no, not that kinda drive where u get ur lazy ass on the comfy seat behind the wheel....its the drive, the motivation.....yest we had a skate session.....the 1st drive was when yanto brought 2 more frens to skate along......more frens more fun....we skated to somerset skatepark.......2nd drive, the lights were on.......ok when we got there, got a little discouraged cos there were many kids around.....my 3rd drive was i finally manage to lock in my trucks in 50-50 but the only problem is pulling off, ending the 50-50.......the final drive was.......one of tony's pal...salleh....ok lemme explain his features first.....simple, he's just like me, same height and overweight....but man, he was good.....he nose manual like nobody's business and he grinds from end to end... i thought to myself, if he can be so good, why not me? maybe not as good but half as good is ok with me.....its all in the mind...
and practise, lots of practise....
and i was thankful enough that adi bought the wheels...at least i got some extra cash.....although i would want to get wheels later and probably a new board....adi said tony's selling the old models at $76 including grips...its a steal....hmmm but i still think id get power-lytes at go-sports or maybe the hook-ups off ebay, we'll see.......next pay, next pay....now i need to worry about my bike installment, maintanence and bills. ill use my current board till its got no pop......
apart from the good times....my gluteals and quads aches.......it hurts pretty bad at my ass, i guess i got that from the fall trying to land on 2 wheels.......i hope i recover soon so that i can skate again sunday morning with hafiz....i just wanna try that higher ledge....been on the low one for so long....and i wish to land my kickflip....adi already landed a couple of time....and perfect my inconsistent halfcab, learn no-comply and boneless....pretty ambitious...cant help it la....im super hyped...hahahah...thanks to that salleh guy.....
meanwhile id rest my butt and write the script for our roleplay for the group project on patient-practitioner-relationship and study for research-method test on monday....
ouh btw sorry haiqal i cant make it today...my ass really hurts....LoL
and to simon who ordered the items but decided to disappear.....fuck ya....dont yaya next time want to order this and that, in the end disappear.....lucky adi bought the wheels...and the bearings, ill save it for my new set up next month....
ouh im selling my red DCs, any takers? US9......cheap2 la.....$55 worn once only
drive
life is like skateboarding
ok so i woke up early at 8am...slack a little, grab 2slices of choc bread, showered and headed to the skatepark. i just felt like skating and thats that, so i went.
it was hot, its the 10am sun.....got a couple of bladers, bmxers and a skater...i just did my stuff, skate around, grind, ollies, flips...just practising my stuffs... i saw this guy struggling to ollie...so i decided to lend a hand and give him a couple of tips....he managed to ollie but his confidence wasnt there just like me at most times.... isnt it kinda like life, someone can tell u so many things but ultimately its up to u...u call the shots...u land the trick...not anyone else.
i guess sundays skating going to be a regular affair....this girl came down, earphones stuck on her ears, she skated, pivoted the ramps, she was pretty good for a girl if i were younger id ask her for her number..heh.....
anyways i stopped in betweens, rest, then occasionally pointing out to shaun his mistakes and giving him encouragements and even helped him to tighten the bolts, hes just a kid bah...skateboarding really broke barriers.....so i continued again, this ang moh came with his kids, frenly chap....then came two guys all dressed up, they looked like they are good....okla not bad, can tailslide considered good...and ended up exchanging numbers, they skate sundays too to avoid the crowd....yeayness now i have pals on sundays to skate with in the morning.....the only bad thing i can foresee is....me getting tanned and dark like budak pulau...hahahahah.....
i was resting, then i noticed my board is splitting up....ugghhh i guess soon i gonna have to buy a new board and sheikh helping me to order power lytes....yeayness again....i think ill not be taking the tee-shirt, i think i would ask him to give me discount on the board instead....yeayness number 3!.......
i think i theres very slim chance that i will quit boarding...its already like a drug. i need to skate......ease off stress a little and provide a little exercise...
ouh one more thing, circa rocks....i think ill just use my dc for skool and other non skating activities.....circa makes skateboarding much more comfortable and does not compromise the feel as well....yeayness again....the only thing is the arch-support, having flat feet sucks.....
ouh gotta hang out my clothes to dry....cee yah amigos...
decisions galore foc
im still contemplating.....whether to work at sheik's store or not. i know itll be fun and i know i can squeeze in revisions while working if i bothered and i know i could use the money to pay for my bills and perhaps give mom more. theres simply more advantages being compared to several much lesser disadvantages but disadvantages that weighs rather heavily. 1.disadvantage-my life daily only starts after the stores close-i meant freedom to roam around and do what i want. 2.i have to come up with a major time table and to stick to it in order to keep everything in order, meaning my studies and all. i have to stick to the time-table no exceptions as one exception would lead to another. thats pretty much it, 2 disadvantages but major ones. and the second one is rather risky, if i can discipline myself there wont be a problem. if i take up the job i hope my frens would understand when they hear alot of 'No' from me. its not that i dont want to probably i just cant. hmm we'll see...
2nd major issue.....my teevee passed on........sob sob...hey wait a minute, great excuse to get LCD!!!!
3rd major issue X8-400 or not.......
taa......wana go skating....cheerios....
stereotypical idiots
we are merely humans and some humans just cant help but to stereotype certain type of people. each and everyone is unique. and all of us are merely humans, we make mistakes and unless those mistakes repeatedly occur over a period of time those mistakes are purely mistakes. but some people have already put that sticky label on the the victim's forehead with adhesive stronger than 3M quality. poor chap being discriminated, being stereotyped lifelong for his one-time mistake. bcos of his one-time mistake ppl judge and be wary when in his presence and they talk and stab when he is not around. however this individual is not dumb, so he played along but soon self-fulfilling phenomena becomes a reality and in the long run the individual start to behave the way the rest expect him to be and soon he becomes the despised, the shunned.
if there is such a someone, i would tell him, its not the end of the world. as long as your heart pumps blood to your organs and that includes ur brain, use it to start afresh, come up with a plan for your life. the more you think, the more brain cells are being used, the smarter you get. you can say the brain cells has a similarity to that of your brawn, your muscles.....similarly don't overly stress it at the same time just like the muscles it will breakdown and become diseased or injured that's when you can be 'checked-in' to where ill be working in a years time. hurhurhur.....
job board shop
landed myself a part-time job at a boardshop, alhamdullilah.....can earn some dough....God is great.
worrying facts
taken from the straits times online:
July 25, 2007
Youths at high risk of dangerous sexual practices
YOUNG Singaporeans are becoming more sexually active and it seems they may be practicing dangerous sexual practices.
That's according to a survey by pharmaceutical company Bayer Schering Pharma Singapore and Youth.SG an online youth portal.
The study showed that 13 per cent of youths aged between 16 and 23 are sexually active.
Within this group, 4 per cent have multiple partners.
The sexual health survey, conducted between April and June this year covered 600 youths.
While many participants indicated a high awareness of safe sex practices, it seems that there is still a high chance that those who are sexually active do not use proper protection.
Of the sexually active lot, 23 per cent said they did not use any contraceptive methods and only half said they use condoms.
A mere six per cent said they were on birth control pills.
Health experts say that a combined condom and oral contraceptive sexual responsibility approach is necessary in order to tackle high abortion rates and sexually transmitted disease cases.
From 2001 to 2005, there was an average of 1,500 teen abortions every year, making up about 12 per cent of total abortions annually.
In a separate survey conducted by the Ministry of Health in March, it was discovered that 678 youths aged 10 to 19 had sought help for sexually transmitted diseases - a spike from the 256 figure recorded in 2001.
With an upward trend of harmful sexual practices among Singaporean youths, health experts and government officials are seeing a need to educate teens about the right practices and means to protect themselves from unwanted pregnancies and STDs.
Parliamentary Secretary of the Ministry of Community Development, Youth and Sports Teo Ser Luck said: 'We'll continuously engage MOE to come up with different educational programmes and projects and make it a bit more structured within the schools and also for the young people.'
However, he added that parents were ultimately the best people to talk to their children about initmate issues, such as sex.
One of the initiatives targeted at educating young people was the 'Say Yes!' to sexual responsibility cartoon design contest which involved participants from tertiary institutes.
Organised by Youth.SG and Bayer, the contest's objective was to highlight the various misconceptions youths had about sex.
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BELOW IS NOT TAKEN FROM ANYWHERE.
having fun-merely humans.
careless fun-dumb & ignorant humans.
'accidents' and 'eliminating' it-both combined makes u a monster.
have sex-ok, being careless & ignorant-ur pasal, eliminating lives?-try taking ur own instead.
Ia menghantui fikiran ku....
korang ingat apa?....takda la...cuma gian nak skate jer.....ada good and bad news la regarding skate......bad news, i cant help ds3 to get the stocks of wheel sets for our frens like adisam and mimi-siku......will get them next month....shipment will be in then....and the good news....mann bought grindkings last week...he used over the weekends and it doesnt suit him, so he got a pair of indys and now he's selling me the GKs at only 30bucks and i promised him id pay end of the month....heheheh great deal, couldnt resist the offer....GKs are my favourite trucks.....
i just completed my mental-health assignment, gonna edit a couple of stuffs before going to bed.....im opting for an xray somewhere end of next month after everything settled down....just curious...and probably a stitch up.....cheerios...good night...
old age....
hmm....i was telling my fren, if i get terminally ill after 50 or 60 i think i dont care already.....last night my imagination ran wild, i was wondering if i became ill or paralyzed like my grandfather, would my wife or children still take care of me lovingly, would my wife still be devoted to me?
i still remembered when i teared at my atuk's funeral......i remembered how he loved me, how he showered me with love although i only get to meet him weekends or during the school holidays. i cried because i know id miss him and i cried because when i grown up and have many friends i forgot all about him. my grandfather passed away at home when i was outside skateboarding with my friends back when i was 18 or 19..I cant recall. He was down with CVA also known as stroke, his right side of his body was paralyzed, he moved around on wheelchair or his arm crutches. he was lucky to have my grandmother who still take cares of him back then. i was still young, i never really observed if his children took care of him with love.
sometimes you just cant help but to think of the future. i think wen i meet someone to share my life with, my proposal statement would go something like this "will u take care of me if i am bed bound or wheel chair bound when im old?" then only i will ask "will u marry me.." LoL
nursing changed me, my mindset, some of my character and principles in life. i realised how precious life is and how Islam comes into the picture. why are there certain do's and dont's.
i worry for some of my frens, i do worry for myself too but i can only do so much. i can provide information but thats that, its up to them ultimately. many issues still remain a taboo, still is uncomfortable yet important to discuss about. some issues are still attached to meanings like masculanity which the ego refuses to eliminate.
sometimes i pray i have the strength but sometimes i too am swayed by emotions, greed and desires, after all we are only human. and human is what im becoming....
yes, im becoming more human, thats what i feel. i was ignorant, really ignorant. talk is easy, doing is way tougher than talking or thinking about what you wanna do. im sorry if i sound like im whining but its just one of those days when you do self-reflection and you realize what you really are, what you are made of and who you really want to be. im sure you all have one of those days too.....
Price Hike
Im feeling the pinch.....the hike in everything that involves money is starting to take effect.....i was shocked, it was daylight robbery when the insurance company mentioned of the increase in their premiums. last year i only paid around less than $300 but this time around it shot up to $440 and after my NCD it is $400....that sure burn a hole in my pocket, not mentioning the road tax which is $80 and service charge of $5.....i deposited $50. which means i have to fork out another $435.... im lucky that DS3 brought me a little income...shaun paid me $36 for bearings just now and tommorow im expecting $90 from simon. that certainly would help me a little. and if a supplier refunded me for the items that never reached me, everything would be a little better, id be able to breathe a little easier...else you can expect me to loose a couple of kilos this month....heh!
weekended
the week has come to an end....great week....taxing school stuffs but ended on friday with a great skate-session and on saturday simpsons and in between on tuesday fingerboarding....my knees alot better except i can hear the chipped meniscus in between my cartilage, it goes click....but its ok....rainy the whole week, suppose to skate today....
hmm...anyone wants new era caps? i wanna order....anyone? ok gotta do some revision on bio while i download loads of skate-podcasts on itunes.....cheerios....i love simpsons.....
Ollie
My new toy!
Gua dah bleh ollie babe kat finger board yng baru sampai...blom consistent but getting the hang of it.......hehehehe cool...
shoes galore
ok never in my life have i bought 3 shoes in one week....3 skate shoes.....well actually one was pre-owned. adil rarely worn his circa and i was in need of skate shoes and he needs a set of new wheels...so we did a trade, shoes with wheels and 20bucks, a great deal for both of us actually....i got a pair of circas for about $60 while he got a set of wheels plus abec7 bearings that would've probably cost him at least $60 in shops and on top of that $20 top up.
ok so i got myself a pair of shoes already but then....adil told me, quiksilver having a sale and DC shoes were going at 50% off. well, i tot id buy myself a pair to keep as spares as skateboarding really wears off ur shoes fast. so i bought myself a pair of josh kalis on thursday evening after school. it was the best skate shoe i had so far and it was 50% of its original price. a great shoe for just $84.90 is a great deal! i wore it the next day to school...
i wanted to get another pair....just for spares but i didnt have the money, pays not in yet....and then the conversation with man-black brought in the dough i needed...we were talking about life and i told him, i just started skating again a few months back and turns out he wanted to skate too and he needs a new set up....wooohoo....i sold my zero wheels to him. and so i got enough money for another pair of DCs....ended up going to pacific plaza with mann-black and we ended up buying the same model...hurhur
so there goes my third shoe....
i followed mann to collect his deck after that...skated awhile at the void deck before heading home....im happy as a hippy, 3 shoes and 1 more skate fren! wats more, he lives in woodlands, not far away and that means i can skate with him if everyone else is busy. i also envy mann, because his wife is so understanding....she let him race RCs once....and now skate....coolness....
WoooHOooooo BOWL skating anyone?
Im in a hurry to go for 8am lessons but i just have to let out the news before i leave for school! Anew skate park is on the way, come 2008. I just gotta learn to drop in or skating bowl will just remain a dream. Early 2008 will be a dream come true if i manage to overcome my fear of dropping in.......cheerios....drool boys....and shahreil, this is a good excuse to start skating next year! hurhurhur...remember this, 'never too young to start, never to old to skate'
weird
im not slacking, well i was but i wasnt stressed and i wasnt relaxed either....u know i worry but im not doing anything... geez..
i dunno why la but todays very weird.....i felt like skating but i know i had to do bio.....then when i opened my text, i just couldnt concentrate....hmmm weird day.....yahnee told me...relax a little dont force yourself, those kinda things...yeah maybe i shouldnt....
anyways i occupied my later half of sunday playing around with the mini-tech deck i found unopened in my toy box.....but i suck at it...and am really tempted to get the 96mm one on ebay........the videos on youtube made me nuts and i wanted to learn to do those tricks......hahahaha...
damn i feel like taking my board and join the rest at the skatepark...boohoo i have an early lecture tumoro....uggghhh...
neuro nuts...
biology, interesting but tough as hell especially when it comes to neurology...the studies of the brain....i have to resort to associating parts of the brain to other parts of my body in order to remember them bcos of likeness for example i will call my pair of testicles cerebellum from now on...cos the cerebellum does look like a man's nuts including the sacs...hurhurhur....anyways, i can, i will pull through definitely.....and i'll try to get an A in bio dis time...no more Bs for bio!
small world....turns out the client that had engaged shahreil's services was indeed my fren.....so turns out i'd be shooting their wedding video...and im going to suprise them on sunday....hurhurhur......im sure they would go..."sid...kau the back up cameraman???" hurhurhur....anyways congrats zul & caca....
haiqal is lomo crazy....trigger happy ass is crazy with film cameras that he asked me to bid on 3 rolls of probably expired film from the UK that will cost him more than 15SGD.....told him to get an SLR....hehehe....im sure my auntie will kill me if she knows what im inspiring him to get....hurhurhur....
u know wat im feeling right now? the itch to skate....damn....i think ill wait till tumoro night.....ill find someone to accompany me...probably shaun/adil/nas/ratno? if none, then i'll pass, ill just skate some other day.....
my shipment is late....and customers is getting impatient...ugggh....darn suppliers.. cant those bearings reach me in time?...i need the cash.... for next month's insurance....
Urrghhh....
hmmm
when i took up the offer to help shahreil shoot the wedding video about a month ago, i didnt feel worried or anything, in fact i thought itll be easy.....but as the day approaches....im nervous and worried....i mean its a wedding video, not skate video, not for fun birthday video or anything else....its a once in a life-time kinda thingy for the couple......hmmm well, id give my best and itll be my first job shooting wedding videos....i hope everything goes well and perhaps i could do more if im comfortable with it....wish me luck!
progression plus fall
skate session hours ago...probably my last for these few monts to come, no more free time except weekends, too much projects, assesments and coursework.
it was great just now, accomplished something new.....halfcab....though at slow speed, it was satisfying....my ollie was more consistent and so was my shuv it....only upset, was the drop in....i tried once, sprained my shoulders and the phobia sits in... urrgghh...ill be back....i hope next week i can skate but i know i couldnt....ill be back definitely but not so soon...ouh one more great thing, the lights at the skatepark were on and it was great.....i hope they keep it that way, let it on at least until 3am...i got this goals to achieve.....a clean 50-50...higher halfcab and more courage....hurhurhurhur.....no pain no gain homie....
oright....gonna hit the sheets...shagged...got class at noon tumoro....adios...
baybeats line up
indieheads, go wank urself, majority line up are emo-er indie......why organizers? cant you balance a little, why must you make a ball heavier? wont it make ur scrotum stretch on one side? favourism conquers all....
skate sessions
it was the usual skate session yest......got a new pal to join us, sheikh. it was great yest, except that we were a little uncomfortable at first, skating with someone whos good but it was fine...... nothing special happened yest, except i almost pulled off a fifty2 clean, i wasnt really all out yest, dunno why, probably tired but overall a-ok, except the security had to come out before we warmed up enough to try that grass gap.....damn...anyway next time, i hope we can skate without disturbances...
my schedules were being changed for next week...and sad nuff, i have no oppurtunity to skate nights....damn...i have to find a pal who can skate with me weekends day-time. wonder who yeah......and where...thats the thing....i dont wanna skate where theres many others and it becomes more of a 'jemputan' kinda thing....hahaha
anyways i dunno wat to write anymore...cheers...
ouh did i mention i already watched transformers yest with my 2younnger siblings... it was cool....awesome but had a little confusing fight scene and a little different from the cartoons....they bots can actually switch and choose whatever machines or cars they chose to be, the take up the shape and thats how.....go watch dah...hahaha
adios peeps....wheels and bearings coming in...im like a mama shop waiting for the kids to buy kaka n chickadees off my shelfs...
skateboarding.sg
ive done revamping skateboarding.sg myspace site....in return sheikh giving me a tee-shirt...ouh my job doesnt end there, just maintain...any invites and so for, aiyah ok la....ouh did i mention i get to choose the t-shirt? hehehe...hmmmmm hope they have my size....anyways comment on the site please and add on if ure interested>>skateboarding.sg-myspace
Our nearest neighbour in action...GABAN...
muakaka, background music lepak....but great skateboarding...
shopping ass
my intention of leaving home was to meet sheikh and come to an agreement of what he was going to give me for maintaining skateboarding.sg's blog and myspace. initially he promised, a t-shirt and 10% discount at his store...i wanted to ask for monthly basis, not much right? but sheikh was a little late and i had to move off.
sheikh have a couple of cool stuffs...but not to my liking...probably its catered to the new skool skaters....
anyways, i roamed off to times marina square, in search of any skatemag that featured go-skateboarding day 07 but they had none, just like at Jelita's times....ugggh....its either sold out or the management refuse to order skatemags...watever it is, i think they are losing out to borders....but the reason i went there cos i have 15bucks voucher....i wondered around to a couple of surf shops, nice new era DC but whooping price tag...99bucks for a cap, its nice but im not yet a fan of new era, so better get myself some lower end first, see if i like wearing NEs.....town sucked, crowded and not much things to my liking, the DC jeans had 30% off which meant i had to pay ard 80bucks but the logo suck...it make one look like some matreps wearing those evisu jeans bought at bugis village....
so i roamed off...forgeting that my petrol had already ran low....i had no choice but to exit at queensway(bedek!) i pumped petrol at esso before heading home(bedek again!) when i saw queensway and decided to make a stop....i went to miz29 tried NEs but none to my liking except the yokohama, kinda cool...so i told the salesperson, 'bro, aku gi atas dulu ar ngok2..' i tried on the same cap, that the hip-hop teddy bear recommend....felt funny, felt fake....so i went down again....this time to limited store and saw these kool nike sb tees....but my belly proudly made its appearance on the size L t-shirt....not sexy, really not sexy....'ummm miss, got any XLs?' .....nope they dont have...and i tot to myself Nike is an american brand why cant i fit into Ls? its either ive grown or the t-shirt's fake....muakakak takmo tuduh2 ar....then i made my trip back to miz29..... finally the bro, took out all designs he could find, even those hidden in the cupboards......and i ended up purchasing my first new era, a stussy new era....coolness, i like....65bucks off my pockets but i like....it said 75 on the tag but i bargained...
my 'adventure' did not stop there....i limped as i jaywalked quickly across the road, i tot to myself this is bad....monday's skool starting and i hate everyone asking me what happen....anyways....started my bike, big grin on my face....i was about to go home, instead of a left turn to AYE, i accidentally u-turned(bedek again!) i ended up at go-sports, i dunno how....and i ended up getting a lakai t-shirt which again i bargained down from 39.90 to 38bucks......ok thats it i said to myself no more accidental turns....so i went to the bike shop finally to change the engine oil and filter....i went to the one at bukit batok cos i was lazy to ride to kallang.....the auntie...wahlau wear so sexy....serious, she everytime wear sexy but today sexy less slutty... muakakakaka....again i bargained....from 33 to 32bucks and she gave me a packet of drink....ok.....woots...thats like 31.50 in total hehehe....
so here i am, home, sweaty, in my boxers, messaging my potential buyers on the forum....turns out to be ratnor....an ol-skool skater.....woots...another skate fren....coolness....and because i know him, i gave him a discount...40bucks instead of 42.....enjoy ur speed metals ratnor....and tuesday i hope u can make it....and skate with us...
change
ive decided to change my blog set up, since somehow or another, its not viewable at my fren's place....but farnie nuff its viewable at home....so i was just browsing, when my itchy finger decide to switch to the new template thingy instead of the usual troublesome html shit.....i clicked to the point of no return and so i have to choose one template....hmmm...im going light coloured this time...nuff of the darkside. i couldnt find any photos i like for the header.....found this off my biology files...cool white blood cell, best describes me....different, stick to my own principles, and i rush to the point of infections to fight them...hahah not literally la....but u know what i mean....okok im over-rating myself....so what, my blog, my pasal, dont like, dont read...muakakakakkaa....bila mau skate lagik geng? next week gua dah skola......(out of topic)
its funny.....
i slept at ard 6am after suboh......but i woke up before 9am.....i forced myself to sleep.....but i just couldnt....i know my eyes are tired...but somehow my mind wants me awake.....ugggh.....i look in the mirror...hmm no real visible dark rings....so does the aloe below the eye every night really works? i think so....
shahreil decided to forgo the go-sports trip.....ok la....at least he's saving me from spending....well if not on anything, petrol... thnks reil....
luka lama berdarah kembali....
hehehe tak tau la kalau tu macam kata pepatah....tapi nie realiti dod, luka lama berdarah kembali.....apa lagi skate la dod... gua kalau skate kalau tak jatuh cam tak cukup syarat....anyways power tremar skate smalam, walaupon ada slack skit pasal gua penat dan kaki kaku pasal parut baru nak kering kat lutut tu....adi-sam bawak members, mimi namanye.....trick ol skool semua dia buat dod....dah dia la yng kasi advice sampai gua ollie kembali dengan sempurna...muahahaha.....takut ar dod....takut nie mau kasi hilang buang jauh2....biar tanduk kuar, jin dok dalam papan gelunsur tu supaya gua bleh bergelunsur ngan sepurna...
gua agak eh.....gua takkan berhenti bergelunsur la.....once a week pon jadi ar dod.....tak skate macam tak cukup syarat tau... muahahahah.....
dan lagi satu gua ingat abec3s dah cukup setans....power tremar beb.....takyah la abec7 tu gua jual sua, dapat rezki bleh belik guler2....muahahah jadi skate mulut tak kering...
lazy bug
lazy bug sets in today.....probably cos of the two scabs on my knees....heheheh but tts just an excuse....i have sores all over serious...hehehe....probably i push myself too hard....gonna start reading on bio pretty soon....neuro next semester is pretty scary but can get pretty interesting....im not selling anything yet....i hope to sell something soon....its just extra income... and i cant wait for that bearings to arrive and ill be pampering myself with a new cap from NEW ERA!....heheh dunno wat size and which one to get yet....but i think ill get that black DC....heh....
no pain no gain part 2
i never heeded the pro's advice....that is if u feel ure gonna bail, let the board go.....but i was more focused to come over my fear that i forgot that very valuable advice....so here it is, no pain no gain the aftermath......it hurts...when i clean the wound with alcohol swabs especially just to make sure theres no germs.......
im never gonna skate at the void deck anymore....and i think ill wait till my speed demons arrive.....ugggghh
new blog/store in town
a new blog store in town, offering cheaper skate hardwares check out DEMONIC-SPEED-SKATE-SUPPLIES AKA DS3 support your un-blood-sucking local skateboard distro. cheerios!
spend again....
i spend again.....
movie, hot fuzz....well worth it, funny as hell....8bucks
food n drinks 4.20
new water bottle 5bucks
raincoat from daiso 2bucks
still ok la, lest than 20bucks....heh!
tumoro might spend more...hahaha...getting those bearings probably....either 2nd hand or new...
spirulina
the gst package will give me some extra cash to purchase some supplements for myself, being in the health industry and with many2 dieseases emerging...out of no where, i just have to take care of myself, make sure id still be kicking ass or rather balls when im 50.....i knew the goodness of spirulina but i just had to research further so that i wont feel the pinch to fork out cash for them.
i chanced upon this website, 'www.spirulina.com' and i think definitely im getting a bottle or two....one reason to keep me healthy, ive had enough of that 2week plus throat infection, i know i wasnt eating helathy....and i wasnt exercising and probably sleep too, i didnt had enough, thats why i was vulnerable.......i wanna do better this semester, make sure i dont fall ill, and make sure i get more than 1 As or at least a distinction, in my life, ive never had one....itll be an achievement to have one at least. and i wont be too hard on myself even if i dont get one, at least i know i tried....
anyways, do visit the website and probably many more websites as it is being studied worldwide for its goodness and if u think of getting a bottle urself, do tell me, so we can buy together2 then can get freebies and discount...hehehehe.....
mind over matter
i went shopping....forget to get super glue....but its ok......i got most of the stuff, and i got 5toothbrushes cos it was on sale 5 for 8.50, for oral-b its a steal....i too bought something for myself, just snacks....that chachos curry spicy was ultra delicious and banana milk, i just gotta have....heh....
i went skating again......this time round it was a case of mind over matter....i could very well do it.....if i focused and eliminate my phobia, phobia of busting my knee, getting injured in general......when i eliminate those, i ollied clean, no fumbles, clean as hell, i landed so confidently but when the fear or rather phobia sets in....i suck, big time.....i couldnt even do shove its that i used to do..... i could flip but i couldnt land cos i fear of fumbling and of course busting my knee...heh....and i still need music, lamb of god was the motivation just now....i tried weaning off my mp3 but i couldnt....i need the music to focus to eliminate fear......my knee bled again due to the other day's fall....the wound opened up a little but i know itd heal....
and ouh, i need new bearings...my bearings are busted.....and it suck when u got the momentum but u board just slowed down and the speed doesnt justify the height u need to conquer....so bearings it is, come sunday or monday when i get my pay, ill invest in a good set of bearings.....probably speed demons...they rock....
drools
looking at singaporebikes.com makes me drool....nope not babes, theres no boobs...oops i meant babes there, its a website for riders selling their bikes n stuffs n forum sharing views, opinions and knowledge...why i drool? the harleys on sale...damn.... im so drooling over them....can imagine me riding one with apehanger handlebars.....anyways, i kept telling myself and resisting the temptation.....i tell myself 'sid, ride ur gilly till at least next year august, then save up for a brand new harley, pay cash or at least half of it......or huge downpayment.....big monsters can wait dude....who knows a sleeker, angrier model of sportster hugger would be coming up....' hehehehe.....having the license to ride big fat ass bikes really draw u to these sites and really tempt u like...ummmm..heheh
today's mom's first day at work at NUH, i know she's bored at home....bored looking at someone's behavior...lazy to work...lazy to find a new job....sounds like me? nope...when it comes to work, i work, be it as a scruffy pizza boy or as a student-nurse presently......i never once dont work and rely on others...even when i went jobless....i find other means of income by selling stuffs online....selling freds bought from mustaffa, selling accessories, my old clothes....
i salute my mom....she raised me up alone before remarrying at my age 13, she worked and supported me since i was 2 and managed to put a roof over my head, our own flat, a 3-room flat, she managed everything.......i sometimes do regret, i never put in 100% effort in my studies.....im smart but im a little playful.....tts why i can pull through even though i skipped classes, i played truant, etc...but wenever i failed, thats when i realise then i pick myself up and buck up.....now i hope i do well in nursing, u know promotions and all......at least id make her happy....i know she always wanted to see her son being a someone, i know its her dream which ive yet to fullfill.......id want one day to bring her to holidays, drive her around and probably get nuff money to pay for her pilgrimage, thats the least i could do i guess....
and i miss my dad, i never really know him...cos i never live with him...well i did only for 2years of my life and i always wonder if he were with me, will he be a good father to me? i never had a dad by my side.....if i have children, id want to hear them say 'i love u dad'.....cos ive never said tt to my own dad.....
shopping....
tumoro im going shopping...nope not tt kind of shopping, more of needs, not wants.....shopping items for tumoro...
1.glucosamine
2.facial wash
3.tooth brush
4.cotton buds
5.jellonet
6.gauze
7.handiplast
location: watson's, bukit batok polyclinic pharmacy, guardian.
haiz....uwang...
temptation...to spend....uggghh.....i know i told myself, 1 month 50bucks at least....and i will do just that....i think i can ar... i know i can....but the temptation ar....wah lau....manyak susah...ada je menda nak belik.....kerana fikirkan nak sep duit, aku besok improvise skit la number plate blakang tu, takyah belik bracket ker, belik yng baru ker.....hmm ada idea...pakai plastic yng dari numberplate mounting yng lama....drill lobang....pasti boleh.....
haiz.....kalau total knee replacement tu bleh hutang kan best.......boring ar....takpe aku cuba akan perkuatkan kaki kiri aku nie... mungking nak belik tu menda yng physiotherapist pakai......tapi versi murah punyer ar.....tu menda works tau....tapi seblom aku belik online, lebih baik aku scout dulu, tempat2 pelik .....manala tau dapat lagi murah.....macam mustaffa center ker..... ngok ar camne....sementara tu, tunggu sengal2 otot2 aku baik dahulu....hehehe.....wednesday skating day again....yeehoo...nak carik spot baru ar.....mungking bawah blok opposite tu....bleh ollie down tau....tapi paiseh la takut ex-students nampak aku...hehe terpaksa travel jauh skit....ke jurong ker....ntahla nengok ar camne....
ouh besok aku nak collect suar volcom second hand.....tadi pagi aku belik suar adidas 3/4 second hand....tapi aku pakai dah cam suar panjang pasal aku nie pendek bih suar tu size L plak tu....
kla nak log off nie.....daaaaaa.....
no pain no gain...
a few mishaps in trade for a couple of successful ollie-helmet and some helmet-grind tak sengaje...hehehe...i stopped when my knee bled and told myself, enough for today....theres always another day....today's problem, same thing, lack focus and injury-phobia....hehehehe
band, home?....
1st things first......went to gym and i got a shock of my life about how heavy i weigh....ssshhhh...
2nd thing, the band is lacking of a drummer, anybody interested?
3rd thing, i got a home for me waiting after i graduate, im going to stay with an old mate at teck whye......theres an empty room for me....coolness...and that fellow is also the guitarist of my future band.....
im going down to skate in awhile.....need some pounds off my pouch...
hope, massage, pray...
im hoping my right ankle/feet will be better....i have trouble walking properly now cos apparently the part just below the ankle is swollen.......
i massaged, hard...enduring the pain to remove the swelling away....it feels better after a good massage and guasar, it helps improve circulation....i hope itd feel better by night time......
im praying it doesnt rain tonight.....im praying i dont suck tonight.....im praying id land all the tricks i do(well thats a little too much..hehehe).....
i sprained my ligaments...
degil kan? dah penat lagi takmo balik.....i tot i twisted my ankle, so i quickly grab it and massage...but i realised it was at the joints of the metatarsals and the tarsals...somehow the ligament is sprained or strained, watever...but my ankle's fine, i hope i can skate tumoro cos i sucked just now....i cant concentrate...my mind wouldnt focus...but hey i managed to ollie 2 decks height...so pretty cool... although sketchy....have trouble loosening or tightening my trucks...once i touch down to 70kg or less, im going to get myself a new complete set, nope im not quiting skating as yet....say i dont grow up? well, fuck ya, cos im enjoying it, u should do something u enjoy and not do something just to conform.....to the norm...
fantastic.....
yesterday was the last day of attachments.....woohoo 2weeks break for me.......my legs recuperating for the skate trip tumoro... i hope to land a couple of newly learnt tricks......
anyways when to watch fantastic-4 with the guys.....was a great movie........its fun watching with the guys.....ouh ive ended up bidding on an 85bucks ipod....cos i dont think that creative will work with my mac....that shuffle is going to be my main motivation to jogging and stuffs......speaking of which, i felt guilty downing a large size mcD meal yest....but hey once in a blue moon is fine right? im going to start now......resisting temptations.....whenever the temptation strikes, ill down myself with water to keep the craving away......also saving up for mom's gluscosamine and told her to go see the doctor regarding UTI and her flank pains.....my stepfather, i cant be bothered, if he's lazy to go change the dressing, his pasal....i dont care.....
this month i hope to save at least 50bucks if i could, at least la......could be more, im going to start saving.....for many things to come......drivers license, my own house and probably a nice small car for myself after that.....im worried about my siblings, my only worry is they might regret when they are older for not studying, for not putting their focus in school....i hope one day they will listen to one of my endless nagging.......i dont want them to be a burden to mom till she's old.....she's already 50odd now.. if the two of them can do well in studies, u can get busaries and stuffs to further ur studies.......and probably get a good paying job and maybe with together our combined contribution, mom need not worry about working or anything, she'd only be needing to worry about her own health thats all.......its tough being the eldest....u have to think of all this....i think itll be tougher if i have my own family....and i know im not ready yet for one, though i crave but i feel its only peer pressure thats causing that.....have to keep my focus and stay true to myself and only myself, nope im not self-centered, im saving myself from any future regrets.....
but for now, this two weeks will be spent skating, jogging and looking for temporary jobs.....i wont be working when i finally start school cos i wanna focus 100%, last semester i managed to get an A, this semester im challenging myself to get at least 1 distinction and a couple of As, i know i can do it and i will, insyahAllah.......i wanna feel satisfied....not 'half-fuck'......i gotta do what i have to do.....do or die......
im putting aside thoughts of a new bike, id ride my present one till its no good no more for transporting me to and fro work.. i feel now, its not really neccessary, its a want, a desire that i will only indulge in when everything is fine......i know someday it will be fine, id be smiling.......
i hope tumoro evening it doesnt rain.....and i hope the time-table and booklist will be out soon, i wanna have a headstart, i wanna start early, i wanna kick ass.......and at the same time, i do not want to stress myself....a strong foundation makes a building easier to build on the way up......just like that.....so if i start early, by the time exams comes, itll be a breeze, just like a walk by the beach.......
im hoping for a windfall, probably win some bucks off a contest or something so that i can feed my desires.....a big bike would be nice, a new bedroom door, a new teevee and a new pc for my siblings.....
ouhk the seller for the ipodshuffle have already message me.....adios peeps....ouh im thinking of selling my ipod-video 30g, thinking only....any offers?
era
its the new era...(in relation to one of stimgam's entry) there used to be skinheads, punks, metalheads, indies, matrocks, etc......now theres emo kids....which i dearly thought they are merepek skit.....in the future, my prediction would be, there will be alot of magicians.....or should i say illusionist.....harharhar...nola im just bullshitting....i think there'll be alot of swingers....
not dancing swingers....the other swingers....
im still counting the days till i pop my deck....urgggh.....still i have one day to go of anti-biotics regime and i think id feel better.....
i am guilty....guilty of downing that packet of chicken rice on the dinner table.....i know itll end up as fats cos ill be sleeping in a few minutes.....ugggh, i gave in to temptation...damn......probably because i didnt have a proper dinner at work due to me feeling so sucky cos of the onset of fever.....ugggh.....ill pump a couple of push ups to feel less guilty....my abdominal girth is getting larger and it aint pretty.....
insaf la wahai ibu2 jual anak.....
Mas kahwin dan hantaran yang mahal:
Inilah adalah sunah Rasul saw: "Wanita yang paling berkat ialah wanita yang paling murah hantarannya." (HR Ahmad, al-Hakim dan Baihaqi
accident....
my step father got into an accident....katanye ada minyak.....mula2kan cam dalam hati nie padan muka dia.....tapi rupenye aku tak sekejam itu.....ada 'good side' aku yng kata, "tak baik siddiq.....kau tu pon naik moto gak....kau pon pernah accident pelik2 walaupon dah hampir 10 tahun kau naik moto, kau takkan tahu...." anyways tak serious la....cuma fracture radial atau ulnar bone.....ngan stitch kat dahi.....style dod, dah macam pirate......
anyway, 2 of makcik dan pakcik aku datang.......satu yng strict gilernye, lagi satu misi.....lagi satu cakap aku makin bulat...haha
but the funny thing is....no matter what, when u are nurses somehow u can connect....theres always something to talk about....
aku ingatkan, aku jadi misi nie sampai aku retire la cam makcik aku.....aku takmo ke education path.....rasanye cam lagi challenging dan seronok melihat karena2 pesakit2....dan at the same time bleh blajar dari real cases.......cuma satu je aku sesal, tapi tak lah kesal sangat....aku cuma fikirkan...kalau aku ikut cakap wak-ila dari time aku pas o-levels, join nursing....skarang aku dah 4 tahun sebagai staff nurse dan mungkin dah naik pangkat senior pon, dah specialise, gaji pon aku agak 3k ribu ada... cuma aku nie degil......hehehe...dulu kan immature, ingatkan nursing untuk pompan jer.....tapi takpe la, rezki blom mari la... hehehe.....skarang duty aku sebagai the eldest, guide adik2 aku, apa dorang betul2 nak buat bila dorang bis skola......supaya jng cam aku.....i was never serious about my future when i was 17 or 18, i completed the diploma for the sake of getting it.... kalau aku betul2, aku rasa aku dah jadi teacher atau animator.....kau tau, when i finished Os aku tak tau pon ada course yng offer animation atau kat mana nak apply jadi teacher....i was so ignorant back then........tapi skarang aku dah chosen a path, something i like too and something stable....bak orang cina cakap, 'iron rice bowl'.
smalam, aku bobal ngan patient penyakit 'kuman jahat'...klakar tapi ada benarnye dia cakap tu...dia cakap "the most important thing in life is not money but many thought so...."
kesihatan aku....batuk ok la tak terok sangat, tapi masih batok....itu antibiotic.....skarang aku ada adverse effect, berak2... aku agak aku allergic ar tu amoxicillin....anyway.....aku nak baik seblom friday ar.....pasal sunday aku nak skate.....heh....
aku nak beri nasihat la...cam orang melayu kata "sambil menyelam minum air,," tapi sebenarnye pepatah tu bebal...kalau kau selam bih minom air, mampos la...hehehe....anyways nie la nasihat aku......aku dah buat case macam2, aku nak bilang korang la....abstain la dari seks kasual......kalau perlu pon, pakai la sarong.....lu takkan tau beb......ada misi filipino ceritakan aku nie.....ada pompan, cantik, lawa, kena penyakit 'kuman jahat' tu....rupenye lakinye suke melencong..... dia pon hairan asal la si laki gi 'main-main' ngan pompan lain......pada jantan2 yng horny tu, kalau dah kahwin fikirkan la bini lu.....kesiankan.....ada lagi satu kes, laki2 nie nasib baik.....bini dia dapat kuman tu dari bf dia....pas tu kahwin ngan laki2 lain, mengandung....baru dapat tahu dia ada penyakit tu....nasib baik pulak, lakinye tak dapat dari dia........
dari kes2 yng aku dah buat, aku syorkan kalau seblom kahwin buat la full body check up, blood test, etc.....yelah bukan tak caya pada pasangannye tapi sebagai precaution jer...aku yakin korang takmo endanger orang yng kau sayangi kan? sungguh pon kau dah berpasangan lama, sejak dua2 virgin lagi, ada lagi kondisi2 lain yang patut diambil prihatin.....seperti penyakit darah thalasemia.........sebab kalau dua2 bakal mempelai adalah carrier atau menghidapinye sendiri, ada chan besar dapat anak nanti pon kena....kesiankan kalau anak tu kene blood transfusion every month dari dia lahir sampai la tamat riwayatnye..
semakin lama aku dalam nursing....semakin menakutkan kes2 benar yng berlaku......ada pon yng aku tak pernah tau possible....anyway islam pon ajar jaga kesihatan.....ada sebabnye kenape dilarang minuman alkohol, ada sebabnye kenape dilarang seks luar nikah, ada sebabnye kenape merokok makroh dan jika memudaratkan haram, gua bukan nak act alim la, pasal gua pon masih jahil....cuma semua ajaran islam ada sebab2 yng boleh dilihat......bnyk lagi la kalau kau nak kaji....
kla skarang aku nak buat kes study aku balik......adios....ouh seblom tu....apple losing money, iphone not selling well...hurhurhur....harap2 dorang turunkan harga.....anyway musibot kat yahoo cuba nak jual aku ipod shuffle tiruan...babi punya orang, nasib baik aku tahu yng barunye takda kaler putih....
deal or no deal
ouh forget to jot tis in.....i think, think only la.....i wanna audition for 'deal or no deal' season 2.........i want the cash....if i win more than 10G, id definitely go for a TKR(total knee replacement)......if i win more than 30G, ill definitely get a harley on top of a TKR........
fantasy....
up till this day i still dream of grinding a handrail.....but that i guess, will remain a fantasy unless a total-knee-replacement cost only 10bucks or less...hehehe
anyways speaking of skateboarding, i miss yesterdays skate session with the gang.....work la dey...sorry....next week id tag along......ouh and adisam, smsed me....regarding 21st june, world skateboarding day......i hope they have t-shirts or anything like that up for sale....hehehe....buat kenangan la....cam t-shirt nofx tu...hehehe...
im getting better, though the cough's still bothering me......and the recurring fever...i feel better, less lethargic and weak like the past 2 days...im psyched up...waiting for friday evening, im free to skate....and sunday, the nightly-weekly skate session with the guys......im gonna skate 2 whole weeks of my vacation, maybe every other day.....and im going to jog again.....i miss wearing 32s........i now can barely fit into a 34......i think id set a realistic goal....id weigh myself on friday and id want to loose 2kg per week.......its possible if the motivation is there.....
kla gotta iron my uniforms....see ya...
sweat sure feels great....
its almost been 2 weeks of cough since its started....i decided to see the doctor at bb polyclinic....i had to wait ages before my turn.....the doc said i have a throat infection.....more like URTI cos my nose were blocked too.....so she prescribed me a couple of medicine including amoxicillin, an anti-biotic.....babe, it was so strong that suddenly my temperature spiked and i became weak due to the battle of the anti-biotics and the infection......i planned to skate....i was weak but i had to skate...my legs just itched....so i down a couple of paracetamols.....and went skating just for an hour at my favourite spot.....i sweat, alot...and it felt good.....i managed to perfect my ollie....i ollied up clean.....i decided to try my feet at kickflips.....i did...but landed one foot only......its fear....its all in the mind...i know i could land it...but because of fear one foot dropped first to prevent me from falling...i have to eliminate that fear of mine and im sure id land that kickflip.....till next week or perhaps tumoro if im not tired.. its funny, im more passionate in skating than i was before although right now, im more fearful, more heavier and weaker in the legs.......i wasnt this passionate before....i never skated alone before back then....well i did but not like now....geee....
next weeks goal, land a kickflip and id be fucken happy.......later i gotta start on my case study.......its due next week....
ouh and im contemplating.....creative or apple? the creative comes with display.....at 55bucks....but ive always wanted that new shuffle....at 90bucks....uggh....tough decision....
Plan A
im sticking with my life plans.....i think ill stick with the first plan.....i dont think there's any other plan...hurhurhur.....well watever it is....we'll see.........gnite dudes n dudettes......tumoro first day at cdc.......adios....
any 2nd hand knee brace?
hi there, if anyone selling their donjoy sports knee brace or anything alike for left knee tell me aight?.....alright over and out....
life....
at habib, abt 2330hrs, only me, boy and shareil left....we talked about life....about everything under the sun.....about our own lives.....was a lengthy chit-chat till 0200++ hrs......but i love it...brings back all the memories...the hard and tough times... the sweet times, the fun times....all of them back....
remembered those days when im still at poly, those days i work as a cook....those days when i had alot of fun...those days when i went jobless for a period of time....that i had to sell off my toys, helmets, etc just to survive.....ive been thru roller-coaster rides.....many of them.......and soon, i hope, ill be going up only and no more downs......im looking forward to 2008's pay package.....im looking forward to settling down and all........ill be reaching the big 30 in 2years...thats pretty soon.....no morea youngster......
anyways, just now in the afternoon, i skated......i suck...and i realised that i need my ears plugged with music in order to skate and focus.....i cant focus just now.......i only managed to ollie my helmet after many tries........but i didnt give up...i tried and tried again till close to perfection that my knee now hurts.....i think its swelling a little....i enjoyed it though....i broke a little sweat....and it was fun.....nobody there at the multi-storey carpark...just me alone popping my deck.......i just skated cos i missed rolling on wheels.....and popping....
tumoro probably gonna catch zodiac, with shareil but see how la...not confirmed.........kla cya guys around.....
cool shows....
cool shows, movies really provides me an escape from daily life.......it makes me smile, laugh and so on for that 2 or 3 hours of fictional ride......especially like pirates of the carribean and 50 first dates i saw on teevee just now......
i will do just that to the woman i love, if need so to.......love overides everything.....i think im in love with drew barrymore now....
heh......
im gonna scrimp and save this couple of days.....im gonna get that high backrest for caramella this mid june......its a rare item and auntie-tongaik had it ordered........ill be back on my scoot for charity events.....nevermind being alone....not in a clan or anything...im doing it for the passion.......and i will definitely doll up caramella with chromes and make sure she's road worthy before any rides.....
right now, im contemplating whether to go habib or not.....cos im down with a bad cough.......but i do need to get my parking renewed....so well, i think ill go and at the same time, i can get myself lozenges to soothe my throat tomoro at work.....gnite peepz.....i have a dream, i know....and i hope that dream will become a reality.....fin-
no not kids...
its not the kids that tick me off....its the parents....they think they know everything....they think they have a doctor and a nurse to themselves and they think we work for them and only them....its so darn farking irritating, when a parent start spreading rumours to another that this hospital is lousy, the doctors are blurkings and the nurses dont know anything....i feel like punching one of them in the abdomen making him spit out his vocal chords......if u dont even know ur own child's condition dont blabber something u dont know like treatment and stuff....if u are a good parent ud find out whats ur childs condition all about, understand it and then you would know why the necessary treatment plan was carried out.....the childs not in pain or anything...shes fine, shes resting so why make such a big fuss and start blabbering that smelly mouth of urs......its so damn irritating.....and now the whole cubicle is corrupted with his idea of how lousy the hospital is....urrgghhh....
harharhar
a fren of mine said, i like u, ure laid back and everything......i said simply, we are friends...so sorry....
i didnt said this to her but 1 thing i hate about girls is, if they smoke.....such a turn off, sorry....tattoos? kinda cool but another big no-no......heh....
riders of the storm...
im the sole rider of the storm......been thru many....and survived...nothing new to me.....stab me somemore, spike my drink, poison my food.......experienced all that before though not literally....so much for camaraderie.....
in this dog eat dog world...u just have to be careful....on high alert like when ure in the army getting ready to charge......a knife is always pointed at you, directly but not from the front......becareful my fren before gettin ur own medicine aight?......
anyways, love this song.....all cos of need for speed....theres a need for speed carbon contest but its for fathers' day special....., meaning father n son form a team....and a PS3 is up for grabs.....damn...if only me and my bro can participate, i guess we are real close to the top prize.....im at blacklist3 and he 8 in most wanted......ugghh...damn....anyway ill save up for that ps3....or perhaps next year yeah?.......
its been a hot humid weekend...i sweat like i never sweat before, i have 3-4 showers a day, instead of my usual 2......god when im finally stable id get that ac.......got the bag yest, im a proud owner of a crumpler....a fren is leaving sg.....and so i bought over the unused bag....great deal although slight staining on the back which i assume came from denim rubbing on it.....well still its a great deal, cos i love bags with loads of compartments in them...i can stash loads of things in them.....like my mp3, my books, my laptop, my camera, my hp........coolness...except its yet to be tested whether it is water resistant or not.....heh....
theres more and more ppl riding harleys....theres already 2 in my neighbourhood...im so drooly, yet im resisting the temptation to get into a loan.....to get a harley....i think i shall wait......gnite peeps....gonna iron my uniforms.....
A for Apple....
I got an A....my exam results were out just now......I got an A for Pharmacology, B+ for Clinical Skills, B for Biological Science, C+ for Behavioural Science, C for Nursing Science.
i was relieved....and god that med surg paper was tough thats why i got a C....but anyways im happy with my results but im not satisfied cos i know i couldve done better...but hey, its an improvement, no Ds.....
now i counting down days till i finish my clinicals....currently on my 1st week of paediatrics.....the kids are cute....so cute that i wish i have my own some day.....and then week after next 2weeks at cdc and im done, i skate all 2 weeks....and ill be counting down to 12months before i become a full pledged nurse......
im leaving on a JET plane....
no im not going anywhere.....heh....
i have to miss sick of it all, cos it falls on the day im on pm shift.....and its my first week at kkh.....i dunno if i can swop shifts... but anyways im dead broke oredi tis month...so i pass......
then jus now on emteevee.......JET IS PERFOMING AT FORT CANNING THIS JUNE!!!.....damn.....the tix are at 95bucks.....im contemplating....i like jet.....they are like the sembarang band....and they rock all right.....hmmm.....ntah eh..see how la.....
do i have to?
hmm do i have to please everyone everytime? i guess not right? well simply said.....fark off.....i dont need to....
if the kids are united...
nah its not about angelic upstarts.......its about kids....this post is about kids...
why im around so early....well one thing for sure, ever since on clinicals i became a morning person and secondly mommy knocked on my door at 6am, thirdly aku kene kacau semalam, 4thly why im here is bcos i have time to spare and today ill be going to cck pri for health screening....
ok back to the kids....they are cute...so cute some so smart and some so tiny as tall as my belly button that if i swung my tummy they'd fly......LoL....it was fun while it lasted, the rest of the time was spent waiting and made me sleepy while i drool on staff nurse siti who was uber hot.....LoL...nola not really just exaggerating........waiting makes me bored....and the antics of the rest of the staff nurses who were aunties were hilarious......
im down with runny nose....i think my histamine levels escalating....something mustv triggered it.....or is it cos ive weaned myself off the vitamin c....probably....but i doubt so...i just think its cos lack of rest as saturday evening i didnt sleep till sunday 8am.....jus chilling with pals......speaking of pals.....today im going to watch spiderman3(like finally..) with someone who got me hooked on bleach(an anime about soul reapers) which is uber cool i guess cos frankly i never liked anime until this one......hmm i just hope my runny nose would stop cos its damn uncomfortable to watch a movie in this state tapi dah janji kan......next we'll watch pirates of the carribean......ouh wrong, 28weeks later next week.......yeayness seems like ive got a movie buddy.......
cakap pasal kene kacau....well, im not sure wat it is but it was terrifying...i dunno if its only a dream...but i know i was half awake except that i cant move my muscles(ingat aku kene tekan lagik..).....its as if i saw 'heat' above me...u know like those shadows of heat......i dunno wat is it called cos my vocab's pretty limited to medical stuff ever since ive commited to becoming a nurse....but anyway it didnt harm me......probably just a passing thing......or probably im just tired and bothered by my flu that i see things....im not really a brave dude...maybe 50% brave dude.....but i do enjoy scaring my pants off.....kawan2 ive discovered mathilda house at punggol.....nak venture? it sure does look scarry....and the stories behind it....wanna try?....
i miss skateboarding homies.......wens the next skate trip.....well i guess at least 4weeks later cos im tied down with clinicals.....urrrghhh......i wanna surf the concrete ocean......speaking of sports...(is skateboarding a sport?) aku macam motard racer ar ituari.....just becareful ar dudes when riding at the filter towards bbdc......theres this damn spread of grease on the road and my bike power-slid like as if i was a motard racer, except i almost shit in my pants....cos i escaped getting abrasions on my left side, thnks to lucky quick reflex....jus becareful dudes......go slow, go safe.....no need to speed up ur life sentence....hurhurhur......kla nak siap2.....
so long never post
im lazy lah brader.....cant be bothered to post these few days...lots of things happening...and ouh ppl who smokes, pls quit, for ur own good....and the ppl around u...tts all....ive been very tired of many things....gnite....and thank Allah S.W.T for granting me great frens...alhamdullilah....and thank god too for certain happenings....theres hikmah....behind all those....alhamdullilah...
lupa ker?
'hey dude... hows life?? anyway i would like to ask u about someone from ur list of frens.. his nick name is Censored and he's real name is CENSORED.. do u know him?? ermm.. its a long story.. ermm.. i just wanna know whether is this guy attached or something..'
that was wat i got on my frenster msg inbox.......from someone who so long never talk to me and it camed with that smile sent shit thingy....and u know what i replied?
"all i know is he is not married, so ok per...ala i guess girls also behave the same nowadays if u know wat i mean...ive been thru relationships and i know....half the time i came across with girls like that and one was even worse than guys(at least the gusy i know)....just tell ur fren, if she does have a bad feeling with my fren, just find another guy la.....senang, laki2 banyak....buaya pon banyak, kena pandai pilih jer....LoL"
sedap ye kalau kene kan orang...siddiq2 jahat kau....ala tapi dia sendiri mau ingat la...tanya soalan tu kat aku...bodoh..... dulu kau buat apa? tak ingat ker? ker eksyen lupa...bodoh nye pompan....
we skate
we skate...yes we skate......
its been a long time since i hear the pop of my deck......yest i decided to tag along adi, adil and yanto skating.....it was a tough start, the phobia of injury struck me, i dare not pop nor did i dare to do that 180 powerslide turn.....nor that fakie shove it that i use to do.....it was bad.....i was feeling like 'uggh i cant skate no more'.....that was while waiting for yanto to arrive.....i sat and i stood and tried again, it progressed a little......adi told me to plug on to my nofx and i sure can.....something like that la...so i took out shuffle and just pressed play.....and tried again....full concentration.....improved a little......yanto was late cos he was making his way home from work and then to capitol where we were suppose to meet.....so we decided to 'warm up' at the mscp.....aww man.....i was popping again.....although shitty...i actually went off the ground......and i managed a couple of fakie shove it though shitty....
when yanto finally came, we made way to the skatepark.....along the way we stopped at SMU for the steps....they were right, it was like macam in the video game...i meant the setting...coolness, except rather dark.......i watched them, was a little not too confident to try anything.....then adil gave me encouragement as i popped ollies as practise, 'diq, try ollie to step ar, satu jer...' ok, i tried.....yeah man...made it, i know its low but for starters it made me happy......then, looking at them ollie down, made me so itchy that i tried....one step ok, then two....before i completely was confident and good at two, we had to leave cos the security made his appearance.....so we made our way to the skatepark.....skating along the streets in the night where there were few ppl around(its already 2330hrs on a weekday) was really great...felt like the good old days....
at the skate park, many had improvements, though adi had a bad fall.....yanto and adil...had many successful 50-50s and me, a couple shitty failed 50-50 but i still managed to feel the.....'grrrrrrggg' the sound of the trucks meeting the edge...was a great feeling after more than six months.....we then made our way home when the sky started to drip....
the feeling was great.....the sweat, the skating, all lah........today my thighs were sore but i guess i benefited from it......i felt a little stronger on my knees....and the sweat yesterday, if done every week, i guess i can loose a couple of pounds....it benefited me, i enjoyed it, i forgot bout everything else and i had fun......thanks guys.....the week after next yeah....if the time is right.......we'll be surfing the concrete jungle.....
we skate
we skate...yes we skate......
its been a long time since i hear the pop of my deck......yest i decided to tag along adi, adil and yanto skating.....it was a tough start, the phobia of injury struck me, i dare not pop nor did i dare to do that 180 powerslide turn.....nor that fakie shove it that i use to do.....it was bad.....i was feeling like 'uggh i cant skate no more'.....that was while waiting for yanto to arrive.....i sat and i stood and tried again, it progressed a little......adi told me to plug on to my nofx and i sure can.....something like that la...so i took out shuffle and just pressed play.....and tried again....full concentration.....improved a little......yanto was late cos he was making his way home from work and then to capitol where we were suppose to meet.....so we decided to 'warm up' at the mscp.....aww man.....i was popping again.....although shitty...i actually went off the ground......and i managed a couple of fakie shove it though shitty....
when yanto finally came, we made way to the skatepark.....along the way we stopped at SMU for the steps....they were right, it was like macam in the video game...i meant the setting...coolness, except rather dark.......i watched them, was a little not too confident to try anything.....then adil gave me encouragement as i popped ollies as practise, 'diq, try ollie to step ar, satu jer...' ok, i tried.....yeah man...made it, i know its low but for starters it made me happy......then, looking at them ollie down, made me so itchy that i tried....one step ok, then two....before i completely was confident and good at two, we had to leave cos the security made his appearance.....so we made our way to the skatepark.....skating along the streets in the night where there were few ppl around(its already 2330hrs on a weekday) was really great...felt like the good old days....
at the skate park, many had improvements, though adi had a bad fall.....yanto and adil...had many successful 50-50s and me, a couple shitty failed 50-50 but i still managed to feel the.....'grrrrrrggg' the sound of the trucks meeting the edge...was a great feeling after more than six months.....we then made our way home when the sky started to drip....
the feeling was great.....the sweat, the skating, all lah........today my thighs were sore but i guess i benefited from it......i felt a little stronger on my knees....and the sweat yesterday, if done every week, i guess i can loose a couple of pounds....it benefited me, i enjoyed it, i forgot bout everything else and i had fun......thanks guys.....the week after next yeah....if the time is right.......we'll be surfing the concrete jungle.....
pelik tapi benar part2
asal la aku nie asyik terjumper orang2 pelik.....betul tak bohong....nie pelik tapi benar.....
aku takmo elaborate la....tapi pelik.....orang pelik.....aku agak dia ada rosak skit kat atas tu tapi aku takmo serkap jarang pasal kawan baru, blom kenal lanjut pon......
ahhh pedulik ar tu semua, yng penting gua harap nanti petang takmo hujan sua........pasal aku, adisam, adil dan mungkin yanto akan bersukan papan gelunsur.....hahahaha kalau Liyi(dak yng nak step blaja cakap melayu mentang2 bf dia melayu) baca, mesti dia cakap "why u must use chim malay..." padahal bukan 'chim' cuma kau tu cina....hehehehe gi tanya ar bf kau....... kepada seri, sori je, smalam kene study nari last paper....hehehe....sOorRi...hehehe(nak buat style mr.bean tapi kat sini tak kedengaran dong.....
anyway speaking of the last paper....nie subject paling vague dan theory2 yng putar belit cam keling.....health psychology & sociology.....yer2...jng pandang rendang kat nurse2 eh....bnyk tau dipelajari.....bukan senang nak jadi 'misi' kalau nak jadi misai senang la...heheheh
lagi satu hal, on labour day, aku tertipu tipah.....shahreil cakap nak ngok spiderman....tapi sblom dia booking tiket dia babble jangan pandang belakang la jangan main blakang la....apa ntah...aku tengah groggy....tak, mana ada....gila...aku tak buat tu benda semua...im clean...hehehe...anyways, rupanye dia nak bilang nak nengok citer hantu....yng aku nie, sampai la wayang tu start baru aku tau.....hehehe.....anyway ok la filem melayu dah ada improvement in terms of shots dia, dah pandai buat transition, effects...etc.....cuma hantu dia, dia nak buat terlalu seram sampai jadi kelakar.....heheh...anyway thumbs up, kalau melayu tak puji melayu, sapa lagik kan?.......
kla nak mandi.....eh seblom tu bukak pakaian dulu...hehehe......pas tu makan pas tu gi skola menghadapi cabaran terakhir buat semester ini.....doakan gue, semoga sukses.........amin......dan soreh nanti, gleamin' the cube dengan teman2 gue...
'stress ar...' <<<----major understatement
im stressed, tough paper tumoro, its a matter of grades.....
i cant input anymore, so im taking a break.....when the clock strikes midnight, ill turn into a werewolf...not...
when the clock strikes midnight, ill run thru once until my eyes....my eyes says, siddiq u idiot go to sleep moron....then ill sleep wake up at 6am and prepare for doom....
zack, i finally realised it was him under the moustache in the 'deal or no deal' commercial....zack i want ur harley, damn u... better find me a good deal....ure a salesperson after all...hurhurhur......azlan quote "sid nak beli harley cari number plate baik.." who cares about number plates when its a harley with ape hanger handle bars...........kiken sent me a smile.... 'ur photo and caption tickles me..' i replied no worries i dont have white balls....hurhurhur......
aku stress la...dah stengah giler nie.....ada sapa2 yng ada valium tak? ker diazepam ker...apa2 type of sedatives la......urrghhh
and one more thing, i just find out orang 'alim' pon kadang2 get lured by money.....n greed...hurhurhur.....
ouh man i seriously need valium.....jab me doctor......and i dont mean with that.....fist(wat were u guys thinking?)
harley harley harley harley.....sori ruyani, not getting a motard...hurhurhur.....
tremors...nope not parkinsons...
was it the coffee or was it the itch to skate?
i had a break from studying...one of many actually.....and itchy me brewed coffee and turned on my ipod to see rodney mullen and many more skate in the tiny screen......uggh.....in my mind was already thinking of where can i skate on my own in my neighbourhood without ppl looking?.....sheesh....im so itching to skate that i tot tumoro is a good day to start, maybe just cruising around the neighbourhood, ollie kerbs and start where i last stopped, my half cab ollie, 50-50, kick flips and shove its.... damn......so itching but another part of me says no, jog first build up ur leg muscles first loose some pounds then skate... its like one half is a devil, the other is the safe no risk kinda shit.....
now both my legs is like having little shivers, its like the power-lytes have magnets that summons my feet to ride....urrrrghhhh.. now im even thinking which socks to wear......damn.....and which brace to use...damn....ugggh.....i can tell u, once u skate, ull always want to try again once in awhile......its already like a bacterial infection that refuses antibiotics.......uggghhh better sleep away before i go nuts.....
wake up
my fav song at present....so soothing....wake up....and i think armstrong's vocals is pretty sexy....ooouh i sound so gay....
takmo cakap bnyk...
takmo ckp bnyk ar....gua dah pass tu jer....class2 babe....bila mau ride harley atau motard babe....hehehe sblom apa2 ucap dulu alhamdullilah save duit.....dah pass....hehehehehhe....nengok ar tahun depan tukar motor....meanwhile nak start on class 3 yng aku dah tangguh lama.....sblom tu kene blaja dulu...eh salah gi westmall cari bday present mak aku!
3 big events
3 big events 2 days this week.....tumoro my class2 tp, wish me luck guys......friday my 1st paper and the start of a new business. wish me luck 2 more times guys....heh........actually i should say wish me, my mum & my uncle luck, may our business prosper.....insyahAllah......
i look like elton? wtf....
saw this at a fren's blog.....itchy2 wanna try....but ended up a little disappointed.....cos i look like mr gay elton john....hmmpfft!
still in nofx land...
this is why i love them back in my teen days and now still even though i listen to more vast genre of music......they are just rude and straightforward, well ok, im not rude...im a good boy...hurhurhur...anyway enjoy....
my grammar suck...
ok, i read my last entry and boy my grammar's horrible...but who gives a fuck, i cant be bothered to edit though....fat mike doesnt need fantastic grammar to be there....hahahah bodohnye budak sebab tu english kau b3 je..... anyways cant help it but to show the growth in my collection...saje je nak show off....hehehe.....wooohooooo
sore but fucken happy and satisfied....
when in your life would u feel sore but yet happy and satisfied....? hmmmm....if u were at nofx rockin performance just now u would.....i bled, i sweat, and i had sores in my shoulders and neck....and im broke....but its fucken worth it.....i spent 50bucks for the tix, which is way cheaper than some gay boyband performances....i spent 40bucks on TWO nofx tour tees, which is way cheaper than some gay surfer wannabe tees........i strain my neck muscles which ive never experience to this extent even on 69....i bled on my knee....i sweat more than i was totured back in army, my knees were weak, my whole body ache but it was fucken worth it....im 28 soon but who gives a fuck...im having fun without drugs or booze, im still a good boy right? hurhur...
i sang along to familliar tunes that i heard back when i was 14 till my voice went coarse and husky.....i jumped with my knees tucked in and my feet in the air as though i did not have any pain in my knee.......i swirl, turned, tossed like a drunken monkey but it was worth it......cos i was watching NOFX and you wasnt there.....my pals, boy, shahreil and nadzir are witnesses to that fantastic gig too, ask them....its way better than some gay music videos u watch on teevee.......if u wasnt there and u love punk rock, ure one dumb ass ,,,,,,,idiot son of an asshole....hehehe...ouh mind me, that was a song title from one of NOFX's numbers....they rock and i will be there again if they do come back even if im already 40! money well spent just now, best day of my life....so far.... heh!
NoFx are pure natural, funny set of musicians who can pull it off and make the crowd go wild, they dont need no fancy smancy suits or nice hairdos or designer jeans....they were there in tees and berms.....and they still rock, two of them are fat and not good looking but the fans fucken love them......who needs looks when u can joke, rock like NOFX.....
im tired to explain further, if u love Nofx and u weren't there its like giving a one night stand a pass....i think that pretty much describe it.
thnks nadzir for the info first hand, thnks str8's records for posting that bulletin that tickets are out, thnks to the hongkees who bring them on the tour....and thanks nursing for providing me with allowances to feed my nonsense.....hurhur....good night.....i was a happy kid again....or should i say always?
hehehe thai song....
okok.....the pt with schizo n depression can only talk to me without being violent.....okok so the staff nurses say im his best fren....its the approach dah....u appear fearful of him, once u have this tiny bit of...."ishk orang giler..." they can see thru u man.. can u imagine on wednesday night he can say "tumoro u morning shift ar?" i was like, how do u know......he simply answered "i know la u look hardworking..." LoL.....probably just good guess....this morning when i came to work, they said he went amok and threw chairs and stuffs that they have to restrain him......i know whats the problem, look at how they handle these ppl la... wah lau, from ur look, even the blind can sense fear and those "eee orang giler..." kinda thought, u have to treat them like a friend, be one of them, well, not literally of course......and they'll be fine.....i even asked him what languages he can speak cos i overheard him cursing in english, mandarin, hokkien, malay, tamil.....serious no joke.....and i overheard he told someone he knows a little thai....so itchy me and the mischievious side of me............asked him, "hey how to say i love u in thai? i want to say to this girl la...." heheheheh.....then he paused for awhile as though in deep thought......and soon he sang....hehehe...in thai of course.....i asked him, whats that...."thai love song la!"....LoL......
too fast
like the girth of my abdoment whenever im back to school, my starwars collection is growing too fast, im spending like 55bucks in 2days for 3clone troopers and 1 AT-AT driver...gosh im nuts....with that, ive come to a conclusion to let go my older collections, like the kiss series 2 collection.....im not looking to make, just to sell off to make way for starwars....LoL...have to concentrate on one right.....but well, i cant bear to sell off my he-man, silver-hawk, ghostbusters, starcom, ninja-turtles, thundercats.....these i cant bare to let go, too classic...too many memories.....hehehe.....id want to show off to my kids what daddy had when he was a boy or never had...heh......
hehehe showoff...
sajer nak eksyen, here's my current 19carded strong star wars action figures collection...harharhar....and shahreil we'll have a duel someday when i get that darth vader light saber.....
im a trooper, are u?
heheh i own one of the rarities.....sandtrooper at mere 10bucks.....wooohooo, just collected it just now....drool dudes...drool!
then up next in the list to be collected this week are.....
and all of the above cost me 51bucks....damn me......hehehe cant help it la...was too tempting...not to mention, ive still got 2 more auctions waiting to end that cost 26bucks...ok thats enough for this month...LoL.....its eating away holes in my pockets...
pelik tapi benar....
i think ar, ure full of bullshit....but who cares.....
anyways, its been quite sometime since i had weird dreams.....tts sometimes wierdly enough, reappear in reality.....
ok i cant remember clearly but here's how it roughly went......
mom had a restaurant....uber cool...alhamdullilah if it happens in reality.....i was done helping mom, i took my skateboard and left, i was in the uncoolest outfit ever, tight jeans and long sleeves, i mean wat was i thinking man....i didnt see myself but my legs were alot smaller, probably i lost weight....HARHARHAR.....ok so, i was skating with a couple of frens....then alamak, i tore my jeans.....so i wanted to loan something to wear from, fahmie, my sec school pal......we skated, crossed a street and took a super cool train macam mrt, except no seats....then the cool thing is this train stops just infront of his block, disembark and its already at his lift landing....so, its in the future i presume.....along the way, theres this cute chick...super sexy but carrying kids.... MILF.....hahahaha, but i guess she was fahmie's wife....i cant recall the conversations but somehow i ended up wearing a green basketball jersey bearing numbers which i cant recall again, i then skated again....before i finally was awaken by the star wars midi on my alarm....teeheee....weird but cool dream....macam ala 'back to the future' and 'gleamin' the cube'
ouh adisam, i really wanna skate.....ill give u a ring someday...aight?
kembang...
hari nie gue paling kembang skalik.........aku datang keje je, pompan cina tu bilang aku, "eh u got compliment u know..." aku pon tanya, sapa? patient mana? dia tak tau.....okla buat bodoh je la...aku carry on la as per normal, skali sister ho tegur aku "siddiq, u recieve a compliment from a patient last week, keep up the good work and that same patient also complained, bla, bla" ada la, bila dia admitted kawan2 kiter kat admission tu tak taruk dia on red tag pasal dia ada drug allergy, sapa tak bingit, kalau kene drug salah, dah member tu kene anaphylactic shock.....anyways....it didnt stop there....aku pon cakap la thnks kat sister ho, pas tu carry on la keje cam biasa.....pas tu jeane, HCA pon sama, "siddiq, u get compliment u know....." wah mengembang2 aku nie....hahaha dah gitu takper 2pm standard, mass pass report time....sister hamidah pulak announce.... kat khalayak ramai......gua blush ar gua agak, dah gitu takper yng buat tak sedap dia gi kata...."if a student can do it, be attentive to the patients, i think u all staff nurses and ANs can also do it......" alamak....nie yng tak sedap....ah gitu takper la, gua pon eksyen tak dengar, carry on la cam biasa....bz....skali ada sister besar nie turun.....bilang aku to keep up the good work....hehe biasa ar gua punyer reaksi, tersenyum, tapi gua bilang, "ouh i didnt do anything much..." dia jawab, "ya u might thing u didnt do anything much but many people might be looking and watching, thats why u got commended" gua senyum jer ar....takper la gua nie dah kembang giler nie, campur malu pon ada......sister hamidah plak datang....."siddiq, u know uve been commended? i hope u will keep this up and not only now as a junior.." aku pon angguk la.....hehehehe.....u know, these kind of compliments make me love my job, makes working less work...u know what i mean.....my secret, when really it comes to caring, treating for patients, i treat them like my own grandpa, my own uncle, my own fren.....thats how....yah no doubt i laugh along them and sometimes cant help it when they act funny...im just mere human....LoL.....anyways im loving my job.......the last person that made my day today, was that apek.....when he gave me a thumbs up for helping him out......it was a great day....better than sex.. oops id take that back.....LoL.....
lucky
felt like going out just now after i washed carmella and boba clean and getting some hardware from the store.....was going queensway but then i decide to stay home and go later instead, maybe in the afternoon....wah lucky me, as i was lazing around at home, it poured damn heavily.....LoL...lucky, lucky.....so ill go tumoro and make sure be home before it pours again....hehehe IF la kalau tak malas kan...n probably to my fav store too, to grab some more figurines......heheheh....
somewhere last week somehow i thought of not switching bikes so soon....mebbe ill ride boba for a lil bit longer....maybe until i completed my bond...or something...mebbe ill save up for that harley and pay in cash rather than utang....hehehe see how la.. ouh by the way still havent decided whether that supermotard or the sporster....hmmmph....kla sleepy oredi.....nytes...
