helps and my understanding and being a little conversant in mandarin helps alot too...some regular customers still dunno im a malay...cos usually they ask simple questions which i can answer in broken mandarin.....i now understand why our older generations dont like the mungens bcos of how they look and think of us.....fucken mungens....it doesnt mean that ure the majority u can do anything u like....and criticising on our religion only makes matters worse....i hope god will do something about u....insyahAllah...u have no right to criticise in our beliefs...damn mungen....

im exhausted my frens....heres the link but before that, i remind u guys not to leave any comments...cos thats wat this mungen wants...attention...potraying his racist self in away is to seek attention and when someone is fuming mad and leaves an angry comment,to him he's already emerged victorious in pissing us off....be smart, read but dun layan this mungen....thanks....enjoy...let us all pray that there will be less of these kind of ppl.....heres the link---http://thesecondholocaust.blogspot.com/

radicality....is there such a word?

hmmm.... LED tail-light n signals....carbon fibre headlights, vents and levers..... steel flooring..... stereo system with mp3 compatibility......red or blue neons.... air horn.radio tuner....5 canister NOS system.... dellorto racing carb, malossi piston n block set....customized decals......etc...etc...endless of hop ups for my Gilly....but one at a time, each month....hehehe...need to build up a saving for my future too.....

Caramella.....ada apa dengan mu?......

It was yest tt i bought Gilly....btw Gilly is my new bike...he'll be ready come monday. today, Caramella failed me.....she broke down....and left me stranded in the middle of BKE.....riders have this superstition tt when ure buying a new bike, ur old bike will 'merajuk' but i have no intentions at all to sell Caramella away.....i wanted to keep her and ride her ard with pride on my off days...i wanna doll her up to the max...but somehow or another she decided to break down....Caramella, im sorry kay? but i need a mode of transport to n fro faster n more reliable n its because i dun want to wear out such a nice vintage scooter.....

Anyways, i was lucky enough to have a fren like mankey......i called up the taxi company they said taxi wont stop at expressways.....i called the rest of the boys, no answer, waddya expect its 6.50am in the morning.....but lucky me mankey picked up the fone with a sleepy voice....willingly he came to my rescue...i was late for work but i was thankful and touched to have such a thoughtful fren.....id remember ur deed mankey and id not forget ur birthday...

im anxious to call aju, my mechanic tumoro regarding caramella and wats wrong with her.....im anxious to collect Gilly come monday........im anxious abt bali in december....

i hope i have enough.....i was using this nick for my msn- "i miss bali!", when diana msged me and asked me abt it...she too loves bali....this sept she'd be going with cousins...she asked me along but i cant, cos ive yet to get my confirmation and any leaves meant unpaid leaves.....so i told her, why not december....she said yeah cos december she'd be going again....yeye!....after almost a year of non travelling... this is my break...thnks diana, only thing is hope id have saved enough, she'd be staying almost a mth, teacher mah....but me i guess 4-5days is sufficient....:)

i find that im beginning to manage my anger better now....this morning, i calmed myself down though im cursing away at the taxi that refuses to stop, and everything went wrong, even the PC at work doesnt want to cooperate and i ordered excessive amt of sugar yest by accident, i was told off by a senior supervisor....but i remained calm knowing it was my mistake and keeping in mind that my appraisal depends on his words partly.....i felt good though honestly i do want to strangle him at times.. but my actions were becos of the consequences thatve might be....so im glad, i can control myself now.....its cos im rather ambitious nowadays....ive even calculated cpf contributions as to how much ill be having in 2-3 years time and whether ill have enough for a flat of my own....

gtg guys, tomorow is a long train ride to work......and i have to wake up super early.....adios amigos....lastly...happy bdae to ayu, and bedah........thnks to mankey!....c ya guys ard....:)

indulgence is evil....

when u give in to something...its indulgence...to give in to something u WANT is to give in to your desire....and i did just that just now.....once im able to withdraw my money from the atm machine......it felt good for a moment but i was a little uneasy after that as all this while i havent been spending much money...all i spent on was on food n petrol....thats all....this time round its to feed my desires.....i hope ill be satisfied with what i just did....to a certain extent i know i will, cos i got plans for "it"......

Alhamdullilah....ill not be transfered to yishun, so ill be staying at woodgrove until further notice....I pray to God, the boss will give me a good appraisal...as i count the days to my confirmation in september...insya'allah.......

this afternoon, i read WDA's advert looking for diploma holders with 2 years working experience to switch to nursing job....i might consider that next year if things doesnt turn out good....but that is in the future and im no fortune teller so lets take each day as it comes....im trying to change myself....theres many things about me ive yet to change.....i hope i can, and i WILL try.....

lastly MONDAY is D DAY! when we execute that particular mission....here comes the thumpers....

deal...

100 bucks in my pocket, zadeh happy, i happy...he got his parts, i got my 100bucks... i was thinking of modding up my ps2....shud i or shud i save up for my downpayment? sheesh decisions again......

decision making at its toughest

reliability? power? outlook factor? economical? inexpensive?

all this are factors i have to consider....in the end i have to decide between the following and 1 of them i will own before the year end....
x1, xr400, drz400sm, ktm400exc......which one will i own? x1 confirm can one, its the other 3 that i have to consider....i like ktm n drz most....but xr400 is the cheaper version of the earlier 2....a cheaper and more economical thumper....while x1 is just for transportation purposes...fun factor definitely less than riding a thumper....

only time will tell....which one i will buy.....pecah kepala liao.....gnite peepz... tumoro another money earning day...closed sales with another vespa dude.....and work tumoro...haiz......

every breath u take.....

livin day to day....i dunno if i made the right choice....but i cant waste no more time... DUDE! im 25 oredi.......anyways....work was pretty fine until yest, the storekeeper wasnt ard and i have to do his duties...recieving goods....I AM NEW FOR GOD SAKES.....u bloody mungens just left me alone to do everything on my own....and when i screw up a little....u said..."wah die u, fail, fail...how to go new branch?" KNNCCB! and when those mungens work morning they'll try every means to leave not much longer than an hour more than they are suppose to work...but when im on the morning shifts they try to make me stay as long as i can....WTF....i just bear with it, knowingly soon ill say byebye to them...or at least if im not going, the irritating bastard will be the one off...uve been nice sometimes but sometimes ure just plain irritating....and i can sense u are the backstabbing kind....esp when conversations started to touch on topics on other supervisors....damn u....im just playing along...being old enough and smart enough i play along...im working smart this time round....

i spoke with the boss the other day asking how long he's been in the line...15 fucken long years...he explained the uncertainty outside thats why he stayed...from that explanation i clearly know he's not 100% dedicated, he's just doing it for the money. well who would be....if i were to stay long, id opt to be transferred to HQ where ill be a buyer or a trainer....

and this morning i discovered my caramella had a scratch about3-4cm long and 1cm wide....fucken motorbike somewhere might have hit her from the side as it was parked but i dunno where...cos there were black marks, clearly from tyres....fuck ya moron!.

so there i was just now at my void deck, using my artistic touch to cover it up with golden paint...thank god its not noticeable...only when u look close enough....

i love caramella alot....i want to doll her up....but if i buy another bike i cant doll her up....hmm.....but i need another bike, cos i think caramella cant take regular long distance travelling due to its tiny rims....see how ar...hmmm... in love with DR400ZSM but i dunno bout that either...hahah...all these will depend on where ill be posted to.....:)

oh todays training was a blast....we(the rest of the tls on training) talked more and even laughed off to funny incidents....and i think widad is cute...hehe only tall urgh!...heheh...oh they are cool ppl...except all goodie2...hahaha...me, i act goodie2...

wah so long i write today....c ya guys again tumoro...:)

hmmm

to buy or not to buy....that is the big Q....if i buy, i cant spend much on caramella..
and if i dun.....i have to travel everyday to n fro yishun ring....sigh....lets wait. until end of the mth.....till then leave yer comments fer those who knows wat im talking bout....the X1

im a protector.....

more of a protector for my own, my life, my mommy.....

almost a month working...a success i must say to stay in a totally different environment, retailing...all for the sake of survival...and come this week another sacrifce...my hair...i love my 'ramone-y' hair....but it has to go.....

in life, wat is boring u must make interesting...if ur mindset is, ar lame ar boring ar....drag ar...then tt it will be...but if u cheer urself up, put a little colour into ur work....humm...whistle, sing as u doing work...it helps, it makes life less boring quiet and mundane....thats how i did it...apart from reminding myself that i have bills to pay, bike to buy, loans to settle.....i cheer myself up on a daily basis.....

i think im becoming more adult....i begin not to think only about my enjoyment like the time when i just completed NS all i thought was holidays and making my baby happy and dolling up my vespa....but now, though those wants is still in my mind, though i still wanna buy another bike, though i still wanna add accessories to it, though i still want nice clothes...but i calculated and recalculated to make sure i have enough to give mom and some to my savings....i guess im growing up eventually....im being more responsible and considerate....oh i even opted to get a x1 instead of an xr4.....:)

as age catches on, i race against time to build up a future....and i race to catch up on more fun before i finally settle down and chill....i set myself a target....and i hope to attain it.....if this job turns out well, id stay if not, id find another after a year of gaining experience....im looking into getting another extra source of income too...probably part time/freelance jobs....on my off days....or when i work mornings....there isnt much time to do sooo many things, im already turning 26...my lifes has changed for the past year, i have to adapt to it and change my plans, path for the future....

reggae fest, search.....i wanna attend this 2 events...hope i could....hope i get an off that 2 dayst.....:).....

bad news

bad news was out....last friday....i was told by janet personally, ill be transfered out to yishun ring.....haiz....so the far away.....

im buying a new bike....x-1....its for transport purpose....thats why... its cheap and its petrol consumption is low....ill still keep caramella....the sight of that slick brand new suzuki supermotard that cost 13k caught my eye....but i have to forgo that...cos if i were to buy that...id have no savings....at least the x1 which costed about 4k....was like 3 times cheaper n monthly i only need to pay 104bucks...on top of that its low consumption n its 4stroke....meaning no 2t n less maintenance...i know its not a cool bike...and mats are riding it...but its for transport purposes and its cheap. so sori omel, the jb trip might have to be canceled cos i might not be shopping next month as i have to fork out 650 for the downpayment.... the rest of my pay goes to bills n daily expenses....if i recalculate and i might not have enough, ill buy the bike in september....so i might still go jb after all...that all depends...

the karaoke session was enjoyable....it was fun..a.s i screamed my heart out.... great...thanks guys....im glad i rushed back from work just to join u guys......:)

im going to give caramella the mothballs treatment....cos mothballs clear the engine out...the disolved mothballs will clean out the engine & caburattor, thats what the veterans claim...so ill give it a try....until then, gnite guys....

transfer.....

i might be transferred out....but i might request to stay if the distance of the new branch is of no difference to the present one from my home....n wats more, im beginning to like working with my colleagues....the boss would like me to stay, i guess he wants someone out.....

soccer was fun...but its like one speed up....we were playing at a faster pace than usual....but it was fun...except i dun have much luck with me today...all my shots either hit the posts or when astray or did not have enough power.....but all in all, it was hell lot of fun....much more fun than anything else this week....hehehe....

k guys....wanna bathe, sleep than wake up go to work n wait for my fate, where ill be transferred.....nites...

samseng, samseng

gangsters seems to have so much fun with so little work but they always take a risk of getting caught...but it does not deter them, nor frighten them.....fear for them is always left behind at home.....listening to real life gangsters telling their happenings in life was an eye opener and i never thought they'd have so much fun and had so much money.....

depression i guess is the worse thing that couldve happen to a person....i kept seeing a nick of my fren on msn all depressed.....i dunno why....but i know depression is the worst thing that couldve happen to a person if it drags for such a long time.... i was too once depressed but after much consoling and talk with good frens i know its just not worth it, so fighting the emotions is the only way out......go out, enjoy yourselves, meet frens, go for a ride, a holiday, shop, eat......just keep urself occupied with fun times dun let yourself be cooped up at home....thats when emotions go astray.......one crazy thing i did at tt point of time, i looked in the mirror and force, made myself smile, in the end, i ended up making funny faces at my reflection, and later laughed at myself...i know it sound crazy...but u shud try it, ppl out there depressed on sad....

i might be getting a wave125 after all.....save me alot of money.....its true, thnks boy n shareil....caramella, i will take care of n ride on my off days for short distances....expensive hobby i have i must say.....:)....i cant bear to sell a bike with so much sentimentel value and the lovliest ive ever had(outlook)....probably one day it would end up in a room of my own home....:)....

gotta go guys.....have a test this morning.....this test might mean future promotions possible.....im lucky enough to be selected to be tested on my ability.....alhamdullilah....

interesting work life....

as work gets into its multi tasking phase....its gets interesting n FUCKEN tiring n FUCKEN maken ur head spin......store duties was wat we need to do before storekeeper arrives at 8pm......stacking was wat we need to 'HELP' out in when there was shortage in manpower and yet on top of that we had to do wat we supervisors was supposed to do.

today, i got my uniform....my mom's first reaction when i showed her.....eh uniform bukit batok secondary...hahaah my old school......sheesh even mom's thinks of that... but cool...tumoro id look like a supervisor...

a little interesting it gets, in the morning i have to cover the non-food side, my sinus was triggered by the sweet smelling detergents, lotsa of it.......saw this 7-3leven girl who came to look at shampoos...hehehe......hmmmm...mebbe she shud visit the store more often...harharhar..stupid federick never intro me....anyways...as i said today work was interesting....first of all i got to try to squeeze in the blardy american stock which is piling up...apparently the american's are not in town to purchase their products which soon will have to be taken off the shelf due to nearing expiry dates..... as i stayed to finish it up, this auntie went berzerk....my colleague wanted to transfer a product to her lanes as we wanted to make space for some other product......she made a fuss....she argued with him in chinese...its cool to see my colleague maintain his cool...even when she crossed the line called respect and even threw a glass bottle of spaghetti sauce on the floor....i was like whoah... fierce sak nonya nie....hahaha...anyway thats that.....the irritating RA who thinks he's a aupervisor, try to chat me up abt the situation, i ignored and resume work... as i don't want to be gossiping and start politics at work....

gotta go alip soon.....remy's bdae....heheh.....we are simple ppl....alip is where we hang out and catch up on times.....not starbucks or coffebean or watever fuck those posh hang out are named....

i need another bike...serious...period.

weekend extravaganza

Friday.
baybeats was okok....switched frens thru out...first with adek n his mod frens, then with johaness, then with din, then with is burung, then shareil before heading home.
pinholes was ok...but i think hafiz exaggerates a little too much...oddstar, she was gorgeous, her voice sweetness, her appearance, appealing......other than that...nothing special, the rock outfit nakedbreed from malaysia was good but their antics were humorous....alip....1am, home sleep....

Saturday....

morning work....terrible, lots of stocks....a couple of part timers never turn up... 2 supervisors on off....im left to do the dirty work.....sheesh....330pm cabut..havent eaten a thing....just iced milo....went home makan, rest.....620pm went out with boy, to baybeats.....jam packed with kids...atmosphere wasnt too pleasing....love me butch, not as outstanding as i thought they'd be...but they were professional....they CAN perform well.....makan cavana.....after love me butch, makan again...rotiboy plus ginger soya bean....lepaks, with yanto, boy, reil,bad & fad.. before leaving for alip.....12mn...home....now...blog...soon....ZZzzzzzZZZ...6am work
sigh......miss ya ppls whom im missing......see ya ard peepz soon....i hope...:) smiles.....

work...work..work

work definitely occupies the empty spaces & time u have......after 3weeks of work, it definitely did just that....left me little time to slack...little time to surf the net or even update my blog which i did daily before....

work is good apart from getting a paycheck monthly, it keeps ur mind off the fucked up things in life....when ure tired, all u can think is about relaxing...or meeting ur frens to catch up....theres no room for sulking...or recalling stuffs that shudve just been "deleted" away completely....and wen i have some time....all i can think off is wat to buy, how much to save, plans....plans for the future....short term & long term.

singlehood is just fine now....although at times, i admit i do feel lonely, i do stare at my hp at nights and remembered those times that we just chat till the wee hours... but i dun want no more "happy times" gf....i want someone who would be with me, whether im up there or down there, it doesnt matter...

back to work....it wasnt as simple as i thought it would be....when problems arise, we need to rectify the problem immediately....cos it invovlves sales, which will also affect our income and increments.....if u think about the relations of the increments they give, naturally ud just wanna have better sales....

i feel that nowadays im rather ambitious...im not actually greedy la shahreil, im just ambitious...i wanna be someone, i wanna prove to all those who had negative tots of me, once the first month is over, im gonna take up side jobs, freelancing...marketing, watever it is that will give me additional income.... i just wanna start saving...cos i wanna live on my own....i cant stand the sarcasm....i wanna go back daily smiling...not feeling fucked up and disgusted looking at his bloody face....thats my main reason....i hate him.

im too sleepy, i got much more to write...but for now, this is enough...tumoro, im gonna have a great day!....baybeats, with adek & latip....my vespa buddies... n if i have time, im gonna take a look at dali's px200 which i will be buying for transport purposes, while caramella i will ride on off days....gnite peepz.....