a fren of my mine feeling down....sigh....it hit me too for the past couple of days bcos i cant control it and i felt its my fault....anyways i know how it feels to be upset and it sucks and nothing turns out right sometimes....well for me, id look for someone to talk to, online or ill blast music off my speakers or id go out for a ride or id go shooting...anything that occupies me actually.....im concern for ppl who left impacts in my life.....being alone and all...well i can say more or less w/o a family, of cos i have my loving mom and my father in indonesia but they are like away from me, so frens are the closest to me....and those who made me feel swell and happy are the ones that im concern bout when they are troubled......anyways, cheer up pal...go to bed and wake up tumoro, try to forget bout everything...if u need someone to talk to, my hp's always on....even if i dont answer at work, i will call u back...
annie asked if i played pool...yeah i did like so long ago...she asked me for a game or two....yeah why not...im glad that we are frens now and ok with everything...")
a relative of a patient pisses me off...ugly singaporeans...when they shout and demand for stuffs, dont they ever try to recall how ugly they were???? gosh...i wish i could give her one tight slap.....my face were red trying to hold myself down, i guess my blood were boiling hot....steaming....but i managed to calm myself down and ignore as she raised her voice at our nursing officer who tried to explain for us....thanks sister....even chen-lin couldnt take it....sigh, lets not bring work back home...
anyways, i am still crazy bout motards....though my ultimate dream bike are harleys but motards seems so much fun to ride....im so tempted....i guess ill give myself a treat when my results is out....and if i confirm clear everything....and while i was at it, ratnor was showing me all sick stuff that was done to honda jazz/fit...freaking cool la....all the mods...but sg...hmm a little worrying......
i guess, ill log off, watch teevee or something....tumoro i wanna run...jus to release all the negativity, stress and all in a positive way...then if im not tired, pay bills and all(which i did not do cos it rained the whole evening) then go for a haircut(cos i only like the way i look with real short or real long hair not in between) then probably shoot or paint(IF IT DOESNT RAIN) hehehehe...
kla peepz, macam hungry larh....tom yam noodles anyone? see ya...
ouh cilipadi, cheer up kay?
down
sigh
anyways tumoro AM shift....weds and thurs offday....woots....
im going out shooting again.....bnws....and on weds or maybe tumoro i will get stuffs for developing my own bnws.....woots....im psyched.....
tumoro, settle bills, installments, etc, etc....half of my pay will be gone....urrghhh.
kla i dunno really wat to blog....gnite peepz....
Black and whites
met up with nadim, yana, mafie and hazri.....nadim and me wanted to send our rolls to Triple-D while mafie wanted to return me my fisheye2, anyways the shot, i love it lots, its from yesterday at changi boardwalk.
the conversation with nadim(regarding processing bnws DIY), definitely gonna make me shoot more bnw and try my hands at developing them myself and buy a scanner for films....woots...if i do, in the next couple of months, you'd see more of bnws in my cameramafia. itll be rad, after you shoot, develop and scan yourself, not mentioning saving alot and privacy, you can shoot watever you want......watever.....cool right?
okla gotta head to habeb...meet ma pals....anyways, check out my other blog as well as my multiply
i have an 'ancient' form of photography but it still rocks.....c ya ard doks....
men are mere men
As mere humans, we all have flaws,
we still can't control or avoid, certain things in life.
Like diseases, calamities and feelings that gnaws,
no matter how much precaution you may take, if its gonna happen it'll strife.
Simplicity versus complexity,
compliance versus defiance.
Examples of the two extreme ends.
Good or bad,
Friend or foe.
If not careful, any would lead to a row.
It's not so simple as it seems,
you can't discard it as you please.
It will still linger beneath the seams,
Making living life far from ease.
Sleepless rome
i reached home, switched on ma mac....then itunes....lied down and dozed off awhile... woke up, sleepless....sheesh....
i wanted to go out with cilipadi but shes busy and anyways mankey and rashid asked me to changi boardwalk....mankey n lin pick me up....then we head to jurong point to fetch khairul and rose....changi boardwalk is awesome....cool place....to just stroll and shoot...we reached there earlier so we strolled along the path which can lead to changi village i guess but we didnt go all the way.....nice view, quiet, nice atmosphere... few newly weds having their photoshoot, few families just strolling and enjoying the view....
so rashid arrived and we head back to the 'kelong' walk, where there are huts above water to catch sunset....gosh...rashid and his pal all have this huge ass nikons.. made me drool....i gotta have one of those....wen i get my full pay, im going to starve myself for a month or two and not spend on uneccessary stuffs and get a D300 or something...their kits, gosh.....i can go shooting for days....
anyways, the sunset was power lah dok...awesome...i just hope the shots turn out the same, awesome...tumoro, im heading to triple-D to process 2 rolls....1.5 rolls came from changi boardwalk......i hope itll be awesome....i havent been shooting for weeks, so yeah....i hope i didnt loose my touch.....tumoro i will upload more....
so after the shot, we left for makan....initially we intend to makan at changi village but there was no parking! and it was crowded as hell....so since im the only one who havent ate a single meal for the day except for a kinder-bueno & tapioca chips before we left for changi, Lin suggested to let me decide whether to wait for a parking or leave to eat elsewhere, well i decided to leave and yeah i think i made the right decision...cos if were to eat at changi...the nicest to thing to eat there is probably the nasi lemak or the nasi ayam penyet.....but at bedok corner...theres a variety of choices and we had a feast....and the sugar cane juice was cheap...at 1.20 per mug, khairul had 3 of those...hahaha i had oyster omelet, which i tot was pretty nice and cockles kway teow, nice but a little sweet for my liking...the rest of the food they ordered were nice too.....so the journey back home after a full tummy was filled with laughter and recalling our secondary school days....i felt a little left out, cos im 1 year senior to mankey n khairul...but we still share the same teachers, some of them. and we had a good laugh, just like the journey to changi...khairul is comical and plus mankey on board, u can even develop six-pecs if u carry on longer....
so yeah, nice company, great day and great new pals...and certainly i guess id be shooting for a long long time......and i want all those gadgets....expect to see more fotos from me in the near future....i think id go shoot daily....
ouh april, i can shoot u more when i own a dslr...hehehe
a pat on the back
gotta give myself credit....a clap for meself
i was ambitious....well i tot when i was in bukit-panjang camp, i could run with me mates regularly and i could do a 10k with ease at least once a month at a comfortable pace. i tot my fitness wouldnt have plunged so much since i still skate occassionally and my job requires me to be on my feet all day, moving from cubicles to cubicles.... so i set a goal today to complete the route i set just as i started...keat hong, cck, bricklands, bukit batok road and back to teck whye.....i ran slowly, snail speed,i was happy that i managed to go all the way till halfway bricklands where the last hill is a killer...i had to just walk from there back to teck whye...i took 42mins in all including the walk...i wanna get better next week on wednesday my off day....im psyched im feeling like i used to....and it is sure trippy....hehehehe
mankey is well...yeay...he had fever yest....seems like a shooting day to me! changi! love ya mank-man....LoL....
now i guess ill do the laundry, rest, and make myself breakfast.....woots....adios peeps, ouh did i mention radiohead is a band to run with....literally, it gets u relaxed and all and your breathing wouldnt go haywire....
anyways, heres an advice from them...listen closely...
supercalifragilisticexpiellydocious
yeah super long atrocius word, thats it.
thats it.
anyways, woke up with a tummy ache.
and yeah....itll be the camera and me today i guess....shawn msned me bout shooting but i fell asleep, ill sms him layter.....today, no more procrastinating for me....im going running....i wanted to skate but itll boring skating alone....so anyways yeah,ill gauge myself how far i can go today....adios...
and yeah, sorry to the world for the way that i feel, i think im really fitting into josiah leming's song....hurhurhur....
anyways, id like to thank God for blessing me with the wonderful ppl around me...
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now i need to find a source, where else can i develop my fotos and get scanned express cos i think uncle mikes scanner for the films is a little dirty, i can see specks here and there....urrrghhhh....
ouh gotta run, to the loo....then after that really run....
gosh april will be busy for the next 3weeks....i just love her company but anyways, everyones got their own stuffs to settle.....anyways, my conversation with april last night, well, i guess she's right that cilipadi....so ouh wells.....adios peeps.... this weekend is for me to enjoy as well as list down things i need to do and plan. today, ill go trigger happy.......woots.....i only wish someone would sponsor me a D80 or D300.....LoL
okla....taaaa...
the 2 colors on the flag
had a conversation bout migrating....should i or should i not? one option is indonesia cos daddy's there...i know the pay is going to be like peanuts....but the life's there pretty cool....can u imagine? i can really own a pimped volkswagen which my dad use to have...and who knows i could even own a minibus....and i could pick up surfing once again....and lomonesia....and so many things to capture with my cameras.....but then again, the peanuts pay......i do have dreams as well....ouh wells, like i said, id take each day as it comes for now....maybe i should ask claris or liberty why theyd wanna migrate after their bond and whats their reason for choosing that particular place...
hmmmmm......
2.05am-here i am again sleepless
im getting trippy with some of morcheeba's tracks...
i dont wanna be living in denial....im brave, im a man, i am....verivicious...
LoL....
i wanna try to sleep, cos id wanna start running again like years back....would love to slip into 32s again....
crystal clear
ouh wells, u made it crystal clear oredi....
im positive i got what u meant to say cos its the 2nd time the issue is repeated and im not dumb...ouh wells.
tumoro, if i get no calls from the guys, its 'me and my cameras' or 'me and my spray-cans' day.....
the stock market plunges
nah just kidding...anyhus......nishi today scare the hell out of me...ouh wells yes i did a mistake and she told me off...but in a nice way......i was scared that it would jeopardize my prcp....but then towards the end, she joked with me....so well, yeah i think everythings a-ok......phew....i miss working with darius.....working with guys are better....cos more or less a guy understands a guy better.....and i feel more at ease to joke around and not be too serious....
anyways im just glad sherlyn wasnt my superior just now....phew....nishi's nice...
and ouh wells.....yeah im 28 alright....sigh.....
maio lan or unkle mike
was contemplating....if i were to go miao lann, i have to leave early and really, its like out of way, if im going from work...if i dont go today, i can go to uncle mike and get it done like tumoro after work i drop off the film and go back to shower and all, come back to collect before he closes and prolly go out shooting alone.....its been sometimes since i go out trigger happy alone....the feeling of me, my camera and the world around me is splendid at times....it provides me escape, it provides me joy and a little of exercise..hurhurhur...cos id be walking....but then again, itll be at night already if i were to do that and itll be dark and my photos will not turn out nice, unless i decide to take long exposures....ouh wells, we'll let tumoro decide, then again if the weather is on my side......
kla....c ya peeps....i think id just drop to uncle mike tumoro
Mankey, stop being humble.....YOU ARE TALENTED OK. You are getting better everyday even with that what you claim is a lousy camera. Even with a consumer-camera you can shoot well. I said before, its not bout the tool, its bout the photographer. Keep it up fren, I am so going to buy ink and print this one! woots....
never alone
Never alone...
God is great...he is always around...
He grant me family and friends....
and when they are not around,
the hills, the seas, the sky, the beautiful earth holds back frowns....
Technology makes us forget all these beauty...
we only shun its powers that brought calamity...
when it is calm, silent and pretty, we fail to appreciate...
instead, some of us contaminate, that causes it to disintegrate...
This simple gadgetry in my hands called a camera, helps me capture...
the beautiful sights, people, landscapes-natural and man made.
for when i am old one day when my memory suffer,
the photos will bring memories and sweet surrender.
gnite peeps and thanks mankey for capturing me at the beautiful location, definitely this will be one of those shots id like to print...thnks again bro...
rain
at 6+ i told mankey, looks like its gonna rain...but it did not....then when i got ready and all, to send in my rolls and paint.....it did....at 8pm....sigh....nevermind friday larh then.....tumoro ill drop miao lann before work....
protected?
some say im protected? hurhur, well i dunno....
anyways, got 2 rolls to send in...so yeah, later ill drop by miao lan...and send the rolls to develop...cant wait to see the results....but anyways....going out shooting this weekend again.....thinking of a new location.....probably mankey will drive, or maybe rashid.....i cant wait for rashid to upload the fotos he took of me or mail me.. hehe.....vainpot sia...no larh, just a documentation of how i looked like when i was 28, im growing older by the days u see....so id love to show my little ones in the future...."see, daddy was still cool at 28....." LoL...prolly most of yall puked urself out oredi but hey, wont u show ur kids ur fotos? with digital ruling the world, fotos hardly get printed...for me, i will start printing once i get my full pay and i will have loads and loads of albums full of memories...of course ill be printing the nice ones la, the rest i will try to compile in a drive or something.....
im fickled yes...wen i saw is-rambut's bike...i was like...gosh, id like one of those.. but today wen i rode minus the mp3 and after fixing the loose hugger with a spring washer...hey i love my runner....i think ill do it up....and i will keep it even though i might get another vehicle....
was thinking as i riding home....bout wat rashid said bout getting the car license... i will larh...i know i will but when i dunno...
it was a pleasure working with SNJamilah, probably she's younger and not like those cranky old SNs....and probably she has a sense of humor and easy going....and did i mention she found my new hp....i dropped it in the tea room, it slipped out of my pocket when i sat on the couch.....phew, thnks Jamilah....gosh i hope IMH is as fun if not i sure gonna miss 5A alot....and ttsh as a whole....in about 5 weeks i will leave ttsh and hopefully with my license and diploma...and off to IMH
i cant wait for....
1.full pay
2.DSLR
3.MacbookPro
4.Iphone or X1
5.my own home
6.car license
7.a car of course
pretty long list...hurhurhurh....kla cya later dudes n duddettes.....
woots
cant wait for the weekends.....weekends are hard to come by....especially like this week where i get both weekend off.....gosh.....its like ouh so precious.....
prcp is scary, not knowing the verdict....sigh....and the staff nurses can get rather unpredictable....im not asking much....i just wanna clear...thats good enough for me...
i just wanna start work asap, then get my full paycheck and in no time i can buy myself a DSLR and go out shooting, with no worries bout processing and all and the fotos not turning out fine.....
i hope this coming weekend will turn out fine...it appears that im addicted to someone's company, its funny that a human being can be form of addiction....hurhurhurh.
well, mankey,rashid and lin....friday night eh?.....april spare a weekend or two larh... :).....
ok larh, gotta get ready for work....adios....
sunsets
was at home, when rashid smsed me.....asking whether i wanna tag along to hunt for sunset at limchukang and sarimbun....yeah why not, since hes driving...hehehe...
ended the night with dinner at a new coffeeshop, shiok something la...not bad... the food have generous portions.....and i love the mee bandung....maybe cos the last time i tasted mee bandung was like 4years ago...hehehehe...anyways its nice la period. with a huge prawn...we then walked about at bukit batok park, adzwan wanted to 'hunt' if u guys know what i mean...and lin did see....and the scary part was, it was beside me....and one walked across us......lin is gifted, if u know wat i mean...
anyways, gotta hang my laundry and go to bed....toodles...
is it or is it not?
is it or is it not?
i think im rather dumb at this...
sigh...i need sedations perhaps....LoL
simplicity beats all
simple day out....met april, went to zouk flea, sungei road, makan, makan ice-cream, library read, then go home...
hey if ure reading this and you havent found the note i wrote u, check ur bag, the compartment infront....anyways thanks april for the day.....so comfortable going out with u....can talk nonsense all day....u rock my world april....heh....
some other day kay, we go out again....maybe more shooting....heh...just now didnt really shoot....i love the last polaroid shot though....sigh....ouh cili-padi pulled the trigger on that one.....
w380i
ouh wells, i always wanted a wonderful fone....but the SE-x1 or the apple iphone local set is not out yet....so well, i guess ill be tempted to change when those 2 phones are out and when i have a bigger paycheck....so yeah, i settled for a little humble phone. the w380i, i love it, when Val(the salesperson) took out the black one...the purple one was awesome but i find it a little gay-ish....and bcos the black one looked a little classy....
i especially like the buttons on the outer of this clamshell phone, afterall its a walkman phone, its where i can just press play from the outside to play the mp3s i loaded in the phone, pretty cool uh? i can also silent the phone when i wave above the lens of the lousy 1.3mp camera....i dont really care bout the not wonderful specifications, i just love with the feel and looks of it and its my first clamshell phone and whats more....the price of only $98 with a 2yr plan....wat more can i ask?
the first thing i did were ask for my frens numbers, cos my k750i really died on me and the numbers were stored in the phone...urrrghhh...then i started loaded songs... my favs currently.....josiah leming....ouh man......u rock larh.....anyways im having fun with my new phone....i didnt know an unexpensive, old modeled phone can amuse me..
we;; im happy with my w380i till i have my hands on an iphone or x1....hopefully if i have my bonus end of the year...
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yest, work was hell, i hate working when ppl are being selfish and lazy.....the poor AN, jessica have to do all herself cos the other wouldnt help....they can get selfish. i had to help serve meals and all, although im rushing for my report....i cant bear, not answering call bells or not helping my fellow colleagues who needs help, i dont see ppl by ranks or status, i see them as human beings......
so anyways, i went back, tot id catch some sleep or something but ended up on msn, and on the phone bitching with april....gosh im enjoying conversations with her....its like natter about everything under the sun....and hey, im getting comfortable with her. the last pal i could natter or bitch bout everything is pen....and yeah now she's a little bz......so anyways....ended the day to look for my phone and the movie congkak...worth the watch, good job....except the ending were a little exaggerating and cartoony...hehehe if theres such a word....
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today, i going to meet cili padi....woots.....zouk flea market and who knows where next, probably catch sunset.....i heard punggol beach and changi boardwalk have great sunset....but i dunno how to get to either places....wooo finally im shooting after 2 or 3 weeks of letting my camera collect dust....
gosh
gosh....my hps dead.....looks like i have to spend wats left on a new phone...ouh wells, i can use a phone up to 2years...so yeah...the only thing is, im worried i might be tempted to get iphone or the x1(thnks april for reminding me) when i get my real pay starting end july......so i was contemplating between k850i or just an ordinary phone. ouh wells, im going hunting for a phone later....
yeah april....ure a happy pill my cili padi....thnks for being one...
stolen
i stole josiah lemings from april....hehehe from her blog actually....
i saw him on teevee before....and saw him on ellen's show...he's awesome and makes me wanna own a keyboard....hahahah
anyway gnite april....i go to bed first yah.....
and i guess i just have to steal the lyrics from her blog as well...heheheh who knows you guys wanna sing a long....cos i did..hehehe...
I showed up at her door
no gifts or explanations for
the way that i've been acting
for the time just kept on passing
i tried to kiss her lips
she said lets put an end to this
a simple overreaction
it sent my head into a backspin
i dont know where to run
to run
she was a teenage girl
i made sure to promise her the world
spent money fast as lightning
anything just to keep her smiling
my voice was all she heard
sentences filled with empty words
i thought i was so clever
i never knew that our line would sever
i dont know where to run
ohhh ohhh
i dont know where to run
ohhh ohhh
i have nowhere to run
i wake up on the floor
my head replays that closing door
my heart wont stop rewinding
inside clocks all out of timing
she starts to disappear
there'll be no turning back from here
when all is said and done
and i begin to run
spare a little
for those earning quite a sum....i know many of my readers have a more than average pay check....well even if you consider yours average....many are able to spare a small amt. so why not....its not for me but for the victims of the latest disaster Cyclone Nargis in Myanmar....think of how fortunate we are right here in sg....u can make donations via IBanking....just lift those fingers or you can walk in....check out redcross.org.sg. :)
if i had a chance
if i had a chance to meet imogen heap, i would tell her this...."thanks for making my day on rough and tired days....your music is god-sent...." then i would give her a peck on the cheeks.....LoL.....ouh my god i cant believe im still watching her video for dunno how many times oredi....her voice....lovely.....
(Just for now) (x6)
It's that time of year,
Leave all our hopelessnesses aside (if just for a little while)
Tears stop right here,
I know we've all had a bumpy ride (I’m secretly on your side)
How did you know?
It's what I always wanted,
You can never have too many of these
Will ya quit kicking me under the table?
I'm trying, will somebody make her shut up about it?
Can we settle down please?
It's that time of year,
Leave all our hopelessnesses aside (if just for a little while)
Tears stop right here,
I know we've all had a bumpy ride (I’m secretly on your side)
Bite your tongue
Deep breaths
Count to ten
Nod your head
(sniff sniff)
I think something is burning,
Now you've ruined the whole thing
Muffle the smoke alarm
Whoever put on this music
Had better quick, sharp, remove it
Pour me another
Oh, don't wag your finger at me
It's that time of year,
Leave all our hopelessnesses aside (if just for a little while)
Tears stop right here,
I know we've all had a bumpy ride (I’m secretly on your side)
Will ya get me outta her, Get me outta here, Get me outta here (repeats til end)
Just for now
Just for now (repeats)
sori april
yeah....my hp was on silent at work....and i didnt realise theres a miss call...i headed to coffee shop after work as my frens were there for just chit chat and a cup of coffee or tea.....was happily laughing and chatting away that i totally forgot to switch on my hp, until i got home i saw i got a miss call from april....well, i hope youre ok, im sorry, didnt realise u called....:(
dream i did
i had difficulty sleeping....im super sensitive to the surroundings, so i plugged in to coldplay and radiohead....and next thing i knew i was dreaming,
the dream roughly:
there was a couple of ppl around.....i remembered i taking exams(ihopeitsnotabadsign), then funny part, the girl beside me just realised she got a primary school maths paper instead of what we were suppose to have which i do not know wat....ouh ya we were in uniforms...so yeah...
then suddenly next thing i remembered was, i met zaki with some babe(face i didnt recall), he offered to sell me his boardshorts, reef i remembered, a rare design i suppose....and he offered to let me take over his LAMBRETTA....in shades of brown and gold exactly like my vespa which i sold last year.....ouh my gosh....i woke up just as i was inspecting the scooter, touching it from end to end....
i love my dream, except the first part kinda scary, i hope its not some sign i have to sit for exams again.....i hope fate will be kind on me....i really hope cos i hate to sit for another exam again with work and all....its tough to divide time...really, my job is not deskbound, even doing the staff-nurse role, i have to help out with my juniors and 8 hours of standing? you desk bound workers are spoilt.......
the rain woke me up this morning, not the alarm on my handphone, thanks God for bringing the rain....its been warm for the past few days but please stop before 12noon cos i need to get to work and i never liked riding wearing a raincoat in the rain.
4 more weeks and itll be over....it will determine i pass or fail this final clinical placement....if i do clear everything....im going somewhere by hook or by crook.... nearby2 also nevermind, im going....alone also i dont care......just sit back chill and relax....
end...
sleep
farnie....i used to think dreamy songs will get me sleepy but infact they got me glued to imeem and youtube...the source of free music, can listen, can watch but cant keep... good nuff....cos i cant listen to music at work like i used to when i was a cook at 6th avenue.....i would be doing that again if i have a restaurant or a store of my own... LoL......i still remembered someone who said to me to stop dreaming...well, i still have that dream going on....who knows right one day? People like sheikh is an inspiration, his small skate-store grew now....kudos pal...and thanks for still hanging my DIY t-shirt in your store, love you pal for doing that....i promise i will update the myspace for ur store u asked me to maintain...
anyways, i hope im blessed with wonderful dreams later.....im all alone now...its cool to be living alone...and i wish to have my own place soon....and i can imagine again what it would be like, go ahead and say im dreaming again...i dont care cos its amusing me and it pleases me to see what my future could be and its possible, just that i have to work hard for it......
my fren asked me if i wanna join her busking...i feel its kinda cool....i will join u pal, when i get my license for nursing....now im pretty busy to brush up on guitar and all....its a cool idea to give back to the community in monetary means and entertainment...and at the same time, we are enjoying ourselves...in life, theres no point doing something that you dont enjoy or gain satisfaction from it.....life is pretty complicated, u have to weigh it urself, well some things like work are unavoidable but u can always choose a job that u enjoy doing....for me, im loving nursing more and more each day, the human aspect of it.....not the paperworks and all. but hey at least im loving a part of it......just like cooking, why i can stay there for like a year....cos i love doing it....i only left to search for something that can give me a brighter future....but too bad engineering didnt give me an opportunity to shine, nor teaching....i loved teaching for that 6months while it lasted but too bad MOE decide to reject my application....and that freelance job i almost got, too bad i got a little greedy too early....so here am i turning into a nurse and for at least 3years im going to be a nurse full time....and part time who knows wat....a street performer perhaps? a freelance photographer or maybe an owner of a sick store selling cool stuffs like sheikh's who knows.....i know who knows....God....
gnite peeps....
fucken awesome
she is fucken awesome.....if only she'd come to sg, id go to see her.....enchanting music....all by herself...
she melts me again.....i think she is awesome.....fucken awesome
good boy
today sid is a pretty good boy....ouh wells....he woke up early, laze around...get online and went to sleep again....woke up at around 3pm, went down to wash my bike, which very well needed to be washed....washed the toilet....cleaned up and organize my room a little, iron 3 sets of uniforms....my off day spent finishing up chores....
the nurse manager of 5A was kind enough to change my saturday to AM shift so i can enjoy longer off days....sunday is my off day and monday is vesak day.....woots... thnks sister Ho......im planning to go out shooting.....i think ill plan with my camera pals....kinda miss them too....but that depends if they are unoccupied....but i got a strong feeling theyd be free.....
well...i ate like a pig at dinner just now, western chick rice and a packet of fries... well thats pretty ok, cos i only ate 2 slices of bread in the morning.....i saw mitsubishi challenge on teevee and i think one of the malay girls look alot like april..heheh
okla....i wanna prepare my log book for tumoro....adios pals....
nusic for my frens
they are really nice music, not mainstream, so probably you've never heard of them, got the name of the artists from a skate video, yeah, skate videos are rather mellow nowadays, no more angsty music....a good mellow music is a great change...
ouh wells...
hey, no doubt im disappointed but hey its ok....i had one of those days when i just wanna recollect myself, stay at home just do a self reflection, blast music off my tiny earphones, singalong, well do pretty much anything to cheer myself up. and all that while trying to juggle with exams last october, i had to move out, find a place of my own and all....and lucky i managed to clear my exams as well...
well nuff bout that....regarding parents, its normal for them to get worried over their kids, furthermore ure the only child. and them get stereotypical.....well, i dont blame them. the majority makes them stereotypical....just like the blacks, ppl always see black ppl as bad ppl....and in singapore....all malay boys are mats....and whats more if they ride a motorbike, worst.....its cos of the many around us....the negativity usually is more vivid and loud compared to the positive aspect....i mean like you obviously notice those mats who whack their throttles to get attention, who speeds on tiny roads, who sports tattoos all over than a malay boy who rides his bike to and fro work only right? well, i guess they are just worried....it would piss me off as well if i were in your shoes.
my mom, were always ok with my frens probably im a boy and she trusted me. but my uncles and aunties they too stereotype, judge and all....i remembered when laila rented a room at my uncle's place when she ran into problems....she came back late and all and my uncle began to judge her....i was mad, angry and regretted that i got laila to rent my uncle's place, if i had known id help her look for a place elsewhere... i guess thats part of the reason she talk less to me nowadays, she never even say hi on msn, well sometimes she does, just sometimes.....hahaha but i still remember how laila smiled over the webcam...such a joy to see ppl smile.....and you guys should too....
i told this to sarah, a fellow december baby....well she's now flying all around the world...yalah stewardess dok....i had rough times back in 2004...not only family stuffs but my bgr as well....i told sarah what i did to cheer myself up...look in the mirror long enough and start to make funny faces to myself...i ended up laughing at myself...i know it sounded mad...but tt was wat i did....sarah, laughed her ass off.. God, now that im mentioning my old frens, i start to miss them...the natters, the chats, the whines, the exchange of laughters and joy, the cheering up of each other, the encouragements and all.....now on my msn, there are left a few who still does the same, the rest are pretty dead when they are online, partly cos now they only get online at work...well, times change.....ppl get busy
well watever it is, cheer up my fren....dont dwell upon it too much....and regarding the staff at work...this is the trick, u start smiling....they'd feel awkward believe me....speaking from experience....although they might not smile at u back(sometimes they does after repeated attempts), they'd feel awkward and try to walk away from you, believe me.....i got this nagging auntie in my ward, a HCA(healthcare assistant), she's very particular bout little details, i told her nicely and i smiled, she's till angry and naggy but lesser and she managed to pull a little smile...and before i left work that day, i said thanks to her...she smiled again...:)
hope u get better.....:)
awesome skate video
DVS shoe company was awesome nuff to upload a 23minutes long skate video on their podcast, awesome video, worth the wait of downloading it.....its like a couple of hours of downloading over a couple of days but hey a free skate video that long? and it was an awesome production....with the perfect mellow music that we rarely hear...nice music, nice tricks, talented skaters...thats all on my sleeping day.
for those whose not in the nursing line, sleeping day is a day when u try to get all the sleep u lost over the last 3days of night duty.......its like an off day 'cept that you're too exhausted to spend it like an off day, you'd just end up sleeping for like half a day.....hence, the name sleeping day.....
still with nursing...you know wats most satisfying with my job? the patients' thanks and smile....thats when you feel appreciated most...ok im not gonna whine but in my life, appreciation is hard to come by, i even got cheated, stabbed in the back, talked bad about by gossip mongers and what nots even for the nice things ive done...cos that things ive done is negligible compared to my flaws in their eyes.....but these patients, when they are helpless in bed, attending to them with a smile, sincerity and care although your eyes are bloodshot red from the lack of sleep makes them appreciate you....i guess when you're ill, 'trapped' in a hospital, then only you think about the people who cares about you...
im not new to the hospital...as a little child mommy told me that i had fits before and that was my first trip tot he hospital excluding the day i was born larh......then the next time i was in a hospital was when i had a knee surgery.....my frens, my ex gf , my family visited me and when they are gone, i feel the love and i miss them and made me really appreciate them. humans have one great flaw, somehow or another they have this difficulty to express their appreciation but the least you could do is not to repay them will ill-treatments or watnots......ok back to the hospital stay, apart from the nurse being gorgeous and all, her smile, her effort to question my comfort was beyond awesomeness, it brings you this priceless feeling and even if there was a price tag, itll be like meters long in figures......
what im trying to say is, ppl take for granted for what they have around them be it stuffs or people, they abuse them, they make use of them and they took it for granted that they will always be around its becos humans nowadays are too preoccupied and never do a reflection upon themselves....
i dunno why i experienced so much negative stuffs in life...ok, probably for the sins that ive done but what about when my parents get separated when i was only two and when i had to live a latch-key kid lifestyle during my childhood and lack fatherly love and even mommy had to work to feed us both, im thankful though at least i got mommy and not an orphan....i dont really have a terrific life but sometimes i remind myself that there are others who have worst off just to make myself not to dwell upon things unnecessarily. it helps, it lifts u up, it consoles and it comforts yourself and it makes you appreciate YOUR life even more.
frens really do come and go, im not saying i dont have swell frens, i have but under the circumstances of life, they have to leave to live their own life, work for their own future, play their own role.....its sad but hey, its life....
my word to all is, say thanks bring your ego level down a little, you just dont know how the person who receive it feels...being a nurse i get many thanks everyday and that makes me satisfied knowing that i make a little difference to their lives daily, even that little smile they returned are priceless and thats what keeps me going for the rest of the shift, that outweighs the many tasks, the difficult staffs and many more negativity....im glad i chose nursing cos appreciation and satisfaction is hard to come by elsewhere.
working become less of a job when you find satisfaction in it...i know i will not become a nurse forever, i just know, i know after i have save enough money i will do something else that ive always wanted though im not pretty sure of what it is... but then again the circumstances of life might prevent me from doing so...well who knows.. i got the answer....God knows...
this is a pretty long entry but im just saying what comes to mind and its not like something that you composed, its spontaneous and its frank. i hope u dont get the wrong idea, i dont demand for the 'thanks' but i just want to remind you how it makes a person feel and how much it means to them and how much they will appreciate you in return, its a cycle and its a healthy one, so stop being ignorant cos we need each other to survive, humans needs each other.....they are not solitary beings....
when he got infatuated
well, im talking bout photography.....im on films since last year august....ive never turned back cos, i like what film gives me....and cos i havent been seeing really good local works until lately.....as i surfed around photoblogs, i am seeing more and more talented local photographers and they are non-professionals....that urged me and really psyche me up to plunge into the digital world....but being cashless that have to wait. anyways looking at great shots by local amateurs is confirm, chop that i will get a dslr probably by end of the year.....canon or nikon, thats another story.....
i wanna capture mood, capture emotions, capture beautiful ppl and places, capture history and many2 more not only on film but digital as well...i wanna print all my favourite shots and make a room of my future home a giant photo album...photography's awesome...and im not talking bout camwhoring....
in a world of my own
am i in a world of my own? what if i could be who you wanted?...
gosh...
im cultivating eyebags....due to the graveyard shift....tonights my last night whereby 2days off will follow thereafter....woots....but unluckily, aprils on pm shift that two days but hey, im looking forward to next sunday with her....i bet itll be the best sunday by far....i hope...too early to say, anything may crop up...but hey, woots..and wats more i havent been shooting...i guess id wanna finish more rolls of mine...that was already loaded...
high and dry
Two jumps in a week, I bet you think that's pretty clever don't you boy.
Flying on your motorcycle, watching all the ground beneath you drop.
You'd kill yourself for recognition; kill yourself to never ever stop.
You broke another mirror; you're turning into something you are not.
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Drying up in conversation, you will be the one who cannot talk.
All your insides fall to pieces, you just sit there wishing you could still make love
They're the ones who'll hate you when you think you've got the world all sussed out
They're the ones who'll spit at you. You will be the one screaming out.
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
It's the best thing that you've ever had, the best thing that you've ever, ever
had.
It's the best thing that you've ever had; the best thing you've had has gone away.
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
u know it when...
im the sort that can ignore phone calls when im dead tired and sleepy and that ringtones just appears as part of my dream only to wake up and see miss calls...but i know something is wrong when i can wake up answer it and even in my half-concious groggy state, i can answer the call and even make conversations and i meant two way...
i dont know wat is wrong la and i guess that spell is on me now...ouh wells....
girls are rather upredictable, they'd call you when u least expected and they won't when you want them to....but the essence of surprise and joy when they call is just the oomph of it....anyways i guess im stuck and i got myself into it...so ouh wells....
first ND
night duty.....SUCKS! KENA SABO....PPL DECIDED TO TAKE MC....WAH LAN DOI.......
anyways, i coped....pretty fucked up, barely half and hour break....rushing the hourly parameters and all....it sure suck to do a junior role....
anyways, i hope i didnt do something stupid yest.....anyway, my phones been quiet....i hope everythings alright....if not ouh wells.....
now the most important thing for me to do is get some booze....oops i meant snooze...
anyways an old tune for all to enjoy....cover of plush(stone temple pilots) peformed live by Pear Jam.
slacker...
slacking, slacking, slacking and today is my first night duty.....whaoh...i dunno wat to expect but i hope itll be easy on me....
was talking to april, a couple of her frens die young.....sad, diseases and fate some of things we cant avoid...i was telling shahreil the other day, amongst the boys i guess i'll go first....i dont mean now, i mean in the future....haha....anyways one of april's fren of fren died of bone tumor which i presume is bone cancer which metastasis to other parts or the vital organs which is the actual cause of the death. sad huh? but hey we cant avoid fate....resistance, denial is futile....
been listening to old skool tunes of imeem but too bad half of them is like restricted to only 30second preview.....weezer, stp, smashing pumpkins, stone roses, pear jam, kula shaker and many more sure brought back memories back when i was only 15 odd....
now im like 28 going on 29 and i still enjoy the tunes.....sigh i guess some parts of me never change....well in fact many.....
i guess i can be too dreamy at times.....i saw this nick on msn of a fren of mine, 'you might say im dreaming' something like that....i remembered saying that in my blog and to somebody long time ago.....ouh wells, thats pretty much history, soon....ill be living my dreams, with the pay im bringing home in a couple of months, probably i just could make some things i would like to achieve, possible.....
i dunno...i guess im such an ass at times....sigh.....sid, sid, some things does never change in you.....
ok gotta go dok....getting ready for work while blasting weezer of my speakers.....
my childhood
as a child, i was very imaginative....and my ambitions was never near normal or sanity compared to the norms....i either wanted to be a superhero, a racecar driver and many many more...one of them was to be a wrestler.....
wrestling back then was very popular with the kids, the wwf....kids around my age would remember names like hulk-hogan, legion of doom, andre the giant and many more....i even had the figurines of my favourite stars bought with my own pocket money, mommy have always made me use my own pocket money which of course she gave me in the first place, her ways of bringing me up taught me to be more independent...anyways, the other thing i love to do was drawing..my drawing sucks, its nowhere near reality...i mean i suck at art but i sure like drawing cartoons.....even in secondary school, i teamed up with my classmate to make a comic book for our english project.....and till today, i still enjoy doodling just for the fun of it....and some even got printed on my own t-shirt which have yet to be sold at sheikh's store...hehe...and here, is my latest craze, the lucha....lucha-libre in spanish is freedom fighter if im not wrong...something like that but its funny cos the wrestlers who fight in the ring are none of that sort, rather they fight to earn a living....heres my cartooned version of luchalibre...
im such an ass
i think im such an ass, i dunno why....but it happened again....sigh....
anyways went skating with ratnor last night.......yes i guess we are old...hahaha anyways its like slacking half the time rather than skating.....partly ratnor was tired from the 3km run he had earlier....and me, im just plain slacking....i was actually hoping for april to call but she was thoughtful nuff not to, cos when i get back she said she didnt want to call cos she knows im skating and doesnt want to like disrupt my fun something like that....anyways glad she's fine oredi....anyways ratnor taught me the essential of nose manual....well...i need more practise...tonight maybe?
sometimes i wish theres some kind of bullet proof vest but hey, its god's will in some ways right?......im glad anyways im more aware of what i might get myself into or of the consequences if things goes in the opposite direction....well im prepared.... sometimes i feel im like a small boy who needs the attention and all, i guess im not that independent after all eh?
its raining.....gosh i dont think i would go out in this kind of weather, i just tot of getting some food or something....hmm i guess ill just cook myself come sardines or something....
and babe.....i miss u larh...
errr
errr i dunno wat to say....but hey, im not lying.....im not the type who enjoys lying their way thru.....sorry u got me wrong there....
news newsy
awww....april lost her mp3....she said probably it dropped off or something or while we were on the bike....anyways i asked her to check again after work...i hope she finds it
iskandar aka bird came home yest....this morning we chatted awhile and appears that he wont be staying in teck whye cos he's comfortable in jurong all, cos he feels pampered there, laundry, food and everything done for him.....so supposedly, jansulu aka jesse's fren is going to be renting one of the rooms in this house and iskandar told me that its better if i take the master room.....theres pros and cons...one thing good bout the master room is, theres a toilet attached and a/c....but theres only one power point cos one is already taken up by the a/c. in my present room, theres 3 power points......and the other drawback is the master room is nearer to the living room which means i cant blast my music too loud and itd be damn irritating when the girl is watching teevee... but anyways exams over so, i dont pretty much need peace and quiet at most, id get myself a pair of headphones, maybe a wireless one while i blast music...LoL.....ouh wells, we'll just wait and see....one more thing, iskandar's room kinda messy and there's no wadrobe and i need to assemble the bed again....gosh...but the a/c and the attached bathroom kinda plus i must say....heh...well u cant have the best of both worlds aight?
watched ironman in may with april
yup u didnt read that wrong....ouh april is a person.....first time goin out with this 'cili-padi' to watch wat we both wanted to watch but many of our frens watched oredi... so we end up watching together la....anyways, ironman....power la dok...and april was quick nuff to spot...'theres a sequel'....cos the black guy said he'd wanna try on the armor suit next time and i actually recalled iron-man had this 'side-kick' kinda thing more of a super-friend....he's called 'war-machine if im not wrong in the comics..... looking forward to the sequel if there is....robert downey jr...rocks....
and april rocks too....ahhh, that cilipadi rocks la beb....felt like known her for so long....i had a great time but too bad time flies pretty fast....and before we knew it we had to head home.....next time maybe yeah april?....ure addictive la dok....LoL....
and have to say this....miss ya babeh.....eh hope u come to my ward next ar....then we can work together2....hehehehe...kla till next time...just hope to go out more with ya...u are adorable la dok, honest....
roar...
after 3years i decide to try again with better tools...looks better but my hands are rather stiff and my strokes get off hand....need to be more fluid...ill guess im reliving my halfway hobby back then....will definitely do more...its hard...but its fun...p.s. bad fotos with my camera fone, ill wait for mr.mankey to upload the shots he took...heeee..
Lameness
sigh...bored...yada...yada....exams over but i dont feel good either....cos prolly of the mistakes i make...yeah right im stubborn i kept telling myself not to check the answers when i got home but as usual i bound to do it.....i always couldnt resist and now i got worried over nothing.....
well, yest was hell yeah boring after the papers...collected the cans from arman and decided to paint at night but the sky wasnt in favor but it never rained after all.. daym i got tricked....oh wells, nevermind.....im going to do it today if theres no plans whatsoever which i think that will just be the case.....
this is the last weekend ill be at home, monday onwards ill be doing my prcp and that means 3 shifts for 6 more weeks......and then followed by 2weeks in ICU and ill get my results and all and hopefully everything went smoothly and i end with a diploma in nursing.....and prolly start work shortly after that...so literally this IS my last weekend.... how sad...but ive been thru this anyways, was working as a supervisor at the supermarket where i had to do shift work....hey but at least theres no night shift.. hohohoh......
the weathers getting warmer as the days...im sweating....and sweating....and sweating.
my favourite attire at home is my boxers and sleeveless....and yet still im sweating..
i want to watch iron man.....sigh but many of my frens are occupied....urrghh...i guess as we get older this is what will happen...most of ur frens will be very occupied, either at work or family or the other halves.....makes things worst halve of my frens work shifts.....urrgggh.....ouh wells, i think i make my trip to bukit batok today.....:)
gotta go....taaa....hang out my laundry....
okok
okokok last paper woots....
okokok watever la eh.....
okokok so warm in here....
okokok natural eyeshadow start forming beneath my eyes.....
okokok im not dumb ok.....
okokok im going to bed.....
okokok taaaaa.....
supplies
arman was online...woots....friday ill be recieving 7 cans plus a pack of spray-tips... for $41....i dunno either why i got it....but i jus wanna paint for fun.....i did before in 2005 and it sucked and i wanna try again with a little help of the appropiate tools....woots....gnite peeps...
sianz
so late and im still up....insomniac la...hahaha no la...just have to go thru my bio, after the mistakes i done in the management paper, im taking precautionary measures for bio, make sure im very2 sure then ill stop.....
oh wells, i went online just now for a couple of minutes...sigh lots of my frens not online...waddya expect tumoro holday mah.....if im not wrong ratnor gone to party, the rest of my bb pals, probably slept early cos they are going to stjohn's island later... and im going to miss that....hmmmpphhh....
im going to make myself sleepy very soon....and probably wake up to revise again... nevermind, tahan until friday, then i can enjoy a little liao...i wanna watch iron-man, i wonder if the guys are free friday night....hmmmm...we'll see.....gnite peeps... love ya all, enjoy your labor day....sadly, i cant.....sob...sob...LoL
dont check
i always tell myself after every paper....dont check the answers....but i just couldnt resist....made a couple of mistakes in the mcqs section.....gosh i hate management topics....so like wth.....anyways....i know the grades not going to be colorful, probably a dull C or D.....but im hoping for the best....
anyhus....back to my interest in photography.....decided to upload a couple of my better portrait shots on deviantart....spontaneous-portraits thats what they call them...got a couple of comments that already spur me to shoot more people....i'm wonder if im daring nuff to shoot like rashid's pal, he went up close with his wide-angle to shoot people... i doubt so cos im not that bold, for me probably i will have to use a bigger lens such as the telephoto to steal shots....:)
awww...back to mugging...for the last paper....microbiology.....and i tot nurses dont have to go to the extent of MICRO.....nabey......macam scientists going to do experiments on lab-rats but hey there's some relevance to studying microbiology, in a way it helps us understand more bout bacteria, viruses and actions of medications...but still, its like wth.....im going to be in psychiatry.....
ujian
dalam beberapa jam lagi gue akan hadapi ujian yng kedua di skolah.....ntah ya, rasanya macam kurang siap gitu tapi gue yakin dengan diri gue.....
walaubagaimana pun, selamat pagi skalian.....dan ada seorang itu bagai buat gue keliruan gitu ya?....
old stuff
i found an old sketch dated 2005 in my scrap book....an attempt to improve my impromptu piece 'dots'. as i get bored with revisions, i took out my color pencils and colored it...oh wells...mebbe ull see me again on concrete, just maybe...
gnite peeps, sleeping, later at 9am i got another paper...wish me luck..
why.....
why hasnt the seller of the spray tips contacted me yet...urrrghh
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yo buddy....barangkali kamu ni cuma mimpi saja lo....dreaming, panaginip.....
kalo betul-betul barangkali kamu harus sabar ya...tunggu saja lor....lihat bagaimana kesudahannya....skarang ya kamu perlu tidur....rehatkan diri kamu yng capek....waduhh..
permisi sekalian....
woots the tools
finally, i found someone who brings in female spray caps....finally i can do some recreational writing....yoooohooo watch out for *vcs*, thats vicious minus the vowels.
pinhole?
ive always wanted to build a diy pinhole....and i just got the wackiest idea when i opened up my damaged instax30i.....is it even possible?...id try after my exams....an instax pinhole.....wooots....long exposures, instant results...yo!...
T heK iLLe RG erbil
the killer gerbil had an exhibition yest to raise funds for his next trip if im not wrong. anyways kudos to tkg and those writers involve, keep the faith.
anyways, yest was a long day...i didnt study the whole day....but wasnt feeling right.. after tkg's performance and all...and me being down bcos of my instax...well at least theres loads of fun ppl around that made me feel better.....the whole peep were bunch of nice fun ppl....at least in the group that i dont feel out of place or old bcos the of the various aged ppl around, theres even ppl like amos and george who's already passed the age 40...ok anyhus....we(ratnor, jerine, lara, shawn, nick) decided to head to jurong point at about farrer road area...hehehe.....decided for a movie....
so there at jurong point, im already like beat up, tired, sleepy but being with the guys is just like fun...their corny, lame and racists jokes wakes one up...anyways, we intend to watch 'hensel&gretel' at first after lara went home but decided on 'the superhero movie' cos it starts earlier and its gore-less......but it was a disappointing movie, lucky for us nick had his expired safra card, else we'd be wasting 10bucks......so yest we like wasted 8bucks la...but ok la, a couple of laughters in between, other than that....the movies full of shit and you shouldn't waste money watching it on the big screen and probably you shouldn't waste your time watching it online either....yup, its that bad....
my baby died on me
my instax died on me.....the ribbon snapped....daym.....its becos i pack it in my bag and accidentally switched it on....aiyah long story short, its dead....and im sad... cos its one of my fav cams.....
but on the bright side, im considering cheki55....hehehe
fat boys can jump
Fat Boy Can Has Flips
i was rather fat during poly days....i remembered my heaviest was at around 90, im glad NS changed all that....anyways, if i were able to do this back then when i was like 17, i think id be a very cool person....and a much better skater.....LoL
suck
todays session suck...oh wells at least im a-ok cept a couple of bruises...cheerios, heading the shower then dozing off....
hohoho
hohoho....first round of 2 modules completed....going for the second round but first touch one topic on bio....then go for medsurg round 2.....sia la macam boxing sia got round.....the more rounds i go, the better...i think i have only time for 2 rounds...cos paper starts on monday.....
first fill my tummy with yummy tomyam noodles.....wooohoooo....instant noodles la...
but this myojo tomyam rocks la beb....even though it costs slighty more than the regular ones....
Thom Yorke(Radiohead)- Nice Dream (acoustic/live)
Radiohead-Fakeplastictree (acoustic/live)
were suppose to watch them in sydney years ago...oh wells...
your hot laptop
what can u do with ur heated up lap top while downloading podcasts?
what i did: put on my sore back....oooooo sooothing...LoL
cheers
cheers to a new fren, april....gila, fun and definitely the sort that'll cheer u up. nice knowing u april....:)
happy bday mom
happy birthday mom....
gonna go out in ahwile....postpone studying awhile, get a bdae cake for mom....then later continue studying after 7pm followed by a possibly skate session after 10pm...
we'll see if everything goes along to schedule....
the urge to get a better flash and flash-remote-transmitter/reciever is so great...id just wanna try out portrait shooting....play with the flashes and lights....the sight of beautiful potraits by various photographers is orgasmic....of course most of them uses high-end dslr with all those lenses that probably would cost me 3/4 of my current allowances but they do occasionally shoot with cheaper gears and films and they do turn out nice....that shows gears is not everything...
i hope while waiting to start work end of july, id still recieve my allowances so that i can go shooting and experiment....
old
nope im not really looking forward to old age, its just that i happen to be revising on ageing...
According to the Continuity theory....
"if one who enjoys an active social life, he or she will continue to enjoy this lifestyle into old age. Similarly, one who prefers solitude are likely to remain so in old age." Stanley M. & Beare P.G. (1995)
work work work
sorry ratnor im not going to that seagull shop....have to catch up, im a little behind time.....gotta complete my med surg......cheers
im hooked on imogen heap once again...must be her enchanting voice......
wat should i have for lunch?...hmmm.....
2rolls from miao lannLo
love this shot most from the 2 rolls, the moon, the sgflyer behind the building.awesome
Long exposure from Marina rooftop[NikonFE2+Kodak160]
behind schedule
yes i am behind schedule...suppose to finish med-surg by end of today but i guess i will have to take 1 more extra day, which means i have to forgo my weekends....except skating in the morning with ratnor....probably drop by to tkg's exhibition then head back to mugg.....ugggh.....
mac gyver 101
those using laptops....and experiencing hot lappies....got egg-crates at home? just put ur lappie on top of it...ur lappie is less heated up that way....the air space allows heat to escape...
im addicted to instax, no doubt....i had sunset in my wallet, now i have the singapore flyer by my laptop....
im studying for my exams but at snail-speed....gosh....cmmon man pick up that speed will ya....i need to cover medical surgical in 2 days....so i can have nuff days for the other 2 subjects....daym.....meanwhile....listening to gravel pit...gosh i just gotta have a turntable one of these days....i wanna experiment....i like experimenting....
7 days
7 days to the major exam.....after that, i will only have to tahan 6more weeks of ward5A, gain trust and worth from the staffs....make them think im competent, capable and ready to get registered...then followed by 2weeks of ICU attachments before i can finally wait for my license and my full pay which is what im looking forward to most... at least 1.8-2 id be happy nuff....
threadless....
woots....my 2nd batch of threadless arrived.....i now got 7 threadless tees... hey i can fit the M for the newer tees.....gonna order M from now on....the L is roomy but a little longer, looks funny when wearing jeans......:)....i love my threadless...
seems like ill be wearing threadless everytime i go out from now on... with 7 designs to choose from....woots....LoL...
im getting more....M sizes....maybe in june or july....:)
quiet as the night
please turn off your lights....
i seriously want a break....i want to get away from sg for a moment, even a short 2-3days will do....wanna go Solo but dunno hows the ppl there....i mean my other family....so far ive only met my step-mother...
i need a massage....a real good back-cracking massage that will make me feel light...
2 cuppa coffee and its not having any effect, i guess im immuned to it.....
2 more days to my off day, 2 more....i guess on friday ill visit my grandma....
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going to shoot sunset with rashid and mr.monyet later....i need to unwind... a little.... im in no mood to study yet nor do the assignment my lecturer handed to me last monday....which is due tumoro....list of emergency drugs....mafan...nabey.....
i wanna naps awhile...
im itching to skate...i can imagine myself nailing a backside-180 and a nose-slide..
screw up
sometimes u screw up, nobody to blame but myself being complacent...i tot i nailed it but its more than i expected....tumoro ill do a better job...insyahallah....
for the rest of monday was pretty fun working with jamilah & marc....tiring no doubt but little stress....mrs doris foong is scary, she seems like she means business...urgh and she already gave me a homework on her first day....urggh one more time... i just hope she's not permanent else i can foresee unfree free times at home...urrrghhh... i just want this week to end quickly so i can rest at home for 2 whole weeks, though i have to still study for 3 papers....and im psyched up, ive already mentally prepared a schedule for myself and i will put in pen and paper this friday.....
i miss traveling....i really do....i will get out of sg asap...say end june? probably sumwhere near and cheap....bkk or indo....:) gnite peeps...AM shift tumoro...
ouh i pray that nyai gets better....
so close...
im excited as well as nervous....nervous probably cos fear of the unknown...but anyways, im real excited about the bigger paycheck... a bigger paycheck means i can purchase items like a spanking new DSLR, proceed with my class3, print my own t-shirts and many2 more....
was msn-ing with rashid yest, he showed me his blog with the skate fotos he took and one of sheikh's store at fareast plaza...he said he saw my tee there....geee, sheikh still displays my tee, after looking at threadless beautiful designs i think mine was crap but hey, sometimes ppl prefers simplicity....
anyways time is catching up on me...2 weeks more to the final exams...i will start studying soon....if everything goes well and if i have enough cash, id want to visit my father in solo....
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gotta dudes....cheers...:)
dreamer
one of my exgf told me that im a dreamer....i would say im a believer...i would try to make my dreams a reality...of course those realistic ones....i shan't mention but i will just try....im happy enough if i achieve more than half of my 'dreams' though im going all out actually but time is one major factor that's holding back some of them...
discipline wise, i would say im more disciplined than a couple of years back.......
i know i can, i know i will...though it will be slower than some ppl out there but ill be there...my own target....i don't have to live to others' expectations, living mine is more than good....
today i saw R6 zooming past me, another temptation...but then i tot to myself, im more of a safety rider nowadays, i dont squeeze, speed excessively or negotiate sharp bends like i use to enjoy doing...so whats the point of getting an R6...LoL....i think GP800 would be good nuff....hohoho....if that GP800 comes with swell compartments...high chance babe....if it doesnt i would have to consider....but hey for an 800cc scooter at 12k is pretty alright.....woots....
gotta go guys, shower and then hit the bed.....yawn....i feel like skating, i dunno why....
gulf?
i was browsing the net....wat else but not the usual sites....multiply,frenster,facebook,flickr,lomotion,hotmail,EBAY.....heheh then i came across this GulfTalent.com.....and yo, they got nursing sia........hmmm would consider after i complete my 3year bond with IMH....and then itll be toodles SG if i get a job there....serve bond, save up and comeback SG by that time ill be more than 35, eligible to buy a flat even if im not married yet and woots....
ppl around the world are more true and not lying to themselves....they love polaroids they say it....just like me but here, too much negativity from the lot....i get flamed and all by the many....but hey i love it and i dont give a shit, i say what i had to say and i dont mask my words nor edit my thoughts so bear with me the frank-monster...
[you know in a crude form would be like claiming youre virgin when u get fucked around and when you say a certain place sucks cos so many been there but you were found there in the end ENJOYING YOURSELVES.....LoL]
ok lets not off topic too much, i just admire how they keep loads of polaroid films for their own consumption as probably you would have known....polaroid have closed all its factories...and is out of business so wats left around the world is about it....i cant wait for july to come where i can have cash to spare.....id probably buy at least $200 worth of films and probably more...depends on my lust for it.....and that impulse with a self-timer plus tripod mount is definitely a must have if nadim is selling and at a reasonable price...i will definitely get it from him...
movie later with the bb boys.....i think im going to lug my polaroid today...woots... feels like pola...
sunset upset
the sunset upset turns out not to be an upset after all....cos the initial plan was just chill....as usual i migrated to a new group of frens about say early this year? joined lomotion got to know some frens and yeah meeting some of them quite often....
i do miss my vespa frens & my gilera frens but all of them now are either settled down or have new interests like other bikes and all....so we kinda like hang out less often.
currently its like the lomo-peeps thats ive been hanging out with, some of them that is. well, particularly cos we share the same interest shooting...
yests meet-up was more of a chill session rather than a shootout, yeah i wanted to capture the sunset but it wasn't so beautiful bcos the sun was blocked by the clouds but as the sun was setting, the clouds turned out to beautiful with shades of purple and dark orange.....lovely....
the rest of the night was fun, a slightly different chill session i have with frens...
we had dinner at McD before ratnor came to pick us up from west coast and headed straight to sentosa for luge....its been ages since i went to sentosa and of course the beach.....nick got us free rides at the luge and his colleague was cool enough to give us a free printout of the foto. anyways, i find that on the second ride, i already like find that the luge is nothing special....probably its my second trip there...so after the luge, we got some drinks, chips and just chill by the beach and just chit-chat bout watnots....guys, i really wish we'd had a trip somewhere like bangkok or something....miss travelling sia......we were suppose to send the rest home while ratnor and i head to somerset to join shahran, adi & frens skating...but shaun, lara & nick decided they wanna tag....we headed to the skatepark and was rather disappointed that the light shut down at 12MN, they changed the lights timing again from 2Am.......but we skated anyways, while the trio sat, chit-chat....left for supper at al-ameen and finally everyone was home....
turns out more of a chill session...cool frens i must say, lame jokes half the time but hey we pretty much clique, have similar interests, down to earth, what more can i ask? at least my friday wasn't a boring one....i would've joined for fico had the chill out wasn't initiated but im not a fan of soccer...i do enjoy kicking around balls but when the boys get too competitive, it gets boring...cos they selective pass to certain ppl who can confirm nail a goal...LoL...anyway one cool thing bout yest, i skated, i managed to shoot, i chilled and i had fun...and tumoro i have to go back to work....uggggh....
ouh i hope the zoo trip will happen next week......havent been to the zoo for eons sia.....LoL....would love to see how it looks like now....
im beginning to love it
weekdays off, one great thing is....my roomates not home....i blast music on my old altec speakers......woots....today i feel like audioslave......
going to shoot sunset later.....and LUGE....woots....i bet its going to be fun later...
im loving life....thnks God....alhamdullilah...
im loving nursing.....i pity the aged....soon ill be there too....singapore is ageing and its a worrying fact.....i pity the younger nurses.....they will face more elders in the future.....back-breaking tasks but satisfying...
2 movies, 2 stories
meet spartans was crap so i paased and watched step up2 and juno instead...i love juno... awesome, sweet movie...period.
a must watch for those who hasn't.....
yes or no
i could've said yes....but i said no...well thats just history...
i could've said "i haven't got a job and would love to come down for an interview", well that's another history....
i could've said, "yeah you can use my work and i would love to freelance.", well that's another history....
i could've said, "nopes, i wanna work in a general setting...", ouh that's another history....
we make choices sometimes that we think was the right choice at the point of time but later on just couldn't help but think what if......
well...im don't regret...but don't tell me you don't do it even once? im sure you do...sometimes....
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am i losing my sanity or was i coping really well with work and stress?
i found myself humming...i didn't realize for a few secs....heheh but i find it relaxing afterwards and i was humming on and off....as i was doing back-breaking tasks....LoL...farnie....but i guess i was coping well instead of losing my sanity..
2nd person asking about vespa....why, why u guys must tempt me....darn...
but i still think i will get a biggie...i can foresee me riding one..i think most probably itll be a rad harley like uncle-taha is riding....LoL....woooohooo...
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im mad, mad about cams....i only wish HDB will change it's requirements...so that i am eligible to buy a flat at age 30 not 35....i wanna have a huge dry-cabinet...a converted store-room to dark room.....a playroom that will have a nintendo wii, PS3, where i keep my vespa, huge screen tv, seesha, huge sound-system, use ur imagination for the rest... of course a bedroom with a huge cosy bed....turntable set...woots.....full equip kitchen with oven.....hahaha berangan lagi ar si gemok nie.....woooo i can imagine if i have a flat all to myself...itll rock.....
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okla...i think i better get some sleep....tumoro pm shift, then friday and saturday off...i enjoy working in ward5A, i hope everything goes well, get my nursing-license, serve my bond and hope for overseas opportunities....insyahAllah....
wat would u do if u won 500k?
i asked the above to 5 person, these are their answers:
#1: 70k get degree, 30k donate, 400k save for future use, 5-6k for a best friend.
#2: Get a degree in zoology in New Zealand.
#3: Get all the stuff i need to get married and of course get married, the balance start a business.
#4: Buy cameras for myself, educate myself.
#5: Buy a house?
Now, wat would u do with 500k?
flu
the flu partly to blamed....being lazy is another factor....i didnt touch anything...
going to tripleD and sungei road later......we are the 'un-rich' photographers that hunt for gears that is still viable that was probably discarded by the rich or stolen by the apeks of sungei roads.....sometimes we do come across great deals, sometimes our hunt ended in disappointment.....it is also an avenue to bring in the 'dough' come across anything of value to certain community, we'd grab it at bargain prices and sell it off again to make a little profit that will fill our film hungers....
today...im going to wear my lovely orange threadless....hairwolves....woots!
wooohooo
threadless arrived.....i wore the 'caged' shirt today....tumoro im going to wear 'hair-wolves'......i love threadless....who wants to tag to sungei road tumoro? anyone?
i wanna change bike....by july latest.....should i go for a class2 sports or supermotard? or just settle for that x8-400? hmmmm....or that harley sportster ive been eyeing?...hmmm
down with flu....urrrghhh...hate getting sick on off days....
