wakey2, smell the poppy...hahah i wish

wakey2 sid.....welcome back to reality.....was asleep early so here i am up still dark, cold and eerie....

sid2.....u do ur work halfway, u get tired, u doze off and now u wake up, ull be sleepy later man...u need to last from 9-6pm....tts like 9hours....of absorption...
gotta sleep somemore....just gotta...

anyways, reality is pretty harsh at times when it hits u in the face, direct, probably above the speed limit....wham!...ya ure right, u dunno wat the hell im talking bout here....

last weeks game of tennis was a real destresser.....the 1hour or so, i was whacking the ball as if i had super strength power, i just whacked....it went out sometimes and sideways but the feel of whacking the ball....the sound of it, the look of the ball whoosh across the court and hitting the ground furiously or at the fence(hahah)
really fed my frustations, my anger, my confusions.....BUT it kinda worn off my knees, i was so dead worn out tt saturday n jus now, i felt the strain as i climbed the stairs....with my weak knee totally gone(in case u dunno i had 3 sugeries on my left knee before and it doesnt help one bit)and i basically worn out my calf n thigh muscles and thus i was like as good as a cripple....i feel sad, a little cos i know i cant skate anymore cos it will jus worsen my condition and wats gotten to me more, in my old age....will i be independent? i want to and i dont want a walking stick... i think after working a couple of years i wanna go for another sugery, a good one at the sports hospital i read about....i guess they'd do a better job than the one tt was paid for totally. ill fork out a couple of Ks for that, wouldnt mind if it means id be independent in my old age......

another worrying thing is athritis.......we learn about it last week thru a group presentation.....i hope it doesnt affect me too....im trying to study more about it and how to prevent it and trying to stop my bad habit of cracking my fingers cos itll wear out the tiny2 ligaments in there.....i hope whoever read this, do take care of ur health too.....find out ways to prevent stuffs tt might happen in ur old age....me, im just preparing myself, cos the figures kinda worry me a little and ouh a disclaimer....athritis doesnt really affect only the old....many ppl tot so, so now u know....:)

im trying to live day by day as it is, try not to stress myself out unneccessarily, like i just now, i could just sit for an hour or so and stare at the beatiful sky and the cable cars.....hehehe....if the fees for a ride wasnt ex, id love to go for a ride.....bt then again no need to waste money....the hills would do...i dunno, i just love heights....it gives u a beautiful view from the top, it gives u a bigger picture of everything.......

i think i gotta start editing on last nights work, print it out and taddaaa...few more hours of sleep before i head to school to revise on bio......gnite frens or should i say gd morning?....