haha i submitted my foto to new era's website...hurhurhur and its approved, so ill just wait till my foto is up with the millions of new era fans.....thinking of getting one more next payday....
2 flexfit hallucinate caps is on the way.....its going to be sold at skateboarding.sg and probably skinnymunster.com. coolness i got 2 retailers wanting to sell my stuffs.. simple designs and nothing special just glad so far the people around me likes it and as i mentioned in the previous entry, i was also requested to design wedding cards...i roped in hairul and aisha bcos its their expertise im only an amateur, i self-taught so not really pro......woo shaggy playing on the radio again...i love shaggy's song... this angel song....so ol skool but still evergreen....girl ure my angel, annie...
annie.....u dont have to be good with words to show me u love me, u already did, u made sacrifices and u even tried fasting, that meant alot to me.....im hoping to itd work out. i dunno how but im sure we'll find a solution.....
i think i need to go for an eye check up and maybe an appointment with the orthopaedics specialist. im seeing floaters and my eyes tires easily......hmmmffft.....insyahAllah theres nothing wrong with me....and i think seriously i need my wound to get stictched up....it healed and then it gapes again...
first ramadhan, went thru with an ease....i managed my anger in the morning but i accidentally blurted out a swear word on the road, when this car cut right infront of me...have to kick that bad habit.....
im going to bed....soon....i love u annie...
u stole my heart, u put it by a nice place, u nurse it properly and u always ensure it doesnt get into any harm watsoever...i hope u keep it that way....u gave me attention, u understood my position, u needed little explanation. u accepted me for what i am. my heart isnt everywhere its hidden by annie somewhere, it was with me since last year when i took it back and no one during that period managed to take it from me, until came annie, she took it with the intention to look after it and nurture it with love...that i felt that no words can describe. its so real yet not visible to the naked eye but its there, i know....love ya...
new era
ramadhan celebrations
celebrated ramadhan with me clearing my bcls....woots.....
annie tries fasting.....proud of her....
im being roped in to do wedding cards.....
and hallucinate tees is getting attention might be on sale at another site. woots
1 more customer for hallucinate tees....the lucha tee have gained its popularity, 2 lovers so far....woots....
im a happy son of a gun today.....minus the upset just now.
sigh
sigh...hate me all u want....its not as if i cheated on u, not as if i did not tell u we cant work out together....not as if i had another gf behind ur back....i only felt things after almost a year......i was comfortable being single until of course lately i met someone who is special to me....
u have rights to ur own feelings, hate me if u will, if that makes u feel better. call me a jerk or watever it is. for all i know, im not and i know i hurt u but i did not hide anything....i did not cheat on u and we did broke off last ramadhan....that makes a year in the muslim calendar....best wishes in watever u do. forgive me if ive done anything wrong.
ouh lastly in defence.....if my heart is everywhere, id have at least 10 over gfs and if my heart is everywhere, i wouldnt have lasted 3years in 1 of my relationships... ramadhan is a beautiful month but i just had to defend myself.
ramadhan
here comes the beautiful of ramadhan.....many hikmah behind it....well for me personally, apart from exercising self control, apart from feeling the poor what they are feeling and apart from refining myself.....i save money and i loose a little of the inches and pounds off me....heh!
yest, i met brielle aka annie aka my sayang....wanted to watched evan almighty but we couldnt make it in time and annie wasnt in the mood for horror so we just ate cake at secret recipe, i like mine, raspberry cheesecake but not hers, its nice but not my cup of tea, chocolate indulgance.... basically its already almost ten by the time we finished eating our cakes, every where would either be closed or going to close soon, so we decided with east coast....just walking, natter about everything and sitting by the sea where the waves came crashing on the walls that we sat on.....we bonded and yes very much in love....we just sort of as if we known each other for long....i only wondered why i didnt meet her earlier but hey, its fate...i believe in fate...im fated to meet her now only for a reason....so anyway annie started to feel sick....gastric pain i guess....so we left....i rode a little faster but safely cos theres a pillion behind me, someone i dearly love. i turn back occassionally to check if she's ok, my main priority then was to get her home safely or to a doctor should her pain get worse or something....so everything went well, its seperation time again, the toughest...how i wished i need not go....hmmmftt...but i had to...
im so in love and i hope, sincerely hope, this ramadhan id be given some directions, answers or anything, insyahAllah.....
i hope i clear my prac test tumoro and i hope the presentations on friday goes on smoothly and i hope to meet my annie friday night and probably we can iftar together. i appreciate that you are even trying annie, i really do. and finally i hope my bio prac next week goes on smoothly.....
to my muslim frens let us welcome this ramadhan...may all our ibadah be accepted and may we go thru all 'test' with iman and perseverance, insyahAllah....
to annie....i love u as always, enjoy ur holidays and wish me luck for my upcoming hurdles, my presentations, tests and exams in a months time...or not forgetting my clinicals....
skate session
just came back, just out of the shower.....
its been weeks since i last skated....just now was a short one...but hey it was fun as always....i cant ollie properly now....but i managed to 'catch' one kickflip after mimi pointing out my mistakes...the spot near boat quay have great low white kerbs, where noseslides are lovely but i cant pull off....nxt time maybe...wasnt too well just now, got a little runny nose.....
snapped a couple of fotos with my lomo....hope it turn out beautiful.....i seriously want to get an slr....i envy those shots shahran made....they look so professional...
my sayang.....she misses me alot that she smsed me at 4am in the morning...i miss u too
im excited about hallucinate.cc, i hope itd go well....i want to print one for annie too! she will be the first to wear hallucinate tee....heh....and i cant wait to see the cap i ordered, tumoro the seller going to email me the finished product and ship to me once i say yes....
good luck annie for the exam tumoro......good luck to myself for the bcls theory....
nite peepz.....and thanks adil for the ride home......i cant imagine if i have to ride my bike back just now....so tired.....i really really want a class3!
good news!
sheikh is going to help me sell my t-shirts at his online store....its a small start hopefully to something big.....and he's roping me in to help organize an upcoming skate event....sheesh im happy, i feel like flying....
study?
yup i dont always drink kopi at the kopishop known as habib, last night i had teh-o-ice limau. and adil got itchy finger and snapped a foto with my phone, thats boy aka eizhar aka agf beside me....he said the event at museum was great.....sigh, shouldve went...theres fireworks after the last band.....
was supposed to study, half way thru i got tired....so i doodled...its been along time since i scribbled on paper.....adil aka stimgas wanted to do graffiti on his walls, so here it is some scribbling....hurhurhur...
just decide to snap these....nothing else to snap....my daily cocktail before i sleep n when i wake up, for the immunity, for the knees and joints and for a balanced diet. i just dont want to be a burden when im old....im considering adding calcium tabs to the cocktail cos i dont take too much calcium daily, sometimes only i drink milk, i think ill start adding calcium when i start work.
I miss annie.....love her lots....she dreamt of us making cookies yest, is that a sign we'd be together forever?
gotta prepare the script for next weeks presentations.....even a seasoned presenter like me feel the pressure of 3 presentations in a day!...friday that is....i think i will need lots of coffee on thursday and more spirulina tabs.....
speaking of which my supply of elcafe ginseng coffee running low, gonna get some later at jurong east stockist also getting some mooncakes for annie's parents and dropping by westmall to get ink...my blank ink went dry on me last night...looks like almost 100bucks spent today....we'll see...
next week is when my money going to be spent the most....the t-shirts and materials for my hallucinate line.......and i think i need a new pair of bermudas going beach road to get a cheap pair or perhaps id just loose weight a little more to fit into my size 32 berms.....
ouh im waiting for my felxfit cap to arrive....yeayness.....
and tonight there might be a skate session.....
sigh
sigh time flies and shahreil n yati are getting married oredi.....and time flies and ramadhan is coming....they are already talking bout visiting....hmm 2nd week of raya.. a saturday, i hope my annie can make it.....and planning for iftar.....gotta find a suitable day so we all can sit down and breakfast together...itll be cool....
im wide awake now, bcos i slept in the evening.....now im going to go thru my bcls,i hope to have a perfect score cos its nothing new to me.....but i dunno if the test would be similar to that of the army one.....i hope so...
my annies asleep, sweet dreams, i hope u find the answers you're looking for. i love u lots. and im declaring it on the world-wide-web via my blog.
im seeing floaters....i hope its normal....but my lecturer told me if uve seen it once in awhile, its ok...but if uve never experienced it before, i better have my eyes examined......
sayang...i want to grow old with u...:)
changes
changed my stripey curtain after so long....clearing up my room...making it more tidy...ore images soon....cos my baby wanna see how my room looks like, im going orange this year but not painting as yet....probably after the exams.
sale
sold 1 14" tv, one 21" tv, one old nokia, i got 30bucks from the karung guni man, ok la pretty ok....
i shouldnt have but its done already...
i remembered when i skipped religious classes when i was young and gave stupid reasons just bcos i was lazy...muslim boys and girls go to formal religious classes not only to learn how to practise the religion but to know how it came bout, in other words the history. im pretty fine with the practice but im not so sure bout history. if i hadnt skipped classes and get kicked out last time, my knowledge wouldve come in handy when i have to explain to annie why is there christianity and islam and wats the differences.
i think i wanna start reading up again on my own religion and probably start going classes again, its about time already. probably annie came into my life is more than a blessing, more than making me just feel loved and happy, she came probably in away to make me start all over again with islam. thank you annie.
i dont know wat to do either
i do not know what to do either.
but it's not the end yet and i'm not giving up.
:)an evening with my annie....
thanks for the 'laundry basket' sayang.....heh :)....
was suppose to go out with annie....well we did but today we took the bus....met my sayang at bukit batok.....i tot she'd be late, so i went out and walked slowly until she msged, 'im here already..." .....hehe i hurried cos i dont wanna keep her waiting..
saw her at the bus-stop, she was reading some notes...it was after quite a long time since i took public transport. the journey was long but i was with my annie, i bet ill be bored to death if i was alone but with her by my side, i enjoyed every minute of the bus ride....though its a pretty long one.....we went to ikea actually wasnt our initial plan but bcos the weather's not that good, we decided to go public and since we go public, annie could go and get her rack...ate at bk, again, i think its been so long since i ate bk....was good, except the onion rings were cold.....
we walked around ikea....in my heart "how i wished we had our own house..." the furniture and stuffs.....sigh but i guess we'll have to wait.....i saw this cool basket, with a turtle as the lid, i tot itd make a great laundry basket....annie bought these cute fork n spoons and those colourful hangers....then she bought the rack she wanted to get......at the counter, she paid for my basket....heee...malu ar...but thank you annie...love ya....
it was early when we left ikea....was only 8++, i remembered boy told me about iron maiden's vans....so we went to ltd edition to take a look...hmmm not really my cup of tea, it wouldve been better if they made the design like the slayer version, simple.
i saw this new era, vans new era....niceness....hmm dunno whether to get or not.. maybe ill come back some day and see if its still there....hmm but actually im waiting for my hallucinate-flexfit cap to arrive....hmmm well, we'll see....
we took 61 back to bukit batok....annie walked with me to the bus-stop near my place to take 963. everytime at this point i find it hard to part with annie....i only wished she could stay a little longer, chill at my place or something....but we cant.
so patience ya, soon ill have a place of my own hopefully and we could chill all day or something.....or maybe just settle down...hurhurhur...
i love my annie....lots and i certainly hope we'd last....forever...:)
irritating
i have to jot this down, theres one old slut/bitch/whore in the class, she simply asked questions for the sake of asking and for goodness sake its your classmates presentation and you asked such a stupid question. the group were already stressed up having to present 2 ICAs in a day and you have to ask stupid questions. i almost made a rude remark but i resisted and went with sarcasm instead but it seems the bitch did not get it but some of my classmates did...apparently shes not only a bitch, shes a dumb bitch....ugggh...slut...so pissed off at the behavior, ure already 40odd and still behaving like an immature slut.....hmmfftttt
uggh
ppt presentations makin me dizzy, nauseas, drowsy.....ugggh...
good news first.....>>> till date, today a 3rd person says hallucinate-tees rock...
2nd good news, hallucinate-tees is expecting 2riders to endorse its tees and one Lomo-ers...hurhurhurhur
3rd good news, i know where to seek help and advice......
bad news.....my references...i cant find some of the authors....
bad news 2. frames are not ready, print outs are not readily edited to be printed..
bad news 3. still unable to source for AAAs via online
bad news 4. actual production of HCC tees might be delayed.
sorry haiqal, ratnor, ur tees have to wait a little longer i think, my guess mid november....and the riders too....
lastly love my sayang, tumoro ikea ok?
i hope u do too
sigh....im just crazy about u...i just hope everything works out....
meanwhile had a really one hell of group discussion just now at skool....research methods is really giving us hell of a problem.....and its irritating when it appears like only yahnee and me are cracking brains and theres an irritating parrot who just sways to where the wind blows....idiot abnn......lets not stress myself.
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i just have to say this, i could sit all day with u and stare at u all day.....i could sit with u in my arms and talk about nothingness all day. frankly i do not know how it turned out this way but who cares, im glad it did happen somehow or another.....the hurdles we might face, the obstacles rather....might be a tough one to face and day to day i cant help but to think about it....bt im staying optimistic whatever it is. aku sayang kau annie.
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adil smsed again...."nari sk8?" sorry dude.....cant la wrong day, tumoro i have 8am class. sorry.....but sunday i think ill skate for a while....
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gotta go and try to crack brains for the irritating research methods ICA.
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shes offline......sigh.....
im addicted
im addicted to 'plain white t's'-hey there delilah.
im addicted to annie toh.
im addicted to hallucinate tees, except they are not ready yet.
im addicted to lomo.
im addicted to skateboarding and experiencing withdrawal symptoms cos been a little bz.
was supposed to meet ma annie today but she not feeling well....but its ok, theres always another day....mutual understanding is important in every relationship.... and i think we just have that.
went imm with shahreil aka stimgam....hehehe buy water-heater.....
hmm got some researching to do....sigh....research method is such a hassle.....
i realise i seriously need to start bio revision, i cant recall and i cant answer the question annie asked me regarding spinal cord injury....hurhurhur....learning is never ending.....hurhurhur.....
okla thats all for today....lazey to type many2
stuck in skool
haiz....im stuck in skool.....my nose a little blocked and i feel lousy....seems like i cant meet my one and only tonight.....anyways, its pouring outside...not that heavily but i dislike riding in the rain. main reason, ill get wet and uncomfortable 2ndly, its dangerous with the road slippery and vision impaired by the rain droplets. so i tot wat the heck stay in school since i got my laptop with me, probably i could surf the net or something.....since im in no mood to do any revision right now in my current condition.
but hey, skools retarded, they block alot of media websites like the famous youtube or any music sites....fair enough u blocked video sites....but wats wrong with music? damn.....so retarded......so pissed, so not ok, so in a lousy mood, i guess macam girls having pms....hurhurhur.....
just now was our bcls lesson.....meaning cpr and things alike. im certified but i think its good to revise and recap what i never practise.....but it pisses me off when some ppl like they know alot of things and act....aiyer...for goodness sake, im certified and i myself dont act until like that....wah liew....grow up la....so old already still behaving like that....
hmm....i guess the nurse would help me recover, if only it was like last time when aisha could come over and chill at my place, watch videos or she surf the net while i do other stuffs....until the stepdad decide to make a big fuss about it....haiyer...
i guess if nothing's changed, i wouldve asked annie to come over....just chill at my place but i guess wont be possible now unless i got a place of my own....sigh...
well actually, even if im single now, i would still want a place of my own....bt haiz being in singapore....i cant....bcos im single and im not over 35 even if i am, i have to get another person in order to rent or buy....unless i got lotsa money to rent pvt.....macam pen last time...cool place she got....orange n pink walls...hurhur
projects pretty done.....tumoro finalize 2 of them and we are left with research methods....then....its all over, only waiting for bio prac test and bcls test before exams in late october n early november.....wooohooo then semester 3 complete by end of the year which means 6 more months to being registered as a nurse!!!
im still considering whether wanna ask shahrul to make me light box or not...hmmmm..
i guess ill just go to boys' place to make my templates.....
hmm i think i wanna nap while waiting for the rain to stop, the irritating thing is i cant see if it has totally stopped from the tinted windows in the library....darn...
watcha do to me....
it have to be the weekends....i always fall ill weekends...not the first time. luckily no plans watsoever as everyone is busy over the weekends...im now still recovering from runny nose and macam flu la....but not so bad...except my nose keeps on dripping.....
i got a request from haiqal to print 'I <3 LOMO'...patience dude....will be in no time...hurhurhur...hope to have fans, i hope.
im in love with the song by plain white ts, hey there delilah...
ouh annie watcha do to me? heh, i miss u la...
finished up my ppt. next research methods....i hate this module....but gotta stay positive need the marks....need to be the ones to be selected for advance dip. next time. if i get lousy grades, might not be selected.
my sayang, went shopping, i guess she had fun...would love to see what she bought....:)
gonna turn in pretty soon....need more rest.....didnt skate for a whole week for the first time. aiyah sick mah....
meeting my sayang tumoro.....:)....love ya Lijun.....
not easy
printings not easy....proven was just now...the print didnt transfer to the screen bcos the transparency wasnt dark nuff...hmmptff...wasted $14 but im not discouraged, ill try again....hopefully itd turn out ok next time....thnks boy. anyways i learn my lesson, the darker the better and double prints always! and no jagged edges....
im gonna edit my 'lucha' print before i sleep...
cloud 9
im floating....yah i know i might make my readers puke but im in love and i dont care, i wanna write what i feel....yesterday was beautiful...
hope to see u again soon baby.....:) dont worry, ill never go missing...u'll never loose me. just pray that nothing crosses our path or yours. i know its going to be a huge choice you are making and im glad ure even considering it. thank you. :)
im staying home on a saturday, one reason, she's celebrating her mommy's bdae, frens are out with their other halves and im down with runny nose, almost fluish....so here i am, not studying, cracking brains for my tees....tonight t-shirt printing night at the mini factory....haiqal, ud been getting ur t-shirt very soon. hope to see ur artwork soon. and if the bill fits, itll go an t-shirts.
its one of those weekends when everyones bz except me, well actually naz asked me out to skate but it was raining and i wasnt feeling too good to skate. tumoro yan is getting married, today yanto's bdae.
yani gave me the mouse she bought bcos it wouldnt work on her pc or laptop, it worked on mine, thanks yani and thanks for burning me that clockwork orange video.
sayang, hope to see u tumoro.....love ya.
hallucinations
coming november, hallucinate clothing company... watch out for their sick tees. locally designed & printed on quality made in mexico tees. give your local products support...heh! anyways hallucinate tees will be available mid-november at demonicspeed.blogspot.com
annie, see ya tumoro....so u talked to stimgas already...hahah adil sound like uncle2 hehehe.....farnie
fridae jalan, late at night t-shirt factory.
saturdae shoe fair cum foto session cum hunt for polaroids.
sunday revise bio and finish up projects.
boy im a busy guy......
starhub starbright...
well......i know im gonna sms a whole lot more as one of the reason i have a whole lot more frens now....each time theres a skate trip, im going to be sms-ing to around 6-7peeps....and whats more....i now have a sayang to layan.....so the readjusted mobile plan that is of 300sms and 80free outgoing is certainly not enough for someone like me with a wide network of frens...
i just had to swop plans....being a student, i took full advantage of my current status.....i downgraded to a student mobile plan. the amazing thing is, i pay about $4 less and i get 1000sms plus 100mins free outgoing.......it is definitely worth the $10 downgrading fee......now i can msg more to my sayang....and i can organize more skating trips without worrying of a larger bills, maybe larger but 700 more free smses does make a huge difference......yeayness.....
sayang, prepare for more sms-es from me......hurhurhur.....kla gotta go do my work....see ya late peeps....ouh man, the song on my frenster is so groovy dat i feel like swaying my body to it....well u wouldnt want to witness that...hurhurhurh....
i had to pass...
skating is my drug but i have responsibilities as well.....the urge to skate today is fucken great, the feeling of landing tricks and the laughters along with frens and just plain rolling down the streets amidst the moonlight.....but i just have to resist...cos tumoro i have lab in the morning...and i have to prepare...im weak in bio, if i come unprepared id be lost at the lab session.....and i dont wanna be sleepy in class and miss out pointers and i have some research and tutorial to complete.....sorry guys, next time maybe....perhaps u guys join me sundays? im getting darker as weeks gone by, cos of the super hot sun on sundays...hurhurhur....but hey, my passion for skateboarding.....just overides all those.....hope my sayang dont mind a slightly tanned sid....
i find that i miss u lots...hurhurhur....
soon babe, soon friday will come.....:)
i cleared my skills test.....yeayness...i can answer almost all of the questions that was given, though a couple of mini mistakes but i think i did fairly well.....im loving the song on my frenster, its by the teh-tarik crew featuring gerhana ska cinta....the song on my blog is also by GSC. like?
hmmm.......im loving life.....
adil fetched me just now at 5+pm...in search for a new board....sorry sayang last minute plan, couldnt ask u along......we ended up at sheikh's store cos go-sports were closed and bobo's stock haven't arrive......little-sheikh was uber frenly and adil got a city-skateboards board....mike maldonado pro model...nice...concaves and all.....enjoy ur new board tonight adil!
i love that toy-machine board but too bad ive already bought mystery 2 weeks ago...
gotta go.....sambil2 do tutorial, research, bio, and msn with my sayang ...multi-tasking ....hurhurhur.....u guys should employ me!
rindu
aku rindu kau....:)
had about 2hrs of skating with shaun...and derrick i guess thats his name...
that kid derrick have been trying to ollie up the low kerb ever since i started skating sundays...thats like more than 3weeks...today he did it, with shaun's nagging....
i, i 'tyco-ed' an ollie manual, i landed sketchy kickflips and i made a new fren, riduan, more sunday mornings skate frens.....i think, my determination will pay off.
tumoro skills test...hmmm.....hope my classmates will spot out any mistakes i do in the morning so i wont do it during the test at 3pm....
i feel like meeting my annie, ntahla cam rindu gitu.....and i tot of going down sungei road looking for polaroid cams....if they have....i think, ill jus head to the barber, have a haircut and go home, rest and prepare for tumoro....we'll see.....
anyways, annie going to learn to cook....yeayness......
im craving for.....another new era, a polaroid and my annie everyday...hurhurhur....
few hours ago...
it was few hours ago ard 10pm when i read something in the tiny msn dialogue box that made me happy cos what i read meant hope. the main thing is, she is willing, the parents, the rest can wait.
i dunno why i think so far cos im always afraid along the way something mightve happen but i guess i got so much faith in this one that from the beginning knowingly of the problems that mightve arise i still step in and go on with it.
got the 2 tees from boy-eizhar just now.....paid him 19bucks and i got a 2 nice plain 3As tees up for printing next friday....wat design i don't know yet.....hmmm for all u know, i might just print another santa-cruz or something
haiqal told me not to get polaroids from clubsnap, he told me a secret place where i might land myself a polaroid for like 2-3times cheaper....i think ill drop by sometime after school.....yeayness...next time can snap polaroids with my sayang....but the turn off is $34 for a catridge of 20shots....thats uber ex......but hey...for the fun of it..
i think ill go sleep....i guess annie's asleep but her msn is still on....
ratatouille
ratatouille....was our first outing together...well its not as if we've not met before, its just the first one....if you know wat i mean....ok to the movie, was a great one, farnie and a little touching which i cant believe a cartoon could have....the graphics was great, the story line, ok-ok.....overall i would rate 5mentos...bcos i was only eating mentos in the cinema just now.....
hmmm, me and annie......i think...yeah...we're it....well....
i think we'll have more outings together.....fun outings....
anyways guys, sorry i cant skate cos ive already booked the tickets on thursday and i already made plans with annie and i didnt expect u all to skate fridays cos usually many cant make it on a friday.....next time maybe yeah? and im sorry adil i couldnt reply ur msgs bcos i was in the cinema.....:) nxt time we'll surf the concrete waves again....
go watch ratatouille....but i think evan almighty will be a whole lot better.....
hmmm
my hearts racing...i dunno...im nervous...hahahaha
hmmm....aiyah nvm la
anyways got a presentation tumoro....n im not really prepared...i mean my ppt all done, except, its me....hmmm gotta be finalize my 'speech' and dazzle the class as always hurhurhurhur...
bz gotta go, just a short one today....
anyways, see u tumoro annie....
veterans division
due to work commitments, etc...its rare that we can get together on the same day to skate. some of us work shifts, some have to wake early the next morning for office, some like me on course studying and some have to tend to their shop. yesterday was the rarest day that 14skaters came just to have fun and live their passion of skateboarding, pro or lousy(like me) we were all having fun.....our fun was short-lived when the cops came.....the lights were not supposed to be on and our names were taken down and being submitted to mcys i dunno for wat fuck....yesterday was not the only night the lights were on....apparently we were the unlucky ones...to be found skating after the opening hours...it was major, 9cops i guess.....most of us, lost our mood to ride last night.....we rode awhile in the dark....before deciding to stop and have supper at prata place just after botanic gardens...
cool hang out, cool makan but not all la....the maggi adi,mimi and adil had sucks... ratnor had this cool maggie hidden inside prata...or should i say maggi filled prata.
naz had tissue plus hersheys....the drinks were ubber cool, blended rambutan, longan, etc....we chilled, talked, joked, had last cup of teh each before heading home. i felt a little tired and im grateful adil drove yest, enjoy the aircon and the same time made me really2 want to get a class3......
hmm though our flames of passion were kinda distinguished by the cops yest but it went ablaze shortly after....even now, im thinking of scouting for generators for lights or manufacturing companies to make us grind rails....aiyah many tots la...
cant believe these old birds, ranging from 24-30+ years old still have the passion to skate after all these years.....
okok so-so
my test was ok-ok la except for my careless mistakes...but i think i can easily get a C or B.......
im half-dead now....but i want to skate tonight....its rare that i can get almost all the guys together in one day to skate together2....i dunno la...tonights session is more like me relieving off some stress and celebrate the end of one paper and more to come...hurhurhur...
hmmm im just wondering though this few days....bout something..hurhurhur...
when ure in love....
no not love those mushy2 cinta2 katun....
its love for something....macam skateboarding....
was supposed to skate with osman, shaun, adi and yanto.....but osman couldnt make it, yanto have a game of soccer and adi work....shaun, well poor turnout....i tot id pass, no skating this week....relax....but i just had to try my new mystery board....my feet itched....i wiggled in bed for about half hour before i decide to shower and go skating myself.....
so i was at somerset at 10am under the hot sun....put my deck down....and pop an ollie....god, the trucks suck... its the bushings...the bushing suck...i cant tighten it....to cut the story short, grindkings stock bushings suck....but hell yeah it can grind.... i did 50-50s most of the time with no problem...no stalls...the only thing is, i had trouble pulling off.....ive got a mini improvement....almost landed that heelflip...but terbalik... ala by luck one...i hope with new bushings i can pull it off....i was frustated though, unable to pull off the 50-50s and ollie up that probably 3-4decks high ledge....i forgot what i initially wanted to try, late shove its, no complys and boneless.... urrghhh forgot again my objectives....next round.....
class starts at 11am on tuesday and wednesday....im tempted to skate at night....monday night or tuesday night....i hope the guys are skating on either days.
i badly wanna ollie up that ledge.....and try what ive been having on my mind....
ok lets switch subjects....revision not going so well....2days and not maximised... im not satisfied with my performance...i mean, revising...i can 'vomit' out the info... i hope tumoro goes well, im aiming for a B at least.....i dont want any Cs this semester....im staying optimistic....
im staying optimistic with other stuffs too.....i hope things work out....ive never had this kind of attention for quite a long time....although theres differences that we cant avoid, im staying optimistic.
i despise 2-timers....and shame on you, i regarded u as my own sister and i dont know why you have to be the same like the rest....and whats more your attitude towards it.
trust
a major issue in part of my life.....my level of trust has been damaged along my timeline of life.....from even at a tender young age.....ppl around me display acts of deception, lies and many alike......and in my adolescent stage i got into a few relationships that really betrayed my trust. nursing helped me gain some back again... i learn alot from nursing and i hope nobody will try to destroy what im building again.
i trust very few people and when i put that trust i hope they wont take advantage of it.
i think again and again im fated to do psychiatry....some or another it helps me, my mental health and i know itll help me along my journey in life. in life, physical strength is just a part of it, the other part is psychological strength.
and all that has happened in the past has made me psychologically stronger.....
satudyday....
today supposed to be my final revisions day....no going out, deprive myself of entertainment and focus....but im ubber lazy and im itching to join haiqal and the lomo peoples to shoot......but the angle in me told me, "sid ure running low on cash even if u follow them shooting you could probably develop your films only next week and sid you have a blardy theory test on monday mind you...." ouh yeah he's pretty harsh at times but he has to do it to discipline me.
yeay i had alot in mind after yesterdays conversations.....we were talking about wat to do if we go out....tons of ideas.....and boy aka eizhar is gonna teach me rollerblading so i can show off and teach annie...hurhurhur....we were talking about mini bikes too.. i wonder if they would really get one.....i think i will most probably get one when i start my real job....got more money to spend mah......i was suggesting having a race at the multi-storey carpark......i like ppl who like to try new things and not stick around within their 'cube' in their comfort zone onli....life is more colourful when you explore, do different things and meet different people....thats i love 'people' job. you know what i mean, macam sales, teaching, nursing.....its alot less boring...
then desk bound jobs...where u stare at the screen for 8hours or more.....well it depends la but if its doodling its fun too...
i cant wait to have all the fun....but in order to have all those, i have to get good grades first and make sure ramla(IMH-HR) says "ya ive seen ur grades, pretty good!" again.....hehehehe (eksyen la tu...)
talking to chinese girl in malay
its farnie.....we've been trying to have conversations in malay...of course, i end up as the teacher......hurhurhur...but kinda fun actually.....
mystery shirt
i will fit into my mystery shirt again.
i will fit into my mystery shirt again.
i will fit into my mystery shirt again.
i will fit into my mystery shirt again.
i will fit into my mystery shirt again.
i will fit into my mystery shirt again.
i will fit into my mystery shirt again.
i will fit into my mystery shirt again.
i will fit into my mystery shirt again.
i will fit into my mystery shirt again.
things fell into place
ive been recieving alot of attention lately, nope its not that i wear thongs everywhere i go....its a different kind of attention, one i felt years ago....
and i tell u, the feeling is great.......she said the same too.
again as usual, theres always a problem amidst the joy......and for once is a totally new problem, religion, the differences, race i believe isnt a problem.
i asked my classmate who is rather close to me, we bitch about stuffs over msn and sometimes we spill over to personal issues, well she said, if it were her, she wouldnt mind changing, shes a dumbass when it comes to this matter....its easier for her to say cos she's sort of a free-thinker.....
i asked a fren of mine also....ouh shes a muslim....she says dont waste my time if the other party has no intention...
sigh but then again....i got other things to worry like completing my final year of nursing and skateboarding....well not really worry bout skateboarding more like whens the next session dudes...my legs itching to pop kuih lopez.....hurhurhur....
hmm i was watching teevee with mommy, when i saw the animation of gila makan, looks very familiar, can recognise whose work is it....if its not hers then the designer have very similar style...niceness....
speaking of niceness, ive stumbled upon the cartoon, somebody drew years back...i still love it and im gonna have it printed on a tee soon nuff when i have cash for tees.......
ive gotta go....finish up assignments.....my classmates trust me to do my work and i will not betray my trust....well its more about responsibility.
speaking of responsibility, im sorry guys i cant attend the celebration on sunday, i have to study for monday's test, i hope to do well...i really hope so...ive planned my sort of timetable....morning skate and be back by 3pm for final revisions, sleep soundly before midnight and be ready for the test on monday....its not that i dont want to join u guys...u guys too mean alot to me but i have a responsibility to myself and to my friends who signed the bond with me that trusted me to study and do well.....:)
thnks adil
thnks frens for wanting to help me just now....it was such a silly mistake, i learnt my lesson....
before the test on monday, i told myself, i will not get myself a new deck until payday if i dont get an A....I got a C....
monday i went scouting for decks....but turns out i didnt find something, i really2 like and prices was steep.....
tuesday aku degil....and stupid me tot my ledger balance could be used......i went to tony's get what i wanted and when i was about to pay, declined.....turns out i cant use my ledger yet but i do have 60bucks...i was short of $35. so i called my closest of frens....from shahreil, jabrul, adi, and adil...and some of them could not be reached due to work and stuffs....adi was at work, shahreil had no spare, shahrul too and he's at home, adil was at IMM and he had spare...phew.....thnk adil for saving me....i have spare cash at home, i been trying to save some spare cash......luckily indeed i put aside 50bucks at home with the intention to start a savings.....sigh but i have to use it.....but my coin bank is still untouched...i shall refrain from using it...unless i really have to....right now, i got $75 to survive on until the 25th......that makes about 10days.....saturday i wont be spending any money....and if i keep to less than 7bucks a day, i can make it...petrol pumped already, so shouldnt be a problem. alhamdullilah......syukur.....
ive got another problem in mind actually....but i guess it wouldnt be a problem as time goes by(i hope so).......its regarding race and religion......
hmm
C for my research test...damn....english so chim....
annie, you made my day.....:)
im struggling with scripts for role-play!
a new deck is going to burn holes in my pocket cos of the price hike....hope tony still have those 74bucks decks....
films are going to burn holes as well cos ive bought over a lomocolorsplash from haiqal and i have the intention to participate and submit some fotos for the event 'tikam-tikam'.
i think i will need new brake pads and tyres soon...that will burn some more holes....
i think.....hehehe ar
today i got a time limit set. im supposed to sleep by 1 am.
maybe thats why the fragmented sentences.
i envy adi and the guys surfing concrete at somerset tonight.
sori sheikh i love that zero or mystery but im tight on budget.
annie reminded me that fasting coming....13th september.
since she reminded, she must come jalan raya with me..heh!
gnite peeps. cheerios....
eksyen time.....
all this DIY....thnks boy for the equipments and help...and shahreil for the heroes and im going to reprint veterans division cos im not satisfied....
drive
no, not that kinda drive where u get ur lazy ass on the comfy seat behind the wheel....its the drive, the motivation.....yest we had a skate session.....the 1st drive was when yanto brought 2 more frens to skate along......more frens more fun....we skated to somerset skatepark.......2nd drive, the lights were on.......ok when we got there, got a little discouraged cos there were many kids around.....my 3rd drive was i finally manage to lock in my trucks in 50-50 but the only problem is pulling off, ending the 50-50.......the final drive was.......one of tony's pal...salleh....ok lemme explain his features first.....simple, he's just like me, same height and overweight....but man, he was good.....he nose manual like nobody's business and he grinds from end to end... i thought to myself, if he can be so good, why not me? maybe not as good but half as good is ok with me.....its all in the mind...
and practise, lots of practise....
and i was thankful enough that adi bought the wheels...at least i got some extra cash.....although i would want to get wheels later and probably a new board....adi said tony's selling the old models at $76 including grips...its a steal....hmmm but i still think id get power-lytes at go-sports or maybe the hook-ups off ebay, we'll see.......next pay, next pay....now i need to worry about my bike installment, maintanence and bills. ill use my current board till its got no pop......
apart from the good times....my gluteals and quads aches.......it hurts pretty bad at my ass, i guess i got that from the fall trying to land on 2 wheels.......i hope i recover soon so that i can skate again sunday morning with hafiz....i just wanna try that higher ledge....been on the low one for so long....and i wish to land my kickflip....adi already landed a couple of time....and perfect my inconsistent halfcab, learn no-comply and boneless....pretty ambitious...cant help it la....im super hyped...hahahah...thanks to that salleh guy.....
meanwhile id rest my butt and write the script for our roleplay for the group project on patient-practitioner-relationship and study for research-method test on monday....
ouh btw sorry haiqal i cant make it today...my ass really hurts....LoL
and to simon who ordered the items but decided to disappear.....fuck ya....dont yaya next time want to order this and that, in the end disappear.....lucky adi bought the wheels...and the bearings, ill save it for my new set up next month....
ouh im selling my red DCs, any takers? US9......cheap2 la.....$55 worn once only
life is like skateboarding
ok so i woke up early at 8am...slack a little, grab 2slices of choc bread, showered and headed to the skatepark. i just felt like skating and thats that, so i went.
it was hot, its the 10am sun.....got a couple of bladers, bmxers and a skater...i just did my stuff, skate around, grind, ollies, flips...just practising my stuffs... i saw this guy struggling to ollie...so i decided to lend a hand and give him a couple of tips....he managed to ollie but his confidence wasnt there just like me at most times.... isnt it kinda like life, someone can tell u so many things but ultimately its up to u...u call the shots...u land the trick...not anyone else.
i guess sundays skating going to be a regular affair....this girl came down, earphones stuck on her ears, she skated, pivoted the ramps, she was pretty good for a girl if i were younger id ask her for her number..heh.....
anyways i stopped in betweens, rest, then occasionally pointing out to shaun his mistakes and giving him encouragements and even helped him to tighten the bolts, hes just a kid bah...skateboarding really broke barriers.....so i continued again, this ang moh came with his kids, frenly chap....then came two guys all dressed up, they looked like they are good....okla not bad, can tailslide considered good...and ended up exchanging numbers, they skate sundays too to avoid the crowd....yeayness now i have pals on sundays to skate with in the morning.....the only bad thing i can foresee is....me getting tanned and dark like budak pulau...hahahahah.....
i was resting, then i noticed my board is splitting up....ugghhh i guess soon i gonna have to buy a new board and sheikh helping me to order power lytes....yeayness again....i think ill not be taking the tee-shirt, i think i would ask him to give me discount on the board instead....yeayness number 3!.......
i think i theres very slim chance that i will quit boarding...its already like a drug. i need to skate......ease off stress a little and provide a little exercise...
ouh one more thing, circa rocks....i think ill just use my dc for skool and other non skating activities.....circa makes skateboarding much more comfortable and does not compromise the feel as well....yeayness again....the only thing is the arch-support, having flat feet sucks.....
ouh gotta hang out my clothes to dry....cee yah amigos...
decisions galore foc
im still contemplating.....whether to work at sheik's store or not. i know itll be fun and i know i can squeeze in revisions while working if i bothered and i know i could use the money to pay for my bills and perhaps give mom more. theres simply more advantages being compared to several much lesser disadvantages but disadvantages that weighs rather heavily. 1.disadvantage-my life daily only starts after the stores close-i meant freedom to roam around and do what i want. 2.i have to come up with a major time table and to stick to it in order to keep everything in order, meaning my studies and all. i have to stick to the time-table no exceptions as one exception would lead to another. thats pretty much it, 2 disadvantages but major ones. and the second one is rather risky, if i can discipline myself there wont be a problem. if i take up the job i hope my frens would understand when they hear alot of 'No' from me. its not that i dont want to probably i just cant. hmm we'll see...
2nd major issue.....my teevee passed on........sob sob...hey wait a minute, great excuse to get LCD!!!!
3rd major issue X8-400 or not.......
taa......wana go skating....cheerios....
stereotypical idiots
we are merely humans and some humans just cant help but to stereotype certain type of people. each and everyone is unique. and all of us are merely humans, we make mistakes and unless those mistakes repeatedly occur over a period of time those mistakes are purely mistakes. but some people have already put that sticky label on the the victim's forehead with adhesive stronger than 3M quality. poor chap being discriminated, being stereotyped lifelong for his one-time mistake. bcos of his one-time mistake ppl judge and be wary when in his presence and they talk and stab when he is not around. however this individual is not dumb, so he played along but soon self-fulfilling phenomena becomes a reality and in the long run the individual start to behave the way the rest expect him to be and soon he becomes the despised, the shunned.
if there is such a someone, i would tell him, its not the end of the world. as long as your heart pumps blood to your organs and that includes ur brain, use it to start afresh, come up with a plan for your life. the more you think, the more brain cells are being used, the smarter you get. you can say the brain cells has a similarity to that of your brawn, your muscles.....similarly don't overly stress it at the same time just like the muscles it will breakdown and become diseased or injured that's when you can be 'checked-in' to where ill be working in a years time. hurhurhur.....
job board shop
landed myself a part-time job at a boardshop, alhamdullilah.....can earn some dough....God is great.
worrying facts
taken from the straits times online:
July 25, 2007
Youths at high risk of dangerous sexual practices
YOUNG Singaporeans are becoming more sexually active and it seems they may be practicing dangerous sexual practices.
That's according to a survey by pharmaceutical company Bayer Schering Pharma Singapore and Youth.SG an online youth portal.
The study showed that 13 per cent of youths aged between 16 and 23 are sexually active.
Within this group, 4 per cent have multiple partners.
The sexual health survey, conducted between April and June this year covered 600 youths.
While many participants indicated a high awareness of safe sex practices, it seems that there is still a high chance that those who are sexually active do not use proper protection.
Of the sexually active lot, 23 per cent said they did not use any contraceptive methods and only half said they use condoms.
A mere six per cent said they were on birth control pills.
Health experts say that a combined condom and oral contraceptive sexual responsibility approach is necessary in order to tackle high abortion rates and sexually transmitted disease cases.
From 2001 to 2005, there was an average of 1,500 teen abortions every year, making up about 12 per cent of total abortions annually.
In a separate survey conducted by the Ministry of Health in March, it was discovered that 678 youths aged 10 to 19 had sought help for sexually transmitted diseases - a spike from the 256 figure recorded in 2001.
With an upward trend of harmful sexual practices among Singaporean youths, health experts and government officials are seeing a need to educate teens about the right practices and means to protect themselves from unwanted pregnancies and STDs.
Parliamentary Secretary of the Ministry of Community Development, Youth and Sports Teo Ser Luck said: 'We'll continuously engage MOE to come up with different educational programmes and projects and make it a bit more structured within the schools and also for the young people.'
However, he added that parents were ultimately the best people to talk to their children about initmate issues, such as sex.
One of the initiatives targeted at educating young people was the 'Say Yes!' to sexual responsibility cartoon design contest which involved participants from tertiary institutes.
Organised by Youth.SG and Bayer, the contest's objective was to highlight the various misconceptions youths had about sex.
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BELOW IS NOT TAKEN FROM ANYWHERE.
having fun-merely humans.
careless fun-dumb & ignorant humans.
'accidents' and 'eliminating' it-both combined makes u a monster.
have sex-ok, being careless & ignorant-ur pasal, eliminating lives?-try taking ur own instead.
Ia menghantui fikiran ku....
korang ingat apa?....takda la...cuma gian nak skate jer.....ada good and bad news la regarding skate......bad news, i cant help ds3 to get the stocks of wheel sets for our frens like adisam and mimi-siku......will get them next month....shipment will be in then....and the good news....mann bought grindkings last week...he used over the weekends and it doesnt suit him, so he got a pair of indys and now he's selling me the GKs at only 30bucks and i promised him id pay end of the month....heheheh great deal, couldnt resist the offer....GKs are my favourite trucks.....
i just completed my mental-health assignment, gonna edit a couple of stuffs before going to bed.....im opting for an xray somewhere end of next month after everything settled down....just curious...and probably a stitch up.....cheerios...good night...
old age....
hmm....i was telling my fren, if i get terminally ill after 50 or 60 i think i dont care already.....last night my imagination ran wild, i was wondering if i became ill or paralyzed like my grandfather, would my wife or children still take care of me lovingly, would my wife still be devoted to me?
i still remembered when i teared at my atuk's funeral......i remembered how he loved me, how he showered me with love although i only get to meet him weekends or during the school holidays. i cried because i know id miss him and i cried because when i grown up and have many friends i forgot all about him. my grandfather passed away at home when i was outside skateboarding with my friends back when i was 18 or 19..I cant recall. He was down with CVA also known as stroke, his right side of his body was paralyzed, he moved around on wheelchair or his arm crutches. he was lucky to have my grandmother who still take cares of him back then. i was still young, i never really observed if his children took care of him with love.
sometimes you just cant help but to think of the future. i think wen i meet someone to share my life with, my proposal statement would go something like this "will u take care of me if i am bed bound or wheel chair bound when im old?" then only i will ask "will u marry me.." LoL
nursing changed me, my mindset, some of my character and principles in life. i realised how precious life is and how Islam comes into the picture. why are there certain do's and dont's.
i worry for some of my frens, i do worry for myself too but i can only do so much. i can provide information but thats that, its up to them ultimately. many issues still remain a taboo, still is uncomfortable yet important to discuss about. some issues are still attached to meanings like masculanity which the ego refuses to eliminate.
sometimes i pray i have the strength but sometimes i too am swayed by emotions, greed and desires, after all we are only human. and human is what im becoming....
yes, im becoming more human, thats what i feel. i was ignorant, really ignorant. talk is easy, doing is way tougher than talking or thinking about what you wanna do. im sorry if i sound like im whining but its just one of those days when you do self-reflection and you realize what you really are, what you are made of and who you really want to be. im sure you all have one of those days too.....
Price Hike
Im feeling the pinch.....the hike in everything that involves money is starting to take effect.....i was shocked, it was daylight robbery when the insurance company mentioned of the increase in their premiums. last year i only paid around less than $300 but this time around it shot up to $440 and after my NCD it is $400....that sure burn a hole in my pocket, not mentioning the road tax which is $80 and service charge of $5.....i deposited $50. which means i have to fork out another $435.... im lucky that DS3 brought me a little income...shaun paid me $36 for bearings just now and tommorow im expecting $90 from simon. that certainly would help me a little. and if a supplier refunded me for the items that never reached me, everything would be a little better, id be able to breathe a little easier...else you can expect me to loose a couple of kilos this month....heh!
weekended
the week has come to an end....great week....taxing school stuffs but ended on friday with a great skate-session and on saturday simpsons and in between on tuesday fingerboarding....my knees alot better except i can hear the chipped meniscus in between my cartilage, it goes click....but its ok....rainy the whole week, suppose to skate today....
hmm...anyone wants new era caps? i wanna order....anyone? ok gotta do some revision on bio while i download loads of skate-podcasts on itunes.....cheerios....i love simpsons.....
Ollie
My new toy!
Gua dah bleh ollie babe kat finger board yng baru sampai...blom consistent but getting the hang of it.......hehehehe cool...
shoes galore
ok never in my life have i bought 3 shoes in one week....3 skate shoes.....well actually one was pre-owned. adil rarely worn his circa and i was in need of skate shoes and he needs a set of new wheels...so we did a trade, shoes with wheels and 20bucks, a great deal for both of us actually....i got a pair of circas for about $60 while he got a set of wheels plus abec7 bearings that would've probably cost him at least $60 in shops and on top of that $20 top up.
ok so i got myself a pair of shoes already but then....adil told me, quiksilver having a sale and DC shoes were going at 50% off. well, i tot id buy myself a pair to keep as spares as skateboarding really wears off ur shoes fast. so i bought myself a pair of josh kalis on thursday evening after school. it was the best skate shoe i had so far and it was 50% of its original price. a great shoe for just $84.90 is a great deal! i wore it the next day to school...
i wanted to get another pair....just for spares but i didnt have the money, pays not in yet....and then the conversation with man-black brought in the dough i needed...we were talking about life and i told him, i just started skating again a few months back and turns out he wanted to skate too and he needs a new set up....wooohoo....i sold my zero wheels to him. and so i got enough money for another pair of DCs....ended up going to pacific plaza with mann-black and we ended up buying the same model...hurhur
so there goes my third shoe....
i followed mann to collect his deck after that...skated awhile at the void deck before heading home....im happy as a hippy, 3 shoes and 1 more skate fren! wats more, he lives in woodlands, not far away and that means i can skate with him if everyone else is busy. i also envy mann, because his wife is so understanding....she let him race RCs once....and now skate....coolness....
WoooHOooooo BOWL skating anyone?
Im in a hurry to go for 8am lessons but i just have to let out the news before i leave for school! Anew skate park is on the way, come 2008. I just gotta learn to drop in or skating bowl will just remain a dream. Early 2008 will be a dream come true if i manage to overcome my fear of dropping in.......cheerios....drool boys....and shahreil, this is a good excuse to start skating next year! hurhurhur...remember this, 'never too young to start, never to old to skate'
weird
im not slacking, well i was but i wasnt stressed and i wasnt relaxed either....u know i worry but im not doing anything... geez..
i dunno why la but todays very weird.....i felt like skating but i know i had to do bio.....then when i opened my text, i just couldnt concentrate....hmmm weird day.....yahnee told me...relax a little dont force yourself, those kinda things...yeah maybe i shouldnt....
anyways i occupied my later half of sunday playing around with the mini-tech deck i found unopened in my toy box.....but i suck at it...and am really tempted to get the 96mm one on ebay........the videos on youtube made me nuts and i wanted to learn to do those tricks......hahahaha...
damn i feel like taking my board and join the rest at the skatepark...boohoo i have an early lecture tumoro....uggghhh...
neuro nuts...
biology, interesting but tough as hell especially when it comes to neurology...the studies of the brain....i have to resort to associating parts of the brain to other parts of my body in order to remember them bcos of likeness for example i will call my pair of testicles cerebellum from now on...cos the cerebellum does look like a man's nuts including the sacs...hurhurhur....anyways, i can, i will pull through definitely.....and i'll try to get an A in bio dis time...no more Bs for bio!
small world....turns out the client that had engaged shahreil's services was indeed my fren.....so turns out i'd be shooting their wedding video...and im going to suprise them on sunday....hurhurhur......im sure they would go..."sid...kau the back up cameraman???" hurhurhur....anyways congrats zul & caca....
haiqal is lomo crazy....trigger happy ass is crazy with film cameras that he asked me to bid on 3 rolls of probably expired film from the UK that will cost him more than 15SGD.....told him to get an SLR....hehehe....im sure my auntie will kill me if she knows what im inspiring him to get....hurhurhur....
u know wat im feeling right now? the itch to skate....damn....i think ill wait till tumoro night.....ill find someone to accompany me...probably shaun/adil/nas/ratno? if none, then i'll pass, ill just skate some other day.....
my shipment is late....and customers is getting impatient...ugggh....darn suppliers.. cant those bearings reach me in time?...i need the cash.... for next month's insurance....
Urrghhh....
hmmm
when i took up the offer to help shahreil shoot the wedding video about a month ago, i didnt feel worried or anything, in fact i thought itll be easy.....but as the day approaches....im nervous and worried....i mean its a wedding video, not skate video, not for fun birthday video or anything else....its a once in a life-time kinda thingy for the couple......hmmm well, id give my best and itll be my first job shooting wedding videos....i hope everything goes well and perhaps i could do more if im comfortable with it....wish me luck!
progression plus fall
skate session hours ago...probably my last for these few monts to come, no more free time except weekends, too much projects, assesments and coursework.
it was great just now, accomplished something new.....halfcab....though at slow speed, it was satisfying....my ollie was more consistent and so was my shuv it....only upset, was the drop in....i tried once, sprained my shoulders and the phobia sits in... urrgghh...ill be back....i hope next week i can skate but i know i couldnt....ill be back definitely but not so soon...ouh one more great thing, the lights at the skatepark were on and it was great.....i hope they keep it that way, let it on at least until 3am...i got this goals to achieve.....a clean 50-50...higher halfcab and more courage....hurhurhurhur.....no pain no gain homie....
oright....gonna hit the sheets...shagged...got class at noon tumoro....adios...
baybeats line up
indieheads, go wank urself, majority line up are emo-er indie......why organizers? cant you balance a little, why must you make a ball heavier? wont it make ur scrotum stretch on one side? favourism conquers all....
skate sessions
it was the usual skate session yest......got a new pal to join us, sheikh. it was great yest, except that we were a little uncomfortable at first, skating with someone whos good but it was fine...... nothing special happened yest, except i almost pulled off a fifty2 clean, i wasnt really all out yest, dunno why, probably tired but overall a-ok, except the security had to come out before we warmed up enough to try that grass gap.....damn...anyway next time, i hope we can skate without disturbances...
my schedules were being changed for next week...and sad nuff, i have no oppurtunity to skate nights....damn...i have to find a pal who can skate with me weekends day-time. wonder who yeah......and where...thats the thing....i dont wanna skate where theres many others and it becomes more of a 'jemputan' kinda thing....hahaha
anyways i dunno wat to write anymore...cheers...
ouh did i mention i already watched transformers yest with my 2younnger siblings... it was cool....awesome but had a little confusing fight scene and a little different from the cartoons....they bots can actually switch and choose whatever machines or cars they chose to be, the take up the shape and thats how.....go watch dah...hahaha
adios peeps....wheels and bearings coming in...im like a mama shop waiting for the kids to buy kaka n chickadees off my shelfs...
skateboarding.sg
ive done revamping skateboarding.sg myspace site....in return sheikh giving me a tee-shirt...ouh my job doesnt end there, just maintain...any invites and so for, aiyah ok la....ouh did i mention i get to choose the t-shirt? hehehe...hmmmmm hope they have my size....anyways comment on the site please and add on if ure interested>>skateboarding.sg-myspace
Our nearest neighbour in action...GABAN...
muakaka, background music lepak....but great skateboarding...
shopping ass
my intention of leaving home was to meet sheikh and come to an agreement of what he was going to give me for maintaining skateboarding.sg's blog and myspace. initially he promised, a t-shirt and 10% discount at his store...i wanted to ask for monthly basis, not much right? but sheikh was a little late and i had to move off.
sheikh have a couple of cool stuffs...but not to my liking...probably its catered to the new skool skaters....
anyways, i roamed off to times marina square, in search of any skatemag that featured go-skateboarding day 07 but they had none, just like at Jelita's times....ugggh....its either sold out or the management refuse to order skatemags...watever it is, i think they are losing out to borders....but the reason i went there cos i have 15bucks voucher....i wondered around to a couple of surf shops, nice new era DC but whooping price tag...99bucks for a cap, its nice but im not yet a fan of new era, so better get myself some lower end first, see if i like wearing NEs.....town sucked, crowded and not much things to my liking, the DC jeans had 30% off which meant i had to pay ard 80bucks but the logo suck...it make one look like some matreps wearing those evisu jeans bought at bugis village....
so i roamed off...forgeting that my petrol had already ran low....i had no choice but to exit at queensway(bedek!) i pumped petrol at esso before heading home(bedek again!) when i saw queensway and decided to make a stop....i went to miz29 tried NEs but none to my liking except the yokohama, kinda cool...so i told the salesperson, 'bro, aku gi atas dulu ar ngok2..' i tried on the same cap, that the hip-hop teddy bear recommend....felt funny, felt fake....so i went down again....this time to limited store and saw these kool nike sb tees....but my belly proudly made its appearance on the size L t-shirt....not sexy, really not sexy....'ummm miss, got any XLs?' .....nope they dont have...and i tot to myself Nike is an american brand why cant i fit into Ls? its either ive grown or the t-shirt's fake....muakakak takmo tuduh2 ar....then i made my trip back to miz29..... finally the bro, took out all designs he could find, even those hidden in the cupboards......and i ended up purchasing my first new era, a stussy new era....coolness, i like....65bucks off my pockets but i like....it said 75 on the tag but i bargained...
my 'adventure' did not stop there....i limped as i jaywalked quickly across the road, i tot to myself this is bad....monday's skool starting and i hate everyone asking me what happen....anyways....started my bike, big grin on my face....i was about to go home, instead of a left turn to AYE, i accidentally u-turned(bedek again!) i ended up at go-sports, i dunno how....and i ended up getting a lakai t-shirt which again i bargained down from 39.90 to 38bucks......ok thats it i said to myself no more accidental turns....so i went to the bike shop finally to change the engine oil and filter....i went to the one at bukit batok cos i was lazy to ride to kallang.....the auntie...wahlau wear so sexy....serious, she everytime wear sexy but today sexy less slutty... muakakakaka....again i bargained....from 33 to 32bucks and she gave me a packet of drink....ok.....woots...thats like 31.50 in total hehehe....
so here i am, home, sweaty, in my boxers, messaging my potential buyers on the forum....turns out to be ratnor....an ol-skool skater.....woots...another skate fren....coolness....and because i know him, i gave him a discount...40bucks instead of 42.....enjoy ur speed metals ratnor....and tuesday i hope u can make it....and skate with us...
change
ive decided to change my blog set up, since somehow or another, its not viewable at my fren's place....but farnie nuff its viewable at home....so i was just browsing, when my itchy finger decide to switch to the new template thingy instead of the usual troublesome html shit.....i clicked to the point of no return and so i have to choose one template....hmmm...im going light coloured this time...nuff of the darkside. i couldnt find any photos i like for the header.....found this off my biology files...cool white blood cell, best describes me....different, stick to my own principles, and i rush to the point of infections to fight them...hahah not literally la....but u know what i mean....okok im over-rating myself....so what, my blog, my pasal, dont like, dont read...muakakakakkaa....bila mau skate lagik geng? next week gua dah skola......(out of topic)
its funny.....
i slept at ard 6am after suboh......but i woke up before 9am.....i forced myself to sleep.....but i just couldnt....i know my eyes are tired...but somehow my mind wants me awake.....ugggh.....i look in the mirror...hmm no real visible dark rings....so does the aloe below the eye every night really works? i think so....
shahreil decided to forgo the go-sports trip.....ok la....at least he's saving me from spending....well if not on anything, petrol... thnks reil....
luka lama berdarah kembali....
hehehe tak tau la kalau tu macam kata pepatah....tapi nie realiti dod, luka lama berdarah kembali.....apa lagi skate la dod... gua kalau skate kalau tak jatuh cam tak cukup syarat....anyways power tremar skate smalam, walaupon ada slack skit pasal gua penat dan kaki kaku pasal parut baru nak kering kat lutut tu....adi-sam bawak members, mimi namanye.....trick ol skool semua dia buat dod....dah dia la yng kasi advice sampai gua ollie kembali dengan sempurna...muahahaha.....takut ar dod....takut nie mau kasi hilang buang jauh2....biar tanduk kuar, jin dok dalam papan gelunsur tu supaya gua bleh bergelunsur ngan sepurna...
gua agak eh.....gua takkan berhenti bergelunsur la.....once a week pon jadi ar dod.....tak skate macam tak cukup syarat tau... muahahahah.....
dan lagi satu gua ingat abec3s dah cukup setans....power tremar beb.....takyah la abec7 tu gua jual sua, dapat rezki bleh belik guler2....muahahah jadi skate mulut tak kering...
lazy bug
lazy bug sets in today.....probably cos of the two scabs on my knees....heheheh but tts just an excuse....i have sores all over serious...hehehe....probably i push myself too hard....gonna start reading on bio pretty soon....neuro next semester is pretty scary but can get pretty interesting....im not selling anything yet....i hope to sell something soon....its just extra income... and i cant wait for that bearings to arrive and ill be pampering myself with a new cap from NEW ERA!....heheh dunno wat size and which one to get yet....but i think ill get that black DC....heh....
no pain no gain part 2
i never heeded the pro's advice....that is if u feel ure gonna bail, let the board go.....but i was more focused to come over my fear that i forgot that very valuable advice....so here it is, no pain no gain the aftermath......it hurts...when i clean the wound with alcohol swabs especially just to make sure theres no germs.......
im never gonna skate at the void deck anymore....and i think ill wait till my speed demons arrive.....ugggghh
new blog/store in town
a new blog store in town, offering cheaper skate hardwares check out DEMONIC-SPEED-SKATE-SUPPLIES AKA DS3 support your un-blood-sucking local skateboard distro. cheerios!
spend again....
i spend again.....
movie, hot fuzz....well worth it, funny as hell....8bucks
food n drinks 4.20
new water bottle 5bucks
raincoat from daiso 2bucks
still ok la, lest than 20bucks....heh!
tumoro might spend more...hahaha...getting those bearings probably....either 2nd hand or new...
spirulina
the gst package will give me some extra cash to purchase some supplements for myself, being in the health industry and with many2 dieseases emerging...out of no where, i just have to take care of myself, make sure id still be kicking ass or rather balls when im 50.....i knew the goodness of spirulina but i just had to research further so that i wont feel the pinch to fork out cash for them.
i chanced upon this website, 'www.spirulina.com' and i think definitely im getting a bottle or two....one reason to keep me healthy, ive had enough of that 2week plus throat infection, i know i wasnt eating helathy....and i wasnt exercising and probably sleep too, i didnt had enough, thats why i was vulnerable.......i wanna do better this semester, make sure i dont fall ill, and make sure i get more than 1 As or at least a distinction, in my life, ive never had one....itll be an achievement to have one at least. and i wont be too hard on myself even if i dont get one, at least i know i tried....
anyways, do visit the website and probably many more websites as it is being studied worldwide for its goodness and if u think of getting a bottle urself, do tell me, so we can buy together2 then can get freebies and discount...hehehehe.....
mind over matter
i went shopping....forget to get super glue....but its ok......i got most of the stuff, and i got 5toothbrushes cos it was on sale 5 for 8.50, for oral-b its a steal....i too bought something for myself, just snacks....that chachos curry spicy was ultra delicious and banana milk, i just gotta have....heh....
i went skating again......this time round it was a case of mind over matter....i could very well do it.....if i focused and eliminate my phobia, phobia of busting my knee, getting injured in general......when i eliminate those, i ollied clean, no fumbles, clean as hell, i landed so confidently but when the fear or rather phobia sets in....i suck, big time.....i couldnt even do shove its that i used to do..... i could flip but i couldnt land cos i fear of fumbling and of course busting my knee...heh....and i still need music, lamb of god was the motivation just now....i tried weaning off my mp3 but i couldnt....i need the music to focus to eliminate fear......my knee bled again due to the other day's fall....the wound opened up a little but i know itd heal....
and ouh, i need new bearings...my bearings are busted.....and it suck when u got the momentum but u board just slowed down and the speed doesnt justify the height u need to conquer....so bearings it is, come sunday or monday when i get my pay, ill invest in a good set of bearings.....probably speed demons...they rock....
drools
looking at singaporebikes.com makes me drool....nope not babes, theres no boobs...oops i meant babes there, its a website for riders selling their bikes n stuffs n forum sharing views, opinions and knowledge...why i drool? the harleys on sale...damn.... im so drooling over them....can imagine me riding one with apehanger handlebars.....anyways, i kept telling myself and resisting the temptation.....i tell myself 'sid, ride ur gilly till at least next year august, then save up for a brand new harley, pay cash or at least half of it......or huge downpayment.....big monsters can wait dude....who knows a sleeker, angrier model of sportster hugger would be coming up....' hehehehe.....having the license to ride big fat ass bikes really draw u to these sites and really tempt u like...ummmm..heheh
today's mom's first day at work at NUH, i know she's bored at home....bored looking at someone's behavior...lazy to work...lazy to find a new job....sounds like me? nope...when it comes to work, i work, be it as a scruffy pizza boy or as a student-nurse presently......i never once dont work and rely on others...even when i went jobless....i find other means of income by selling stuffs online....selling freds bought from mustaffa, selling accessories, my old clothes....
i salute my mom....she raised me up alone before remarrying at my age 13, she worked and supported me since i was 2 and managed to put a roof over my head, our own flat, a 3-room flat, she managed everything.......i sometimes do regret, i never put in 100% effort in my studies.....im smart but im a little playful.....tts why i can pull through even though i skipped classes, i played truant, etc...but wenever i failed, thats when i realise then i pick myself up and buck up.....now i hope i do well in nursing, u know promotions and all......at least id make her happy....i know she always wanted to see her son being a someone, i know its her dream which ive yet to fullfill.......id want one day to bring her to holidays, drive her around and probably get nuff money to pay for her pilgrimage, thats the least i could do i guess....
and i miss my dad, i never really know him...cos i never live with him...well i did only for 2years of my life and i always wonder if he were with me, will he be a good father to me? i never had a dad by my side.....if i have children, id want to hear them say 'i love u dad'.....cos ive never said tt to my own dad.....
shopping....
tumoro im going shopping...nope not tt kind of shopping, more of needs, not wants.....shopping items for tumoro...
1.glucosamine
2.facial wash
3.tooth brush
4.cotton buds
5.jellonet
6.gauze
7.handiplast
location: watson's, bukit batok polyclinic pharmacy, guardian.
haiz....uwang...
temptation...to spend....uggghh.....i know i told myself, 1 month 50bucks at least....and i will do just that....i think i can ar... i know i can....but the temptation ar....wah lau....manyak susah...ada je menda nak belik.....kerana fikirkan nak sep duit, aku besok improvise skit la number plate blakang tu, takyah belik bracket ker, belik yng baru ker.....hmm ada idea...pakai plastic yng dari numberplate mounting yng lama....drill lobang....pasti boleh.....
haiz.....kalau total knee replacement tu bleh hutang kan best.......boring ar....takpe aku cuba akan perkuatkan kaki kiri aku nie... mungking nak belik tu menda yng physiotherapist pakai......tapi versi murah punyer ar.....tu menda works tau....tapi seblom aku belik online, lebih baik aku scout dulu, tempat2 pelik .....manala tau dapat lagi murah.....macam mustaffa center ker..... ngok ar camne....sementara tu, tunggu sengal2 otot2 aku baik dahulu....hehehe.....wednesday skating day again....yeehoo...nak carik spot baru ar.....mungking bawah blok opposite tu....bleh ollie down tau....tapi paiseh la takut ex-students nampak aku...hehe terpaksa travel jauh skit....ke jurong ker....ntahla nengok ar camne....
ouh besok aku nak collect suar volcom second hand.....tadi pagi aku belik suar adidas 3/4 second hand....tapi aku pakai dah cam suar panjang pasal aku nie pendek bih suar tu size L plak tu....
kla nak log off nie.....daaaaaa.....
no pain no gain...
a few mishaps in trade for a couple of successful ollie-helmet and some helmet-grind tak sengaje...hehehe...i stopped when my knee bled and told myself, enough for today....theres always another day....today's problem, same thing, lack focus and injury-phobia....hehehehe
band, home?....
1st things first......went to gym and i got a shock of my life about how heavy i weigh....ssshhhh...
2nd thing, the band is lacking of a drummer, anybody interested?
3rd thing, i got a home for me waiting after i graduate, im going to stay with an old mate at teck whye......theres an empty room for me....coolness...and that fellow is also the guitarist of my future band.....
im going down to skate in awhile.....need some pounds off my pouch...
hope, massage, pray...
im hoping my right ankle/feet will be better....i have trouble walking properly now cos apparently the part just below the ankle is swollen.......
i massaged, hard...enduring the pain to remove the swelling away....it feels better after a good massage and guasar, it helps improve circulation....i hope itd feel better by night time......
im praying it doesnt rain tonight.....im praying i dont suck tonight.....im praying id land all the tricks i do(well thats a little too much..hehehe).....
